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Angel_Bob

:: 2005 3 May :: 11.23am

Stayed home sick again. I'm trying to get better for prom and the play.

If anyone sees or talks to Jess, tell her I love her and give her a giant a hug for me. I'll be there on Wednesday. And I know it probably won't make her feel any better, but we're all praying for her and her family.

I love you all.

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angel_bob

:: 2005 2 May :: 12.00pm

Stayed home sick from school.

Didn't want to but I want to be healthy for prom this Saturday.

And for the play next week.

Feel like crap.

Going to go get water and soup and read.

Hope your day is awesome.

I have to call mom and tell her that I'm not going to be at play practice. We're on stage all this week. Rock.

I love you all.

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defiant

:: 2005 1 May :: 3.47pm

Last night was something else. The first time I've ever been truely stoned, and drunk at the same time as well. So I was telling Nick that Elizabeth was kind've a cool girl and he says to me, come with me, I have to talk to you about something. We went up to his room and he closes the door and for a breif second I worry that he's gay. Well, he turns to the pictures on his wall and he says,
"pretty much every girl up here I've been with, but none of them have been the one. *pulls a bowl out of his pocket and starts packing it* I believe that for someone to be the one, you don't have to change for them *tokes up then passes it to me* and you don't have them change for you. *I take a deep hit and he coughs* You don't want to rush into anything, this is the girl *pass back hit* that you want to spend you life with, to find her, you don't just go for the first one that wants to go out with you. *deep drag* You understand man?"
I love Nick, he's such a philosophical pothead.

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jaganshi

:: 2005 30 April :: 7.13pm

Soul Caliber II!

I beat the game for the first time. With Ivy.
I've never beaten a video game before. *beams*

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 30 April :: 5.57pm

ugh am sooo frustrated it feels like am doing everything wrong

i cant even begin to describe it

so ama go read or something...maybe work on my story which is really horrible rihgt now...

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 30 April :: 5.53pm

i cant drive anymore.

i never paid the fee.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 29 April :: 11.34pm

i just ate...but i opened the fridge and guess what i found!!!!!

RAGOONS!!!!!!

woo! patrice likes ragoons toO!

we went to the libertyville play and the set was just horrible...the platforms had holes and no facing and the walls werent decorated and seams werent taped and sound was too loud and wood grain failed and the tables were wrapped in tin foil....-_-

am only so disappointed because i know kevin holly can do better than this....

oh well...ragoons.....::mm::

okie i guess thats it...

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goose

:: 2005 29 April :: 9.05am

I hATE pATRICE
Patrice made me realize that i was writing my last bio
Patrice told me that this saturday is out last tech saturday
Patrice also showed me the two huge movies showplace got this weekend, and rivertree isnt going to be that busy but i get to die at showplace all night
Patrice is a poo head!

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 28 April :: 10.14pm

so that crappy feeling's still there...

i feel bad for stunkel. not cuz he does stupid stuff, cuz thats obvious...but because he's trapped in a mindset taht everyone should laugh at life and still a child. his intentions are good, no matter how much anyone tries to argue with me, and i feel bad that they arent always taken the way he wishes. he's like anyone of us, where he doesnt want to be a disappointment to himself, his family, or his friends. He's not like us where he'll go very far to make someone laugh, and soemtimes doesnt think of the consequences. point blank, no one should ever hate stunkel, no matter how mad they get at him.

yes...erm...lol a stunkel entry.

id write more but i think its something that's going to be a private entry because am just going to get yelled at for it.

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Jaganshi

:: 2005 28 April :: 9.56pm

I'll be spending eight weeks this summer at an NSF-funded archaeological field school. They only chose 14 people, and they picked me.
Also nice is the $300/week stipend. 300x8=2400. That's a lot of money to take off of next year's college costs. That may just save my ass. It might get me ahead enough that if I keep my wits about me, I can stay ahead of my bills.

Fantastic. Also, Strawtown, IN is a hell of a lot closer to Dayton than MI is. Closer to Brian=good.

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angel_bob

:: 2005 28 April :: 10.01pm

Happy birthday, Jackie. I was going to call you but it's late and I'm lame.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 28 April :: 12.45am

is there anyone that wants to run with me everyday. the thing is, you gotta keep me on it and want to go yourself...

heh, a want ad...

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 28 April :: 12.04am

ever had a sudden mood change?

yea that sucks..oh well...

so not much is going on...happy bday stunkel

my teeth still hurt and all but that's been heard.

there is no peanut butter (nor brown sugar, kristen)

okie that's it...g'night

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goose

:: 2005 25 April :: 8.58am

work was poopy. I had to stay an hour late because 2 busses of girls showed up to see the 615 a lot like love and there was 1 guy at concessions so they threw me back there with him and i had to get popcorn for an hour. blah. Then i did nothing. I ate ice cream, it was good. (lol details, no. hahaha) yeah...library is a snooze fest. My short story is 7 pages now. im getting close to where curry wants us to be! yay! :) I just have to come up with an ending, which is impossible. But I actually like my story! its a miracle i know! we'll see though, im sure ill change my mind tomorrow. Im hungry. we have band tonight...oh darn no crew...psh!

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 25 April :: 8.03am

holy crappy morning. i couldnt sleep last night so i ran at one thirty and getting up sucked and then i couldnt get ready fast enough to get patrice. kristen, btw, no traffic to get you so no problem...

btw, today i win the actually ugly skirt contest...

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jaganshi

:: 2005 24 April :: 10.26pm

For Caro

Love gives you wings. It makes you fly. I don't even call it love. I call it Geronimo. When you're in love, you'll jump right from the top of the Empire State and you won't care -- screaming 'Geronimo' the whole way down.

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Jaganshi

:: 2005 24 April :: 12.28am

I should never take just one or two shots late at night.
Get all melancholy.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 23 April :: 12.03am

i dont know why am not sleeping am so tired

oh yes, am eating cheetos yay for me

i wanted millk but both jugs are bad :P

oh not much...am boring...

quote of the day:
Bo: Gayson. we have to focus the side lights.
Gayson: So you want me to fly in first electric?

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Jaganshi

:: 2005 22 April :: 5.10pm

Apocalyptic Hail
Recently (in the last few minutes) 1/2 to 3/4 inch hailstones created whiteout conditions on the Butler campus for about fifteen minutes.
There is now about an inch of rolling ice on the ground in seventy-degree weather.

This has been your latest weather update from FUCKING INDIANA! Damn the weather here is odd.

Last night the thunderstorms were so loud they set off car alarms. -_-'

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jaganshi

:: 2005 22 April :: 11.21am

If Butler were Mainframe.... I think we all know who I'd be.
Not even a question, is it?
Though, I'm probably closer to Sprite Hex than original viral Hex, now. Brian fixed my mask.


"I simply adore children. But I could never eat a whole one."

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 22 April :: 8.04am

i feel sick...

my ear hurts :-P

hardly an update. oh well. last night mundelein's play was okie. "Brown sugar" was really really cute and he could sing...::dies::

i drove kristen and stunkel shopping "downtown" and then they went to a "fancy" dinner followed by night at the theatre. lol. i was the limo driver...who ate with them...

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 21 April :: 12.50pm

ow my precious feet.

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goose

:: 2005 21 April :: 8.59am

My Happiness is a Golden Poem

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 21 April :: 8.37am
:: Mood: lazy

my mum called mrs. firnbach and told her she was worried i wouldnt graduate ::rolls eyes::

cuz she gave me cap and gown money and i said i dont want it and she asked why and i told because i dont want to graduate, meaning, hello, i dont want to leave everything i know behind and lose half my friends and all my acquaitences in an instant. it meant that i like walking down the hall and hearing fourteen hi's and knowing everyone's name.

but of course, she thinks i will "sabotage" myself...hehe throw shoes at my self, and my bro was like no big deal she doesnt want to go through the ceremony, (see i told you shes making a big pointless deal) and my mum "rambled on" about prom and a boyfriend ::rolls eyes::

peanut butter has lost all the fun
i just feel desperate now.

its pathetic. oh well.

bye.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 21 April :: 8.04am
:: Mood: crushed

So I got the coolest ugly skirt ever. It’s awesome and I got other stuff too! Am going to have horrible blisters by the end of today. Oh well.

I really don’t want to be inside today! Grr…

Weekend? Where are you weekend? Am looking for you but you aren’t here… Where are you?

Today is the Mundelein play. Yay for Danielle and mary!

Okie…that’s really all…

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 20 April :: 9.58pm

yay for oatmeal yay for new pope smell yay for skirts so ugly they're pretty yay for blue dog leashes yay for Kristen yay for elisa yay for shootings yay for better homes and gardens yay for really bad acting (or eggs) yay for stupidity yay rof sdrowkcab epyt yay for milk yay for nny yay for candle scents yay for bad friends yay for old men yay for chrystler’s spring sale event yay for html yay for feeling crappy yay for wet dog yay for abc 7 news at 10 yay for bananas yay for placentas yay for pigtails yay for grass yay for fake fire yay for waiting for darkness yay for latin yay for a yellow glow yay for green pants yay for "a grateful city and a grateful nation" yay for uic yay for blue jays yay for tigerlilies yay for funny names yay for bagdad yay for Iraqi officials yay for soccer stadiums yay for ethics yay for mean neighbours yay for dumbasses yay for betrayal yay for dirty feet yay for diabetes yay for running circus elephants yay for lacrosse yay for cash back and no down payments yay for agreeing yay for remote controls yay for instruction manuals yay for cell phones yay for short toenails yay for lowe’s yay for refletions in your backdoor yay for rocking horse people eating marshmallow pies yay for you if you got this far.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 20 April :: 9.46pm

so today could have sucked little more...

oh well.

so...yes...

who needs milk
to accompany his or her
cereal otherwise
drys your throat?

who really cares cuz
its all gone
in some time
anyway.

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jaganshi

:: 2005 19 April :: 9.44pm

Panzer Cardinal Selected as Pope
http://www.guardian.co.uk/pope/story/0,12272,1463902,00.html#article_continue


Profile: Joseph Ratzinger
From Hitler Youth to the Vatican
Bavarian who deserted Wehrmacht was a liberal but turned to conservatism in face of 1968 student rebellions

Stephen Bates and John Hooper in Rome
Wednesday April 20, 2005
The Guardian

Joseph Ratzinger was not always considered a reactionary. Born in 1927 in Marktl am Inn, the first German pope for nearly 1,000 years comes from the country's traditionalist Catholic heartland, Bavaria.

His father was a police officer from a family of farmers whose career suffered because he refused to become a Nazi. The young Ratzinger served briefly and unenthusiastically with the Hitler Youth and later with a German army anti-aircraft unit guarding the BMW factory in Munich. He says he never fired a shot.

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Ratzinger has defended himself from criticism of his war record by claiming - not strictly truthfully - that he could not have avoided military service in the circumstances. Others did and maybe he could have used his training in a seminary to dodge the call-up.

But there is no doubt that his heart was not in his military service and he deserted in April 1944, ending the war in an American prisoner of war camp.

Ordained with his older brother, Georg, in 1951, Ratzinger was a liberal theological adviser at the Second Vatican Council in Rome but became a conservative after the 1968 student movement prompted him to defend the faith against secularism.

In his autobiography, he wrote how he realised he was increasingly out of step with his fellow Germans as early as the 1960s.

"I found the mood in the church and among theologians to be agitated," he recalled. "More and more there was the impression that nothing stood fast in the church, that everything was up for revision."

He has written a number of books and within hours of his election as pope yesterday, several leapt up the Amazon bestseller list, including Salt of the Earth, The Ratzinger Report, Introduction to Christianity, and his memoirs, Milestones, which cover his life until 1977.

It was in 1977 he became archbishop of Munich and a cardinal. He was one of only two cardinals in the conclave that ended yesterday to have been elevated by John Paul's predecessor but one, Paul VI.

In 1981, Pope John Paul called him to Rome to take over the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith. It is the department that was once known as the Holy Inquisition.

Ratzinger's defence of conservative orthodoxy has been part of his job. But it has not made him popular, especially in more progressive corners of the faith.

An opinion poll in the German newspaper Der Spiegel found opponents of his election as pope outnumbering supporters by 36% to 29%.

It was an open secret before the conclave that all but two of the German bishops were opposed to his candidacy.

In western Europe and North America, in particular, there is an acute perception that the church is losing ground and needs to reinvigorate its flock with a less uncompromising hostility to the outside world.

In Latin America, he disciplined the advocates of "liberation theology" and cracked down on Asian priests who saw non-Christian religions as part of God's plan for humanity.

Before the death of Pope John Paul, his theological watchdog spoke passionately of the need to clean up the "filth" in the church, an allusion to successive child abuse scandals involving clerics. His remark held out hope that he would tackle vigorously one of the church's most pressing problems.

However, he has himself been accused by campaigners of shielding a prominent alleged paedophile.

The softly spoken Bavarian, who is an accomplished pianist with a fondness for Mozart, turned 78 last Saturday, but is in apparently excellent health.

Three years ago, he became dean of the College of Cardinals, a position which made him the key figure in the interregnum between popes and enabled him to exert immense influence on his fellow cardinals as they prepared to choose the next pontiff.

At Pope John Paul's funeral, he impressed his listeners by deftly balancing solemnity and populism in his homily. He drew roars from the crowd when he pointed to the window from which the late pope had delivered his blessings, saying: "We can be sure our beloved Pope is now at the window of the house of his Father and he sees us and he blesses us."

Days later, he seized the initiative again at the mass immediately before the start of the conclave when he inveighed against the moral relativism of today's society. In what was seen by Vatican insiders as a blatant campaign speech, he warned the church to withstand the "tides of trends and latest novelties".

Clearly, his fellow cardinals were listening hard.

But when looking at his life so far, it is hard to know which is more memorable: the things that have been said about Ratzinger or what he has himself said.

Five years ago, a former colleague in the theological faculty of Tübingen University, Hans Küng, whom he banned from teaching on the church's behalf in 1979, described a document published by Cardinal Ratzinger's department in the Vatican as "a hotch-potch of medieval backwardness and folie de grandeur".

He was referring to the document Dominus Jesus issued by the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith in Rome, which, in highly unecumenical language, described other Christian faiths and world religions as "deficient or not quite real churches". When the Lutherans complained, the future Benedict XVI dismissed their objections as "absurd".

Another liberal Catholic and former priest, the late Peter Hebblethwaite, called him "the big, bad wolf of the new Inquisition ... For some, the thought [of his becoming pope] is just too terrible to contemplate. To have him as pope would be inconceivably divisive, runs the common wisdom."

It is not just people who do not believe in Roman Catholicism who attract the new pope's ire. Four years ago, he wrote that rock music was "the expression of elemental passions which, in the big musical festivals, have taken on a cultural character, that is to say, [the character] of a counter-cult, opposed to Christian worship".

Only this week, he declared that "having a clear faith based on the creed of the church is often labelled today as fundamentalism. Relativism, which is letting oneself be tossed and swept along by every wind of teaching, looks like the only attitude acceptable to today's standards."

Small wonder that the 78-year-old German has won nicknames such as God's Rottweiler and the Panzer Cardinal. Even Corriere della Sera, the voice of the Italian moderate right, which is normally deeply respectful of the church hierarchy, recently labelled him "Cardinal No".

For the past 24 years, he has headed the Vatican "ministry" responsible for defending and enforcing Catholic orthodoxy, particularly in the world's theological faculties.

Ratzinger once denied being "the Grand Inquisitor".

However, under his guidance, the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith has issued a stream of hardline instructions and rebukes.

The hand of the new pope has been seen in most of the more reactionary proclamations made by the Vatican in the final years of John Paul II's papacy, as his health waned.

They sometimes took away the breath of the more progressive elements in the church: from denouncing homosexuality as intrinsically evil, to suggesting that parishes should limit the use of female altar servers and choristers.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2005 19 April :: 4.15pm

on my phone i had two really shiny stickers but then they got all scratchy and ugly so now they are just shiny instead of feet and palm trees...

i drew noodle boy on the back and i think ama go find squee or gir to put on the front...

yay for me

am still asking, but just asking.

i still dont understand why i cant let go, but i cant.

and throw your dog a peanut...can she crack the shell and eat only the nut like my dog can?!?! huh can she?!?

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Jaganshi

:: 2005 17 April :: 2.27pm

if it hadn't been for that meddling chair
I am now the proud owner of 5 or 6 stitches in my scalp.
I was dismissed from the hospital at 5.5am, and am no longer bleeding copiously, although my hair still has some blood in it.
I am largely unharmed, and the stitches come out in 7-10 days.

The official story is... I tripped and cracked my head on a chair. When it has healed, then we will tell the rest of the story. I demand secrecy until then. Only then can the world know how hilarious it is. It's funnier with scars than actual present wounds.

I've done my best to contact people from last night to let everyone know that I did have a reason to leave so abruptly. I had to go to the emergency room.

On the upside, my anesthesiologist was an enormous geek of the finest order. When I was being admitted, we made matrix references and a couple or star wars ones too. It made me feel better. Then he walks in with his stuff and asks us if we roleplay. *facefault* He specifically asked if we used any of the White Wolf systems, to which we replied we played D&D. Brian also noted that GURPS tends to be the favorite, however. The man responded, "Ah, now you're speaking my language."

Also, according to Brian, as he moved toward me ominously with his giant anesthesia needle, he pointed it down at me and asked, "Where is the rebel base?"

He also gave me a new title to add to my list. "Ashley The Chairslayer Holmes, we have a room for you."

I'm going to get that chair. That chair is so fucking dead, it doesn't know what kind of horrible crap I'm going to do to it. But it's coming.

On a related note, my mother had to expressly forbid me to go to work because I have a shiny new head injury. I was worried about the forty dollars. I may be a workaholic, but I'm pretty sure I'm not nearly as bad as Gregor Samsa. He was a giant vermin. I think even I would stop worrying about work at that point.


Also, I think Brian has some things he wants to comment on himself, because it has to do with the way the cops responded to him. It was rather unexpected. I'll paste them to this blog so you guys can experience more interesting shit vicariously.

That's why Jughead's wearing that crown hat. Because he's king of Archie's world.

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