gilded smile

:: 2006 5 April :: 10.43am

EDIT: I meant to post this 3 days ago lol.

Oh , I'M SORRY....SHOULD I HAVE USED THE CUT TAG?!?!!?!!?!?!?! OOPS.

Part One:
Have you ever had a song written about you? yeah my song from roman on guitar....awwwww.lol
What song makes you cry? i duno. anything if i'm in that kind of mood.
What song makes you happy? my humps
What do you like to listen to before bed? i listen to music all night. right now it's elvis and some other cds

Part Two:
HEIGHT: 5'1 i think
HAIR COLOR: dark brown kinda
SKIN COLOR: eh.. i need to go tanning
EYE COLOR: Blue
PIERCINGS: ears and cartilage
TATTOOS: Not yet maybe later

Right Now:
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Gray sweatpants.
WHAT SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? blue sweatshirt .
SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO? where'd you go
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: cereal of course
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: 39 degrees
HOW ARE YOU? well lets just say another shitty ass day down..
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: Sometimes in cars
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Yeah

Favorite...
CONDITIONER: dove
MAGAZINE: whatever
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: choc milk
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: long islands
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: be with roman
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: Too many but rapper = jay z

Have you:
BROKEN THE LAW: yup
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: yup
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: too much
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: no
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: all the time bitches GOTCHA
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: no only when they let me for their own gas or groceeries
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: too much
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: No.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: kinda
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yeah

Love: roman
Boyfriend: roman bryan garcia-nastally
SEXUALITY: i like boys not girls
CHILDREN: yeah want em
CURRENT CRUSH: roman
BEEN IN LOVE?: am in
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yeah kevin lol
BEEN HURT?: yeah
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: probably shoplifting
MADE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: no

Random:
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: yeah . 2
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: a cd i made and then upstairs is elvis and 2 cds i made
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: sparkle
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being away from daily life
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: roman,easily

Have you ever:
CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: no
WANTED SOMEONE YOU KNEW YOU COULDN'T HAVE: no
BROKEN A BONE: yeah
DRANK ALCOHOL: Yeah
LIED: Yah
CRIED IN SCHOOL? yeah too much

Yes or No:
You keep a diary: yeah
You have a secret journal: i guess.. i dont really share it with anyone.
You set your watch a few minutes ahead: dont use one
You bite your fingernails: i justgot acryillics
You believe in love: yah

Do You:
Take a shower everyday: Almost every day.
Want to get married: Yes.
Think you're a health freak?: Definitely not.
Get along with your parents: no

Favorite:
NUMBER: 2
COLOR: pink.
DAY: sunday
MONTH: duno..july?
SONG: Wayyy too many.
FOOD: edy's mint choc. chip ice cream.
SEASON: Summer
SPORT: b ball .
VEGGIE: duno
FRUIT: apples and bannaasss.
FAST FOOD: arbys prob

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
CRIED? yeah
HELPED SOMEONE? Yeah , kiddies i babysit.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yeah
GOTTEN SICK? kinda
GONE TO THE MOVIES? No.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? No.
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? Yes.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? No.
TALKED TO AN EX? No.
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? This one.
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU "CRUSH" ON? no
MISSED SOMEONE? Yes.
HUGGED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? yeah
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no

WOULD YOU EVER:
1. Eat a bug? 8th grade crickets
2. Bungee jump? yeah
3. Hang glide? Maybe.
4. Kill someone? no
5. Have sex with someone you don't love? no
7. Parachute from a plane? probalbly not
8. Walk on hot coals? no
9. Go out with someone for their looks? no
10. For their reputation? no
11. Be a vegetarian? Probably not.
12. Wear plaid with stripes? .
13. IM a stranger? Maybe.
14. Sing karaoke? yeah
15. Get drunk? yeah.
16. Shoplift? I have before, but I won't again... so no.
17. Run a red light? try not to.
18. Dye your hair blue? no
19. Be on Survivor? no.
20. Wear makeup in public? Yes.
21. NOT wear makeup in public? hardly
22. Make someone cry? on accident
23. Kick a baby? no , moron
24. Date someone more than ten years older then you? no
25. Stay up all through the night? Probably

WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: none
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: be w/ roman and not have to do antyhign

When / What was the last...:
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: no idea
YOU GOT E-MAIL: Today
THING YOU PURCHASED: new shoes cuz my other fucking ones got stolen..
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: i'm half watching this obese story
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: um i dont rmember
WHOS THE LAST PERSON(s) YOU'VE THOUGHT ABOUT?: roman

I AM: in a really bad mood
I WANT: money
I HAVE: no money
I WISH: a million tthing
I HATE: how my life is right now
I FEAR: i'm never going to lose this weight
I HEAR: stupid girls and tv
I WONDER: whats gonna go on tomorrow..
I REGRET: spending all the money i've made over the years.
I LOVE: roman
I ACHE:
I ALWAYS: eat.
I SING: loud in my car.
I CRY: all the time.

WHICH IS BETTER:
1. COKE OR PEPSI: diet coke
2. SPRITE OR 7UP:
3. GIRLS OR GUYS: guys
4. FLOWERS OR CANDY: Flowers
5. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN:scruffy only on roman
6. QUIET OR LOUD: louder.
7. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: brunettes

Just to piss all of you off. even more i suppose.

16 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 4 April :: 10.17pm

come on tap those brakes, baby just one time
well roman IS taking me to prom afterall. HOORAY and we're even doing something really fun and cute on that day too. but i'm not telling you what is until after we do it because i dont want you to steal it. I am actually like way excited for prom now. YAY . i just want everything to get on with.....yeah.

and well besides the fact i still don't have any friends and get ditched all the time and my boyfriend won't pick up his phone....

oh wow! life is great! (Oh, how I jest.)

pics. ...... aren't we cute. yeah , i know.

rockford dam. LOVE IT

aren't these glasses so cute. i really wanted them because they made me laugh.

swans!! i love swans!! so much! he is my friend actually.

psycho and my tongue looks weird.

um i love you dani pie so much. Cant wait for anotehr CMU bash together! April 22nd baby!

Brush em brush em brush em....

thanks for looking at those. will someone make me an icon please of the glasses one? or not. whatever. just THROWIN it out there!

...Jessabess

:: 2006 4 April :: 2.36pm

omg. i seriously CANNOT stop eating!

honestly. its like i am scrounging around for food like a rat or something. i can't stop. okay. i'm gonna go tie my own hands up so i can't eat anymore.

this is scaring me a little. AH!

:: 2006 4 April :: 2.22pm

Here's where the wedding may actually be:

http://www.castleinthecountry.com/

:: 2006 4 April :: 2.13pm

it's gone
how do you pick up the pieces when nothing you counted on being there
is there.
I can't. Not like this. I can't have stress like this. It's not good for either of us.

10 hold on tightly | let go lightly

tuwang

:: 2006 4 April :: 12.47am

As long as I don't fall asleep... I won't wake up... which means I don't have to go to school all day... and I won't have to come home... and then not work or make money... so I can't go to japan... fuck me sideways... I use alot of elipses...

2 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 3 April :: 7.55pm

i cannnnt stannnnnd youuuuu..

learn to appreciate what you have at your fingertips. BITCH!

JediBumblebee

:: 2006 2 April :: 8.11pm

125 days! 125 days!

Rehersal dinner: booked!
Bridesmaids gifts: purchased!
Bridesmaids dresses: in!
Invitations: in!
Shoes: totally cute!
Vows: almost finished!

:: 2006 2 April :: 4.53pm

Big buffet project tomorrow. Charlie is coming over soon to help me make Coconut Ice! Dad and I took a Jeep ride. I'm so sad we're selling it :-( We had so much fun with it. Boo hoo. I can't wait till classes are over!!! I'm so tired. I'm taking next semester off for obvious reasons. :-) We go to look at the duplex tomorrow! YAY! I'm so excited! Anyway, that's about it. Ranch potatoes are really good. We did laundry and had tons and tons of socks, and absolutely none of them were matching. My dad is going crazy! hahaha It's too weird.

:: 2006 2 April :: 5.49am

i don't know how i feel about going to bed right now. i had a really fun night. and i'm just thinking about all the cool stuff i'm going to do next year and it's making me tres 'appy.

here's a short list
inturmural soccer
volenteering at the kalamazoo psychiatric hos.
being able to go to the SRC
dsk more
outspoken-maybe a real member this time
social work stuff
hopefully arcadia again
big sisters
gilmore stuff
getting one of my minors
make a wish club with jenna
doing welcome week or orientation or being an RA

i'm gonna be living with meghan and i don't have any not so suite mates. aaaaannnnddd. i have a really cute boyfriend.

what a nice nice nice life.

3 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 1 April :: 10.57pm

Yeah, so...
I'm pregnant. What a suprise right.

Yeah.. well I figure I'll just do the ol' abort-0..

that'll take care of it. It's too much to handle right now. If anyone has a say on this, please speak up...

So anyway, I worked today. we were slow ... didn't make much money, I have 3 jobs right now and I need to quit one. it is way too hard.

I get to see roman tomorrow which is yay big fun. I dont know what we're gonna do but oh well.

I'm still not going to prom but i get a big suprise date which should be fun. And what else... I am just work work a workin...

Oh, and April Fools. I'm not preggy. Silly goose!

7 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 1 April :: 12.53pm

isnt it the greatest fucking feeling when you realize you have no fucking friends at all, your boyfriend is a jerk ,and all you wanna do is fukcing go fucking shoot yourself in the head but you dont have the guts and you have to work at 5

yeah fucking great. go to fucking hell. i swear all of you.

2 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 1 April :: 10.45am

okay okay okay.

my papel is all turned in. not up to the minimum length requirement. but there's only so much stuff you can make up about biculturalism.

so now i have to practice piano. yuck. i really hate piano with my whole soul.

and i have an oral exam on tuesday por espanol. yee haw.

jenna's gone and that makes me sad. i think i'm going to have to sew her to my body. that sounds nice. and not creepy at all.

what else do i have to do?

i have dsk tonight. i'll be driving for the first time.

and i have to take down all the posters of Mr. Golden Sun because they're making my heart ache.

2 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 31 March :: 2.52pm

Wow wow wow. Time flies by so quickly. So things are coming together nicely with the wedding. Fallasburg Park will be the location. It's such a beautiful park! And possibly Applause will cater.
We went to the birthing class the other night. Fun stuff. I can't believe how fast things are going. I have a feeling I'm going to be delivering towards the end of October. Charlie and I are so excited. We found a couple duplexes so we're going to look at one on Monday. Pretty neat stuff. And since I was smart when I was younger and started asking for useful things for Christmas and Birthdays and all that jazz we are almost set with our kitchen. All we need now really is silverware and glassware. I think I want to register tomorrow! I'm excited for both showers! yippee.
My group in Tableservice presents on Monday. We're doing a huge buffet from South Africa. It's sooo cool. Chris and I worked on an ice carving and stuff.
Anyway, that's about it. I'm off to Baby Depot soon to see what they have. :-)

spud

:: 2006 31 March :: 1.16pm
:: Mood: mmmmmmm

liberal smatterings of dry humping.

so, i haven't updated in awhile. i've been pretty busy, i guess, with school stuff, and shannon stuff.

her play is tonight, and her family is coming up to see it. i guess we're having dinner with them afterwards. i'm very much looking forward to that. and then her brother, marty, will be staying up here with us for the weekend. that should be fun too. i need to figure out some things for us to go and do, though. i mean, i figured on stopping in at eDen, because marty is kind of a gamer. but beyond that, i don't really have anything in mind.

peace stuff!

4 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 30 March :: 11.17pm

thank you to everyone who said i did good at the talent show. shannon said i missed 3rd place by like 3 points so that kinda sucks but oh well..

"I was hungry! Where's my dinner?!" lol..

and La Cookaratcha La cookatratcha.... lol

but i got to hang out with roman all night and he came to the show and it was fun and i just miss him. ugh i just hate like not seeing him more than once every other week. RAR.

but yeah, i'm glad i did it because it just makes one feel accomplished and whatnot. so... yup.

omg and roman was driving me home tonight and there was this bright light and i swear.. we were the only ones driving ... it was up in the sky this bright circular light just following us everywhere we drove... even when we turned on my road it was still following us. i was so scared i was like screaming and roman was freaking out to lol all while keeping his 'manly' stature of course. Only when we turned into my driveway did it go away and i think it's only because of that bright light we have up my driveway.. I duno, but it was like the first time I actually thought I believed there was like a ghost or something. AHH freaky! Seriously!

Oh and ONE more thing. that GIRL -*ahem, ahem ahem* Jess and Lindsey know who I'm talking about- has got the biggest head and today I just told her to shut up. Not really but in a nicer way . Like seriously, what the flip. UGH! I hate people like that. Shut up. You're not as cute as you seem to think you are.

-Jess

7 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 30 March :: 8.02pm

you may not know this, but my humps is a good song to walk to if you're late for class and live two miles away.

11 minutes suckas. eat it.

4 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 30 March :: 7.13am

ahhhhhhhhh i'm scared.

4 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 29 March :: 2.23pm
:: Music: eisley

i could understand why i might have high blood pressure.

cause it's the end of the year so the shit is hitting the fan in a hardcore manner.

on top of everything else that's happened in the last two weeks.

i've got a paper to write for stupid hispanic culture dumb class.

i have to practice piano and stop pretending that i know what i'm doing.

i have to make up some conversations in spanish, so i can talk about them.

i have surgury two weeks from yesterday.

i still need to work.

and also have a decent social life.

and start bringing things home.

and get a new job. and deal with all the dealies that are dealing right now.

good times.

:: 2006 29 March :: 10.18am

oh and seriously... when did 3rd marking period end? hey, dont get me wrong i'm GLAD it did... but i was completely unaware of it. YEAH for your information, I REALLY WAS. jeez you coniving b8****88*8888*.