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2008 7 August :: 11.02am
Ugugugugh please someone save me I need a new job so badly. Ireally cannot take it. Im going insane
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2008 5 August :: 3.48pm
so, i'm completely done done with my summer class. still hasn't quite sunk in yet. but it will soon.
and emily is gone again. also hasn't sunk in. coffee today was nice though. i can't believe she'd never played chess before.
so yeah, that's pretty much it. i lost my phone charger at kevin's this weekend. kinda sucks. but i'm getting my new one soon, so it doesn't really even matter that much.
i don't know. i'm gonna go play drums, since i'm all out of ideas.
peace.
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2008 3 August :: 1.18am
Yay I got it done! I feel l ike a badass haha. I was so scared but it doesn't hurt at all. I don't like the way it looks righht now cuz they had to use a 14 gage and a big ol ugly silver ball right now but in a wk and a half I am going to have the guy put a small cute diamond one in it. I am so excited and glad I did it. Now if only my parents won't hate me everything will be good!
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2008 2 August :: 7.32pm
So I've been wanting to do this for a long time. Going back and forth between a tattoo and piercing. Well im getting a piercing for many reasons
1. You can remove them so if I don't like it I don't have to worry about it.
2. I love jewelry and accessories. Anyone who knows me well knows this. I never go a day w.out earrings of some sort. I think accessories complete every look.
3. Im feeling rebelious and I need to do somethibng to satisfy that.
4. I think this specific piercing is cute and hopefully will look ok on me!
5. I need something different
So that's that its settled, im getting a "monroe" piercing. Hooray. Tonight after I get out of this shithole. Aka work.
My grandma is never going to speak to me again tho.... :0(
Forgive me!
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2008 2 August :: 10.14am
:: Music: kebbeen, buying me dinner.
Mr. J, (this entry's more for me than anything else)
movie's done, at least as far as i'm concerned. going canoing today. wrap party for the film is tomorrow. the last class is on monday, and i have to turn in a 3-5 page paper that i have yet to write. should be exciting. also going to try and schedule a job interview for that time. and go into campus view and raise hell for my damage deposit. so, staying plenty busy, even though it's supposedly over.
but that's okay. life barrels on.
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2008 26 July :: 12.17pm
My mind is blank now. Every part of my body is sinking and empty. I don't have to think about anything, hear anything, say anything, feel anything, worry about anything.
...there are no job interviews, no hypocrites. I do not have to... socialize. I do not have to smile. I do not have to justify my beliefs. I don't have to wear dress shoes. I don't have to pledge allegiance to the flag. I don't have to use a number two pencil. I don't have to read the fine print.
...it is true that it is nonproductive. But when ninety-five percent of out-of-bed activities hold the possibility of pain, to be pain-free is simply the most delicious feeling in the world.
-not mine
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2008 26 July :: 12.37am
:: Music: Go Fish - Part of the Proof
seriously. i just want a day off. one fucking day off.
we filmed again today. james's room is fully dressed. but since our camera broke this afternoon, and they didn't get to the interior shots on the call sheet, they pushed them back to the end of the schedule, so that room didn't need to be dressed at all... so dumb, but it couldn't be helped.
i'm having lots of fun. but i'm so fucking tired. and i'm just getting sick of being there all the time.
and i'm smoking way too many cigarettes. this is killing me. neither softly, nor slowly.
but i'm determined to have fun, dammit. we're making a movie. it should be a good time.
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2008 20 July :: 10.18am
Im at work AGAIN I seriously hate it here. I am applying somewhere else tomorrow.
I can't tak eit here. It is soooo boring and they treat their employees and clients like crap. They are truley a horrible company and I can't wait to get out of it.
Other than that I am just really confused bc there is only one thing im sure of in my life and the rest I don't know what to do with.
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2008 20 July :: 1.55am
i'm SOOO tired. but it's back to the grindstone again tomorrow, so i suppose i ought to suck it up and deal.
sleepy time looms.
foreboding and somnambulant are the pertinent adjectives.
i think.
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2008 18 July :: 1.28am
drizzunk? schmammered? was macht es?
seriously, guys. 9pm. friday night (tomorrow... or today, depending on how you view it). sazerac lounge. be there (i will).
and fuck you jessa, for getting that damn song stuck in my head, right before i go to sleep. it will drive me insane.
; )
peace.
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2008 17 July :: 12.17am
went to blues on the mall tonight with mom and lib.
i got some free beers (we went to the BOB during the thunderstorm), and i got to hang with my family and pontificate some. it was gratifying.
but after spending all day working, and all evening walking around downtown, i am completely beat. and i get to do it all over again tomorrow.
no rest for the wicked, i guess. and apparently i'm totally fucking wicked.
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2008 16 July :: 7.32am
I am not married yet. Just so everyone knows.
I want to find a new job soooo bad. I hate it here. I've only been here for 45 mins so far today, haven't seen another soul since we are always so slow, and it seems like I've been here for hours. It may seem like an ok job since I am able to sit here and use my phone to write on woohu but believe me- I would rather have any more stimulating job. Time goes by so slow. We work alone ughh I hate it here.
But I can't start looking for another job because we are so up in the air about moving to florida.
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2008 15 July :: 8.52pm
:: Mood: tired
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Summer Film Project
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i have finished day two of our preproduction preparations to the caledonia location. there's a shit ton of stuff that needs to be done, but at least we're finally getting somewhere.
i'm not doing anything involving audio, as i said before. but i do at least get to do construction stuff, which i'm fairly good at. not like it's rocket science.
but yeah. it's fun. the people are cool to hang with. but it's a lot of work. i mellowed out a lot once i resigned myself to the fact that this is just a really slipshod operation, and that i won't be able to rely on anything. i will do the best i can to make it happen for them, but nobody, not even me, can ask for anything more than that.
and i think i'm doing my part. i certainly have lots of tools down there, and we're making decent progress. i'll keep you guys posted on the happenings as i can, but no promises. it's keeping me plenty busy.
the important thing for you to remember is:
"WALTER'S WIFE" FUNDRAISING PARTY
Friday Night - 9PM - at the...
Sazerac Lounge
1418 Plainfield Ave NE
Grand Rapids, MI
Be there if you can. although, i believe it's 21+.
sorry.
call me if you have questions, or shoot me an email. i'll get more info as it becomes available. (like i said, slip-shod).
Peace.
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2008 2 July :: 11.35am
Omg roman and I went to canada last night with some friends and we got hitched!!!! So now im mrs garcia nice ta meetcha. Lol we are still there woo I love canada. The chapel was gorgous and the carriage ride in my cute summer dress and romans tux was romantic. Our priest told us that he just KNEW we would be together forever. We said our vows and got to ride away afyerwards in a beautiful gondala under a small bridge.
Ro got me a 3 carat diamond band.wow he amazes me more and more with each day. It took my breath away! So tomorrow we are working out the details to move to hawaii in our friend rob's aunts old house she is letting us rent for 100 a month. Wow. We are getting a loan for the tickets and leaving in 4 days. Yay im gonna be a badass surfer. The house is 2 stories with a basement newly remodeled everything and they are leaving all the furniture so we don't have to worry. Rob is moving into our apt with danielle so they are taking our lease. Everything is working out so perfectly. God musthave answered our prayers. But I guess I do deserve it. I am a really great person and I never lie or act mean. Everyone knows this. I am never decietful and I treat everyone with respect. I also like to compromise and not be bossy ever. Those are probaly just a few reasons why He's preforming his great miracle on us. While we are down there a couple months from now we are joining a missionary group that robs aunt was a part of and traveling to cambodia to build houses and maybe heal a leper or two. Ha Oh not really but who knows. Roman really suprised me with all these plans but I guess I should just learn to expect greatness from the worlds most perfect, selfless, kind, giving, wonderful, beautiful, nurturing, wonderous, magical, whimsical man on THE PLANET EARTH.
Well we are headed to niagra falls then home so I had better go.
Signed,
Mrs. Garcia-Wilde
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2008 29 June :: 12.51pm
I don't know why bc I have not always felt this way but lately I am like obsessing about getting a tattoo. I really really want one. I know for sure I would get one if I was skinnier but right now im not sure. Ugh its driving me nuts tho I really think I want one
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2008 29 June :: 10.59am
Well had to get up at 6 again to drive in the rain to ameeting an hour away in spring lake and now here I am at work. Thank god for my new phone with internet. I ws so tired on the drive there and back I was completly almost sleeping my eyes refuused to stay open. In any other circumstances I would have pilled over and rested but if I miss the meeting I get taken off the schedule for a month and if ii miss work I get fired. Grrrrr.
Today I am just going to take some time for me when I get out of work at 3. Gotta go to the mall to return something and buy some shorts. I still have to work the next 3 days but im gonna try to make the best of today. Lately everything has been sooo stressful I can hardly take it. I might quit the jw ..well no prob not but I might just try to set a schedule with them. Im tired and I just want to enjoy summer and the break from school while I have it and so far I have not been able to do that at all.
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2008 27 June :: 11.48pm
I really can't do this anymore I am too tired. I just got out of work at 11pm and now I have to be at my other job at 6:30am tomorrow. I an so exhausted. My last day off was monday and I don't have my next day off until thursday of next wk and even then im not positive ill have that off cuz jw marriott mifht still schedule me that day. I really can't do this. I don't deal well with stress abd then on top of it when I have to deal with how NOTHING Ever gets done around my house unless I doit it makes the stress worse. Im so sick of this shit.
Well guess I better get to sleep I have to get up at 5:40 tomorrow morning ufhghhgghghghhgggggggggg
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2008 19 June :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: getting frustrated
summer film
so...
as you are aware, if you're a devoted fan, i'm involved with the summer film project at GVSU. i feel kind of gipped in this whole experience, because it's been a mish-mash mess thus far. nobody knows who the professor is going to be, what positions the students are going to fill, or anything.
not to mention, i've been getting emails from a wide assortment of people for the last three months, all claiming to be giving me information on what the fuck is going on. seriously a class act. not to mention, the week that my summer project starts, is the same week as the world premiere of last year's summer film.
my theory is that, basically, the film department blew their load on last year's film, and now this year it's gonna suck. so, they're trying to publicize last year's film as much as possible in order to boost morale and public reception of GVSU's film dept. image or whatever.
and i'm a sound person. i have made that no small secret to anyone. when i applied for the summer film, i told them specifically that i'm a sound person, and wanted to work with sound if at all possible. at first they told me i was going to be a grip. which, you know, i was not into or whatever. but gradually i warmed up to the idea, talked myself into how awesome it could be, met a bunch of the other grips on the roster and tried to get friendly with them a little bit. and now i get an email, less than a week before class starts, saying that i'm now a set dresser.
yes. A SET DRESSER. what this has to do with sound, i know not. perhaps i will be able to manipulate the set in such a way that i will isolate its reverberative characteristics. yes? NO. there is no way i will have any impact on sound whatsoever! and all of that work i did on learning about lighting and shit, getting all buddy buddy with some of the grips is now completely out the fucking window. i'm with a bunch of other people i've never met, in a job i've never done. all the grips pretty much stayed the same. all the sound people changed, however, except for one. why i did not get one of the positions that was vacated during the shuffling, i know not. why the one person that remains from the initial lineup is the one that has no specific interest in sound whatsoever, is also beyond me.
i feel like i'm not in the right place. for awhile i was. i was in the right place, doing the right things. now, somehow, i've gone and fucked it all up. and i don't know how to fix it. and it's manifesting itself in extremely unpleasant ways. i don't know. something just feels really really wrong. and i don't like it. i'm just absolutely petrified that this year's going to suck. a lot. and rather than going on my way, continuing in my career like everyone else, i'm going to be the world's biggest fuckup, with no place to live, no job, no life, and $200 a month in student loan payments that i can't afford to make.
but i could be wrong.
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2008 19 June :: 12.36pm
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Job ID: 10593
Job Title: Bell Person
Work Schedule: Flexible
Hours per Week: 16-32
Wage: 2.65
Employment Start Date: ASAP
Employment End Date:
Job Description: Assist guest with luggage and other room deliveries.
The wage is $2.65/ hour, plus tips.
Qualifications: Previous customer service is preferred.
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okay, really. i mean, how can they get away with this? paying a person less than half of minimum wage on the assumption that their tips are going to compensate? there was another posting for a breakfast waitress (not a waiter, mind you) for $4/hour. i just don't see how that's fair. and i thought it was kind of sexist to ask for a waitress. i kind of wanted to apply, just to see what they'd do.
so yeah. that's all i got.
bonnaroo was sweet. i'm still recovering. i'm a peely bastard too. that's what i get for going out in the sun like i did.
peace.
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2008 7 June :: 10.12pm
GIUGJASDPG:AJSG:LKSDG
UGH!!
i've always hated when people use the phrase "life's not fair" but it's so fucking true.
gAWD. don't even fucking test me because one day i'm gonna blow up.
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