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:: 2008 19 February :: 9.20pm

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The Valentine's Day bunny (my dad) gave to me a gift card for Barnes and Noble. I used it yesterday on four books and then two hours later remembered the four books that I actually wanted and ordered four more. Half will arrive on Thursday and half will be sent out on Thursday. I am excited. I love getting packages and I love books.

I think that tonight I am going to gather up all the books Katti let me borrow and sort them into "have read" and "have not read" piles so I can start sending those back to her.

I also need to do laundry. I just keep rewearing shirts and it's not that great of an idea anymore. Also, I need a shower.

The week after next is my spring break. I am pumped. I need to figure out tomorrow what I'm going to work over break.

I have a lot to do.

To Do:
Finish FAFSA
Finish Meijer scholarship
Do French scholarship
Ask Emily for a ride next Tuesday
Figure out work schedule for spring break
Schedule fall semester classes
Start researching my final papers before the end of April
Think of two profs for recommendation letters
Finish resume
Apply to FBI job
Find more money for next semester (scholarship search!)
Do laundry
Vacuum
Clean up the bathrooms
Pay bills
Find a job for after graduation
Get Hannah a present?
Find and gather all of Katti's books

I have a lot to do. I'm going to have to actually get on this at some point instead of just talking about it.

The Westboro Baptist Church Counter-protest has changed into boring stuff I don't want to do. I wanted blood and arguments and spitting and fights. They want support and a party. Lame posers.

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:: 2008 18 February :: 11.39pm

Upon graduation next year, I will be over $20,000 in debt. Awesome. I just wish I would win the lottery or some rich person would bequeath tons of money to me.

My sister turns 17 on Thursday. That makes me feel old.

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:: 2008 14 February :: 8.03pm

Happy VD!

Unending Love by Rabindranath Tagore

I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times...
In life after life, in age after age, forever.
My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs,
That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms,
In life after life, in age after age, forever.

Whenever I hear old chronicles of love, it's age old pain,
It's ancient tale of being apart or together.
As I stare on and on into the past, in the end you emerge,
Clad in the light of a pole-star, piercing the darkness of time.
You become an image of what is remembered forever.

You and I have floated here on the stream that brings from the fount.
At the heart of time, love of one for another.
We have played along side millions of lovers,
Shared in the same shy sweetness of meeting,
the distressful tears of farewell,
Old love but in shapes that renew and renew forever.

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:: 2008 13 February :: 11.19pm

My icon journal is pretty dead since I don't remember my password and greatestjournal doesn't host pics anymore. I guess it's fine since I can put them on flickr or whatever but I have to get them off greatestjournal and right now I just don't have time. And I can't remember my password so I can't edit the entries.

Sorry, peeps.

If my password ever comes back to me, I'm going to make it my photoblog. I've tried every password I've ever used so it must be one I just used for that journal. Aidez-moi, y'all!

I am watching the last episode of Project Runway before Fashion Week. I shamelessly love this show.

I love you all.

P.S. "Image Hosting: This feature was disabled over a year ago; images that had previously been uploaded have been purged."

So all my icons are gone. Awesome. I don't even know if they're still on my parents' computer. If you have any of the icons I made, it'd be cool if you could email me a copy (onceloviikyu@gmail.com). That'd be great.

This kind of upsets me. I'm just going to remember my password, move on and make it a photoblog.

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:: 2008 12 February :: 12.12am

BLOGGING!
Every time I do my laundry at midnight I think "hmm maybe I shouldn't be running the abnormally loud washing machine at midnight" but then I remember that ABG has come running up here and complained to us about everything we do so if he has a problem, I'm sure he'll let us know.

Since Nick doesn't get home until nine, I usually don't end up doing much housework until after ten. This includes vacuuming. I always feel very conscious of any noise I make after nine, the unofficial "quiet time," especially since our apartment building is usually extremely quiet.

I am writing a page for Humanities tomorrow but I think I'll go take a shower and call it good until tomorrow.

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:: 2008 10 February :: 7.16pm

I love when people who don't have kids but only watch (babysit/daycare) or teach them talk about how kids act or how they should behave. Like those 3-8 hours are representative of how the child is. Or how the parent raises them.

It disgusts me. Especially when they are basing their judgments on a TV show that has been edited to only show certain parts. So when one kid hits the other one, the kids beat on each other all the time. And when the parents are crabby during one episode, they're overbearing tyrants.

Seriously, people? This is all you have to do? You just sit in front of the TV watching this one show and then go online and complain about the half hour of parenting you see these people, the people you don't even KNOW or have even ever MET, do on ONE DAY?

The world is kind of disgusting me today. Also, Mitt Romney says if the democrats win, the terrorists win. I'm kind of tiring of hearing about the terrorists winning because of the opposite political party. This fear mongering shit is getting old, people. The sad thing is that it works on some people. Those same people are probably really excited for Larry the Cable Guy in Witness Protection.

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:: 2008 9 February :: 2.42pm

The only role I can stand Julia Roberts in seems to be Tinkerbell in Hook. She's not grumpy, at some points she's smiling and moving her arms. She has a different look on her face than that same look she has in every other movie she's in.

That same look:Read more..

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:: 2008 6 February :: 5.16pm

c/o defectiveyeti.com - awesome blog btw

EPIC

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:: 2008 4 February :: 8.17pm

I have to choose, for tomorrow, the dance I want to teach for my Folk and Square Dance class.

I have it narrowed down to five dances. I am going to sign up to teach Easy Come Easy Go (a line dance, which everyone but Ashley and I love) but I have the four backups just in case.

I've decided that dancing is my hobby. It's so much fun, I'm going to have to find classes or something once this class is over.

I love you all.

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:: 2008 2 February :: 11.07pm

Does anyone need a babysitter or know of someone who needs a babysitter? Or needs help moving or help with anything?

I could use a little extra cash this week and next week. Our bank being stupid sort of screwed us over a lot.

So if you need anything or know anyone who needs anything, let me know.

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:: 2008 31 January :: 7.41pm

I want to go on a vacation this year with Nick so I was looking at train rides yesterday.

Nick and I were thinking of going to Seattle/San Fran/Portland/west coast. Is anything awesome happening anywhere in June or July? I just remembered that I might be working full time in June and July. Okay, anything happening in the Seattle-area in May?

Or does anyone know of anything awesome happening anywhere in May?

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:: 2008 30 January :: 9.46am
:: Mood: ugh

I made Nick drive me all the way to work before thinking that possibly the school was closed. We pulled into the parking lot and I thought: where are all the cars? I called the weather hotline and then Campus Safety who confirmed that "all functions and classes are canceled today" means that all offices are closed too.

And then we realized that our account was overdrafted making us literally poor. My paycheck on Friday, instead of going to food for the next two weeks, will go to paying off all the account fees. And Nick's paycheck will all go to rent, still making us very, very poor for two weeks. And we'd just gotten all caught up. It was ridiculous because none of these charges showed up until yesterday when all of them took place a week ago.

I love you all.

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:: 2008 29 January :: 11.24pm

Our electricity went out for a few seconds but now it's back on. I almost hope it goes out again because not having electricity is a lot of fun.

Also, birthday laptop = awesome. Rutherford B Hayes be his name.

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:: 2008 28 January :: 1.36am

It is my birthday. I am 21 years old. This is exciting. I will officially be 21 at 8:25 Chicago time.

I went ice skating for the first time ever on Saturday and it was the most fun I've had in a long time. I was so happy and just smiling the entire time. The skates hurt my feet a lot though and now I have two really gross looking blisters on my ankles. They hurt a little. I have decided that I am going to join an ice skating nomad colony and ice skate for the rest of my days.

I am writing this all on the Wii using a USB keyboard. Jason, you should submit Eddie Izzard to the Check Mii Out channel.

Happy birthday to me! I kind of feel like celebrating with a drink but I have class at 11 and I'm not really thirsty.

I love you all.

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:: 2008 25 January :: 8.51am

I uploaded what could be called "a shit ton" of photos on flickr the other day but none of them are labeled or anything. If you want to see my unnamed photos go here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/littlewindow/

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:: 2008 24 January :: 4.56pm

Birthday Weekend begins tomorrow.

I don't know how many of y'all are going to be in town but on Saturday we're going ice skating. I don't know what time or anything yet. On Sunday I want to go sledding or tubing or something but at Pando or wherever it's expensive so I might just get a sled and find a hill somewhere. I want to try to go out at midnight but all you school kids will probably be gone and I'll have a hard time finding a place anyway.

Let me know if you want to join the festivities.

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:: 2008 17 January :: 10.37pm

So I'm only writing in here so much cuz I seem to be missing friends, but mainly a roommate who I can just spew thoughts to.

I'm excited about this show, Scorched, because he wants something big and unrealistic, and we have an awesome budget for it. I'm worried that, like all the things I get super excited about, it's going to fall short or something will be retracted and I'll end up disappointed...again.

I'm pretty sick of that happening, actually. I don't mind going day to day with nothing exciting, though I'd probably whine there was nothing interesting. But it would be nice if the things that excite me so much that I tell everyone I see did not fall through so when they ask how it went, I don't have to embarressingly admit that it acutally didn't happen at all.

I can finally pay for school, so I can finally register this week, thank god.

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:: 2008 17 January :: 7.33pm

I can now be found at:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/littlewindow/

Hopefully I will get a pro account for my birthday. I'm going to post more of my pictures later when I get the pro account.

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:: 2008 16 January :: 8.34pm

I have noticed that the feeling I get from drinking is the same feeling I get with really bad cramps except the pain is social awesomeness and laughter.

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:: 2008 14 January :: 8.28pm

I am going to start saving up my pennies for this baby stroller.

Srsly.

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:: 2008 14 January :: 7.03pm

My Folk and Square Dance class is getting increasingly more awesome. My leg hurt after the first day but it was fine by the second. We learned the Hukilau and a couple line dances.

Dancing is my kind of exercise.

I have decided that I really don't want children for a while. I'm even okay with not getting married for a while.

I am beginning to freak out about graduating in a year because it turns out, I will graduate on time.

I drank a bit on Saturday. It was fun. I am so excited for my birthday. Seriously. It'll be keen.

I have to think up a topic for a paper for my EU class. I want to do it on Hungary but they were talking about not doubling up and choosing countries out of a hat... I just want to write it on Hungary.

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:: 2008 8 January :: 11.07pm

I am taking a Folk and Square Dance course that is designed for Health and Physical EDUCATION majors. Ashley and I are the only non-athletic people in that class.

Instead of an exam, we have to draw up a lesson plan and teach a dance move that should take about twenty minutes. I was thinking about teaching the hobo dance and making something up or doing the jitterbug or belly dancing but I decided not to.

Instead, I am going to teach the Charleston. I don't know how to do it but I've always wanted to learn. I figure that if I have to teach people, I'll learn it far better than I ever would on my own.

In other news, I am thinking of not working this semester. I have a lot of classes and a lot of work to do. We shall see. I might just cut down to nine hours of work.

I love you all.

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:: 2008 8 January :: 1.08pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: The Dryer

I don't know what i'm doing. i might not go to school next semester because of money and that means no lasers like i promised faith and no shows like i said i'd work on. i also can't pay rent. i hate myself for that. and also for doing whatever it is that i did wrong. i shouldn't be this affected, logically, being only a week, but it still stings to the point where i'm doing anything to avoid thinking about it. i've watched more movies the last three days than i have in all of the semester put together. it's easier.

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:: 2008 7 January :: 11.59pm

This semester is going to suck.

I had two classes today and I have four tomorrow. My final class tomorrow is what I politely refer to as a semester-long quad. It's a semester-long course that starts at 6:30 and ends at 9:30. Woo.

On the bright side, my French class that I had today is canceled for the rest of this week and the Monday of next week. Also, tomorrow is the first day of my Folk and Square Dance class. Hopefully it will be just fun and not just work.

Here's to an awesome semester!

Also, all of you need to come home on the weekend of January 25 so we can celebrate my big two-one. I am contemplating partying Monday night too and just skipping my 9:25 class. We shall see.

I love you all. I hope everyone is doing well.

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:: 2008 4 January :: 8.58am

So, Ben's journal got deleted.

This means we must restart THE COMMENT POST OF DOOM.

Anyone up for it?

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:: 2008 1 January :: 2.12am
:: Music: Mushaboom by Feist

A year in review: month by month
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Proof that the world falls apart when I leave the country:
Britney shaved her head while we were in Amsterdam.
There was a school shooting while we were in France.
Kurt Vonnegut died.
Anna Nicole Smith died.
Britney hit a car with an umbrella while we were in London.
My dad went into the hospital.
My cat began to fall over regularly.

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:: 2007 20 December :: 12.03pm

I got my grades!

The one class I was concerned about (because I had missed a large number of classes (due to illness and the fact that it was at 8) and you can only miss four before your grade drops (the prof took attendance EVERY DAY)) turned out great. It didn't drop at all and I know I missed more than four. I'm not complaining about that.

Also, there was another class I was slightly concerned about that my straight-As-friend got a C- in. But even that turned out fine.

So, my lame ass gen ed semester was okay. Next semester is pretty much the same so...excitement. Not.

And that's it.

Rumor has it my mom and I are going to bake cookies and wrap presents and go shopping today. I haven't heard from her yet so I'm going to go call her in a bit. I love shopping and cookies so I want to go as soon as we can.

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:: 2007 19 December :: 9.30pm

The kitties. I now totally understand those people who don't have children and baby their pets.

Here are my babies.
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:: 2007 19 December :: 1.56pm

Christmas stories
My mom would always tell us stories about how forgetful my grandmother would be sometimes. She'd give us the same gifts two years in a row or think she gave us a present that we never got.

One Christmas, she asked my uncle how he liked his new watch. His only response was "what watch?" She forgot to give it to him and found it in the upstairs closet.

Last year, my mom got my brother a cheese cutting board. He likes cheese and kitchen things. A few days after Christmas, we got a big chunk of cheese and Mom suggested Buddy use his new cheese board to cut it. He sort of just gave me and Mom blank looks and said "I didn't get anything like that."

Mom and I exchanged looks and I laughed at her, bringing up the story she always told about my grandma. We searched everywhere for that darn cheese board. I was there when she bought it, it was heavy enough that I remember putting it in the car.

She finally found it in her bedroom closet.

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:: 2007 15 December :: 11.39pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: the refrigerator

::edit:: whenever i make plans period, they fall apart.

and then i'm disappointed...big surprise.

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