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2004 8 August :: 10.37 am
anyone wanna go shopping today, call me later purtty please woodland has a big sale and i need to shop!! :):):)
last night was wierd....no fun
except seeing shannon
jess
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2004 7 August :: 8.34 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
This is exactly what im fucking talking about!!
YOU DO STUPID SHIT AND SAY STUPID CRAP WHEN YOURE ALL ANGRY AND IT ISNT TILL AFTERWARDS WHEN YOU REALIZE THAT YOU MADE IT WORSE THAN WHAT IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN!!!!!!
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this is so fucking stupid that it isn't even worth my fucking time, it's the last fucking thing i need. so forget that bs.
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2004 7 August :: 10.38 am
Smartest: | jess, andy, logan, angeeh | Dumbest: | no one | Funniest: | will and jess | Morst Boring: | none | Most Popular: | Andy | Quiestest: | Cass | Loudest: | Linds | Laid Back: | Mike | Outgoing: | Jess | Sweetest: | Jenna, Erika, Becky, Cassie, Shannon | Evilest: | Jess...no one else breaks my nose on an arm rest and tells me shes going to get a bird feeder | Prettiest: | all of them are, but I'd have to say jess and cass are high up there | Ugliest: | none of my friends are ugly | Best Parents: | heather helbling's mom i love her, and jess's parents are like my second ones i love them too | Worst Parents: | no comment | Best Dressed: | jess or erika | Worst Dressed: | dunno | Biggest Pothead: | i dont have any pot head friends | Prep: | andy | Goth: | dunno | Punk: | dunno | Geek: | dunno | Most Annoying: | ------- | Most Loveable: | all my friends are | Sexiest: | mike | Hotest: | mike | Loves Money: | andy | Most Depressed: | ? | Wants a Cow: | devon!! | Knows everything about you: | jess | Wants to know everything about you: | you tell me | Has the most siblings: | jessi guess | Best Eyes: | jess has these pretty blue bright eyes, and dan has these beatiful brown eyes ahh...i love them both | Best Smile: | jess and cassie for sure | Follows You: | no one | You Follow: | no one | Ignores you: | ...hmm...dunno | Lies: | she knows who | Honest: | taryn | Most Kinky: | - - - - - | Most Self Centered: | ehhh - - - - - | Most Giving: | all my friends | Most Caring: | all my friends | Richest: | doesn't matter | Poorest: | doesn't matter | Biggest Ego: | andy | Smallest Ego: | dunno | Smallest House: | doens't matter | Biggest House: | jess | Lowest Self Esteem: | thats a mean question | Most Confidence: | andy | Flirtiest: | katie | Hits on your Girlfriend/Boyfriend: | dont have one, so no one | Watches cartoons too much: | no one | Most Hated: | no one | Most Loved: | all my friends | Hates People: | i dunno..me and jess hate ppl a lot when they annoy su | Would go goth: | would what? | Most Obessive: | bbbbbb | Corniest: | lol i love corny people it's better than mean | Tallest: | mike | Shortest: | jess and eirka | Nicest: | jess, cass, shea, jenna, eirka, becky, | Meanest: | dunno | Deepest [thinker]: | adrian | Shallow: | andy | Best for Advice: | taryn | Worst for Advice: | not sure | One you'd date: | mike | One you'd screw: | i wouldn't | Known the longest: | jess | Met most recently: | umm...dan i supose? even though i met him before school ended.. | Worst Taste in Music: | mike...techno...grrr | Best Taste in Music: | jess | Worst taste in Clothes: | lol i dunno | Worst Taste in Clothes: | im assuming that is supose to be best taste in clothes, so probably patty | One you couldn't live without: | jess | One you could do without: | him and her | Clumsiest: | linds | Most Prude: | not sure | Most Perfect: | jess | Most Slutty: | ehh... | The Badass: | umm...hmm...dunno | Best Personality: | all my friends, that's why their my friends | Worst Personality: | no one | Most Talented: | jess | Would Die for: | jess | Would Let Die: | i dont think i have friends like that, but there is an enemie | Can always suprise you: | jess | Most Mysterious: | mike | Gives you the Lamest Gifts: | that's mean | Seeks Attention: | devon | Most Guts: | katie | Want to be Closer With: | mike | Starts Arguments: | no one really | Solves Them: | jess | Goes to You for Advice: | shea, cass, jess | Bitchiest: | linds when she doesn't get her sleep | Most Fememine: | kate | Most Masculine: | andy | Blondest: | linds | Most Creative: | jess | Most Musical: | jess | The Pimp: | katie | The Whore: | Jess, but she's not really a whore, just a joke | Hurts you the Most: | him | Loves you the Most: | Jess | Best Student: | Jess and Andy | Worst Student: | will | Would Like to Take it to the Next Level With: | mike | Most Annoying: | haha listen to the next few | Drama Queen: | brianna, but we aren't really friends | Most Immature: | will | Most Mature: | taryn | Most Talkative: | jess | Most Athletic: | devon | Most Snobby: | ehh.. | Most Original: | danielle | Would Change for You: | i wouldn't | You've Kissed: | honestly...who kisses and tells to just anyone | You want to Kiss: | no more kissing just messes things up | Can Trust with Deepest Secrets: | Jess, Cass | Can always Cheer you Up: | Will, Jess, Dan | Can Always Bring you Down: | Will | One you love the Most: | Jess | Gayest One: | Andy | Nicest Hair: | Jess | Crys the Most: | me and jess | Eats the Most: | me and jess together | Homophobic One: | Jimmy | Best Body: | i dunno | Most Likely to Get Drunk and Bang Someone: | Kati'es | One who can Party the Most: | Katie's | Best Listener: | Jess | Unique: | Danielle, Jess, | Neediest: | Jess, she's need the strokin~ ;) haha | Motivated: | Shannon, Jess | Innocent: | Cass | Guilty: | what do you mean guilty? | Spoiled: | Lol Kate isn't spoiled but her mom makes her a late night snack, and she has a stick!! lol c'mon |
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2004 6 August :: 10.32 pm
What is your favorite.. | gum: | orbit, speriment | restaurant: | olga's kitchen | drink: | orange juice | season: | summer | type of weather: | warm | emotion: | happiness, excitment | thing to do on a half day: | go shopping with friends, or go tubing with friends during the winter :) | late-night activity: | star gazing | sport: | basketball | city: | new york city | store: | american eagle | When was the last time you.. | cried: | when i saw my grandpa today | played a sport: | three days ago, basketball | laughed: | today | hugged someone: | today | kissed someone: | few days | felt depressed: | this week | felt elated: | not for a while | felt overworked: | this week | faked sick: | sometime during school | lied: | today | What was the last.. | word you said: | retarded | thing you ate: | banna bread | song you listened to: | Martina McBride-How Far | thing you drank: | Water | place you went to: | hospital | movie you saw: | dont remember, oh far. 911 w/ jess | movie you rented: | 50 first dates on paperview | concert you attended: | haha the only concert I've attended was Oliva Newton John , and it was only because my sister was supose to take my dad for his birthday, then she got sick and backed out | Who was the last person you.. | hugged: | Danielle Millering | cried over: | My Grandpa | kissed: | i hate people who kiss and tell... | danced with: | Jess | shared a secret with: | Cassie | had a sleepover with: | Jenna and Kourtney | called: | Dan | went to a movie with: | Jess | saw: | Dan technically..not including work | were angry with: | my mom | couldn't take your eyes off of: | haha wouldn't you like to know.. | obsessed over: | Kenny Chesney | Have you ever.. | danced in the rain: | yes, it was fun | kissed someone: | yes | done drugs: | no | drank alcohol: | yes | slept around: | no! | partied 'til the sun came up: | yes | had a movie marathon: | no | gone too far on a dare: | yes | spun until you were immensely dizzy: | yes | taken a survey quite like this before: | yes |
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2004 6 August :: 9.27 pm
ughh what are you doing?? aren't you being a little tad bit hypocritical..ughh I hate when
you pull this stuff. Just back off, leave him alone. What is the point?? Like what are you
really expecting to happen, anything good?? It's just going to bad, and you know it too. You just don't want to accept it.
I'm so exhausted.
All the stores at Woodland are having a big sale on Sunday, and I got my paycheck today, so im going to go shopping. hopefully. that always cheers me up.
you're girlfriends bi-sexual,...wait you have a girlfriend??? I don't know ...I really am not intrested in you at all like that...which probably doesn't make sense...under the circumstances.. but I dont want anything at all, and I've never thought of you like that...ever....but if you have a girlfriend...why'd you make a move? ahhh you boys get more and more fucking retarded every day. You have something great, and even when you know that there isn't anything else you can have, you try to go after it anyway and just fuck things up and dont care till it's too late, then total deny it being your fault! I TOLD YOU no, and you still didn't listen. This is your fault...and I can't help you. I warned you. I even asked you not to try anything dumb, in regards to what happened last time.
There's this really sweet, nice ...adoreable guy in our grade this year named Landon. He seems like a really down to earth kinda guy...aww...that wont last too long after meeting stupid people at cedar....*shakes head* Cedar is so dumb...no offense...i love most o foyu, but some of you...are just stupid. oh well, what can ya do.
Thanks to all the people who came to see me this week. Jess, twice. Josh, Tony, Jeff, Katie, Dan, Shannon. I love you guys! and it meant a lot, kept my mind off a lot of things. I don't know what I would do without you guys!
I need to talk to Dan and vent..grrr...
I need to go sleep im sooooo fucking tiered. but no..i can't. why, don't ask.
jess
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2004 6 August :: 5.51 pm
:: Mood: loved
Well...I've been on a Dawson's Creek marathon for about two months now. Watching every episode from the begging, although I'd seen a lot of them, never saw the ending ones. Today I did, and I haven't cried so hard in a long time.
It's funny, because you lose yourself in tv, and it sounds dumb, but it's not...because it's life, and you do lose yourself in it. We spend our whole lifes just living just to see how it's supose to be, and ...it's so much more than what we think, ever.
Anyhoo, forget Dawson's Creek for a second lol.
I didn't want to go to work today, like always. Kourt and her mom picked me up, and we got there and yeah, I just felt like leaving.
Turned out to be a good day though. Sorta..you'd think that friends could just be good friends without anything else. adfj;askjd
So I got out of work today, went to the bank, cashed my check, then went tanning, and yeah, stupid lady there totally screwed me over. She messed up the booth, so I got in and it only had like two minutes left, and then they woudln't let me do the ten minutes I was supose too because "It's the federal law" psh! Federal Law my ass! Big woopdy doo. So I wasted so much lotion and 15 minutes of my day...lol for nothing!!! I was so heated. grrr...dumb lady!
Got home took a shower, watched Dawson's Creek, and now I have to go visit my Grandpa then babysit.
lov ya
Jess
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2004 6 August :: 6.12 am
ahahaha......im so tiered do you want to know what I did?!?! WHAT I FUCKING DID!!! Yeah, so for like the second time this month, I was not paying attention in the shower and put body wash in my hair.
I'm stupid.
I'm so effing tiered. And I most certianly DO NOT want to fucking go to work today! I HATE GOING TO THAT STUPID FUCKING PLACE! I hate it , I hate it, I hate it. I just don't want to be someplace like that, were you are restricted to a small area while you're in a bitchy mood, and have a lot on your mind. That's just asking for problems.
UGHHH IM GOING TO FUCKING SERIOUSLY HAVE LIKE A BREAK DOWN! I can't remember the day, the wekk, the dat,e I can't type correctly dfkajsdfkjalkdfjalk;dfjlkjdf omg.. pepper, my dog just flew into the door, haha ok i gotta go
somebody else can pray for me, im all prayed out. thanx , so much...THANK YOU!!
ugh i hope i pass out on the tractor today, fall off, and get run over, and rushed to the hospital...ahh NO MORE fucking work, or changing diapers, or trying to feed a baby food who doesn't want to be fed, or i could sleep alld ay, whenever im tiered, no babies getting into everything, running aroung with brazeers hanging out of their pants...
AHHH JUST FUCKING SHOOT ME RIGHT IN THE DAMN HEAD!..no, not really...
off to work....joy....
jess
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2004 5 August :: 10.00 pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Maria Mena-You're the only one
I'm so tiered, and not thinking straight, that I honestly could not remeber what doay was, or the date. bah...im deprieved from sleep, the more that's on my mind, no matter how tiered i am, the less sleep i can get.
babysat paige, dan came over, took a nap for like a half an hour, got up showered, went to the hospital with my uncle jim, bought big teddy bear ballons, a teddy bear, and fake flowers, got to the hospital, stayed there a while, went tanning, got groceries for everyone, came home, and now i have to go to work tomorrow...then babysit the rest of the night
*sigh*
prayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
Jess
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2004 5 August :: 1.55 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Rascal Flats-While you loved me
Hmm...well that wasn't was I was expecting. Oh-well, I guess my devotion isn't worth it. Maybe my will and pride are too much, and im not worth it. who knows, but although it strikes the curiousty, it doesn't matter because i know what's still left. Which could be better than what I think I wanted to find.
Anyhow I confide and trust you, and love you for being there for me.
Enough said.
So I'm babysitting tonight till 10 then when my mom brings everyone home from the hospital, I'm going back up there with her, and we are staying over night, then I'm going to work tomorrow ....does that even make sense? grr
My Chapter One, begins with you.
Pray
Jess
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2004 5 August :: 9.25 am
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Rascal Flats-Praying for daylight
Seems like the days are ok, and it's the night times when everyone gets home that gets me all...nerve shooken. It's always the nights that are bad, rather than the day.
I didn't get any good sleep last night at all. I woke up every like hour and a half. Besides the fact that we had people coming in and out of the house at all hours of the night, that didn't help either. Oh-well, what can ya do.
Thank God for woohu, I don't know what I would do without it.
Don't make me spend another loenly night, praying for daylight. So I don't have to act like my whole world is going wrong.
Keep my mind off of it...please
*pray*
Jess
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2004 4 August :: 10.50 pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: Maria Mena-Sorry
Last night Jess came over and we got ice cream.
Today, I got up earlie took a shower, then everyone went up to the hospital and I was at home to watch Paige.
Had a vistor. :)
Then Jeff came over. Things are good.
These are the kinda things I need right now. No attachments, no strings, just...people to hug and to hold.
All I need is people who really care about me, good friends, and that's exactlly what I have to keep my mind off everything. I love all of you soooo much and thank you fro coming over and seeing me all of you!! It's so nice, and I appreciate it so much!
Jess came over later. We turned on the rap music and Paige danced with us. Then we baked brownies, lol didn't turn out to yummy and then Jess just left. I don't know what I would do without her. It's so nice that my family actually knows her too, like my Grandma remembers her from when she was little. She's my best friend and the only person who understands me like I understand myself. Thank you so much for being here for me lately Jess, it means a lot. I love you.
Then I got a collect call..and accepted I'm so fucking stupid!!! It's unrealy! As soon as I heard you say your name, my heart just dropped into my stomach, and all these feelings came rushing back of hate, and anger, and sadness, just bad bad memories, and im not sorry that you are where you are and you cant be here to really know everything going on becaues it's YOUR fault you're there, NO ONE ELSES! not mine, and im tiered for blaming myself, or feeling sorry that maybe it is my fault. Because it's not, and the only thing I feel sorry for you about is how low you are, and I pitty you!
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It's *SOOO* fucking nice not having to work, although I wont be getting paid, and if none of this was going on I wouldn't have to worry about it. But I do, and I'm just making the best of it. tomorrow I have to babysit too. Then after everyone gets home I'm going to see him at like 9, and staying over night at the hospital. So I'm happy I get to see him...sort of..yeah.
*pray*
Jess
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2004 4 August :: 6.39 pm
ahhhh!!!!
He's a good kisser.
umm...should I tell them or should I leave it a secret...since i do feel kinda bad..but why should I because...umm...technically im not dating either of them..
jess is coming over so i can vent and watch scary movie 3, so gotta go
thanx dan...grrr...you need to call me 696-0738 today
jess
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2004 4 August :: 2.40 pm
Survey from Kevin
The Ultimate Kissing Survey
Age of first kiss: 13
Number of people you've kissed: I can count them on both hands, im no whore thank you very much.
French kissing is: most of the time gross because most people just are slobbering all over you, or they have no idea what they are doing
The worst kind of kiss is: the ones where you have to whipe your face off afterwards
The best kisser you know: sadly..i can't believe it's him, but it's a good thing I don't kiss and tell
The worst kisser you know: Billy the fireman haha
The celebrity you'd like to kiss: Justin Timberlake
Friend you would like to kiss or kiss again: Dan
Favorite movie kiss: How to lose a guy in ten days
Do you kiss on the first date?Depends
Eyes open or closed? closed
Average number of kisses you get a day: one
Ever kissed a friend's boyfriend or girlfriend? yupp
The last person you kissed: My mom and dad
Best placed to be kissed: outside under the stars
Have you kissed someone of the same sex? yeah on the cheek
What about the opposite sex?:hmm...think about it
Do you consider kissing cheating? yes
The longest you've gone without a kiss: a month?
The kiss you regret most is: this stupid bastard that i now hate
Kissing in public is: fine if it's not every two seconds
Tongue rings are: not a turn on
Two girls kissing is: overrated and stupid
Two guys kissing is: gay. no matter what
hmmm intresting
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2004 4 August :: 11.47 am
:: Mood: amazed
:: Music: Maroon 5-She will be loved
You are the rain after the storm has passed. Each time you kiss me, you make my heart beat slower and faster all at the same time.
You are the only one who in time can give me what I need right now. The only one to show me what I need to see.
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2004 4 August :: 10.17 am
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Rascal Flats-I'm moving on
My dad came into my room this morning at like 5 and woke me up and gave me a hug and a kiss.I haven't seen him in a long time. I haven't even had a two min. conversation with my dad in quet awhile.
>Strength
>Understanding
>Love
*sigh*
~praying~...Please God....
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Just make it go away, please.....
Jess
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