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2004 14 June :: 11.57 am
I'm happy that I'm taking driver's training.
I'm happy that me and my mom are really good right now.
I'm happy that me and Mike are really good.
I'm happy that Mike makes me feel special, that he gives me butterflies.
I'm happy that I no longer care about you or what you think, or if there even is a you.
I'm happy that my room is finally clean.
I'm happy that my friends are so amazingly sweet.
I'm happy that I told Devon how I feel.
I'm happy that it is summer.
I'm happy that next year I'm going to be a junior.
I'm happy that I have gotten two jobs this summer, and I can hopefully get one more.
I'm happy that I don't care about dumb stuff.
I'm happy that Jess is happy.
I'm happy that me and Erika are talking again, because I love that girl.
I'm happy that I'm getting a slight tan heh.
I'm happy that I'm going to be able to drive when I turn 16.yay go me!
I'm happy that I'm starting to not be in pain from this last year.
I'm happy that this last year, is finally over.
I'm happy that I still download music and haven't been suied yet. lol
I'm happy that I can finally tell you what a FUCKING asshole you really are, becuase no one else will.
I'm happy that Emily is coming to stay in a few weeks.
I'm happy I'm going to stay with Emily shortly after.
I'm happy that I'm starting to see I am a good person, and I do have a big heart.
I'm happy that I've made so many new friends.
I'm happy that I got to go to New York, because it was seriously the best thing of my whole year. And I can't wait to go back.
I'm happy that I get to go to the Birthday Bash.
I'm happy that I'm getting my hair done Friday.
I'm happy that I'm going to Cedar Point.
I'm happy that I'm having such a good summer.
I'm happy that I have tennis soon.
I'm happy that I get to go shopping with my mom this weekend.
I'm happy that I'm just so happy, and this past year doens't even matter anymore. Because i'm myself, and I don't let people walk all over me, and I speak my mind, and I'm me. I'm just happy that I'm content. And I hope everyone else can be too.
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2004 14 June :: 2.29 am
Sad...I can't sleep.
Did it ever occur to you, you aren't as clever as you believed?
If your day differentiates you, fear you'll be deceived.
I can share my thoughts with you, but is that really the same
Since it never occured to you that you will always stay the same?
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2004 14 June :: 12.03 am
Red Heads
Weather Loach
Agility
10 | | | Strength
7 | | | Stamina
9 |
| Battle Rating
26Origins
Red Heads's origins are unknown |  |
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hmm...and the point of that is...?
| UCAUTION | | IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP JESS LYNN HAZEN AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES. |
From Go-Quiz.com
AHHHHHHHHHH HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! funny shit!
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2004 13 June :: 10.54 pm
:: Mood: contemplative
Today I talked a lot. Lol, more than normal. Mostly to my mom, Erika, and Becky. All of which were very helpful.
I got out how I've felt about Devon today. Who know's where it will end up though. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
And you, you're a hassel to my life, as I am to yours. So why do we even bother? Don't say you don't, because you clearly do. I clearly do. We are both over whatever it is we had a reason to be upset about in the first place. I still think you were just the asshole, I did nothing to you. But you say you don't care, so what I think shouldn't matter to you. So let's make it easier on each other, and just leave each other the hell alone. You are too much a waste of my time to worry for even two seconds about you. The only concern I have involving you is my friends, not you. Let's keep that clear.
Well I need to go talk to Shannon. Night all.
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2004 13 June :: 4.48 pm
Mike is so cute, in the funniest little ways heh.
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2004 13 June :: 3.54 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Avril Lavigne-Freak Out
Try tell me what I shouldn't do, you should know bye now I won't listen to you. Walk around with my hands up in the air, cos I don't care. Just freak out, let it go.
I use to be this girl who cared about what everyone thought of me. I would say things I didn't mean just because I thought that's what people wanted to hear. I was nice to people I knew were really jerks, I just put up with a lot of crap. So it's nice to know that I'm done with that. I don't let people walk all over me, I stand up for myself. I say what I think, when it's appropriate. I do what I know is right, and just like everyone else I can explode when you push me to my limits. Which I most definatly have. I do think there are times when it's ok to show someone down, when they are bringing it on, and no one will tell them off, because they hurt so many people. I'm just..relivied.
On a different note, Guess what? I'm starting driver's training. Me and my mom had a long talk last night, and she's signing me up this week. yay! So I'll be able to drive when I turn 16. yay! As bad as my mom can be sometims, other times..she can also be very cool. Then I have all those applications she's helping me with on Friday, and then I'm getting my hair cut! woo! I have it all picked out, and how I want it hightlighted. yay!
Well I should get going, I have to babysit. Talk to you later. <3 Jess<3
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2004 12 June :: 5.08 pm
Happy 1 year to my puppy pepper! aww she's still so cute lol okay...this is corny. lol oh well me and cramer thought it was funny.
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2004 12 June :: 4.51 pm
Damn that felt good! So fucking good!
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2004 12 June :: 4.21 pm
Why does he have to be such a jack ass? He’s being so dumb. He’s trying to ruin this, just because he knows he can. He knows that I care, and he knows he can make me feel this way. The way I feel right now.What a great friend you are being. So much for actually being a friend, you should be happy for us, happy for me, happy for him, just fucking happy. Instead you just keep jacking everything up. Gawd. Grow up, stop being so gay. Yes, I’m talking to you Will. I don’t know what the hell your problem is lately, but you need to stop being such a fucking dick to everyone. No one has done anything to you, so if you're un-happy, dont take it out on us.
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2004 12 June :: 11.59 am
Erika's was so much fun last night! I had such a good time. I love Erika, Becky, and Brandi so much. And of course my little Jess. Gotta love her too. Anyway yeah, we played games with the boys all night...heh could that sound any worse than it does? lol oh-well, and then they had to leave. So me and Becky went hunting for fire fly's and ended up in a swamp...we think. Either way it was still fun. Then all ofus girls sat bye the bonfire and cooked smores. Fun stuff, then we went inside changed, had cake, cookies, jello, lol basically a bunch of crap and talked.
It was so nice to just talk to Erika for so long. I love you so much Erika! You're such a sweet heart.
Then this morning Lisa brought me home. It was a good night.
I am happy though, because for once...I feel like you're not my problem, at all. Like always, your someone else's. I have no reason to worry about you, or your life. You continue to screw people, mostly girls over, and lol hunny...you're so going to get screwed yourself you just don't know it yet. Since I know you're reading this, watch out. You don't trust anyone now...just wait.
Today me and my mom are going shopping then hopefully if all works out me and Mike are going to the Rockford fair, and i need to call linds and hudson and see if they want to come, so I think I'm going to go.
Jess
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2004 11 June :: 8.36 pm
ughhhhhhhhhhh I'm so friecken mad right now! you have no idea!!!! kajsdfklajsfdlk;jsdflkjlkdfjkl;ajfdlk;ajsdf
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2004 11 June :: 7.59 pm
:: Mood: pissed off
So I have plans to go to Erika's bonfire/ party the whole week, reminded my mom every fucking day! I get all ready, and I wasn't planning on leaving till about 8 because I wanted to get there around the same time as Jess, and she has to work tonight. Mike can actually go, I gave him directions. And I get out of the shower, get ready, come out of the bathroom and hmm my dad thought I left already, and he went to go run my brother to a party and my mom says it isn't there fault, and he's not running anyone else anywhere tonight. And she can't because she's "baking" WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT???? I swear they are so fucking selfish, they don't care about anyone but themselves, and what makes them happy. ughh just great! now I can sit home and do nothing!akjdk
Fuck you!jakljf;lkajdf
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2004 11 June :: 5.04 pm
"You've got your dumb friends, I knwo what they say, they tell you I'm difficult, but so are they, but they don't me, do they even know? All the things you hide from me, all the shit you do. You were all the things I thought I knoew, and I thought we could be, you everything that I wanted, now all the memories close to me just fade away. It's nice to know that you were there, thanks for acting liek you cared, and making me feel like I was the only one. It's nice to know we had it all, thanks for watching as I fall and letting me know we were done. He was everything, everything that I wanted, but we lost it, all the memories so close to me fade away, all this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending"
I'll never get over that song.
Anyhoo, me and Mike didn't end up getting to hang out today. He went to the movies with Will, whom is being a dick and a half to everyone, except Mike. So he won't be coming to the bonfire with me tonight. Which sucks, we're hanging out tomorrow though I guess. Even though I had planned to go to a party with Brianna. oh well.
I don't know if I'm ready for this sort of thing. I don't think I ever was..and after all that...eh...screw that, this is what I've always wanted, I just got rapped up in something else.....I should do this. I know I should. It is what I want.
"Walk around with you're hands up in the air, like you don't care. Freak out, let it go." Good advice.
Well I need to go get ready for Erika's.
Jess
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2004 11 June :: 1.40 pm
Diaryland sucks so bad! I can never write in that dumn diary.
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