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mudpiegrl

:: 2006 16 July :: 12.14pm
:: Mood: guilty

Sorry, it's long. It's interesting...
My grandpa died, so the last four days, I was in Vancouver. We left on Wednesday to see the relatives we hadn’t seen for at least eight years, depending on the body. The beginning was strange...like reassociation.
If you didn’t know better, Nanny seemed like nothing had happened at all.
The memorial was on Thursday, and it was like being in the geriatric wing of a hospital. Three of his four kids spoke, one’s wife, and my brother in place of my dad. My brother actually cried, for what, I believe, was his first time since finding out the news. He acted fairly unaffected until then. Bernice (the youngest kid, our aunt) cornered Tyler, questioning him about our mum’s drinking and what we were doing about it. She said that no one had recognized when she arrived at Christmas. When she had left them then, Grandpa put his head down, shaking it, saying, “We’ve lost that one” and Nanny said that she’s a lost cause.
During the socializing part of the service, the cousins (Brooke, Cory, Rayden, Tyler, and me) planned to meet the next day for the BC Lions football game. We planned to pick up Cory and her boyfriend at their house to see it and then meet at Brooke’s for an hour or so, because it’s about ten minutes from the stadium. That night we went to a Greek restaurant, where I had the best lamb I've ever had.
But Rayden ended up picking us up at the hotel and took us to Cory’s house, where I saw the largest quantities of pot I've ever seen: filling a thirty gallon plastic bin. (It’s legal in BC; you’re allowed eight plants. It’s well-known enough that it’s called BC’s Best here.) They’d ordered a limo to pick us up there. Cory’s friend Twig and his girlfriend, Randy, showed up late, along with her boyfriend, Ryan. The limo was there at six and they weren’t ready yet. There began the wonderful limo ride.
The lady was strange immediately. The one rule was they couldn’t smoke, which they all do, as you could imagine. She said the sun roof had been bolted shut and the front window didn’t go up. The side container had rotten beer and mass amounts of fruit flies in it. These were all complaining points. We stopped at a liquor store (the age is 19) and everyone but Tyler and I got out to smoke and to buy. Then, because they had taken so long to get ready and get in the car, our hour was nearly up. It was a hundred dollars each way, and she tried to tell us that if we picked up Brooke and her boyfriend, Rory, that it would be another sixty dollars, rather than fifty. That didn’t go over so well. Once we had reached Vancouver, Rayden lit up…and she knew it. She threatened to kick us out. When we got to the pavilion, she said she wasn’t coming back. Ryan got $135 back (we originally paid $250) and we went in the game, dreading Cory, Ryan, Rayden, his girlfriend, Twig, and Randy joining us. In fact, Brooke, Rory, Tyler and I feared we’d be escorted out because they’d cause trouble. After the game, we went to a nearby bar. Rayden and his girlfriend left early, and Twig and Randy got in a fight where Randy ended up catching a cab herself. So Twig, Cory, Ryan and we goodfour were left. Brooke and Rory went home, because it was ten minutes away, but the other five of us had to try to catch a cab. The first one we found said eighty dollars to fit us in a normal size car. We attempted to get a van, which only took four. We ended up getting someone to do it for a hundred: seventy for the company, thirty dollars tip. We took them home from the hotel. Tyler and I walked in the hotel room at ten to three. My mum was up, making phone calls, getting her flight changed to the twenty-first. She hadn’t asked anyone, so the next morning when Nancy (my aunt by marriage) arrived at five-thirty to say goodbye to us, she was surprised to find out she had to take my mum back…to a family who was not prepared to have her for another week. She called Tyler and I as we arrived in Dallas, telling us she’d be home the next day.
The airport was yet another adventure that neither of us was prepared to face after two and a half hours of sleep. We arrived at the airport at seven-thirty and rushed through everything we could, thinking our flight was at eight o’clock. At security, I got chosen to be patted down. It got us through the line faster and she told us that the boarding was at eight o’clock. We got breakfast and jumped on the plane. We shared headphones and watched Ice Age 2 on the flight, which Tyler fell asleep at the very end. The both of us had really rough sleeps. We arrived in Dallas with two hours left, so we went to Friday’s and got wings and chips and dip. I passed out for a good hour on the Dallas-Chicago flight. Once at Chicago, we both checked one of our bags. But they weren’t at Claim 9, as they’d said they’d be. In fact, half of our flight’s bags didn’t make it there…or to Chicago at all. Nor did half the flight’s before us. Nor did some of Salt Lake City. So of course, the baggage claim was full of angry people, screaming at employees and bitching to each other. We’d arrived at six forty-five, twenty-five minutes early. We didn’t walk out of there until two hours later. Then we had to wait for the bus to take us to economy parking lot F. Then we had to buy toothbrushes and deodorant.
I came home with the responsibility my mum had agreed to previous to the trip. I had to take the neighbour’s two dogs out as well as ours. Now they’re at our house.
It was an interesting trip.
It makes me really sad that my grandpa died thinking knowing he had failed as a father with one of his five kids.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 16 July :: 10.22am

Layout, FTW.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 15 July :: 11.45am

Blah.

I really don't feel like sticking out at Meijer until school starts. I hate it. I'm tired and then I get home and I can't sleep. Then I'm just sore the next day.



I'm going with Nick to Cleveland this weekend. His work is having some thing down there and I'm going along. It'll be fun. If I can just survive this week.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 14 July :: 3.22pm

I want a Brompton bicycle. They fold (!) and look really dorky.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 13 July :: 5.54pm

I don't know how people found out the awesome route I take home or who these people are but they need to go back to their other route. They drive too slowly.



Hannah and I are making a story about Superman and Jimmy Olson's secret man crush on each other. It rocks.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 8 July :: 9.20am

Second job went okay last night. I was so stressed out once that I cried and had to sit down. The night went quickly, hopefully today and tomorrow and Monday will too.

I need a hug.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 7 July :: 1.11pm

A proof (!) in pictures (!):


Read more..

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angel_bob

:: 2006 7 July :: 11.35am

When did Becky's mom pass away?

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angel_bob

:: 2006 6 July :: 9.48pm

I hit my first woodland creature today.

I cried and called Nick. He reassured me that the poor chipmunk had cancer and I relieved it from its suffering.

I didn't get a chance to brake.

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I have on the job training tomorrow. So basically my first day of my second job. I'm nervous.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 5 July :: 4.55pm

I'm so tired. I have training again today, I don't know what else we need to learn.


Tired...

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 4 July :: 4.14pm

I guess I passed out yesterday or something. I insist that I just fell but Nick says it sounds like I passed out.

And that's what everyone has been talking about it as.

I haven't told my parents.

It was embarrassing.

I love you all.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2006 3 July :: 3.14pm

im in between workings. i just returned from the studio and now am going to yardhouse.

i hate how everything is right now. i want to be able to just sit and talk to someone. but the only people i ever want to talk to always have someone else with them wherever they go. or dont call me back at all.

my mum went through the table. of course, she was drunk...what else is new. so it's broken; im surprised she isnt.

so i really wnat to make a trip to the hospital...take a gander at opportunites for detox for her. she needs it badly.

work time.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 3 July :: 9.25am

"It is not time or opportunity that is to determine intimacy; it is disposition alone. Seven years would be insufficient to make some people acquainted with each other, and seven days are more than enough for others."

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 30 June :: 2.59pm

I am an official member of:




And we are welcoming visitors and new members.

(We will be updating our graphic when time is available to do so/when I'm home.)

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 28 June :: 12.23pm

The scholarship I was dependent upon for France and was confident I would receive has been cancelled because of poor stock investment or something like that.

The funniest part is that the scholarship is giving to those going into an international business field. It looks like investing scholarship money in the stock market was a poor business move.



So France continues to grow farther and farther out of reach.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 28 June :: 9.17am

Superman Returns was awesome.

He's a sexy beast.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 27 June :: 9.37am

Oh. By the way.


Happy Birthday, Jessa you sexy person you!!!!!


I love you! sex!

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angel_bob

:: 2006 27 June :: 7.11am

I am going to be tired for the rest of my life.



I now have two jobs and I'm going to see if I can squeeze in a third. Training went to 10 last night. We have training again on Wednesday then again next week on Monday and Wednesday.

I usually go to bed at 10:30.

We're going to see Superman tonight at 10 and I'm just so tired.

I'm all alone at the office again today.

Good thing I don't have to work until noon on Wednesdays or I'd collapse.




I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 24 June :: 7.06am

I forgot how close 6 in the morning was to 7. They're neighbors, for heaven's sake.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 23 June :: 2.18pm

The British crack me up.

"If someone is sulking or being particularly miserable you would say they are being stroppy or that they have a strop on. I heard an old man on the train tell his wife to stop being a stroppy cow."

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angel_bob

:: 2006 21 June :: 9.06am

It's raining.

Actually, it's thunderstorming.

I have to work later and I don't really feel like driving in this but I have to.

I start my second job on Monday. Well, that's when I start training. I don't know if I can get over my stupid pride for long enough to deal with the fact that I need this job.

I hate driving in the rain.

I love you all.

P.S. I hope you're doing well.

P.P.S. My sister and I watched a movie called The Heiress yesterday. I loved it. It's one of my favorite movies now.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 20 June :: 6.53pm

Got the job.

Loves.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 20 June :: 9.20am

But now we must pack up every piece of the life we used to love.
Leave me alone.

For you know this isn't the first time.




In fact this is twice in a row that the angels have slipped through our landslide and filled up our garden with snow.




And I don't wish to taste of your insides or to call out your name through my phone for the glory boys at your bedside will love you as long as you're something to own.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 19 June :: 9.09am

I went to see Wicked yesterday. It was good.

We went to this nice Mediterranean restaurant. The food was delicious.

I have an interview today. Wish me luck. I don't even know if I want the job but I need it.

I think that's it.

Call me.

I love you.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 17 June :: 9.01am

Jessica's sister made a xanga in memory of her. I wish I'd known the visit was Thursday. I would have gone.

I don't know why her death upsets me so much. I barely knew her.

I think it's the fact that I did know her. The fact that she graduated last year with us. It's the fact that one year ago, we were all happy that we were done with high school. And one year since then, we're all safe and sound, most of us are done with our first year at college.

Except her.

I wonder what she was thinking at that last second. Was it just "oh shit" or was she sad?

I can't think about the fact that thousands of people are going to drive past that intersection and not know. And not care that they don't know.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 13 June :: 3.55pm

Jessica Klinesteker died in a car accident on Sunday. We graduated with her.
Did anyone else hear about this?

I took Hannah to her voice lesson today and Duiven mentioned it. I didn't recognize the name but I looked her up in the yearbook and immediately recognized her.

I knew her. Not best friends obviously, or even friends but I knew her at least.

Goodness.




CANNON TOWNSHIP -- An 18-year-old Grand Rapids Community College student was killed Sunday when police said she ran a stop sign at Myers Lake Avenue and Nine Mile Road NE.

Kent County Sheriff's Department said Jessica Klinesteker, of Rockford, was driving west on Nine Mile Road just before 1 p.m. when she failed to stop at the sign.

The driver of a car traveling south on Myers Lake Avenue, Kerri Southwick, 35, of Rockford, could not avoid the collision, police said.

Both cars ended up in a ditch.

Klinesteker, a 2005 graduate of Rockford High School, was pronounced dead at the scene.

Southwick was not injured, but her mother, Mari Anne Parker, 57, was transported to Spectrum Butterworth Campus to be treated for neck pain.

Police blocked the road several hours during their investigation of the accident.

Kent County Sheriff's Deputy Keith Kazelskis said police don't know why Klinesteker drove through the intersection.

"There were no skid marks," Kazelskis said. "She never slowed."

Relatives told police she was on her way to a graduation party when she apparently missed her turn and continued through the intersection.

Klinesteker's family was too distraught to talk Sunday. An uncle who didn't give his name said, "We love her very much, and we miss her."

Rockford High School Assistant Principal Steve Lewis said, "The Rockford High School community is certainly feeling the loss. We've had numerous accidents over the years and it certainly doesn't get any easier."

Norma Kuzma, who lives near the intersection said the area used to be rural. Suburban sprawl, including a new subdivision nearby, has brought traffic -- and accidents.

Higher traffic and speeds make for a dangerous intersection, she said.

"It was just waiting to happen," Kuzma said.

Kuzma's grandson, Cody Kiatkowski, 10, said he had just gone out to play basketball Sunday afternoon when he heard the crash about 100 yards from the house.

"It was very loud. I ran inside and told my grandma to call 911," he said.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 13 June :: 2.06pm

My sister started playing FFVIII again. Which means I'm hooked, again.

So I'll have to add that to my list of games to beat this summer. I still haven't beaten it, after all these years.

It's still my favorite.



Games to beat this summer:
Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time (again)
Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask
Legend of Zelda: Wind Waker
Final Fantasy VIII
Paper Mario (the first and second ones)



I think that's it.




I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 12 June :: 11.29am

Two years ago today, I took the ACT for what would turn out to be the first of three tries. The night before, I stayed up late talking to Nick about pretty much nothing. We somehow got around to talking about how we both still liked each other and maybe we should try again.

So we did.

Two years ago today, I was at Ben's house with both him and Nicholas, playing video games and lying around like we always did at Ben's house.

Anyway, today marks two years of being with Nicholas and I'd love to reminisce but Nick wants to jump on the bed with me.

I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 3 June :: 11.27am

Kurt Vonnegut was on BCC World News' World Book Club (The Word) on NPR at 2:30 this morning.

He was hilarious.

You can listen to it here.

You should check it out. He talks about Slaughterhouse 5.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 31 May :: 1.29pm

My boss has skin cancer. She says it's the good kind. So does the internet.

So hopefully it'll be okay. I hope so. She deserves better than being screwed over repeatedly.

I love you all.

P.S. France looks hopeless. I'd love to talk more about it but I just feel like crying. I want to go home and play KH2 and cry. I'm at work, waiting to go make copies.

P.P.S. I'm bored with my hair already. I want it longer again.

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