He seemed no different from the rest Just a healthy normal boy His mama always did her best And he was daddy's pride and joy He learned to walk and talk on time But never cared much to be held and steadily he would decline Into his solitary shell As a boy he was considered somewhat odd Kept to himself most of the time He would daydream in and out of his own world but in every other way he was fine He's a Monday morning lunatic Disturbed from time to time Lost within himself In his solitary shell A temporary catatonic Madman on occasion When will he break out Of his solitary shell He struggled to get through his day He was helplessly behind He poured himself onto the page Writing for hours at a time As a man he was a danger to himself Fearful and sad most of the time He was drifting in and out of sanity But in every other way he was fine He's a Monday morning lunatic Disturbed from time to time Lost within himself In his solitary shell A momentary maniac With casual delusions When will he be let out Of his solitary shell

 

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Toki

:: 2004 29 July :: 12.20am

Entry From Work Today
So I wrote this at work today. Stupid me left it in box. Manager found it. ::shrugs:: Nothing harmful. Just yeah, have to post it. That's why I wrote it.

Mood: Bored

I'm writing this on a piece of paper. I'm at work right now. I'll probably type this up later. Why? I'm kind of slightly optimistic right now and I figure it'd benice to see me not totally out of it. So this is me- now. At 5>24 pm in the box office. Bored mindless. I'm glad I'm working though. And actually getting piad for beingbored. Instead if just getting a headache from the stupid computer screen. That's all I'd be doing now anyways. My knee hurts like hell. Thanks to The Moore ::hats off:: :-P You poo. Whatever though. It was an accident.

So. I should have ditched school today. I was incredibly crabby. I was about to cry because I didn't understand damn unit pricing. Sorry about that Jillian. So yeah, I went home and slept. And slept.
I had to be at work at 3. Had insane dreams about cars flipping over and being late for work and the such. Then when I really woke up, it was 2:45. But good ol' me managed to get there by 2:56 when I realized I still wasn't awake yet. I mean, not all the way.

A 30 year old just was hitting on me. Jokingly, I hope. He asked me how old I was. And when I got off work. I was just..ummm...sure...yeah. You know me. I was scared.

So yeah...apparantly the security camera was unplugged the whole time. He came in a yelled at me. Oh well. It happens. Yeah, this kid dyed his hair pink. I think it was supposed to be red, But not. Ha.

Ok. I don't know. There's onyl so much you can think abotu when you're in a plastic cage.
______
So yeah. I wrote a poem thingie too. But no one reads my creative stuff. Don't want to scare you.

Yeah, my mom got tickets to see Fiddler friday. She didn't tell me until today. When the schedule came out. And I'm working. I hate it. I could ask her to switch the days? I don't know. Just. Gr.

-Patrice

"No matter how many times you wash a turd, it's still a turd."

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sandatthebeach

:: 2004 28 July :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: anxious

chocolate covered raisins
Oh man, get this: You know the recital I'll be in on Friday? The one for my vocal workshop thingy? Well, oh man this is exciting, I get to perform it with a jazz trio. I know! How cool is that? The jazz trio consists of...I believe...a piano, acoustic bass, and drums. I know...isn't that insane and completely cool? I'm excited!!! So yeah, I'm looking forward to that.

Always, Sandy

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Anytngbtordinary

:: 2004 28 July :: 7.12pm

QUIZ!
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? :::Jackie
Birthplace :::Hereish
Age :::17
Age you act :::Can be either older or younger
Current location :::Here, in front of my computer
Eye color :::Blue
Hair color :::Blonde
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? :::Right
Zodiac sign? :::Scorpio
Height? :::5'4'' ish
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality :::I'm American... Part Greek though
Your hair :::Its long...and blonde...layered
Your fears :::Being alone, getting hurt... i dont like germs...
Your perfect room :::Eh dont care too much
What you practically do in a day :::Camp, come on the computer, watch Degrassi, then usually hang out with someone
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse :::Lately, a lot of bad words... Um... You tell me.
Phrases you overuse :::I know theres tons...but i cant think of them right now.
Your first thought when you wake up :::Shit...another day..can i stay asleep? Dreams are so much better than real life
Your greatest accomplishment :::I guess im not in a good enough mood to think about good things
Something you want to do :::Get out of this country, help the world, be happy.
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke :::Neither
McDonald's or Burger Kings :::McDonalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera :::Eh... I like Christina's voice
Chocolate or vanilla :::Chocolate
Adidas or Nike :::Um? Adidas
Black or white :::Black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) :::Bills
Burgers or hot dogs :::Cheese Burgers
Egypt or France :::Hmm... Both...i really want to visit both
Rock or rap :::Rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke :::no
Cuss :::yes
Sing well :::Doubt it
Sing in the shower :::Yes
Talk to yourself --a lot-- :::not usually....
Believe in yourself :::Nope
Like taking these longass surveys? :::nope
Play an instrument :::nope
Want to go to college? :::Yes
Want to get married? :::not sure
Want to have children? :::yes
Think you're a health freak? :::Yes
Get along with your parents :::No
Get along with your siblings? :::No
Think you're popular :::No
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state :::yes
Drank alchohal :::no
Smoke :::yes
Get high :::no
Done any drugs :::no
Eaten an entire box of oreos :::no
Been on stage :::yes
Gone skinny dipping :::no
Been dumped :::no
Dyed your hair :::yes
Stolen anything :::no
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest :::Can I skip this section? I think i will
Loudest :::
Most shy :::
Blondest :::
Smartest :::
Kindest :::
Best personality :::
Most talented :::
Best singer :::
Most ghetto :::
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) :::
Pain in the ass :::
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style)):::
Funniest :::
Best person for advice :::
Dependable :::
Trustworthy :::
Druggie :::
Most likely to end up in jail :::
Person you've known the longest :::
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream :::Last one i can remember...was the one where 2 of my friends almost let me drown when we went rafting...then they ditched me
Last nightmare :::Above
Car ride :::driving home from work?
Last time you cried :::Yesterday...camp, home, Brittany's car, concert (in the seats) then concert on the blanket
Last movie seen :::Bourne Supremecy
Last movie rented :::Mystic River
Last book read :::Hm wow...don't know
Last word said :::Don't know..havent talked out loud for like an hour
Last curse word said :::Damn it.
Last time you laugh :::Last night talking with Scott
Last phone call :::About an hour ago
Last CD played :::Audioslave
Last song you listened to :::What You Are
Last annoyance :::My mom
Last IM :::Q
Last weird encounter :::Dunno
Last person you hugged :::Neil last night
Last person you yelled at :::My mom
Last time you wore a skirt :::A few days ago
Last time you've been evil :::Last night? Only because i was angry/ upset
Sarcastic? :::I don't know that im all that sarcastic anymore...but probably a few times today
Last time you fought with your parents :::Today
Last time you wished upon a star :::I'll do that tonight
Played Truth or Dare :::Long long time ago
Spent quality time alone :::Right now...i guess
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM :::Not anymore
Do you feel lonely :::Yes
Ever TP'd someone's house :::No
How about egging someone's house :::No
Do you not like dislike not like me? :::Huh?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? :::No
Yo Momma :::No yo Momma!
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? :::no
What do you think of George Bush? :::Ick
Any secret fetishes? :::...
Do you like to wear chains? O_o :::no
How many languages do you speak? :::1
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! :::no
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) :::not really...on to the next one

Bored? ((Over 100 questions)) brought to you by BZOINK!

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sweetyas

:: 2004 28 July :: 1.26am
:: Mood: maybe not exactly shit

my mood
ok maybe its not that bad (my mood) i just feel horrible but otherwise i had an awesome day i got to hang out with lisa and we really talked (i got ot complain) and i dunno it was fun we had jamba juice and then mcdonald's ice cream and we really talked and it was fun.

i know im a selfish brat but i dont want to forget that i had a good time today.

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sweetyas

:: 2004 28 July :: 1.21am
:: Mood: shit

being a bad driend
im talking to my friend a few days ago she imed me telling me "why havent u called me" in caps likes shes mad and i was like wtf is wrong with u so i didnt call her.

i was worried about her and u know im a lazy butt as a friend so i didnt call or anything.

she just told me her mom is in icu omg i feel horrible i know i shoulda called. shes one of those people taht mean a ton to me. im such a horrible friend. ARG.

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toki

:: 2004 28 July :: 1.03am
:: Mood: Ummm...

I need to sleep more. I think that's my problem.

I've been an idiot. Letting stupid things get me angry. Thinking stupid thoughts. And I'm so pissed off at me. And many other people too. It's just...I'm losing all my patience and I can tell that I'm going to just explode soon. The next thing that pisses me off..and boom. Fun, eh?

I don't know anything right now. Just...gr. I wish I could write in more detail, but you'd think I was stupid. So here is where I quit.

The concert was overall pretty fun tonight. Talked to Brittany. Which was fun. I haven't seen her in like 2 years. So yeah. Good times all around.

Poo. Ok. School tomorrow. Bye.
-Patrice

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sandatthebeach

:: 2004 27 July :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable

chilled water
Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday it's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with the need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide

I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

Yay!!! The Sandy Kim finally gets to perform her song in front of a live audience on a real stage!!! Who's excited? Not the Sandy Kim....of course not.....Oh shut the hell up....I'm superly excited...I finally get to perform this song!!! Ah!!!!!

Always, Sandy

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Toki

:: 2004 27 July :: 12.31am
:: Mood: meish

So yeah, I don't like reality. And that's as far as that subject goes.

Happy Birthday To The Pants!!! He's a whole 18 years old. Gasp-p-p-p....

So I worked today. He told me to go home at 8, but I wanted to work more. So I asked to stay. I ushed more. Found $2.49 on the floor. woo.

Called my mom and told her to pick me up 45 mins past when I was really done. Tehehe, I'm a bad child. Oh well. Then sat. Talked with people. and yeah. Ok. Project time. Night.

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sandatthebeach

:: 2004 26 July :: 10.23pm
:: Mood: drained

wunder studios
I hate this. I absolutely hate this. Bah on a stick...a big fat hairy stick sitting on a log full of dead ants at that. People really do suck, don't they?

I should delete everything in my voicemail shouldn't I? Yes, I probably should...I don't even know why I save everything....it doesn't do me much good.

Once again, people suck.

Always, Sandy

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Toki

:: 2004 26 July :: 1.55am

I'm a terrible person.

Screw it. What can I do about it now?

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