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2003 21 September :: 12.50 pm
Last night was fun! Linds had me over. Sence my other plans got messed up. Oh-well I guess there's always the rest of the year lol. But we wow rode the four-wheeler, holy crap Lindsey can't drive! heh then we hung out with Ryan for awhile which was good. lol plus there was the "miss america pagent" lol which was the funniest thing me and linds have *ever* seen! lol all in all it was a pretty fun night!
Church this morning wow, I love the Bigney's! heh their so funny! yeah that's all.
<3 Jess
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2003 20 September :: 4.37 pm
:: Mood: grateful
lol
heh. I amaze myself to the things I do for you people. As in my friends. but I love you so it's okay.
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2003 20 September :: 1.05 pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: -Love somebody like you
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lol you know that feeling you get when you're extremely happy, or excited but you can't even really explain to someone why
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Kate, hehehehehehehe I'm so happy!!!!
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2003 19 September :: 7.01 pm
i'm really sick of hearing about him. I'm not dating the kid. Just tell him if you like him yourself. He's just my friend. For pete's sake. Pete's dieing! djfakjsdfkajf
Lindsey, FUCK hehe yeah sorry anyhoo
Today god, I really needed to talk to him and I did, and I got umm....a BIG hug! I can't wait till next Sat. wooooooooo fun! I really need to just forget about all this crap. I don't want him to be mad, I don't want them to hate each other, I don't want her upset. this isn't even my FUCKING PROBLEM why do I feel so FUCKING baD! I didn't do anything
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I need a hug, again!
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2003 18 September :: 5.52 am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Incubus-I miss you
School People blah
I really hate school already, and it hasn't even been a month. I miss summer so much. You have no idea. I hate getting up so early. I hate having to do my hair everymorning cos it's a big pile of red curly mess. I hate most of my teachers. I hate most of my classes. (only one that I *really* like, one's "alright" and the the rest I hate) I hate all the homework *cough biology* In civics and biology I grrr have no friecken intrest. So I end up reading everything over and over, but on my own. In class espically when other people who can't read or like read like "T..........H.........E......... E....X...E...C...U...T...I...V...E... B...R...A...N...C...H.... I....S..." it drives me insane. Grr but most of all I can't stand dumb people. Oh-well two years left. It's so weird how fast my "school life" has gone by. Right now were sophmore and everyone can't wait to be juniors or the end of the year, so everyone can drive, then when were juniors we won't be able to wait till were seniors so were "the top of the school again" and then before we know it, it's going to be over. *cries* I dont even want to think about it, because that means I'll probably lose touch with all the people I truely care about and love. bah I really need this, I'm to blind without it. Sometimes the heart can tell you something the eye can't see. And I am hoping more than you know.
Well Today should be a better day. I have to go in early to take a test for T.V. prodcution sence *sneeze, bless me* I had a doctor's appointment. I'm on anti-biotics, hopefullyI don't get sick like everyone else. But yeah, I don't enjoy the getting up earlie, but oh well. I still need to do my hair. I'm thinking about just either getting it all cut off, or bringing my mom to bring me to get it straigtened , highlighted, and cut short, so it flips out. but bah whoo knows, I'd probably actually miss my curly hair. *yawns* last night I layed on the sunporch watching lizzie mcguire at like I dunno when, pretty earlie lol and fell right a sleep I'm really worn out. I think the school should do that whole four day week thing but just an hour longer every day. That'd be nice. 3 or 4 day weekends, yay! I hope we get to do that next year! Yeah....well me and Jess are going to the JV game today. That should be fun. Maybe we'll get grawled at again. lol that's always great fun.
*bursts into nsync song bah* When visions around you bring tears your eyes, when all the surronds you is secrets and lies, I'll be your strength I'll keep you warm, keeping your faith when it's gone, the one you should call is standing here all a long*
WHY AM I LISTENING TO NSYNC 24/7 ALl THE TIME?!?!? oh-well Justin's hotter than hell. So it works I supouse.
hmmm....I'm really happy I have friends like I do, because if I didn't I'd be one crazy freak. If that compliments anyone lol love ya-Jess
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2003 17 September :: 4.14 pm
~*~I think I become bipolar when I listen to music~*~
When visions around me bring tears to my eyes, when all that surrounds me is secrets and lies, You're my strength, you give me warmth, you keep my faith going when it's gone. The one you should call, is standing there all along. You take me in your arms, right where I belong, till the day your life is threw, this I promise you. I've loved you forever, in lifetimes before and I promise never will you hurt anymore. You've given me your word, I've given you my heart, with a battle we've won before, with this now forever has begun. I close my eyes each night to get away, and I forget. I want to know where I fall, when I hear you call. Everyword I say it true, this I promise you.
I want to know what's going on.
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2003 17 September :: 1.13 pm
:: Mood: anxious
ehhh
I can't handle exciment of anxiousness very well lol. I just need things to happen as soon as possiable otherwise I lose intrest. ahhhh *smiles* ajdfkajdlf;kj
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2003 17 September :: 5.29 am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Heh, LEAN ON ME lol
awwwww....he's so sweet!
ahhhhh....*smiles really big* This is good, *very* good. Just not all of them at the same time. Who would I go for first...hmm probably J., Then J., then J. hmmm crazy how all the guys I like ...their names start with a J! woooooooooo hehehehehehhe I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo friecken happy it's unbelievable.! heheh
HALF DAY! ahhhhhhh shit! I was supouse to wake up at like 4:30 so I could study cos I was so tiered last night, and I tryed to study but everytime I did, nothing was "clicking" I guess you could say, so yeah instead of doing that with the few minutes I have I'm online, addicited huh?
Well I love you Jess, KAte, Shea, And, Tare, Linds, Cass, Katie, Jak, Erika, Kevin, Britt, Emily, Emmie, Coutrney, Kahyla, Jon, Martha, Heather, Missy, Angeeh, Josh, the list goes on, and I better see comments people if you love me too!;)
LOVE YOU hehe Jess
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2003 16 September :: 4.55 pm
Hmm well what is there to say? Lots actually. Today he made my day. It was just...like everythings going to be ok. I want everything to be ok, I think he wants everything to be ok, but theres one problem, her. I mean as long as I have him, and no I'm not talking about as my love bunny. But just as long as I have him, I'll truely be happy. Because that cute little look he gets, makes all my problems disapear for even a second that seems like eternity and for a few seconds I see everything in a different perspective. I see good in everything, and I see how to make things better. I just hope things stay this way, I don't want to lose this, I don't want to lose him. I've lost him to her far too many times. I just don't want to see him get hurt, again. Nothing kills me more than too see him act happy, when really deep down, he wants what he's been missing all along.
Ehh...it really bothers me that she's putting this infront of our friendship. Something she's known for a year, and something I've known for yearS! and I still love and care for very much. I don't want to see her hurt him just because she's "feeling the flavor of the week" if that makes any sence. She just...simply is about her.
I miss Justin soooo much. I talked to him for the first time in a long long long time today. God it made my day the best ever! I love that kid more than anyone knows. Holy crap. He's the sweetest kid I have ever met. You know how you just meet those people who you just love even just looking at? Well yeah that's him. I love just being around him, talking to him, loooking at his pretty eyes. Oh god, I miss that kid to death! He's got the cuttest dimples,a nd he gives the best hugs out of anyone I know! God, I miss him so much I'm gonna cry *tear*
Well yeah....I think I have Devon back for good now. No more falling out of touch, I love her to death. And I yeah she's so much like me, I love it.
I really need to talk to you! ahhhhh whats going on.
hmmmmmmmmm....this is great
lov ya tonz-Jess
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2003 16 September :: 6.29 am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Martina McBride-Are you Listening?
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Last night.... grrrr I really am sick of this game. I can't take it anymore. So I exploded last night, cryed allllllll night to my mom. Went outside in a hoodie, coat, gloves, and hat, and layed on the rocker under the stars (I've never seen a more beautiful night heh the sky was all lit up) untill 2:30 in the morning. So I've thought about everything. (Besides the fact that Devon really helped on the phone) I've realized, ....this is just something that's going to drive my insane. Because I know, and she knows I'm too nice and love her too much to say anything, and this has to be about her. And it always will be.
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2003 14 September :: 10.48 am
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...jealouse. I'm goign to cry! *tear*
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2003 13 September :: 10.42 pm
:: Mood: love strucken!
:: Music: Nsync-God must have spent a little more time on you
wow I'm listening to this music!
Yeah, I'm at home babysitting my little cousins and I'm downloading and listening to Nsync music, 98 degrees, backstreet songs, all the loves song. what's the matter with me?
I need to fall in love, that solves everyone's problems doesn't it? Everyone falls in love. I want to fall in love.
Everyone needs to tell me if they had fun or not at homecoming, I'm dieing to know how it went!!!
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2003 13 September :: 7.49 pm
This song couldn't be any more perfect! God, I love it!
This might come as quite a shock,
But I've given it a lot of thought.
This thing that's come between us can't be ignored.
I've taken all I can;
This is where it's gotta end.
'Cause I can't be your friend anymore.
An' I can't be accused,
Of not bein' there for you.
How many nights have you shown up at my door?
I hope you understand,
That this wasn't in my plans,
But I can't be your friend anymore.
An' it's killin' me to know you,
Without havin' a chance to hold you.
An' all I wanna do is show you,
How I really feel inside.
You can run to me,
You can laugh at me,
Or you can walk right out that door.
But I can't be your friend anymore.
So, baby, now it's up to you:
Do I win or do I lose?
Will my heart fly or lie broken on the floor.
Well, take me as I am,
'Cause I wanna be your man.
But I can't be your friend anymore.
An' it's killin' me to know you,
Without havin' a chance to hold you.
An' all I wanna do is show you,
How I really feel inside.
You can run to me,
You can laugh at me,
Or you can walk right out that door.
But I can't be just friends anymore.
We can't be just friends anymore.
*tear* yeah..... <3 Jess
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2003 13 September :: 7.49 pm
This song couldn't be any more perfect! God, I love it!
This might come as quite a shock,
But I've given it a lot of thought.
This thing that's come between us can't be ignored.
I've taken all I can;
This is where it's gotta end.
'Cause I can't be your friend anymore.
An' I can't be accused,
Of not bein' there for you.
How many nights have you shown up at my door?
I hope you understand,
That this wasn't in my plans,
But I can't be your friend anymore.
An' it's killin' me to know you,
Without havin' a chance to hold you.
An' all I wanna do is show you,
How I really feel inside.
You can run to me,
You can laugh at me,
Or you can walk right out that door.
But I can't be your friend anymore.
Instrumental break.
So, baby, now it's up to you:
Do I win or do I lose?
Will my heart fly or lie broken on the floor.
Well, take me as I am,
'Cause I wanna be your man.
But I can't be your friend anymore.
An' it's killin' me to know you,
Without havin' a chance to hold you.
An' all I wanna do is show you,
How I really feel inside.
You can run to me,
You can laugh at me,
Or you can walk right out that door.
But I can't be just friends anymore.
We can't be just friends anymore.
*tear* yeah..... <3 Jess
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2003 13 September :: 12.00 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
bah
Grrr last night's game, bah I don't even want to talk about it. Next game, I'm going to have a blast, I don't care, I'm going to have fun!
Kate's was fun. It's nice to have a friend to just chill out with, and not have to be all...dumb and crazy all the time. Even though I'm sure next time we'll be like that!
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gosh codes are dumb.
have fun at homecoming!
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