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2004 18 September :: 12.43 am
Mitch...ahhhhhhhh!!!! Tomorrow better be good! I swear to god I'll tear someone's balls off.
~jess
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2004 17 September :: 5.39 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Rascal Flats-Feels like Today
Holy Moses I was really tiered today. I swear I could not keep my eyes open. I looked like friecken bozo the clown. My hair was so damn poofy. *shakes fist* grrr. So I thought I was going to be nice today, nope...once again the bitchy mood set it. I'm just glad lol that Kate was too cos then we can bitch together.
I'm really sick of hearing the same things all over again. You just don't listen. I do. I listen to you, listen to me. I need you now more than ever.
So we we're going to go to the football game b/c we got work off Thank you God! I could not handle looking at corn for 5 hours again. And sitting on a hard ass stole or standing for that amount of time. I would have just jumped on the convaer belt and died. But now we don't wanna go. lol we're too lazy.
So later after the game Mitch and Jon are coming over and we're watching the exorsist. It better be fun or I'm going to rip off their nuts! grrr *prepares myself to detach nuts* REally who even says that? Hmm im stupid. oh well.
~jess
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2004 16 September :: 9.31 pm
Today, like yesterday sucked. I was still in a really bitchy mood, for many reasons. You know, just sometimes you have those days where you're like get the fuck outta my way and leave me the hell alone kinda days. Worked for along time and I swear I hate corn, and the few seconds on the way home what do we see? more stinkin corn. I just wanted to shoot myself right in the fucking head. I hateeeeeee corn!!! Then we went home and I studied for Anatomy and fell asleep, and now im back up again..and about to fall asleep. Grrr...I'm just a bitch today. Sorry ya'll.
Good news, me and kate have tomorrow off! yay! go us! So we get to go to the game. But sat. we work again. :( *grawls*Oh -well.
I need sleep.
~jess
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2004 15 September :: 10.17 pm
I feel like I can finally start to breathe again...I just hope it only stays that way from here on out.
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2004 15 September :: 6.57 pm
Today was such a shitty day. Me and Katie were the biggest bitches, strangly on the same day. I swear if you even walked next to me and rubbed shoulders or were walking slower that me in front of me I wanted to kill you! Horrible huh? Yeah, I know.
Then we really didn't want to go to work for 5 hours from 3 till 8, rush home after misssing my show and do homework and go right to bed, and WORK BLOWS!!!! We watch corn go by AGAIN!!! I swear to god I hate corn and the SECOND i turn 16 I'm getting a real job and never having anything to do with corn EVER EVER AGAIN! But we got to go home earlie so now me and kate are in a GREAT!!! mood! And one tree hill is gonna start soon so i gotta fly
leave me a comment or ILL NEVER SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN
jk heh :)
~jess
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2004 15 September :: 9.16 am
So I really hate Mrs. Crowley. Shes kinda a umm..bitch Yupp, sure do. She took Katie's phone away when we went INTO the bathroom , INBETWEEN Classes, because it as important. About work, calling a boss! WOOO BIG Friecken woopdy doo! Give me a break and get a grip on your life. lol for crying out loud. If phones are now a loud in school, yeah you shouldn't have them on in class, but if you HAVE to make a phone call why in the world would you go to the office pay moeny, or to the payphone and pay moeny, when you have your own damn phone?
Grrr...yeah so I woke up really later today, again. Washed my hair, blew dry it half way, threw on some make up, got dressed and my kahki's were all wrinkly. So I yell up the stairs "Kate, can you come here" "Do you guys have an iron I can use?" lol and she says " ...*strange look* ...what's an iron?" lol it made my day. Lol. So I just finished getting ready on the way to school and look like crap but oh well.
I have to work 3-8 today and I'm going to miss one tree hill :( im so pissed i dont want to work but its moeny!
Happy Birthday Dan!! Mr. Boom Boom is finally legal! I love you!!!
back to anatomy
~jess
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2004 14 September :: 8.57 pm
My mom came to get me to go talk, and I have never yelled, screamed, cried in my entire life and I hope I never do that again because I have never wanted to die more so than that moment in the car with her ever in my life. Not a hug, not a kiss, nothing. Just more things to make this very reason for why I am living with Kate and why I hate my life and who I am even more than what it already is. Things were just getting off my mind, just starting to be pushed aside until I found some way to deal with it and then that happens and I just am so dazed and confused. I have never been so hurt and angry in my entire life. I'm trying to hold it all in, untill the right time, where I'm fully capable of dealing with the situation without making it worse and there just is no way. It's on my mind day in and day out, every second. I can't forget it, because it's been my life for the past 15 years. My family for the past 15 years. And even though it's been torn apart many times before, never like this. I feel lost, and empty, and so sad to think...my family is..in my mind gone. The only thing I have is the e-mails my mom sends me ..that's nothing. I just ughh dont know what to do because I can't forgive and forget right now...i can't. As much as I want to just hug and kiss my mom and dad and tell them i love them...I just have to accept it wont be that way again for a long time, and it breaks my heart and tears it in two that it even has to be like that. I just hope one day that it'll be okay again. Otherwise I'll continue to feel empty and as shitty and un-loved as i do right now. Of course my friends love me but it's just not the same as your mom and dad. It's just not. *sigh* akdjfajldkf;jalkdfjalkdjf;alksjdfalkjdf
I feel so useless, and I just need someone to hug me everyday and tell me they love me , something...or I dunno I'm just going to lose it all.
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2004 14 September :: 1.03 pm
Yay I have a job again! 300 dollars a week! and Kate is gonna work with me! wooty toot toot!
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2004 13 September :: 10.14 pm
What the hell is that? Are you kidding me. Well hmm telling me she said that really makes me feel great. Just perfect! Wow I really hate you sometimes.
Grr..you stupid butt hole.
Mr. McDonald is cool and all, but how the hell does he expect us to memorize 35 friecken vocab words, and where they are located in the body system when he tells us the day ahead of time? Are you kidding me? Wow, get a grip on your life :) lmao.
Wow I really want to kill someone this very second. It could be
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Yupp, I feel like shit.
grrr
I need a fucking hug.
night
~jess
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2004 13 September :: 4.59 pm
:: Mood: thankful
:: Music: Martina McBride-How far
There's a boat, I could sail away
There's the sky, I could catch a plane
There's a train, there's the tracks
I could leave and I could choose to not come back
Oh never come back
There you are, giving up the fight
Here I am begging you to try
Talk to me, let me in
But you just put your wall back up again
Oh when's it gonna end
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
There's a chance I could change my mind
But I won't, not till you decide
What you want, what you need
Do you even care if I stay or leave
Oh, what's it gonna be
Out of this chair, or just across the room
Halfway down the block or halfway to the moon
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say
YeahI'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
As happy as it makes me that I have this, the things you've said to me in the past few days, and what you've done..have made me feel like such a terriable person who's incapable of being loved. Then I realize you're just a bitch, and I *am* a nice girl, I am fun to be around, and I am sweet, and you can just save it because I don't need to listen to your crap.
School was better today. I was in a real giggly mood most of the time. Gotta lov that.
It makes me happy that you're a cool kid now. Real happy.
~jess
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2004 12 September :: 7.18 pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: Mandy Moore-Candy teehee
"I can't believe I'm listening to Mandy Moore"
Me and Kate went out last night. Went to barker's and Howard City. Fun night.
Went for a run today. Lol ..nice.
~Jess
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2004 11 September :: 6.39 pm
Let's Just Say That I Got Bored | Created by RaiyneDevil and taken 38 times on bzoink! | | About You... | | Name | Jess | | Birthday | November 11 | | Hair Color | Red | | Eye Color | Blue | | Height | 5'4 | | Favorites... | | Color | Aqua | | Type of Music | Rap | | Movie | How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days | | Band | Rascal Flats | | Singer | Ryan Cabrera | | Actor | Ben Affleck | | Food | Grapes | | Drink | Apple Juice | | Animal | Panda | | This or That... | | cuddle or kiss? | Cuddle | | punk or metal? | punk | | music or movies? | both | | love or hate? | love | | aim or msn? | msn | | boys or girls? | boys | | Friends... | | Who are your best friends? | Kate, Jess, Dan,Cass,Linds, Shea, Erika, Jenna | | Loudest friend: | Linds | | Funniest friend: | Jess | | Drunkest friend: | Kate | | Kindest friend: | Kate and Jess | | Friend you've known the longest: | Jess | | Miss any old friends? | Andy | | Have you ever... | | been in love? | nope | | been dumped? | yupp | | got drunk? | yupp | | smoked? | yupp | | been arrested? | nope | | cried over a guy/girl? | yupp | | been so drunk you threw up? | yupp | | broken a bone? | nope | | Your Significant Other (skip if you're single)... | | What's their name? | | | How did you meet? | | | How long have you been dating? | | | When's your anniversary? | | | Their best physical feature: | | | Their best mental feature: | | | Would you change anything about them? | | | Have they said they loved you? | | | Do you love them? | | | One person that you... | | love: | ryan cabrera | | hate: | bah | | trust: | kate | | distrust: | brianna | | feel sorry for: | - | | want to get to know better: | justin | | want to see right now: | dunno | | are talking to right now: | dan | | Random Stuff... | | What would you like to change about yourself? | my ears | | If you won the lottery, what would you spend the money on? | clothes | | Where would you like to go on vacation to? | hawaii or new york | | Have any piercing? If not, want one? If yes, want more? | yes, and yes | | Have any tattoos? Want one? Want more? | no, but i want a star on my hip or lower back | | What time is it? | 6:38 | | Final word: | wierd lol | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
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2004 11 September :: 11.26 am
Pancakes yumm! :)
Me and Kate rented Jersey Girl last night it was so cute. I love Ben Affleck and he's so adoreable when he cries.
Ahh *sigh* I just don't know what the hell to do.
"Are you falling asleep?"
"....no....*snore"
We're gonna go wash some car woot woot!
~Jess
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2004 10 September :: 5.25 pm
Well that really sucks. I am clueless as to what I'm going to do now or what to do, or where to go. I don't know...I'm pretty much screwed. The only good side I see to it is that maybe I can actually see a normal side and happy side to myself not being around that anymore. Ahhh I don't know what I'm going to do.
I don't know what I would do without Kate. I love her. :) *Smiles.
First week of school down, went better than I thought. I love being able to leave and not sit in the lunchroom with a bunch of gay people. I loveeee that!
Mrs. Babbit talks so long grr it bugs me. Oh-well it keeps her from giving us work.
I'm thinking about switching out of yearbook I'm not liking it so much. It's kinda boring so far. But I'm sure it'll get better. And it's a little too late to switch out anyhow. I got good spreads though Prom, Homecoming, Junior, and Choir. Happy bought that one. Yay!
Yeah so Kate made a new ring tone for me on my phone lol I love it! Damn her she figured it out before I can figure anyting out on my phone.
Gonna go play casino woot woot!
~Jess
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