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2005 4 July :: 1.51am
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: The Salads - Get Loose
So today was a change. I called into work sick. I have no more sick days, I am actually -2 sick days now. It'd be a bad thing if I wasn't going to apply for a new job anyways. The work isn't bad, but I've been pretty much staying just for the people because the pay sucks the big one. I mean 6 bucks an hour to scapegoat. For god's sake, cashier's make 6.15 an hour to stand there and scan things all day while we do so much more. Oh well.
Today was something else. I slept so long. Hibernated. Around 7ish, I left to hang out with Tony, Erika and Jay at the Sand Lake festival. It reminded me of a time with Tanya. I missed her slightly. I rode so many rides. No more circular motions for a long time.
I ran into several people of past and present. Some were good to chill with, and one in particular gave me that overall good to see you again feeling.
Tonight I asked her if there was a chance of anything. Her reply sparked a long pushed away crush. I remember those days. I missed hanging out with her. I really have to drag her ass to the beach this time.
Well, this was a huge update, time for sleep now, I have to work at 10am.
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2005 3 July :: 6.35pm
Nbsp
Apparently my name violates WoW's name policy.
Which would normally make me slightly upset.
But Fred's here so I'm pissed.
I looked at the rules, couldn't see anything that it might violate except the "unpronounceable" rule which is bs.
Blah. I emailed them and stated that I didn't see it violating any rules.
edit: Yeah, they emailed me before (my "warning") saying it's unpronounceable. Smurfing grr.
In other news:
Can someone give me a ride home from Bretterson's tomorrow?
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2005 1 July :: 1.20pm
I want to go to the lake.
Well not today because it's fall-like out there.
And not to the lake itself but to some cute little city on the lakeshore.
Maybe I'll see if Katie and I can wrangle up some men and go on an adventure tomorrow.
Michi comes today! Woo! German kid!
I love you all.
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2005 1 July :: 2.14am
I bought the Jimmy Eat World album, Futures, off of iTunes.
Because I still had some iTunes gift card money left and because I heard it at Ben's and really liked it.
I am a slave to capitalism. I could've just downloaded it off of Limewire but I didn't.
Besides, my version of Polaris sucked.
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2005 1 July :: 1.30am
I am a genius, maybe.
You how people (Katie) sometimes refer to being gay as "batting for the other team"?
Well I think being bisexual should be called "pinch-hitting" just to stay in the crappy sports metaphor.
(IT MAKES SENSE IN MY MIND AND IT'S 1:30 IN THE MORNING AND I'M SICK.)
Goodness I hate sports metaphors.
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2005 1 July :: 12.58am
:: Mood: confused
Our toaster and my moral dilemma
Our toaster has two dials on it.
One is numbered and goes from 1 to maybe 8 with these dashes in-between that can only mean "and a half". That somehow correlates to the time that your bread toast/bagel/thing stays down in the toaster. (I always set it at 2 and a half for bread, 3 for a bagel.)
Now the other dial is the one I always have trouble with.
It has two settings: toast and bagel. It's not that hard, really. I don't see that it makes anything different cooking/heating wise.
But you see, people don't just use the toaster for bread and bagels. At least I don't.
I also use it for English muffins.
What setting am I supposed to put it to when I'm toasting my English muffin? It's not toast/bread and it's not a bagel. I'm lying no matter what I turn it to!
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2005 29 June :: 6.44pm
Stuff...skip down and look at the picture(s)!
I'm sick and lonely and my brother has been on the computer all day.
I finally got online, hopped on the messenger and what did I see?
Every single person that was actually online was "away". Minus Joe "cell phone" f0x0rz.
Sob.
Katie dyed her hair! It's sexy hot!
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Here's a random picture of Nick and Ben that either Katie or I took at Ben's house. This was before they killed us. My man is the cute frustrated one in the background who wants to be a ninja turtle. That other one is Ben. Ha. I less than three you, Ben.
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Yeah. That's it.
I love you all.
P.S. You know I'm sick when I don't use proper grammar or spell things correctly. And I don't care.
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2005 28 June :: 5.21pm
:: Music: The Postal Service - Such Great Heights
Deep
I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
And true, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home
They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...
I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
And that frankly will not fly. You will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home
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2005 28 June :: 1.42pm
My sister and I got these bears from IKEA when we were in Chicago.
Mine is blue.
Being the dorks that we are, we gave them very geeky names.
Mine is named Bjarni Herjolfsson.
Hannah's is named Ingvar after the guy who made IKEA.
Yeah, we rock.
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2005 27 June :: 10.53pm
I am sick.
I feel weak and am constantly out of it.
I have an uber sore throat.
It started Friday night.
Now my ear hurts. I want to cry, it hurts bad.
I'm trying sleep a lot so I can get better fast.
I hope none of you get sick.
I'm going to go get water and drugs.
I love you all.
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2005 26 June :: 11.03pm
And I quote:
"that is sex in a box thingie thing"
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2005 26 June :: 2.29pm
If my name was Kyle, I would seriously not explore this site.
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2005 25 June :: 6.47pm
:: Mood: upset
I know it's hard to believe but I bombed the interview. I know you think I didn't and blah blah but you don't know.
Seriously. You don't know.
I did.
The first thing my mom said was "You shouldn't have told her about school." My dad said the same thing. I hate it. I know. I know. I'm sorry I told the truth. I messed up and I don't need you telling me.
At least when I cried in front of my mom, she didn't tell me to stop being a baby like my dad did.
I made the mistake of telling the truth. Unlike every other employee at Compulit, including Nick, I did not lie.
She wanted people who can work for longer than three months because those three months are training.
I told the truth. No, I can't work for at least three months. I have school in August and there's no way I can balance school and a full time job with mandatory overtime.
Oh, also, I don't have my driver's license. I can get to work but I don't have the ID you want.
I told the truth.
Why? I don't know. I could've just as easily lied to her face like everyone else working there at 9 something an hour but I didn't.
I hate lying and I felt guilty as hell.
She didn't want to take the risk. I didn't even get to fill out the application, much less go into the two hour long testing process.
Because I suck and I told the truth.
And I feel awful about it.
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2005 24 June :: 3.19pm
Bombed the interview because Catholic guilt kicked in and I told the truth.
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2005 24 June :: 11.11am
I have a job interview today at 1:30. I'm nervous.
It's at Compulit. Nick got a job there and his first day was last night.
Oh and I'd have to work third shift with Nick if I want a ride.
My mom says there's no reason I won't get the job. I'm an uber fast typist and I can maneuver on the computer fast enough that she has no idea what I'm doing.
Wish me luck.
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2005 22 June :: 6.02pm
Will Rennar: ...So you'd be running a combination cult/brothel?
Lithaladhwen: Possibly.
Lithaladhwen: Depends on the quality of my followers, really.
Will Rennar: ...This new faith intrigues me...
Lithaladhwen: We would worship the almighty Whatever High Up On The Thing.
Will Rennar: :O!
Lithaladhwen: The Whatever gives unto me amazing magical powers that are only visible to my followers after they consume the necessary ritual narcotics.
Will Rennar: Okay, that's it, I'm sold! ^_^
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2005 20 June :: 11.58pm
Im going to Mexico tomorrow...i wont be around for a while, bye everyone, if that matters
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2005 20 June :: 12.20am
You know how in The Sixth Sense you don't notice that no one ever talks to Mr. Guy-with-an-irrelevant-name until the very end?
I want to know how he failed to notice. I used to have days in high school where I would be in a room with other people and only one of them would acknowledge anything I said or did, like she was the only one who noticed me. From time to time (like after every two hours or so, or after more than one instance in a single day) I would request that she turn to someone else, point at me and ask, "Can you see her?"
Just to make sure I'm there. Because some one of these days, I won't be. If that happens and I don't notice... well then we'll know that it's easier than it looks to forget to confirm your existence with actual evidence. And I'll laugh at myself. Because at that point I deserve to be forgotten anyway.
I think that at field school I'll be a little glad to be away from instant messenger. Sure, I'll be cut off from a source of entertainment and communication. On the other hand, I'll know that everyone I'm talking to is talking back. The reason I try to reply to IM conversations and chats so quickly is because I'm trying to stave off one major fault of instant messenger: you know damn well no one is really paying attention to you. You know they all have something more important to do. Talking to you is something they do while waiting for a page to load or a CD to finish copying.
So... every now and again ask yourself. "Can they see me?"
Maybe they can't. Maybe they haven't for a while.
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2005 19 June :: 5.32pm
:: Music: Jeremy Lister - Half of Me is Gone
The day before today and today
Yesterday, Nick showed up at my house at around 6 in the morning because he couldn't sleep and he was worried about me. He kept trying to get my attention by throwing stuff at my window and I can honestly say that I heard it but thought it was in my dream.
He finally got in when my dad left for work around 7:30 and woke me up. He brought me a rose and a bow. I love bows. We went to the living room and slept on the couch.
We woke up every once in a while, I finally got up at noon or 1ish and went on the computer. I let him sleep.
We went to Katie's open house around 4:30. It was pretty awesome.
At Katie's, Nick's sister called and asked if he and Ben wanted to play Risk. Ben had church in the morning so he wasn't really up to it. It was around midnight-thirty then.
Nick was just going to take me home but then his sister called again to see if he would just come. Maybe I said something or he did but either way I ended up calling my mom and asking if I could stay out later to go play Risk. She said it was alright.
I'd never played Risk before. I was really tired and had no idea what I was doing so everyone let me lose and I slept on Katti (Nick's sister) and Oliver (Nick's sister's man)'s couch for a bit while everyone else finished the game.
It was around 5 in the morning when the game was over.
Nick mentioned that he didn't feel like driving home and didn't want to wake up Ben by going to Ben's house. He asked jokingly if it'd be okay if he slept on the couch at my house.
So we went to my house, I went inside and asked Mom if it was alright if Nick slept on the couch. She said yes even before I launched into my excuse (he was exhausted and I was worried about him driving home being as tired as he was).
At 6, I finally went to sleep in my own comfy bed. Nick slept on the couch in the living room and apparently he slept well and didn't wake up at all. His explaination for this rare occurance was very cute.
We hung out for a little bit, ate breakfast, layed on the couch together and he left around 4 to see his parents.
I think my mom likes Nick. Which rocks because I was nervous about that. She even said that if he can't make rent at the place he's moving into and his parents won't take him in that she'll make room for him at our house.
I love you all.
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2005 19 June :: 2.32pm
Because Dave told me to...
Fathers Day post about... my fathers, I suppose.
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2005 18 June :: 3.52pm
I ordered a tent a few weeks ago and I just found it. It must have been here for days, but instead of leaving it at the front door, they left it in the garden by the back door. Read: in the garden.
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2005 17 June :: 5.42pm
Why don't people tell me these things?
I'm proud of the fact that I don't know anything about the people in the bands I listen to. I like that I don't know where they were born or what their favorite color is.
But I'd really like to know that they're alive, at least.
And apparently Elliott Smith is not. And has not been for a year and a half.
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2005 17 June :: 5.22pm
I'm Lithaladhwen
Lithaladhwen: My mother said she just ate at a restaurant called "Massa's."
Lithaladhwen: She said the service was fantastic.
Lithaladhwen: When I asked, she said, "No. They did not call me Massa at Massa's."
CGNakibe: Heh.
CGNakibe: You had to ask, eh?
Lithaladhwen: Come on. Of course I did.
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2005 17 June :: 2.39am
I made oodles of friends in WoW today.
OODLES.
I love it when people don't believe that you're a chick.
What? Girls playing a video/computer game? INCONCEIVABLE!
Except there's more drooling and stuttering.
Ha.
I love you all.
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2005 16 June :: 8.15pm
I love optical illusions
You have got to see this. Ignore that technical jazz on the side and just look at the plus sign in the middle. There's this empty patch that rotates to each purple dot and makes them disappear. After awhile, that patch will turn to a green dot as your eyes do some cool stuff.
THEN THE COOLEST PART HAPPENS!
The purple dots disappear and the green dot is the only thing left.
Seriously, it's smurfing sweet.
I love you all.
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2005 15 June :: 2.27am
Oh, my French class?
It's from 8-8:50.
My momma told me not to get an eight o'clock class. I don't know why, it's not like that wasn't the time my French class was at this year or anything.
She says because then I can't stay out too late because I have to be to school at eight. Meh. She said I'd learn and it's just a semester.
I do wish I'd squeezed my classes together though. I have an hour between some of them, which is going to suck in the winter when I can't just lie in the grass and read a book.
I love you all.
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2005 14 June :: 10.02pm
:: Music: Less Than Jake - History of a Boring Town
Lately...
So I'm getting a tattoo across my back. Having a friend design it. Of course I'll need money for it. There's the big issue in my life. All of my problems in life can be traced back to the lack of money. It's not fun at all.
And all the stress mounting...makes me want to crawl into a corner and assume the fetal position. I got a boost of confidence a few days ago when a paramedic instructor handed me a card and offered services. I think I'm going to call and ask if he wants a part time teacher's assistant for cheap. With the money he makes for his lectures, cheap would be like...10 bucks an hour.
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2005 12 June :: 1.44am
I have officially survived a year of a relationship with Nicholas Hazen without either of us killing each other.
It was hard, sometimes you just want to strangle each other. I'm glad we didn't because I'm not as strong as he is so I'd die and he'd be in jail.
Yeah, it's tough sometimes, I really can't stand the man.
Nah. He's a really sweet guy and I can't imagine anyone disliking anything about him.
Except the way he says "Italian" and "lilac". That just makes my blood boil.
;p
I love you, Nick. Happy anniversary, you poor soul. Congratulations on surviving a year with me.
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2005 11 June :: 10.28am
Today I'm babysitting from noon thirty to 7. I'm kind of nervous because I've never babysat three kids for that long. But I'm watching the nice kids and time flies when you're with them.
I would've said no except for the fact that I need money.
I'll call y'all when I'm done. I'm right next door, I'll have the cell phone.
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2005 7 June :: 5.20pm
:: Music: Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap
I got into second year French which is awesome.
And I met this sexy chick from Livonia. She was pretty hot.
I had my Aquinas testing to get out of classes and my counseling thing today.
Schedule follows.
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My schedule rocks because I have time between classes to just hang out in The Moose (the cafe/student hangout) or The Carriage House (wireless internet) or just on the campus (it's SO BEAUTIFUL).
I cannot wait for school to start!
I love you all.
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