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cradleofilth

:: 2004 19 January :: 12.11am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: "smells like teen spirit"-nirvana

i took an odd test...
DisorderRating
Paranoid:Moderate
Schizoid:Moderate
Schizotypal:Moderate
Antisocial:High
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Low
Narcissistic:Low
Avoidant:Moderate
Dependent:Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:Moderate

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --


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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 18 January :: 10.01pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Happier by Guster

Bzoink
I took some surveys because I'm so bored. If someone called me right now, I'd dive for the phone. That's how bored I am.

Anyway. The surveys. They're really long because I'm really bored. I'm gonna go eat in a second. That's my second anti-boredom tactic.

Read more..

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 18 January :: 2.26pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Guster

I'm trying to find an mp3 of Cindy Morgan's Job
I have a killer headache. I love Sundays. It means Monday is right around the corner. And Friday's not far off.


Say goodbye
Lose your friends
Make them go
Don't need them around
Cuz it's time
Lose your friends
Make them go
Was never supposed to be like this
They were too weak
Too prone to break
Their needs too deep
Their skin too thin
By now you took what was to take
Tear it apart and start again

So go on
If this will make you happier
It got you this far
Did what you had to

You've wasted
Every moment
Of your Saturdays and your Sundays
You're wasted
From the boredom
Was never supposed to be like this

Like your father said
Just do what was done unto you
Always
In your father's steps
You'll do what was done unto you
It won't be hard to start again

So go on
If this will make you happier
It got you this far
Do what you have to

(Well you knew this would come)
And you're gone now
(And you've left me all alone)
And did it make you happier?
(And you're lost and long gone)
(Don't take it so seriously)
It wasn't that hard
(Go on and get going)
(I'm fine on my own)
Did what you had to
(We got you this far)
(Finally got it figured out)

One more itch
You son of a bitch
You've been wasting my time
Always
And now you're half awake
You bend till you break
And make the same mistakes
Always

So go on
If this will make you happier
It got you this far
Do what you have to

(Well you knew this would come)
And you're gone now
(And you've left me all alone)
And did it make you happier?
(And you're lost and long gone)
(Don't take it so seriously)
It wasn't that hard
(Go on and get going)
(I'm fine on my own)
Did what you had to
(We got you this far)
(Finally got it figured out)

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 17 January :: 10.05pm

Note to all who don't care
I have a new obsession. A new band. A new group to fawn over for a couple of weeks.


Their name?

Guster.

Their music?

I love it. It's... I don't know how to describe it. I forgot the terms and definitions for types of music a long time ago. It's Rachel-esque. It's something you listen to and think 'hey, Rachel would like this'. Or at least you should.

Ha.

Guster. Remember that name. You're going to be hearing it a lot.

Plus, my birthday is coming up. Hint. Hint.

I love you all.

[edit 10:20]
They put their CD on vinyl! I am so geeked!

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 17 January :: 5.54pm

I suck.

It's my fault.

And I apologize.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 17 January :: 12.38am

Why isn't anyone awake? It's only almost 1. That's not late at all. Sleep? Who needs sleep? You need to talk to Rachel that's what you need to do. Yup. Talk to Rachel and Katie and Kelly at 12:38am when we're all half-asleep.

But no. I guess some people actually go to bed. That's a new concept. Wow. Sounds like a good idea. NO! EVIL! BAD! SLEEP=NOT FUN! STAY UP FOREVER! GO ONLINE!

Yes. Wow. Maybe I do need to eat some cheese. That's a good suggestion.

I really enjoy looking at clouds.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 15 January :: 10.45pm

Time by Chantal Kreviazuk
Why in the world am I still awake?

I'm exhausted, I feel like shit, no one on the messenger is talking to me, my head hurts and I'm still awake.

I have no need to be. I have nothing I am doing. I have nothing I am.

I'm just listening to this song... over and over...

I love it.

I'm so angsty. I wish I wasn't.

Time...
Where did you go?
Why did you leave me here alone?

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 15 January :: 4.08pm

They stole our word!

"the anchor is reporting the mayor's characterization of Will as a "disgruntled malcontent" -- as opposed to the gruntled kind, I guess. (Can you be a gruntled content?)"

Anyway, if you didn't see the Joan of Arcadia from last week (or want to refresh your memory with details and commentary before tomorrow's episode) this site might be good for you. I'm trying to think of why it was called 'Jump'.

I love you all.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 15 January :: 2.29pm

Today I had my French 3 exam and AP History.

I didn't have an AP History exam, as I stated earlier. We watched a movie on the trans-continental railroad. Mr. Miller was right next to me and I fell asleep a couple times. Or else just zoned out a ton. I woke up with a half an hour left of the movie and I was awake. It was pretty good and interesting once I paid attention to it. Mr. Miller kept laughing at parts that weren't that funny. After I just woke up, he said something about the buffalo being circus buffalo. I didn't catch all of it and had no idea what he was talking about so I just laughed and smiled.

French was so hilarious. Kelly and I were going back and forth making fun of the French words and not really studying. When it came to taking the exam, Mr. Noren knew we didn't know half of it since we switched teachers so much. We kept asking him questions, saying we didn't know any of it and he said "that's why I'm curving it." We kept asking him what all the different words were and he finally said, "You guys can go ahead and use the dictionaries." After a few seconds, he spoke again, "You know what? I want you guys to do well on this so you can work together with one other person."

It was Mrs. Sac's exam so we knew it was going to be hard. There were so many typos on it, it might've been Spanish for all we knew. Kelly and I would stop working sometimes and start laughing for five minutes because it was so horrible.

All in all, even with the dictionaries and each other, Kelly and I guessed on some of it.

It was the best exam ever.

Tomorrow I have my Japanese and Chemistry exams. They'll both be hard.

I guess I'll go eat or something after I throw these lyrics at you.

I love you all. I'm always here to talk to if you need to.


I'll be your candle on the water
My love for you will always burn
I know you're lost and drifting
But the clouds are lifting
Don't give up you'll have somewhere to turn

I'll be your candle on the water
'Till ev'ry wave is warm and bright
My soul is there beside you
Let this candle guide you
Soon you'll see a golden stream of light

A cold and friendless tide has found you
Don't let the stormy darkness pull you down
I'll paint a ray of hope around you
Circling in the air
Lighted by a prayer

I'll be your candle on the water
This flame inside of me will grow
Keep holding on you'll make it
Here's my hand so take it
Look for me reaching out to show
As sure as rivers flow
I'll never let you go
I'll never let you go
I'll never let you go...

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 14 January :: 9.51pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Last Days of April

I couldn't breathe the air...I could've sworn that I was dead
You think you've got it all figured out... figure this out.

I was exhausted when I came home from school.

I fell asleep at around 4 and set my alarm for 4:30 so I'd wake up and not sleep forever.

I woke up at 4 and set my alarm for 5:30 because I was still exhausted.

I woke up at 5:30 and turned my alarm off.

My dad came into my room at 7, woke me up, and asked me if I wanted to eat something.

I hope I'm not getting sick. I think I just need more sleep.

I fell asleep early last night though. Well early for me. I got in bed around 11:30 and fell asleep around midnight or midnight-thirty.

That's 5 and a half to six hours of sleep. It's usually enough for me. Hell, I've gone through a couple of days with two hours of sleep.

Anyway, today I had my English and World Religions exams. They were both pretty easy.

For English, Mrs. Harley read us some story and we had to basically state our opinion on tons of stuff. Then we had to choose three out of six essays to write about. My first essay took up the front of one page and about three lines on the back. My second question took up the rest of the back of that page. The third question I chose was the best because it was about transcendentalism. I love Emerson. Thoreau's awesome too but I like Emerson more. Anywho, that essay took up the front of my second piece of paper and about half of the back.

Speaking of transcendentalism, I found this quote by Thoreau: "Every generation laughs at the old fashions, but follows religiously the new."

I'm in a manga mood. I found some awesome new ones I want to check out. I also want to re-read Wish for the 400 billionth time. I love that manga so much. I always cry when I read it.

Tomorrow I have my French 3 exam. We don't have an exam in AP History so Mr. Miller said we're going to watch a movie on the trans-continental railroad and take notes. I don't have to take notes since I'm switching to a regular history class next semester (Monday). I'll probably read, write and study French.

I hope I have the same lunch as Katie and Ben next semester. That'd be fun.

Well I'm going to go pretend to do something productive.

I love you all. Good luck on your exams.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 14 January :: 6.20am

Exams start today.

I have a killer headache.

I'm going to eat breakfast.

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Lavitz1985

:: 2004 13 January :: 3.19pm

This will be my last entry into Woohu for a while. I'll return at some point, and will comment occasionally.

"You are free to sever the chains of fate that bind you"


Lavitz1985

:: 2004 13 January :: 2.26am

A Survey, How Special
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I would kill myself?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your live journal and see what I say about you?
21. Would you ever date me?


Angel_Bob

:: 2004 12 January :: 9.30pm

I just wanted to say this, since I haven't been the best at commenting on your journal entries lately.


I can tell some of you guys are going through shit and it's mainly all of the friends I never see.

I just wanted you guys to know, I love you all so much it isn't even funny.

Alex and Amelia especially, you guys are having a tough time and I wish I could be there to give you a hug and a shoulder to cry on. I wish I could just to be there to tell you it's all okay and that you could always talk to me.

Since I can't, you all get a nice entry.

I love you all. Very very much. Sometimes I'm so wrapped up in my own life, I can't see what's wrong or I don't want to. I just hope that you all can look pass the teeny stuff that goes wrong and realize that you're wonderful and people love you.

I love you.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 12 January :: 5.30pm
:: Mood: byoki
:: Music: SOAD in my head

Today was boring. It's Monday so I guess that's given.

We didn't do anything interesting. Exam week is always fun because you never do anything except review in all of the classes.

A bus rolled over in St. Louis.

Tonight, there's a school board meeting to decide if (to save money and hopefully heat the school) they will cut six Fridays out of the year. Starting in February I think.

I love you all.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 12 January :: 12.03am
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: iuno

theatre fest
okie so this is a long story, and if you went, chances are you know it all and wont need to read this......well....no one needs to read this, its more a matter of curiosity. yes...done analyzing.

so we left after seventh period on thursday...and i had to pee the whole trip. we watched blues brothers, well i talked mostly...brittany mead slept and casey slept on angelique...wender fell asleep doing his latin and chris nearly fell asleep...eventually jackie ended up next to wender (who would have guessed) after he woke up and they talked and brittany woke up too...okie...so enough of that...um...we stopped to pee....um...then we arrived and we went to the hotel, which was several seperate cabins, each containing eight rooms. the downstairs rooms, i believe, are smaller, but the upstairs rooms had two levels, a bed on each, a couch and two tv's, a kitchen with a fridge, dishwasher, sink, stove, microwave, pots and pans, cutlery, a strainer, a measuring cup, a spatula, a serving spoon, and a ladle! twas exciting...oh yea and two bathrooms...twas nuts..it was a large apartment...patrice and jackie slept upstairs, jill and i slept downstairs, and angelique slept on the pull out couch.

spencer, neil, wender, nick, and chris slept in a room in the next building upstairs on the other side of the building....its difficult to explain...well...they went to the gas station to stock up on food because, well, you know guys...and i had gotten sick the day before and complained and blew my nose the whole time...my throat hurt and the only lozenge i had i accidently swallowed...so we had twenty minutes or so before we had the orientation meeting...thats when the guys went...but they didnt tell us so i couldnt get any soft kleenex's (my nose really hurt) or sore throat things...then we went and it was sort of boring, but meh...the lady told a story and she spent too long on the introduction part so it was like blah! but it was a good story otherwise. then we went back to the hotel (motel?) and i asked if neil and spencer would go with us to get food and my stuff from the gas station...and they told us after they figured out what we were doing because we had about twenty minutes between returning and going to the meeting where we would get our tickets for shows. but we didnt end up going and then it was nearly lights out...but jill wasnt feeling well and they had hot chocolate (the guys) and so we wanted some, but we all had changed into our pajamas already, and they were still fully dressed, at least, everyone but neil. when i called he said "hold on, let me put some pants on" ::rolls eyes:: he was wearing shorts. so they made us go over to their cabin (gr) to get food and then spencer was like 'tell jill to feel better', which, he probably should've come himself to tell her that but no matter.

the next day is another longer story, so ill tell that tmro...i need sleep. finals are this week.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 11 January :: 5.02pm

Nature is a language - can't you read ?
Nature is a language - can't you read ?

SO ... ASK ME, ASK ME, ASK ME
ASK ME, ASK ME, ASK ME

Because if it's not Love
Then it's the Bomb, the Bomb, the Bomb
the Bomb, the Bomb, the Bomb, the Bomb
That will bring us together



Yay! Tomorrow starts the horrid week of exams. Then we can get it over with and move on.

I need a haircut.

I think this year is going incredibly fast so far. I don't remember half of it going by.

So the next half will be even better.

Magic Pengel just popped in my head. I don't know why.

I'm going to start my homework at 6:30. Strong Bad will inform me when that time happens to come about.

Katie, since you love VGCats, you should join the forums.

My life = totally unevenful.

I like it that way.

I love you all. I hope your life is more interesting than mine.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 10 January :: 2.35pm

Booyaka

The Smiths
I am the epitome of unrequited love but at least I do something constructive with it.. sing beautiful songs, which will continue to win audiences over years after we have split up. I can be wistful, cathartic and depressive but at the same time I am a very deep, thoughtful person. More than likely I am contemplating something very important even if I don't look like the sort! I think before I speak and so what I say somehow has more meaning. Basically, I'm a well rounded person so nyah :p
Which 80s band are you?
Test created by Sambam of blackeyed.net/tristessa



I lurve the Smiths.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 10 January :: 2.23pm

Any other day someone would've woken me up.

But today.

No.

I will not be able to sleep tonight. And I just started being able to fall asleep before 2am.

Errg.

I want out of the house.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 9 January :: 9.00pm

Joan of Arcadia
The Joan of Arcadia tonight was fantastic. It wasn't that great in the beginning, everything felt a little forced.

But at the end.

When Mrs. Girardi read the note from Adam's mom, I almost cried.

Then at the end, with the feathers falling and the kiss...

I smiled. And cried.

The guy who plays Adam, Christopher Marquette, is hot. Really, really, really hot. *drools* I am such a fangirl.

He's 0wnz0r3d by Kittie Katie and I but we're willing to share.

Maybe.

I love that show.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 9 January :: 3.19pm

OMFG!
Tonight's Joan of Arcadia episode:


January 9, 8PM ET/PT
"Jump"

Joan attempts to intervene when she discovers that Adam may be considering suicide.



Not my Adam! DON'T DIE, ADAM! I LOVE YOU! JOAN LOVES YOU TOO! SHE JUST TALKS TO GOD! SHE DIDN'T MEAN TO BREAK YOUR HEART!! DON'T DIE!

Wow. I don't get emotional over TV programs. For some reason, Joan of Arcadia is different. I care about what goes on as if it was one of my friends going through what Joan is.

I hope Adam doesn't kill himself. He's so nice and cute.

I love you, Adam!

Ok I'm done.

Almost.

Watch Joan of Arcadia tonight. CBS. 8pm ET.

It'll be good. Trust me.

[edit 3:51]
You really never know how much you can affect people.

I found more articles about my uncle David.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 8 January :: 7.55pm

I have time and I'm trying not to fall asleep
Funerals, since Kyle asked, suck.

I've been to four. I'm 16.

My grandfather in first or second grade, my grandmother and my aunt in seventh grade and my uncle this year.

I don't remember much about my grandfather's funeral. At the viewing my mother told my cousins and me to stop being so loud because we were "loud enough to wake the dead". That's all I remember.

At my grandmother's funeral, we went to the viewing then to the church. After going to a church service that included communion, we went to the cemetary. At the cemetary, a few words were said then we all went home I guess. I don't remember.

At my aunt's funeral... That's the one I remember. At the viewing she looked different. She wasn't Aunt Patty. She was... someone who died. My cousin hid his pain very well or else he was handling it way better than anyone I know could. I'd be sobbing eternally if my mother died. After the viewing, we followed the hearse to the church for a service. Hannah and I did the little word things. I can't believe I can't remember what they're called. I feel stupid. Well we said these prayers for Tyler and everyone. I almost cried. My voice cracked and got really quiet. I kept them if you want to read em. After church we went to the cemetary then to Tyler's house.

My uncle's was different. His death affected everyone at his school. On Friday, there was the viewing for the family in the morning but we couldn't make it. Later that night, there was a viewing at a Baptist church in Cincinnati. All these kids from the school were there. On Saturday, there was a sort of serivice at this pretty place called the arboreum. It was more of a memorial thing since everyone there was different religions. It's amazing how many people you affect without realizing it. Teachers were there, students, secretaries. We then all went to the cemetary. There were a few words said and the good old may he rest in peace until the day of judgement thing. My aunt Susan invited us all over to her house and the family and some friends went. Before we went, we went to where my aunt, grandmother, grandfather and my uncle (who died when I was a few months old) were all buried.

All in all, funerals are sad.

Wait, I've been to five funerals. My little sister's classmate died a few years ago and I went to that one too.

I don't want to go to anymore until I'm old enough to handle them.

I'm not now.

I love you all.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 8 January :: 5.46pm

Okay I've got it
What do I want for my birthday?

A Cat Stevens record. Not a CD, a record. They sound better and cost less.

Yes they sound better. I don't care what you say, they do.

And Cat Stevens is my new obsession.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 8 January :: 4.06pm

Quizzes
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cradleofilth

:: 2004 8 January :: 8.09am

Three things that scare me:
1:my sister
2:clowns
3:termites
Three people who make me laugh:
1:alexa
2:jocelyn
3:kaley
Three Things I love:
1:talking on phone late at night
2:sleeping
3:kisses
Three Things I hate:
1:school
2:jeff
3:mrs. johnson
Three things I don't understand:
1:homework
2:drive though atm's with braile for blind people
3:why people have such closed minds
Three things on my desk:
1:paper
2:cd's
3:books
Three things I'm doing right now:
1:getting dressed for school
2:doing this survey
3:updating journal
Three things I want to do before I die:
1:meet the love of my life
2:fly a helicopter without blowing it up
3:become a multi millionaire
Three things I can do:
1:eat
2:sleep
3:talk
Three ways to describe my personality:
1:shy
2:quiet
3:trustworthy (at least to my friends i am)
Three things I can't do:
1:fly
2:get straight A's
3:use profanity >.< ( i dont know why, but i can never do it)

Three Things brought to you by BZOINK!

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 8 January :: 6.39am

I believe in a thing called love
This song is stuck "on my head".

Really a lot.

I have a History test today and I didn't study.

I forgot.

sux0rz

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 7 January :: 6.10pm

Today, instead of being a nice short two-hour delay day, felt like a normal day.

That sux0rz. I got ripped off.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 7 January :: 4.42pm

I scored a 59% on the "How Vernon Hills are you?" Quizie! What about you?

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 7 January :: 4.07pm
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: incubus

i found her!
so i found jen! i lost her...she went home...she wasnt feeling well...im sooo excited for theatre fest!!! yea......thats all i got...

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cradleofilth

:: 2004 7 January :: 9.01am
:: Mood: accomplished

survey!!!!
Whats your name?:joe
How old are you?:14
What is your favorite band?:Cradle of filth
Your favorite song?:ummm......death of seasons by AFI`
Favorite Color?:blue
Favorite Food(s):pizza, rice, sushi, ramen!
Dogs or Cats:cats
Rice or Noodles?:noodles
Do you like school?:only because of my friends
Why?:i love em to death
Favorite Movie:hmmm...princess mononoke!
Your favorite #:7?
Favorite Drink?:coca-cola
Weight:erm....
Height:5'8-5'9 i dunno..

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