one girl whose pages tore

:: 2002 15 April :: 6.49pm
:: Mood: cynical

Tear away from the cold. Embrace the warmth anew inside. Go for what you burn for like there is no tomorrow. Dont stop trying. Dont quit fighting. Because someday what it is you desire will be gone.forever. The day for you is coming. The day in which there is no tomorrow for you. Clock is ticking. Time is in your hands. Make it count.

:: 2002 14 April :: 9.52pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: From autumn to ashes

Our ignorance is bliss. Enjoy it while its here. I know i will. <3 nite

2 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

:: 2002 13 April :: 12.17am
:: Mood: Sigh
:: Music: Computer Humm

Relationships
No more games. None. Be open with me. I'm trying to climb over this mountain, but I need your help. YOUR help. <3

3 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

:: 2002 9 April :: 9.04pm
:: Mood: Somber
:: Music: Less than jake-help save the youth of america from exploding

Change
This world needs to change. All of it. A blanket had been unfurled over you eyes. They blind you to the system, blind you from the unequality that exists. How Is there equality in a world that is ruled by a few hundred people? How do we have the power to rule over others lives? To sentence them to death? To imprison them? To tax them? To take away their freedoms? It's simple: we don't, never have, never will. No matter how much you may detest someone or something, you have no right to take it away unless it is of your own. NO RIGHT. How society judges is something that throws me into a rage as well. Society judges me on such dimunitive levels such as grades and money. My level of intelligence is based on letters. Whats wrong with that picture? I see everything wrong. Someone give ideas about change in society. Please.

:: 2002 8 April :: 8.55am
:: Mood: Lazy
:: Music: some kids wont shut up

In comp. class
Hi kids. Aggh some girl really angered me a few mins ago in between classes. no names, but I want to hit someone ahhhhhh asfffndfh!!! Ugggh some people just need to be shot, no questions asked. Hmm well i'm having a good chat with pat so im out. <3 peace.

4 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

:: 2002 5 April :: 2.12pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Godsmack at Jasons

Apathy is rare in her

She is serene yet enraged

Holding on tight

Letting go, losing strength

Exhausted from all that's around

Yet she always has a smile

well i'm just skippin at jasons. I got bored. Someone figure this out. . We are going to do somethin cool. <3 bye

4 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

:: 2002 4 April :: 5.47pm
:: Mood: Empty gaze
:: Music: Anti-flag

Her heart burns bright

Emotions kept locked inside

As she awakens, her eyes open like doors

Through that door she comes out

Her essance is releasing

Emotions glowing brighter each day

Reaching out is her hand. I think i might take it

if you get what this is, let me know.<3 sean

3 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

:: 2002 4 April :: 10.12am
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: dumb teacher again

bORED AS FUCK
Im just in class again. Patrick is sleeping so i got nothin to do. Suck my dick Suck my dick Suck my dick Suck my dick Suck my dick Suck my dick Suck my dick. Someone. Suck my dick.This is worthless i'll write somethin worthwhile at home. <3 bye

:: 2002 2 April :: 9.55am
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Dumb Teacher Talkin

Haha i enjoyed reading Heather's jorual. It made me smile in this boring ass class. *yawn* Well i'm hoping everythings gonna work out, cause things are getting clearer. Im suck of fuckin negativity and people focusing on it. You can't dwell on the bad that "could" or "may" happen, you just gotta hope for the best, and whatever happens is for the best. You can't lose that hope of happiness. Keep on smiling. <3 you all. -Swan

3 paid close attention... | see beyond what is

:: 2002 31 March :: 9.32am
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: AFI-The last kiss

me=fuckin lucky
Last night. I. Shit. Myself. After i left tom's at 2:20 i was drivin to ashley's when i saw a cop drive by. So when i got to ashleys, she told me some guy called the cops so i had to go home. So while im driving home a cop with no lights comes outta nowhere, yells at me to pull over, and checks me out and shit. Then he starts laughing and said it was all a fuck up and i could go freely with no consequences or anything. I could have fuckin died i got so scared. Then i went numb. The craziest thing is, i still dont care. And im for sure gonna do it again, just not for a fucking while. Im sorry for not gettin to hang with you ash. fuckin coppers. But i got to chill out with tom for a bit so it was cool. I dont see anything wrong with driving around tho. I am a ver cabable driver, we arent doing anything "bad", so societys laws can fuck themself in the ass. Anyways; im still dumbfounded by women. Agh. someone put me outta my misery. Someone.

:: 2002 30 March :: 1.38pm
:: Mood: YAAWWWN
:: Music: Less Than Jake-Just Like Frank

FUcking Females
COOONFUSSING. AGGH head. spinning. from. females. ah. They say they know how to drive. Then they almost run into parked cars lol. At least spicket knows how to drive, even when she looks like a granny. <3 spicket. My world seems like utter chaos right now. I dont know where i want to go, what i want to do, it seems everyone keeps stringing on consequences to everything i say or do. Which in fact they are right, i think the same things as them, but someone tell me why people are so hung up on consequences? I say do whatever you want to do, if it brings you happiness and comfort in that period of time, then do it. Because there is no eternal happiness. How can we have eternal happiness if someday we are all going to face our day of non-existance? We are going to die. How can you be happy if you cease to exist? Tell me the point of worrying over every little consequence and detail Bonnie. Lawrence. Someone tell me.

:: 2002 29 March :: 11.57pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: jay leno

tired
i sneak out too much. need sleep. but suprise suprise im leavin again tonight. i need someone to be with. who knows what could happen. but i gtg now and pick up these hoodlums. <3 nite

:: 2002 28 March :: 3.56pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: AFI-Of greetings and goodbyes

each day makes me happier!!! reids here holy shit im gonna bust on myself. today is going to be quite awsome, as will tonight be :). I think im now able to have lots of fun again. Aw man im so punk rawk. I thought about being apathetic, but i cant see how people can do it. Boring life i think, i like emotion most of the time. Ok im going off on some weird shit now so im gonna go. My friends fuckin rock. <3 sean

:: 2002 27 March :: 4.40pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Thrice-as the ruin falls

Im sick of it all. I've seen the depression to be had in this world. It pierced my heart and broke it in two. I looked at my life last night, and decided to pick up the broken pieces, mend my open wounds, and get the fuck out of this hole of self pity i've buried myself in. To all of you who loathe in the sorrow and tragedy of this world, let it go. Be yourself. Wake up. Realize where you are going and what life is about, and be yourself. I see all these kids changing along with us. Are they really waking up? or just being yet another conformist? you decide. Im gonna go have some fun now and forever, and hopefully this is my final good bye to that now empty hole. Hello naive world. I fuckin missed you. Smile :)