Grr....what is that? bah...I'm bored. You really suck right now.

What's that?
I'm so friecken tiered. I have not gotten any regular sleep in the past two days. I talked to Dan late last night, but not too late. I love hearing his voice. Ah, it's nice. :) heh. I just need ..., yes one thing is missing. We'll see....

Yeah, this is getting pathetic. Yup, really pathetic. It's annoying me, a lot. *shakes head* It's ridiculous.

My dress for Sarah's wedding is black, and red. woo, pretty pretty. No glitter, crazy huh?

Two more days till Birthday Bash. Funny thing is, I still don't know if I have a ticket. bah

I went to Champion this morning, and I was so tiered. When my dad threw me the ball, I wasn't even thinking...and wam, it hit my right in the face. Lol and the sad part is, I watched it come right at me, and afterwards..I was just like...hmm..I just got hit with a ball and then I laughed. and my dad pushed me lol and then I actually played, but still, I do believe there were staring faces. Oh well, what can ya do

Hmm...I think this is one of those entry's were I really don't have anything to talk about in particular, so instead of shutting up and waiting until I do, I just write about all the little things in my life that don't matter. Just to have something to write about.

I can't spell :(

So yeah, I really like that new song by the Black Eyed Peas "Let's get it started in here" Mostly because it was on every friecken commerical while the Piston's game was on, but hey, fits well. I still think Kobe Bryant is hot! And he didn't rape any girl. Dumb people.

Hmm..umm...I really like the gossip girl books. I think I need to borrow Jenna's or buy them. Ha, Dan's mom is a libranian. I can't spell. Anyhoo yeah, isn't that cute though? Probably not, I'm just rambling.

I think me and Erika might hang out today. Who knows. Lol maybe I should call.

*yawns* So yeah, I think I've accomplished looking like an ass pretty well. Dan pulls out the blonde jokes, and I didn't get any of them. Not even "A Blonde walked into a bar" and I was like "and...." and he's like "that's it..." and yeah....but it also was 4 in the morning. Still...wow I'm dumb.

Shannon I love you, you are such a sweetheart. I just thought I'd throw that in there. Because I really don't know what I would do without Shannon. She's a sweet girl, and you all should know that if you don't already.

Jess, Shannon, Linds, Kate, Danielle, Amy, Jenna, Tay, Logan,Cass, Ashley, Mike, Josh, Dan, Will, Erika, Becky, Ben, Ashley, Brie, Katie, Troy, Andy, Emily, Cheryl, thanks for making me happy, and sane. I <3 you!

Well I think I'm going to go watch Newlyweds, because I love that show. Even though people think it's stupid. Well fuck you, I think you're stupid. It's a great show.

Jess

Hmmm....let's really think about this first...shall we?


I don't really know if I'm one hundred miles ahead, or one hundred miles behind.

I don't want to become more dependent on anyone other than myself. I hate that about people. I really do.

It's almost as if none of this makes sense. In a good way. Almost too good to be true, you are, I supose.

Hmmmm..............I don't know about this yet.

When all else fails you, when your giving up on making anyone happy, including yourself, that's when he came a long...

So last night, Dan calls me at like 11:30 while we were watching the Pistons game. From 11:30, to 5 in the morning. We talked. The conversation would have continued longer, if my dad had woken up and went to the gym. Oh well, lol I guess 5 and a half hours is still a pretty nice number. Heh. Crazy, I know...but I didn't mind at all. There may not be anything such as a perfect boy, but I tell you...he's definatly way up there. He makes me feel ...unbelievably... happy. So important. After last night, if there's something I haven't told him, I'm sure I'd have no probelm telling him, telling him anything for that matter. He has all these morals, and he has dreams. He knows what he wants to do, which I think is so ..sexy lol. He is intelligent. He's so.......just...great! heh, I really haven't been nearly this comfortable with someone for a long long time. He's so...cute! lol but now that I've made a total entry about a guy, which I hate doing, I'm going to go...ha call him back. :) heh

<3 Jess

When the sun shines, when it rains, birthday partys and football games, Winter Summer Fall or Spring, I see you in everything....

*Cries* I am going to fucking ....go insane! Wait, I can't because I'm already am! Ughhh ok, so this is the third fucking time that I've wrote this entry because the first time woohu was being a bitch, and then the second time some message about being logged into aol in two different places poped up, so I click on it, and what do you know the stupid fucking computer doesn't open a new window. NO! because that wouldn't make sense now would it? GOD so yeah, it deleted everything I had written, so here I am with nothing better to do then complain and bitch, all over again, for a third fucking time!
UGhh I'm so ...mad *screams* I just want to fucking rip on someone. Espically a certian someone, but then I know it'll just cause a fight, and I'm just pissed off now. but God I'd just like to tell you how stupid are can be. God, you make sucha fucking big deal out of something that means nothing!!!! God I'm just sick of hearing about it!
Last night sucked so fucking much. I was in such a bad mood. Why? Because instead of going to the movies with my friends, or going over to Caleb's , or going out with my parents, all three I was invited, all three I could of gotten out of the house and done something, not been in a bad mood. But do I? NO because why? Because I chose to sit around and wait and for who? YOU!!!! grrrr I thought I would go to bed and wake up not so bitchy, I was just having a bad night. But nope, this morning was a million times worse than last night.
Me and my mom get in a fight at like 7 in the morning. She comes in my room, wakes me up. First mistake. Starts asking me about if I rented porn on paperview. Second mistake. I don't even function properly when I've been awake for two hours, so I'm thinking that maybe I'm still dreaming. So I don't reply. So she starts getting all bitchy and yelling. Third mistake, because after that I really woke up , and bitched back. Which is sad because we've been getting a long so well this past week or two. But honestly c'mon WHAT THE FUCK? YOU have a fucking 17 year old Son, who's best friend is constantly at our house, he basically lives here. Um they've looked a porn before. And you fucking ask me? WTF yeah, because I'm so fucking into porn ughhhh. WHY DOESNT ANYONE THINK LOGICALLY ANYMORE???? I FUCKING HATE STUPID PEOPLE SOOOOO MUCH!
So I get up and take a shower, and my fucking scrubby is on the fucking bottom of the shower. And I don't ever leave it there, I always hang it up. So that means my fucking brother used it GAWD wtf !!!!! He's so fucking nasty! sjdfkajsfdkjasdlfjk Then there's no fucking conditioner left, and I need that stupid shit otherwise my hair is like a fucking afro, so I was pissed. Oh, and to add to it, I fucking cut myself shaving. I swear I can never NOT cut myself. ughh kajsdfkljdf
I get out of the shower, and all my shit is missing out of my draw. My fucking hair brush, my hair gel is all used up, so is my hairspray, I have no more fucking tampax left! and I'm like wtf, my mom has her own shit why would she use mine? Then I think....well my brother and my dad are the only other two in this house, and my dad would never even touch that stuff, he wont even fucking watch quier eye for the straight guy with me because he's so fucking homophobic. so then that leaves nick, or ben, probably both! AND I JUST DONT EVEN WANT TO FUCKING THINK ABOUT THAT, because they're prob. gay, and prob. used my shit, ajkndflkjakfljd ughh just the thought makes me want to fucking shoot myself.
So like always I get online, because I have no fucking life. And I'm still waiting around to hear from you, to know what's going on. And yeah, like I now only have like around 10 or 15 fucking people on my msn messanger. So yeah, that means someone got on it and fucked with it. Which also means someone has my password, which means I'm about to fucking flip out, because if I find out who it was, I'm going to fucking pop a cap in your ass whatever the fuck that's supose to mean anyway!
Ughh today can only get worse. And don't worry I'll be back to bitch about it later. And if any of you leave a comment about how I bitch a lot, well then I'm going to fuck pop a cap n your ass too. because GUESS WHAT YOU STUPID BITCHESSSSSSS THIS IS A FUCKING JOURNAL!!! AND DONT MESS WITH ME TODAY BECAUSE IM ABOUT TO GO INSANE!!! and if any of you start saying "oh well did you write about me in your woohu" GUESS WHAT! I probably did, but I'm not going to tell you, you want to know why? because this is my fucking journal, and I'll do whatever the fuck I please, so fuck all of you stupid assholes who just stalk people's journal, and then talk about it, or get mad at people because you ASSUME their talking about you, and you get all insecure, because half the time you know their right, and the only way you know how to deal with it, is bye making up shit and talking to defend yourself! WELL FUCK YOU! YOU CAN GO TO G HELL

WOW IM GOING TO FUCKING FLIP OUT!!!!