one girl whose pages tore

:: 2003 20 May :: 8.42pm

what the fuck is the point of these things. suck my balls already. laconic is my name. :)

:: 2003 15 May :: 7.57pm

who has the right to do anything. to think. to breathe.

there is no such thing as right. only what you desire. you urge.

i see right and wrong as an easy means to describe what is thought without appearing to be selfish. what is "right" usually appeals to someone, whereas what is "wrong" goes against that someone's desires. we just phrase what we feel in terms such as "thats not right" or "thats fucked up" in attempt to hide the selfishness we are.

and with that ill put on the shades, take out the trash, hit play and watch it unfold.

:: 2003 7 May :: 6.51pm

ender.

:: 2003 4 May :: 10.27pm

this is all jabber. individualist decrees of non-individualistic ideas. egocentrical idioms of mind. i've been drinking life while you've been narcisst. how jeympity i say. how jeympity. and whence the clarity come you will pass it off as some bullshit, your mind hath been betrayed by your stupid fucking egos.

see beyond what is

:: 2003 30 April :: 6.45pm

two perfect strangers. sharin' a groove.

without emotion life could be perfect. without emotion life wouldnt be.

:: 2003 24 April :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: feeney hazonned

performing word acrobatics with palpable meanings and tact. meaningless questions and thoughtless perceptions we act.

and im sooooo full of shit. 8)

:: 2003 19 April :: 12.19pm

Pink Floyd is fuckin dope. so is halo. so is existing right now. thats all i have to say.

6 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

whenthesunsets

:: 2003 15 April :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: bad religion-inner logic

but there really wasnt much point, and I gave up the idea out of laziness.
everything in life is made out to be a competition. today i decided. i shouldnt have to. i dont want to. im gonna let loose. and dance some more. tomorrows a whole new story.

:: 2003 14 April :: 9.16pm

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time<_______>emit

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exist<_______>tsixe

look at your clock. and think of what those numerals mean. digits by which we base our lives around. a false constant. just like all the other fictional apparatus we add into the mix. "Time" as we know it is a measurement of something that is infinite. whet en oxymoronic perception.

:: 2003 10 April :: 9.55pm

shankfucious top 5 movie picks:

1. The Legend of Douchebagger Vance
2. Jeympity Jones and The Temple of Do-Me.
3. Douche-mosis Jones
4. Jeympageddon starring Bruce Flinkis.
5. Planet of The Jeympes.

I should be doing my homework. Instead i fill this time by creating fictional movies or thinking of them based on our fictional discourse. Atrophy of the mind. Or perhaps expansion. or maybe. there is no such thing. as either. and we are all fucking insane. living by invisible constants in a fictional realm.

:: 2003 8 April :: 12.00am

shank: where the fuck do you think we are.
girl: on errrth duh. in florida.
shank: no you dumb fuck. in both a dimensional and mental state. where are we.
girl: umm dimension.you mean like the twilight zone?

how people turn into these automatons. intriguing. just thinking of the entropy of human nature. and how standing on this earthen floor i still dont feel like i am anywhere.

see beyond what is

2 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

:: 2003 7 April :: 9.54pm

reverrrbb. selur eht etirw-re. my friend billy pilgrim said to ignore the negative. word to you billy.

dew yew realize that around the world peeple are shewting one another? because of stewpid negative fucks who cant get along. fucking queers man.

shankfucious say: throw out external influences. and listen to yourselves more often.

2 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

:: 2003 5 April :: 8.41am

killing somoene is never realized in your mind until you can no longer see them. and once you have realized you killed someone. you develop a hunger for recessitating them. and just as killing them was once your goal, fixing your foul deed now is. only their insides have decomposed into a disfiguration far beyond recessitation. so we dig a grave to bury the past. dress in black and perhaps say a few words. and soon after forget what once was.

i should be working out. but the phone never rang. ive lost credence in friends. doesnt matter.

2 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

:: 2003 31 March :: 9.17pm

nostalgic fever. longing for old escapades on endless nights. for the days when the sunrise bore hope. days before i became addicted to painkillers. before machines started turning human. times when i enjoyed looking into the night sky. times when you guys made up stepdad quest and i thought you were so gay. when i swiffed fuckin pebbles. when we whined and giggled like little girls playing silent hill 2. when we watched golfballs and blocked all the roads. when i fell in the shower. when the demon light would make us run. when you got caught in my closet. when we toilet papered the baseball field and mummified you. when we put shampoo bottles everywhere. (sorry) when we smoked black and milds and bitched about life. when hong kong fooey got us into some dumb ass movie. when we beat up the ashtray but only you got caught. when we played halo until 5 in the morning. when we bought douches because we have lost our minds.

haha. ill never forget it all.

:: 2003 26 March :: 10.51pm

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direction is relative. what is one man's left is another man's right. what is percieved as ones downfall is in anothers eyes their uprising. keep in mind that what you see is merely one interpretation of the whole. however, inspite of this, one usually takes to the belief that their was is the only way to see things. we get so arrogant in our views. closing minds and boarding up the entrances once an opinion has been formed. sdrawkcab eb yam siht uoy oT. Only because that is the way you have been taught to percieve things. so hows about you try. break the mold. dna yfed niotpecrep.

consider this paradigm. do you see the following as evil or as live? it all depends on your perception. after all. life is how you make it. break through it all.

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