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2005 4 May :: 11.04pm
have you ever began to hate yourself so much that you wished you could sabatoge yourself? maybe people wouldnt dislike you so...maybe, if everything was wrong, then one thing right would feel so much better...
but then someone points it out. and the fact that it's unavoidable is not the painful thing. its the truth of it and you know you're wrong, but you cant do anything about it now.
so then you feel more like shit. and when that happens, the sabotaging instinct comes back.
::woosh::
but you'd miss out on so much pride.
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2005 3 May :: 11.40pm
DAILYVirgo - August 23 - September 22
You're still quite focused on your sweetheart, and the feeling is mutual. Have dinner out, and don't be afraid to talk about the future. You won't be the only person at that candlelit table who's been thinking in terms of permanence.
WEEKLYVirgo - August 23 - September 22
Love's never perfect, despite you fervently wishing it would be so -- and trying with all your might to make it that way. Go easy on your efforts at the beginning of the week; you don't want to make anyone dear to you feel inadequate, and that includes yourself! Wednesday brings high spirits -- you're up for challenging the universe to give you exactly what you want. What a brilliant approach! By the weekend, someone compatible makes you question your expectations and deepen your definition of love. It's a good thing!
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2005 2 May :: 9.39am
:: Mood: content
I lied. This weekend was awesome. I said Saturday would be the worst, I lied. It was awesome. I love when things work out like that. :-)
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2005 2 May :: 12.24am
:: Mood: annoyed
Who reads this? Anyone? If you do leave me a message saying you do because I'm curious.
I'm sick of people. I'm sick of life. Ready for a mini-rant???? Here goes:
I'm so fucking bitter it's great. I can't help but be bitter sometimes though. Why? Because I spent my entire life NOT whining and asking for every fucking thing in this world because life just doesn't work out that way. And here I am...fully aware of reality and accepting it while every other fucking person starts crying and whining and shit everytime they want/don't get something. jafio;duvbio;anrklsd;jfioas;hfidsjfkl;sjfksafjf;a
I'm sick of life. I'm sick of just everything in the goddamn world. Life is so dull and I don't want to associate with people anymore. I do....but I don't. I feel like screaming....that's what I want to do. Why are people so ignorant? Why am I such a hypocrite?
God I'm so sick of the world and everything that's in it.
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2005 30 April :: 5.57pm
ugh am sooo frustrated it feels like am doing everything wrong
i cant even begin to describe it
so ama go read or something...maybe work on my story which is really horrible rihgt now...
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2005 30 April :: 5.53pm
i cant drive anymore.
i never paid the fee.
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2005 29 April :: 11.34pm
i just ate...but i opened the fridge and guess what i found!!!!!
RAGOONS!!!!!!
woo! patrice likes ragoons toO!
we went to the libertyville play and the set was just horrible...the platforms had holes and no facing and the walls werent decorated and seams werent taped and sound was too loud and wood grain failed and the tables were wrapped in tin foil....-_-
am only so disappointed because i know kevin holly can do better than this....
oh well...ragoons.....::mm::
okie i guess thats it...
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2005 29 April :: 8.57am
:: Mood: Poopy
This weekend isn't going to be fun. Tonight might be. I'll find someone to hnag out with. Plus, Sin City is at Rivertree now. So I might go there today.It’s at 6:30, so maybe I can get food after the meeting and run to the movie? It’d be fun, I think.
Saturday is going to suck more then anything, though. Here are my plans.
7- Wake up
8- Work meeting
10 or 11- Tech Saturday
4- Leave crew
4- Be at work (Gotta learn to be two places at once, I guess)
8- Leave work
After 8, I don’t know. I kind of would rather work 5:54-11. Maybe I’ll find out who’s closing and try to switch with them. That would make life considerably easier. And who wouldn’t want to work a four hour shift compared to a five hour? We shall see.
I also just realized that tomorrow is our last tech Saturday. That makes me sad, on top of being stressed. Jill hates me because I reminded her of that. Poop. :-( I love you, Jill! <3
Sunday will be good. It’ll be a break from the insanity. I’ll just hang out with the boy some. I’ll tell my parents I’m opening, that way I avoid church, get to sleep in, and avoid church.
Jill’s glaring at me. And that makes me sad. Don’t make me sad, Jill. I’ll write you a poem.
Oh Jill, Oh Jill
How sad your glare is
It looks like you’re constipated,
But I know that you’re mad
Don’t be so sad,
Because I love you so
And seeing you sad
Makes me feel bad
You have ducks on your shirt
So don’t be sad
Just smile
And grab a lad!
Okay…I really should do my story. Much love. Especially to Jill. :-)
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2005 28 April :: 10.14pm
so that crappy feeling's still there...
i feel bad for stunkel. not cuz he does stupid stuff, cuz thats obvious...but because he's trapped in a mindset taht everyone should laugh at life and still a child. his intentions are good, no matter how much anyone tries to argue with me, and i feel bad that they arent always taken the way he wishes. he's like anyone of us, where he doesnt want to be a disappointment to himself, his family, or his friends. He's not like us where he'll go very far to make someone laugh, and soemtimes doesnt think of the consequences. point blank, no one should ever hate stunkel, no matter how mad they get at him.
yes...erm...lol a stunkel entry.
id write more but i think its something that's going to be a private entry because am just going to get yelled at for it.
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2005 28 April :: 10.56am
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: NONE! GASP! I need music!
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That there is patrice.
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that there is patrice sleeping and being lazy and not doing her paper.
Look at those arms, though. Patrice is a beast.
:-(
that there is Patrice sad because she couldn't watch LoTR with Melanie and Jackie today.
>.<
that there is Patrice angry at Mr. Curry for assigning that paper. And her Dad for being ultra-annoying-like. And her mom who is too lazy to go get Patrice's dirty clothes from her room.
:-(
Here is Patrice sad again because Ryan has to go to stupid tech campus. Stupid tech campus.
:-(
here is Patrice dreading this weekend and wanting it to go away.
:-P
here is Patrice disgusted and not wanting to go to crew.
:-)
here is Patrice slightly happy because Ed is on.
:-(
here is Patrice sad because Ryan can't come over to watch it like he was supposed to.
O.O
here is Patrice flipping out because she missed the first three minutes.
0.0
that there is Patrice realizing she has switched from "that there" to "here is" halfway through.
:'(
Here is Patrice sad that she can't watch Ed anymore because she's going out to lunch with her family.
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here is Patrice ripping her parents' heads off because she is very angry.
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here is Patrice saying poop.
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