word to the weird

word to the weird

:: 2005 19 January :: 12.32pm
:: Music: Alexisonfire- Accidents

I just need someone to say it's going to be okay. Even if it's not right now. I know some things are okay. Some things are better than okay. You still care, right? You are the best.
I am still sick. It's been about 3 weeks now. I have to go back in 2 weeks. No school today. It's great. I'm just reading and lounging.
But the awful thing about it is, I can't enjoy it. I'm always counting how many hours I have until I have to leave for work. Most all the girls there are wenches. "Oh my gosh, she told him I kissed another guy! It's all her fault! He'll never talk to me again! But I was wasted! It doesn't matter!"
and they all have the "I'm so hot" attitude. And they're all bitches to me.
The guys are all extremely nice. Girls suck.
I worked with Juan and he makes things a lot easier. I don't feel so stressed out. He helps me and doesn't make me feel stupid. Girls were ringing in stuff that hadn't been on the menu for a year. And I didn't know how to make it.
I need to stop thinking about work. And I need to do better in school. It seems like I don't have time because I always get home late and am too tired to do it.

I just want to be done. Dad is talking about moving again. We actually found a house. It's in Kent City though. I don't know. It's nice.
But I just want to be out. And done with school. And married.
I changed my mind. I don't even want to wait until I'm out of college.
Anyway, dad is leaving soon I should go see him. And talking about all this work stuff is giving me a headache. How do people deal with all this crap???

4 bonus cups | will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 19 January :: 12.23pm
:: Music: Social D- Angel's Wings

You say you're down on your luck
Hey baby it's a long long way up.
Hold back now, Hold back your fears
You say you're really down and out
And you feel like there's no way out now
Let go now, Let go your tears

How many times have you asked yourself
Is this the hand of fate now that I've been dealt?
You're so disillusioned
This can't be real
And you can't stand now the way you feel
I don't care about what they say
I won't live or die that way
Tired of figuring out things on my own
Angel's wings won't you carry me home

And when you're down on your luck
Hey baby it's a long long way up
Hold back now, hold back your fears
And when you're really down and out
And you feel like there's no way out now
Let go now, let go your tears

And when you're down on your luck
Hey baby it's a long long way up
Hold back now
Hold back your fears
And when you're really down and out
And you feel like there's no way out now
Let go now, Let go your tears

I triumped in the face of adversity
And I became the man I never thought I'd be
And now my biggest challenge
A thing called love
I guess I'm not as tough as I thought I was
I don't care about what they say
I wanna marry you some day
Gonna wake up
It's a brand new day
Angel's wings gonna carry you away
Angel's wings gonna carry me away
Angel's wings gonna carry us away

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 18 January :: 9.45am

Gosh. IDIOT!
I'm at school now and I don't even have to be here until 10:55. GOSH. What am I going to do until then? Goin' to the doc today. Checkin' stuff out. Goin' to work today. Gettin' bitched out.
YAY! Fun and wonderful times await.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 15 January :: 3.52pm

Hmmm. I am so stressed out. Just go.
I feel like my stomach is turning inside out and double-knotting. So?
Blah. Bye.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 14 January :: 12.01pm

20 more minutes... I think I will take a survey and bore you all!!!! Bwahahaha.

[randomosity]
Created by thetoasternetwork and taken 5551 times on bzoink!
What's a weird fear you have that no one else probably does?	Crashing a car in a lake and drowning in it.
Is not Jon Stewart great?	Is Jon Stewart not great, well, he is great.
What song are you listening to?	nothing. everyone's loud in the library
Best face wash/acne fighting product?	mary kay 3-in-1 cleanser
How loud do you sneeze?	not too loud
Do you like your handwriting?	not when i'm in a hurry
Ugliest color you've ever seen?	puke greenish/yellow
Does having matching socks matter to you?	most of the time, yeah
If you were in band, what would you call it?	Enemies Like These
Last time you were on a plane?	when I was 7, alaska
Have a digital camera?	nope
How big is your TV?	mine isn't too big.
Have you ever heard of Mystery Science Theater 3000?	nope
How many pillows do you sleep with?	5
sXe.. good or bad?	GOOD of course
Most annoying commercail ever?	there are a lot. i think the carrot top/mr. t commercials are soooo annoying!
Lamest pick-up line ever?	haha aren't they all? isn't that what makes them funny?
Dumbest song ever?	the macarena
Worst way to die?	burning
Who's the funniest comedian?
Ever been in a car accident?	not really
Ever had braces?	twice
Do you know HTML?	nope
What's the most useless class in school?	hahaha
Best Jones Soda flavor?	green apple/fufu berry
Something you collect?	everything!
Something you're allergic to?	now...latex
Something you wish would die?	annoying people
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now I have 5 minutes left.

1 bonus cup | will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 14 January :: 11.56am

Competition=tiring. Blah.
V=mean
School=dumb.
Work=painful.
Back=hurting bad.
Next hour= pizza
Me= happy.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 13 January :: 12.32pm

Oh my goshhhhh. I don't know....today is going crazy but cool. I am actually not stressed but excited. But I am worried about something else. Casey call me!

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 11 January :: 12.51pm

If there was just some way I could be around you all the time and never have to work that would just be great. You know?
And I would cook, too.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 11 January :: 12.27pm

Hmmm. So. Saw a dead body last night.
In other news...side still hurts. Weird.
Feeling odd.
Work tonight. Tiring.
Must
Stop
Typing
Fragments.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 10 January :: 1.53pm
:: Music: MCR- You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison

NOW
But I can't.
And I don't know.
How we're just two men as God had made us.
Well I can't.
Well I can.
Too much too late.
Or just not enough of this.
Pain in my heart for you dying wish.
I'll kiss your lips again.
They all cheat at cards and the checkers are lost.
My cellmates a killer.
~~~~~~~~

Hmm. Today went pretty fast. YAY for chinese. And Becca. And ACF. NAY for homework. Crap. Speaking of.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 9 January :: 10.00pm

Please don't think I'm weird for writing so much unspecifically.
I love ya.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 9 January :: 9.41pm
:: Music: Benton Falls- Sad Like Winter Leaves

Why did I do that to myself. Now my heart hurts like nothing else.
DELETE

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2005 9 January :: 7.01pm
:: Music: Pixies- Gouge Away

My stomach feels like it's gouging away.
Gosh. So much pain. Ow. It's not the digestive or cramp kind. I know. Ouchhhh.