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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 18 May :: 11.17pm

i made macaroni and cheese for you and now it's getting all nasty and soggy.

great.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 16 May :: 8.36pm

I've been working for the past two weeks like crazy and what do I get? My first paycheck is 162.43 after all is said and done. I definitely don't make enough money.

I feel like a horse being broken in to ride.

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Iron-Cipher

:: 2007 14 May :: 11.48pm

The doctors think my dad might have prostate cancer. I was reading up on it today and nowhere did I read that it could be fairly survivable the only thing I read was that people can live up to a couple years after they are diagnosed. I really don't want to lose my dad the same way I saw my grandfather go.

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tare

:: 2007 12 May :: 12.16pm

I am seriously done trying to make and keep friends. It really is a lost cause. My expectations are way too high and nobody can meet them. I'm always left disappointed and upset. Sure, it's my own fault for expecting so much from people, but I really can't help it.

Sometimes I wish I were a normal teenager who saw no problem in being drunk every night of the week, and neglecting every aspect in life. But then I really think about it, and I realize how stupid that is. You only get one go around, why screw it up? I see no problem if people want to drink and have a good time on the weekends... but even then, what's the point of being beligerantly drunk every day of every weekend? I just don't get it.

It's pathetic really. The only way anybody can ever have fun with their friends anymore is if they're drunk. That's only to hide the fact that they really can't stand being with them when they're sober and the fact that they really have nothing in common. I can't play that game. I just have to sit here and patiently wait for a good friend. Just one, I'm not even asking for a bunch... just one.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 11 May :: 3.03pm

I got a call asking me to work today from four to nine. So I'm going into work. I'm such a push-over, but I need the money. I listened to seventies rock and wrote all day. I think I produced some good stuff. I have even more of an idea where it's heading. Can't say anything about it yet, but maybe I'll have a few people read it and tell me what they think when I'm finished. Yes. That's just what I'll do.

Not a day goes by...

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m&ms487

:: 2007 11 May :: 7.57am
:: Mood: cheerful

I use to have all the right words...
Last night, in that moment before sleep comes, I had the perfect sentence. It's lost now.

I spent the night at Rueben's. The gazebo. It was entertaining.

Why do I always wake up early when I don't want to? I'm glad I did, because as the filtered morning sun came streaming into the gazebo, I looked up and watched a hummingbird gracefully flit around a tree branch with newly blossomed leaves. The sounds of the morning were almost deafening, and I layed back down, closed my eyes, and smiled to myself.

Summer is finally here.

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tare

:: 2007 9 May :: 8.13pm

seriously, i don't get it...
Why do people feel the need to make stupid decisions and ruin their lives? I'm not saying I've done it all perfectly and made every decision the best I could... but I at least have respect for myself. I've made my fair share of mistakes in my life, believe me... but I don't let those bring me down. Just because you make one, two, or hell... ten poor decisions... that doesn't mean you should just give up.

Life is too precious to waste it. If you make a stupid decision or a stupid mistake... fix it, move on... and get back on track. Don't ruin your life over it for God's sake.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 9 May :: 2.27pm

I'm getting back in the swing of things. Working and all. Final grades are in: all A's and one A-. It was worth all the freaking out and late night studying I did.

Now, instead of analyzing Byron or Faulkner, I listen to old stinky men bitch that they got overcharged for their watermelon.

Who said life isn't fair?

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tuwang

:: 2007 5 May :: 11.20am

spider-man 3

probably the most dissappointing movie I've ever seen, based on how awesome the other two were...

As my brother put it " I't like Sam Raimi said, 'Fuck this, I'm going to Mexico!' and then hired a 12 year old to write the script...

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m&ms487

:: 2007 4 May :: 7.11pm

I'm home. I feel like I'm in high school again.

In other news, I'll be able to graduate college in four years instead of five.

Who's up for saving $7000? ME!

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 3 May :: 10.36pm

this is what i'm thinking right now

i need someone new to tell me i'm pretty.

i dont know what to do.

my fucking watch broke

i dont have any money it seems like

how much alocohol is too much.

i miss my long hair god dammit.

i hate my short hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i want to dye it.

and diet.

dye it and diet. ha.

yeah funny

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 3 May :: 9.30pm

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


fuck. what is wrong with me.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 3 May :: 12.52am
:: Mood: excited

So, this was a really exciting night for me.

I discovered Mike Gravel. I am in love with his stances on the issues. I think he might be a bit too extreme for the general population, which leads me to believe that he won't make it past the primaries, unfortunately.

Then, when I was reading the postings on Mike Gravel's site, I stumbled across Sugar City Cane. It's a company that is totally green. They produce ethanol by growing sugar cane with hydroponics on acre wide buoyant platforms in the sea near the equator. You should definitely check it out! The site takes a little while to load because of the background, but you can read the text if you highlight it with your mouse while you're waiting for it to load. This could be one of those great solutions to peak oil, while at the same time reducing global warming. Check it out and let me know what you think.

Michelle

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m&ms487

:: 2007 2 May :: 2.22pm

So, what is this saying about us?

CMU Students Find Work in Michigan

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m&ms487

:: 2007 2 May :: 2.11pm

I am done with exams. My brain hurts too much to describe. I just wrote ten pages (front and back = one page) for my two english exams that were back to back. My hand hurts. I am done.

You almost always pick the best times to drop the worst lines..

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