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2005 22 January :: 7.40pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: bzz
i hate parents friends everyone
my mother is so mean. she came up to give me something from elaine and steve (so of course, she was drunk) and she started bitching about how my rooms a fucking disaster and all that shit.
well great, i said. if you dont like it then get out of it. you dont have to come in here, and neither does anyone else. its like that story nipple jesus. not to mention the fact that i dont like that she talks to herself, yet she continues to do so, saying "if you dont like it, dont listen." so i told her that. i also asked what, other than my room being a mess, what else is she not proud of me for.
she said my grades, which ill let you know is the thing that pissed me off the most. i really went ape after that. how could she say that? all shes ever wanted was B's and now i have B's and now "it's too late". how could she ever say that. what a great encouragement to get me wanting to succeed in college.
once i go away, i will not send her my grades. i will not tell her how i am doing. in fact, i doubt that i will do much talking to her at all unless she is sober.
the other things that have been pissing me off is her with gail. okie great she has friends. she spends loads of time on the phone with gail and then she hangs up and goes over to elaines. okie thats all fine and whatever, even though its a pain to wait for dinner sometimes. but the other day i came home after spending two whole hours with jen (and mushroom) and she asked where i was and i told her. "god you're always with jen....jen, jen, jen". where the hell does she get off saying that now?!? i havent hung out with jen in forever and she's supposed to be my best friend! not to mention the fact that shes allowed to but im not? what the hell.
oh. and another thing about gail. well they talk so often that now their kids lives are like trading cards and they compare everything. so shaun got a job at a pet store; shaun got a $4,000 scholarship; shaun got put up a rank in his ROTC; shaun got all A's this semester; shaun thinks latin's hard; shaun got a 26 on his ACT.
oh thats nice shaun. seeing as you are clearly prouder of shaun than of me, how about you go live with him. ill live by myself, which, by the way, i am not mature enough to do according to her. oh, im also not expirienced enough to drive in the snow, but mother how can i get expirience if im not allowed out of the house when it snows?!?
all i wanted for christmas was a coat and shoes and shampoo and conditioner.
they told me to ask for more and got me an mp3 player and now i cant get my wisdom teeth pulled. im mad taht im such a burden money-wise, but i would think two jobs could help that. i dont ask for money to eat out; i dont ask for money for anything petty. i asked for it for all state but i wont ask for this show shirt. i wont ask for anything that i cant handle. im trying to buy a new computer before graduation. ill ask for a college education if they ask me what i want. that and my wisdom teeth pulled.
oh, damn. im complaining again.
you'd think the people who supposedly love you would be a tad more supportive.
i hate people. hermitism it is for me.
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Angel_Bob
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2005 20 January :: 11.11pm
I'm so sick of everything.
I want out of high school. We still have almost an entire semester to go. I was tired of this in November when I got accepted to Aquinas.
This is the most horrible waste of time ever. I got accepted to the college I'm going to go to, I'm not going to learn anything new in any of my classes and I'm still stuck here until the end of May.
We're all stuck here.
I'm just so tired of everything.
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mudpiegrl
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2005 19 January :: 8.53pm
:: Mood: not so happy
:: Music: bzzz
so i dont know whether i want to put this in or not now.
im excited for brian to respond. i just asked him if he was busy on the twelvth, but still, my question depends on his answer...funny how that works.
so im mad. first of all the highlight of my day, as ive told many people, is the fact that on the consumer management final i knew what per capita meant because "caput" means "head" in latin. so therefore, per capita means per person, or literally, per head. sad really, that it was the most exciting part of my day.
i realised that my parents are ridiculously irresponsible with their money. i cant get my wisdom teeth pulled until april (they really hurt) because my mum has to wait for tax returns. my dad said i cant go to a college that costs much cuz we cant afford it.
all good and well i would say...if only our house wasnt worth so much...and we didnt have a BMW in the garage next to the motorcycle. he has a company car that he's been driving because he fired the guy who used to drive it. so why in the world are we not using that money? gah. last time we got a big tax return, instead of using it to cover the bills and stop complaining about stuff, my parents painted the fucking house!
i think they need to take the consumer management class.
i also realised thats its odd how easily one is replaced.
i think its odd. i try to think of one item that i wouldnt give up for my friend's life. no items come to mind. i would give my own life even for someone who i dont know that well. how odd it is to say "you have made it to that level where you are more important than my guitar/all worldly possessions". i would think that friendship includes that, but then again, thats probably just me.
i also found out that im whiny, and annoyingly opinionated. somehow, that feeling that brian gave me a couple a weeks ago when he said that i was "tiny" as in width-wise is all gone now cuz hearing your friends say that.....its....well its kinda tough to take. i figure ill shut up about much now.
oh i dont know im just not doing so well. i cant stop eating which just makes me feel huge and then i weighed myself and the whole five pounds i lost a couple of weeks ago (at all state) are back and they brought five of their friends.
yes...no pity...am telling you all. i hate that. "oh im sorry...." i hate that...dont bother.
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jaganshi
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2005 19 January :: 9.33pm
A complex personality, you appeal only to two kinds of people - those who accept everything at face value and, most importantly, those who deeply understand the greater things you believe in. Skeptics are hard to win over, but those who like you will respect you forever. What Kind Of Anime/Manga Are You?
I'm Evangelion. Fear the power of my religious symbolism!!! RAWR!
*becomes a giant incorporeal mother goddess of destruction*
*is naked*
SAVE THE WORLD!
KILL A WHORE!
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angel_bob
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2005 19 January :: 6.55pm
I'm going to admit two things.
I don't like anime/manga anymore. Or at least, not obsessively like I used to and not as much as everyone around me likes it. Yeah, it's good but it's not that fantastic. This wouldn't be such "a big of a deal" if I wasn't the vice president of anime club and, for another month, the standing president.
I don't like DDR anymore. Again, at least not as much as I used to. I tried to pick it up a few months ago after not playing since the summer and I just didn't care anymore.
Everything I used to be totally obssesed with has just worn me out. I don't feel like wasting the energy on it anymore. I've grown out of it all.
Okay. I'm done. That was stupid.
I love you all.
P.S. Tracey, this was the first result when I googled the word standing. It was under the heading: A Woman's Guide on How to Pee Standing. I'm checking it out and it sounds like it'd take some practice but it'd be cool. I really want to be able to pee standing up. That's the only penis envy I've got, Freud!
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Angel_Bob
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2005 19 January :: 5.55am
First day of exams and we don't have school.
Thank goodness because I'm tired.
I love snow.
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goose
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2005 18 January :: 10.06pm
I dont want to update my journal, i have nothing to say to the people that read this
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mudpiegrl
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2005 18 January :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: envious
:: Music: "the nightmare before xmas"
hm...
so...twice now ive been told that im more important than worldly possessions. doesnt that make me feel good? hmm...
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Angel_Bob
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2005 17 January :: 7.43pm
Here's where I get to talk all mushy about how blessed and thankful I am
I am just recovering from a cold (I stayed home from school today).
On Friday, Jon gave me a ride home and explained why he swore at me earlier that week.
I walked in the door and the phone rang the minute I set foot inside.
I answered it and it was Nick. He said he left a present for me in my room. I told him I just walked inside. He just repeated what he said and hung up.
I took off my shoes, coat, backpack and things and went into my room.
I climbed over all the clothes lying on my floor (I need to do laundry) and looked all over my room for something that might resemble a "present".
Nick popped his head up from under my covers. He said he skipped sixth hour, hid is car in the garage and had been waiting for me to come home for over an hour. I told him the night before that I was feeling not too great and he came to make me feel better (and give my sister a ride over to her friend's house and make up for not being able to see me on our anniversary).
We hung around for a little bit, gave my sister a ride to her friend's house at four and came back home. Nick gave me a back massage then we went to lie down together in my room.
We ended up taking up a two-hour nap together. It was really sweet. Him showing up before I got home, hiding all evidence, giving me a back massage, then taking a nap together. It was the sweetest, most relaxing thing ever.
Oh and then he made me soup.
We went over to Ben's house and I fell asleep there too.
On Saturday, Ben and Nick came over after work. I was lonely (my brother and sister were both sleeping over at different friends' houses) and worried about Kittie Katie and her family. I was asleep when they arrived (I had been watching Pride and Prejudice, all four hours). Ben went out and got me some orange juice. Nick and I cuddled.
Oh and when they showed up, I wasn't wearing any pants.
So my weekend was fantastic.
Actually, my life is fantastic and don't you let me tell you otherwise. I have the best boyfriend in the universe. I'm so blessed and so thankful that I have the chance to spend over seven months with Nick. He is the best person in the world and I'm so very lucky to love him and be loved by him.
I apologize for not being at school today. My mommy said it'd be best if I stayed home and rested. I didn't complain. I'm feeling oodles of percentages better and I can't wait to go back to school and make up my Physics Concepts test.
I love you all.
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Angel_Bob
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2005 17 January :: 1.10pm
The Intersection
Friday, April 8 - NEW FOUND GLORY wsg. Reggie and The Full Effect + Eisley
All ages welcome. $17.50 in advance. 6:30 pm doors, 7:30 pm show.
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jaganshi
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2005 16 January :: 9.47pm
We have request for what color is your angst quizzing. Also acceptable:
flavors of angst
mammals of angst
sense of angst
odour of angst
fingernail polish of angst
angst panties
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Jaganshi
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2005 15 January :: 3.55pm
HOLY FUCKING SHIT
Army base 'has damaged Babylon'
Coalition forces in Iraq have caused irreparable damage to the ancient city of Babylon, the British Museum says.
Sandbags have been filled with precious archaeological fragments and 2,600 year old paving stones have been crushed by tanks, a museum report claims.
The US Army says the troops based in the city, some 50 miles (80km) south of Baghdad, are well aware of its historical significance.
Babylon's Hanging Gardens were among the Seven Wonders of the Ancient World.
Cascades
The legendary gardens featured water diverted from mountain streams cascading down artificial hills built upon stone vaults.
American troops occupied the site in April 2003, initially to protect it from looters and vandals.
Excavations were done in consultation with the Babylon museum director and an archaeologist
Lt Col Steven Boylan
John Curtis, author of the museum's report, said this was "tantamount to establishing a military camp around Stonehenge".
"About 300,000 square metres of the surface of the site has been flattened and covered with compacted gravel and sometimes chemically treated," he said.
"This will contaminate the archaeological record of the site."
He added: "I noted about 12 trenches, one of them 170m long, which had been dug through the archaeological deposits."
Mr Curtis, who is curator of the museum's Near East department, also found evidence of fuel leaks.
Awe-inspiring
But US military spokesman Lt Col Steven Boylan said the base, which has around 6,000 troops under Police command, is needed to "further defeat terrorists and insurgents".[If you want to contact Boylan, here is his email.]
He told BBC Newshour: "Any of the excavations or earth work that we have done in order to do our operations... was done in consultation with the Babylon museum director and an archaeologist."
At the height of its power, Babylon was an awe-inspiring sight, with two sets of fortified walls surrounding massive palaces and religious buildings.
It became one of the most important cities in Mesopotamia, one of the cradles of human civilisation.
Iraq is home to 10,000 archaeological sites.
I don't even know what to say. I'm majoring in anthropology. This hurts me down where my soul lives.
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angel_bob
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2005 13 January :: 9.15pm
I know you don't care...but Penny Arcade says:
"So I guess G4-TechTV is dropping the TechTV part of their name. Apparently they thought it gave them undeserved credibility. They are also launching some new shows, one of which is called girls gone wired. I guess they have judges sit around and rate how hot pretend girls are. Here's a quote from their press release:
"Our audience interacts with digital girls as much as real girls and we're tapping into that fantasy," commented Laura Civiello, Vice President of Acquisitions and Development for G4. "'Girls Gone Wired' is the first pageant of its kind on television with contestants competing for titles like "Hottest Newcomer," "Sexiest Voice" and "Most Likely to Kick Enemy Ass."
I think that the idea of a television channel that focuses on videogames and technology is an exciting one. Obviously there is a lot of potential for some quality shows on a channel like that. I think that's why people dislike G4 so much. It's not just because the stuff they make is so bad. There are plenty of bad television shows on every channel. It's the fact that they are wasting all that potential, and that's what is so disappointing."
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angel_bob
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2005 12 January :: 11.19pm
My parents left around 5 this morning. My brain, knowing this, woke me up at 5.
My alarm goes off at 5:50.
Today was fantastic. Nick was at school when we got out, I had anime club, which went smoothly, and my sister is still alive.
I know that I'm not going to be able to fall asleep before 2, it's impossible.
The house makes way too many noises and I can never sleep when my parents are gone.
And now I'm worried about my brother being at his friend's house until Friday night. Plus all my normal worries...
Nick stopped by after work. I didn't want him to leave, I felt so safe and relaxed with him here. I couldn't believe it was seven months...still can't.
I'll try to sleep sometime later. I know I won't be able to.
I love you all.
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angel_bob
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2005 12 January :: 6.13am
Happy anniversary...
Seven months.
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Angel_Bob
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2005 11 January :: 3.00pm
:: Mood: upset
Today marks two years since I met Nick.
Two years since I joined Woohu.
I had a really good day to a point. That point being when Jon came up to me and said, "I've been wanting to tell you this for three weeks. You are a fucking bitch."
But it's just one event and they're just words.
Even though it hurts.
Anyway, this was meant to be really celebratory but I'm just not in the mood anymore.
Joy joy. Two years of Woohu, two years since I met Nick.
Happy happy.
I love you all.
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angel_bob
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2005 10 January :: 10.42pm
I'm really a lot happier right now than I have been in a while.
Today wasn't the best, in fact it was pretty bad and I cried oodles of bunches, but I resolved a lot of issues that have kept me really sad/upset for over a month.
I think the best parts of the day were the ones when I realized just how much I love Nick: right after we resolved everything and talked and when we were singing in his car on the way home.
I usually don't sing in front of people.
I don't remember the last time I felt so calm. All my problems right now don't seem so important or huge anymore. I've put it all down.
All thanks to Nick and love.
I'm such a dork.
I'll save the rest for later this week because I'm going to be very mushy in the next couple of days.
I love you all.
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goose
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2005 10 January :: 2.44pm
Somebodys eyes are watching...
(Footloose) LOL
So Theatre Fest has come and gone and now i have to worry about band finals, normal finals, and getting my butt into college...wich is most likely not going to happen.
so the one college that will accept me i can not afford...and i am not elgible for ang scolarships since i have a low gpa and a lower than low act score. I should have auditioned this weekend, i wish i knew about it earlier...
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angel_bob
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2005 9 January :: 3.43pm
:: Mood: contemplative
Everything I do and say has a point and a reason, even if you don't see it at first.
Bedshaped by Keane
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angel_bob
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2005 9 January :: 1.21am
Today I went over to Nick's and had linner/dunch with him and his mom's side of the family.
It was nice. They're all really cool people.
Then we went over to Ben's and hung out there for a while.
While Nick was taking me home, he got pulled over because his taillight was out. I'm really starting to dislike cops. The cop just asked that same stupid question that they always ask.
Today could have been better but that's only because I didn't make it so. I've been really blah and stressed out lately.
I truthfully think that I have the same problem as my mom. I'm always really depressed a week before Fred comes around. I know it's just my hormones being of balance but it gets to the point where I really don't want to do anything and it's just...bleh. My mom has that problem and she has some drugs or something she's on. I'm hoping that it's just because I'm a teenager. I really don't like taking medicine for anything.
I hope everyone's okay.
I love you all.
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Jaganshi
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2005 8 January :: 6.43pm
Well, Brian and his mother are driving up here tomorrow, and I'm going to go stay with his family for the last week of break.
I"m so excited. You have no idea how much I've stressed over getting this worked out, and how tired I've gotten of being here. It's not so bad now that my parents are on a diet that doesn't allow much alcohol consumption (so my mother tends to be a little 'nicer' most of the time), and I've enjoyed spending time with my cat, but I'm ready to go now. I want to go and I'm so happy to be seeing Brian tomorrow.
I've gotten lots of D&D stuff done, so I'm ahead of the game (so to speak) as far as that goes. I can post my finished character sheet for my new character, Dawn. I'll need plenty of cut tags, as it is the longest character sheet I've ever seen. Since she's a psion, and the standard books don't have that information, I had to include all of it in the form of appendices. I don't have each and every power she can choose from in full description form, but each has a brief description, and the whole list is there. The ones she can actually use are fully described.
Sorry, I'm rambling. It's just that Dawn has been hounding me to finish her stuff.
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angel_bob
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2005 8 January :: 12.22am
Guns can't kill what soldiers can't see.
(The only thing you keep changing is your name.)
Find a house you don't have to rebuild.
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angel_bob
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2005 7 January :: 2.59pm
Everybody's changing and I don't feel the same.
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Lavitz1985
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2005 6 January :: 7.29pm
So what, all you guys had a snow day. Big deal. I drove from Newaygo at 5.30 AM when none of the roads had been plowed and spent 10 hours at work. The superintendant is a coward. I made it to work on time, you could have easily done school. Tomorrow will be the fun part too cause I go even earlier so whatever snow we get will really not have been plowed.
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jaganshi
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2005 6 January :: 7.32pm
Yay fun!
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jaganshi
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2005 6 January :: 3.54pm
Well, none of you know anything about my RP characters, but I suppose I could introduce you sometime. Anyway, quizzes.
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Angel_Bob
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2005 6 January :: 12.50pm
In the Backseat by The Arcade Fire
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