Happy St. Pattys
Sometimes I wish I were Irish...but idk i wouldnt want to eat ham, cabbage, and boiled potatoes blegh!--certainly happy with italian and cuban food holla!

so yesterday I had a really scary convo with briggette and the girls about terrorism and war. I really try to put it off in the back of my head and i say to myself "theyre just trying to scare us, thats why theyre TERRORISTS." but then i think of that ever so scary phrase:

"90% finished with a plan that will make 9/11 look like nothing"

and im scared out of my mind...my heart rate goes up just thinking about it...imagine what could happen...its truly hard to remember when were caught up in our problems how theres something so much bigger than us out there...i just dont think my life could go on if someone i loved were affected by this--just think of what could happen--and of course new york is like the first target--and we happen to live 10 miles from a nuclear power plant...and 20 miles from nyc...omg im starting to freak...i know i cant spend my life worrying about it and ive been good--but i dnt want to live in ignorance either---ohhhh God...why can't everyone just be friends???

lets all move to the caribbean

i really like this song

We were meant to live with so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
*
lately i feel like ive lost myself

whoa

what?

totally weirded out ahh.
1 day til OPENING NIGHT!

peace

good Lord i love this weather...
i hope theres no more coldness but yeah right.

so i talked to a usually very personal friend today---i was surprised at how much she opened up...it was so sweet but sad, i could tell how upset she was...i felt so bad. i dont like to see her sad, she's too good of a person to deserve that. <3 u claire!

so my cool news of the day: JOE TORRE might BUY half of one of my daddy's horses...how freaking cool is that??? free tickets alert!

im excited for crew tonite...i really hope we order the shirts...the play is gonna be sooo much fun.

what else?

not much...

im MUY excited for the weekend..but hey when am i not...and they never turn out that good.

xoxo~g

weekend was pretty okay...i hate doing things on sundays...it totally screws me up. but pillows and the other stuff were fun.

National Spanish Exam was hard as shit..i did so bad.

i am so bored

yeah and im really kind of mad at myself...but surprisingly not really...i don't know why the aftermath of it hasnt been as big of a deal as i thought it'd be. i feel worse for not telling them...but i'd really piss em off.

eeeeeeeaaaahhhh 4 more weeks til vacation ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh...i HATE march...it was like warm 2 days ago now its freeeezing.

i really need to have a good week.
otherwise--idk...i'm feeling more and more of that part of me slip away--but it's not bothering me..but it should be..

i hate thinking!

and im sensing a major fight with my parents coming up.

oh jeez~new coach and lesportsac bags are making me go batty--must..control..urge..

holy mary 2 more months and school is like over!

yes the yankees beat boston!!!!
omg thank God baseball is coming soon to save me!

i keep editing this entry--lauren those poems--esp. that 1st in ure last post--awesome..i absolutely luv it

happy birthday danielle!

kisses

Hello~

So basically probably the most serious problem of my at-home life, which has been going on for 3 years...is seeming to work its way out, and thank God for that.

But of course the other problem's are always arriving just on schedule!

sometimes i really hate being an only child.
sometimes i really love it. Lately, I hate it.

a lot of the time i feel like i dont belong in my own self. i feel like i should fast forward through highschool and college and just be doing what i love and have my life figured out. sometimes i wish i could skip these "best years of my life"...yeah they havent been so freaking great

and i wish that people would start caring about someone else but themselves. i absolutely just love it when someone you wouldnt expect, is nice.

and i wish i werent so misunderstood. yeah, thats the biggest wish...i wish i could re-establish myself in everyones minds of who i really am, because i honestly dont think anyone knows me, and i hate that.

im not sad or mad or depressed or anything, just pondering these things.

on a lighter note omg 1 tree hill omg

and i cant wait for the weekend.

and omg march SUCKS (danielle, i mean thats TOTALLY excluding the 8th!)

this was kind of a random journal entry~well at least someones updating lol

besitos

!!!
Yay i'm so happy right now!

ITS OSCAR DAY!!!

AHHH!!!!

THIS IS LIKE MY FAVORITE NIGHT EVERRRRR! even though the nominees suck this year i absoulutely love the oscars! gonna go print out ballots right now and choose the winners...

omg and me staz and elise also got our "mrs." shirts ahhh no johnny or george though :(

and i got my a-rod jersey!

and its getting WARM outside!

and i LOVE this song so much!

and that US weekly commerical where theyre like "im gonna get christina on him...no take it to the next level go shannen"
omg that is soooo me! hahaha.

anddd ahh idk i love these moods so much!!!!

happy oscars everybody (go johnny!)

F.V. '04
omg 9th grade camp was AWESOME!

I seriously think that our grade bonded so much together...i know im repeating a lot of what other people said in their woohus but i feel like we truly became a family on that thursday nite. and throughout the whole trip too. Even if on Monday we get into fights again and we bicker and are stupid--we had those 2 days and they were amazing.

I felt like i was so open. I talked to everyone and I can't really say i made any new friends but i certainly think i really tightened things up, and i was sooo happy about that. Everyone was so cool and it was like for once everyone could get along with anyone. I don't think there was one person i didnt try to talk to or make small talk to...and i think it was the same way on the other side and that was sooo awesome. I don't think were gonna have that again til Senior Forum.

Oh ya and the seniors were all really cool..liam's mr. smith omg!

i was so happy to have so many different groups throughout the day...bunk, table, group, color war...and omg i cannot stress how important that was. HU-13 (the window, thurs. nite the guys in the shower, even the arguments...nobody new in my life but u guys are the best holler) table 1 helped me cope through that nasty ass food lol, group 1...even activities werent so bad w/ u. (but generally the activities sucked..esp. snow shoeing ugh.)

but color war was so much fun (yeah BLUE...1st place!!!! 1990+2004!!!)

and the talent show was awesome

and everything was awesome

and i love our grade so much even if i dont feel that way for long...i <3 u guys.. ALL of you.

wow im so tired and delirious i cant even organize my thoughts.

but 9th grade camp WAS INCREDIBLE! so much better than i thought it would be.

and more than anything else, the best part of it was you guys...wish it could stay like this forever. this is going to be one of those experiences we look back on and are like "wow that fucking rocked"...and it certainly did. and as cheesy as we all may think it was when we look back...we'll also be smiling in the back of our heads because we knew we loved every minute of it.

I LOVE U CLASS OF '07!!!

Good Lord...Good Lord, oh my God...i'm not going to go into details here, but wow i am so thankful for the life i have been given and the path that ive taken with it. I just don't get it...at all. And it even makes me mad for some strange reason...i want to just scream at it

Soooooo...First day back was pretty good actually...I feel like i was just there at school, it wasnt weird at all. And it seems like the transition is not going to be very hard...unless it hits me soon that last week was one of the best i've had long since i can remember.

I'm actually getting kind of excited for 9th grade camp...so most of the activities are gonna blow but its gonna be really fun to be with everyone else.

omg but pleeeeeease NO professor snape saying hello! I will be soooo mad. but he def. will, i know it.

grr it makes me mad that we're leaving on ash wednesday--i mean it's not really a big deal but i really want my ashes--theyre so cool...still dont know what im gonna give up though.

ugh i wish one tree hill or the oc (im hooked AGAIN) or american idol were on...

and sex and the city last nite really disturbed me with steve's mom..it was so sad i like couldnt fall asleep..and it def. would have been better if carrie was alone at the end...shes such a free spirit.

hope everyone isn't too depressed vaca is over..just a month til spring break!

besos y lagrimas (haha) Gaberoo

holler at the us virgin islands!!!
haaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

omg st. thomas was so much fun!
i just got back like 20 minutes ago but i needed some computadora..anywayyy:

so we land and there's all these gorgeous mountains and ocean and it's one of those walk down the stairs out of the plane thing and omg WARMTH! SOOO we spent the first few days just chillin.. spa treatments ...beach etc...

then we went to St. John and it was gorgeous~~they had the most beautiful beach that i have ever seen in my life! and we went to this deserted beach to snorkel and me and my mom swam 3 miles across the ocean cos we didnt feel like walking haha it was so scary~esp. since deep water scares the crap out of me!

so then on wed. we went the main town on st. thomas and i saw stacey/briggette's cruise ship..i was hoping we could meet up by a miracle but they decided not to call me lol but i did see matt zander at a restaurant but no stazy :(

i parasailed~it was really fun but it wasnt that scary...i was a little dissapointed i thought id be more scared...i guess cos it wasnt my first time idk but the guy who drove the boat was a red sox fan and dragged me in the water til i said go red sox haha...

speaking of which A-ROD HAYYYY!

omg and i met the gm of the hotel and we had a business talk! omg omg the gm of a ritz that is sooooo going to be me one day.
he said the outlook for women in this job is very good...hehehe...i like having a dream even if i wont have the same one later on, its nice. first thing i do if i ever get there is to figure out this children situation...so many fucking loud kids everywhere u turn!

all in all it was an awesome vacation...island was gorgeous..ppl were soooo nice...and me nd my family def. needed that after all of the stress...

and even though its cold it doesnt seem to be bothering me...im like walking on clouds!

but ew 9th grade camp ugh...

shh shh shh brain no thinking of that.

hope everyone had an awesome break!

much warm luvin<3g~