Hmm. I just don't know much of anything anymore. Millions of thoughts floating around my head, all a blur, that I can't make sense of. It's getting harder to figure people out when I can't even form whole thoughts myself, let alone try to form those thoughts into words. I think I'll be lucky to survive the summer..mentally anyways. There's too much growing up to do, too many things to figure out.

Then there's this conversation me and Christina are having..about being old. I told her that we're not officially 'old' until the age of 30. That's when we'll look back to our middle school years [For me, the two years that cursed me] and think 'Those were the greatest days of our lives'. If these are the greatest days I'll ever have, I'm scared to know what the not-so-great part of my life is going to be like..

Continues crying and chewing off hand.

-- Name : Allison
-- Birthday : September 30
-- Birthplace : Peoria, Illinois
-- Current Location : In..here
-- Eye Color : Brown
-- Hair Color : Red
-- Righty or Lefty : Righty
-- Zodiac Sign : Libra
-- Font : ..who cares.

[ series 2 - your favorite ]
-- Music : I can listen to anything really..I'm retarded when it comes to music prefrence..
-- Cartoon : Um..South Park =D
-- Color : Red
-- Slushy Flavor : Blue Rasberry
-- Magazine : Alloy cause they have cool clothes, or Seventeen
-- TV Show : Anything on MTV or Comedy Central. And That 70's Show, of course.
-- Song at the Moment: "Armageddon It" by Def Leppard
-- Language : eh..English. Cause it's the only language I can speak..
-- Spice Girl : Shoot em all.
-- Food & Beverage: Anything Italian, Vanilla Coke, Lemonade
-- Subject in School : English/Language Arts
-- Weekend Activity : Anything as long as it's not boring..
-- Ice Cream Flavor : Cookie dough =D Yummm
-- Roller Coaster : Deja Vu, at Six Flags


[ series 3 - what is ]
-- Your most overused phrase on aol : 'Hah' and 'Okay' and 'Eh'
-- The last image/thought you go to sleep with : Depends on what music I listen to..and I can't remember
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : Smile, personality
-- The Best Name for a Butler : something in French, it sounds so butler-like [Well said, Heather =D]
-- The wussiest sport : Badminton [Whitney!! The first pro badminton team!!!]
-- Your best feature : That's not for me to decide..
-- Your bedtime : Whenver I get tired
-- Your greatest fear : Let's see. Spiders, and being alone. Not alone like no one in the room, alone like having no one to talk to or be there for you.
-- Your greatest accomplishment : Don't have one yet
-- Your most missed memory : Going to the state fair with my dad back in the day..

[ series 4 - you prefer ]
-- Pepsi or coke : Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King : Burger King..
-- Single or group dates : Both are good, depends on what you're in the mood for.
-- Adidas or Nike : Adidas
-- Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers : Chicken Fingers
-- Dogs or cats : Dogs
-- Rugrats or Doug : Doug
-- Single or taken : Taken
-- Monica or Brandy : Um..if I HAD to choose it would be Brandy
-- Tupac or Jay-Z : Eh..
-- Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes : I used to be obsessed with both of them..LeAnn Rimes (Whoever made this survey spelled the last name wrong, it's sad that I know this..=/)
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea : Don't like Ice Tea..
-- One pillow or two : Two
-- Chocolate or vanilla : ..vanilla
-- Hot chocolate or hot cocoa : Hot Cocoa
-- Cappucino or coffee : CAPPUCINO!!!!!!!!
-- Boxers or briefs : Who would be modeling them? [Once again, well spoken Heather, lol]


[ series 5 - do you ]
-- Take a shower everyday? : Yeah
-- Have a(any) crush(es)? : I have a boyfriend..
-- do you think you've been in love? : Pretty sure
-- Want to go to college? : Yep, I ain't gonna be a bum
-- Like high school? : Haven't technically been to high school yet
-- Want to get married : Yeah
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys? : Sure..for the most part
-- Believe in yourself? : Depends on how much experience I've had in what I'm doing..
-- Have any tattoos/where? : Pfft, I wish
-- Have any piercings/where? : Just my ears..I'm getting my tounge and belly button peirced when I can though =D
-- Get motion sickness? : Nope
-- Think you're a health freak? : Not at all
-- Get along with your parents? : Most of the time no..but I do sometimes
-- Like thunderstorms? : Love em

[ series 6 - the future ]
-- Age you hope to be married : Before I die..
-- Number and Names of Children : I don't care..
-- Where do you see yourself at age 20? : Doing something that's going to get me somewhere for once. College. Rich and famous..whatever ;)
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding : Someting non-traditional..
-- How do you want to die? : Quick, when it's time
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? : Well, me and Kristin are gonna be physcologists together, majoring in family counseling and minoring in marriage couseling. Lol, actually I don't know what I want anymore
-- What country would you most like to visit? : Australia..or somewhere tropical

[ series 7 - other ]
-- When's the last time you slept with a stuffed animal? : Eh I don't know. Either when I was ver young, or very lonely
-- How many rings until you answer the phone? : Usually two
-- What's on your mouse pad? : It's plain blue, but it has a squishy wrist rest thing, hah. Try saying that 10 times fast..
-- How many houses have you lived in? : Um...4
-- How many schools have you gone to? : Three
-- What color is your bedroom carpet? : White
-- Would you shave your head for $5,000 dollars? : Nope
-- What was the best time of your life so far? : I don't know. If I can't remember the best time in my life then I don't think there is one..
-- Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? Yeah
-- Would you marry for money? : No
-- Have you had braces? : Yeah twice..but they're all gone now =D
-- Do you pluck your eyebrows? : Yeah
-- Do you ever cut or hurt yourself? : Eh..
-- When was the last time you had a hickey? : Haven't had one
-- Would you live without a computer? : Eheh, I highly doubt it
-- Do you drink enough water? : I drink enough pop..
-- Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: Take them off
-- What is your favorite fruit? : Strawberries
--Do you eat wheat bread or white bread? : I like white better..but we buy wheat
-- What is the last movie you saw? : On tv: Armageddon, In the theatre: Bruce Almighty
-- Do you kiss on the first date? : Sure
-- Are you photogenic? : Sometimes
-- Do you dream in colour or black and white? : Color I think.
-- Are you wearing fingernail polish? : Yeah
-- Do you have any dimples? : Nope
-- Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? : Sunsets
-- Do you want to live to be 100?: Not really..
-- Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? : Maybe not expected..but 'highly encouraged'
-- Do you like salty food or sugary food the most? : Both...
-- Is a flat stomach important to you? : Pfft who cares
-- Do you or have you played with a ouija board? : Yep. Never really believed it though..
-- Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? : Yeah
-- When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? : Off
-- Do you believe in magic? : Yeah
-- Do you have nightmares frequently? : Occasionally
-- Do you like your nose?: I don't love it..but it's okay
-- Do you think you can draw well? : The only thing I'm good at drawing is cartoons..lol
-- Do you listen to music daily? : I'd die if I didn't
-- Do you like to watch cartoons? : Sure
-- How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? : A ton that I haven't worn in like 2 years
-- Do you like your friends? : Yes, most of the time.

Damnit, Instant Messenger sucks. It's just another way for people to hide..atleast when you talk to someone in person you see the way they act. If they hesitate when you talk to them in person, you know it's for a damn good reason, unlike talking online when they can say "Sorry, computer froze" or "Oops, I clicked outta the IM box, what did you say?". You can see the way the person smiles. Not just the stupid smiley face that looks like a moonpie with eyes [Arie]. Capital letters don't do the tone in someone's voice much justice if you ask me. Not to mention the 'virtual hugs' which got me thinking about all this in the first place. Does this: *hug*, make anyone feel comforted? Seriously, come on now. I guess it's the thought that counts.

There's a flyaway sticking out of my ponytail that looks like a devil horn. I love my single devil horn.

..and I hate my feet.

Someone help me..