one girl whose pages tore

one girl whose pages tore

:: 2003 13 August :: 10.22pm

rip those words from my tounge

and staple them to my back

so it says "kick me"

and my faggot initiation will be complete

see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 7 August :: 1.09am

this collective absence of conscience is present everyday. it was foolish to think preschool ended at age 5.

devoid of rage. i am. just a molecule in a cage.

see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 5 August :: 2.41pm

my name is mudd

1 paid close attention | see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 27 July :: 1.54am

breathe in. the steady race of your heart. a sunset in brahma. a paradise apart.

the calm before a storm. the nervousness of a first kiss. the frailty my world of glass shattering as my dreams manifest.

the crush of being trampled. and the bitter-sweet taste of getting back up.

2 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 19 July :: 4.34am

runawayBRAINFIREsupernovaOVERDRIVE6thgearSHATTERSTORMagnosticLIGHTSPEEDselfservingMALIGNANTradioactiveATOMIC loveboy.

3 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 17 July :: 9.52am

dah. i'm fucked

its a one way PROcess. you cant turn glass back into sand. and if you found a way to. the sand would never be the same.

see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 16 July :: 10.53am

oh my. sweet. palliate.

falling
down
to the
sea.

i would break the fall if it was your want.

but for this jagged rock i cannot.

for it is where you choose to be.

1 paid close attention | see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 12 July :: 11.23pm

she wants to know what it feels like. he wants to know how to fly. he wants to feel that fire. he wants for her to speak her soul. she wants to stare at him unwavering. he wants her to feel happiness.

see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 8 July :: 11.57pm

on jaded wings we fly. everythings awry. we build our castles inbetween tides. but some memories they wont subside.

i'm not the repairman for your life. you must do that yourself. my dreams project the realizations of my subconcious. a datum for my being. you were gorgeous tonight.

1 paid close attention | see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 6 July :: 11.35am

last night was a crippler. one that punched me in the gut a thousand times. "whatareyoudoingjackass." wheres the point in clouding truth. be open where you stand. blow out the inside. maybe you will. maybe you cant. maybe i cant hear.

i am that orange light hanging on the pole that is you.

1 paid close attention | see beyond what is

whenthesunsets

:: 2003 6 July :: 2.55am

just a fool to believe i have anything you need

5 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

whenthesunsets

:: 2003 6 July :: 2.32am

craZy glue
you wanna hear something crazy

im scared of feeling the rest of my life..

..then how i feel when im with you.

(This is where it started.)

1 paid close attention | see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 29 June :: 2.26pm

i'm so imperfect i fucking love it. ;-o

1 paid close attention | see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 27 June :: 1.25am

it was like this. the rivers flowed because the source became unplugged. unplugged because that was the happiest anyone has ever made me. no need to rationalize it. it just was.

1 paid close attention | see beyond what is

losttt

:: 2003 22 June :: 3.38am

i woke up at 2 feeling mad at myself for falling asleep.

i now feel mad at myself for waking up.

i know what it felt like today to almost die. there is nothing to be afraid of. staring at the walls i saw they were only walls because i allowed them to be. the word myopic didn't exist. everything was what we made it. simple as that.

2 paid close attention... | see beyond what is