When everyone has left me here, I'll make it on my own. Just wait and see.
Maybe if you came back down, you'd see it happening to you. Maybe you'd even care.

Hear me out, I don't think you'll make it out. Hear me out, see the writing on the wall.
~

Today was good. Morning= serving breakfast to 70 people.
I think I have a problem. I can't concentrate on anything during class. I can't do my work at school, I have to do it all when I'm alone and at home. I just can't do it at school. I either draw or just think about stuff. Blah. Today for lunch I brought a Starbuck's double-shot. It was really good but I don't think I got any energy from it. It all faded within the hour. Talk shows are...stupid.

Baby I'm not foolin'
TODAY WAS AWESOME!
Made some yummy almond prailine cheesecake. It turned out soooo good! Mr. H was really excited about it. I didn't get to try any though. Hey I met someone today too. He's really neat. I've had this song in my head all day long. hehe. Gosh I'm so happy today. Ugh. I just remembered I had homework...

farts. three-eleven god we praise thee. DEERSLAYER> DYLAN IS ON DRUGS> denial! Denial!
BLAAAAAHHHHHH
llalalalalalalala
KEVIN, who's birthday is it today??????




YOUR MOM

nobody came too soon
Now as I lay by your side
would you tell me why everything has to be lies
leaving everyone wondering when we'll all wind up dead
to all we are within
wednesday the third was the night that you rambled
alone in the fridgid white light like a leopard
about to dig in to trembling skin
with wind whipping your shins

...
Now as I lean to the side
I can see all the thoughts that you're trying to hide
I've arranged for a ferry to France
where you should relax, don't worry about the pets
they'll be safe at our address
...
and you'll be the last one to wish for rain

I am sick of:


-People who take others for granted.
-People who have been making me do their jobs while I still try to do mine and get done on time.
-People.


And I just found out something that makes me really angry. Just because you want to push away from everyone to be by yourself does not mean you can act so selfish. You know damn well that I am still your friend. How many times have I talked to you about "things". And how many times have you said hurtful things to me and I just shrugged them off. And you know what? I think since you kept your eyes shut you've become too blind to see the people around you who truly care. And who are still there and will always be there. But since you've shoved us all away, or been really mean to us, we've taken a step back as well.

I'm sick of this. I'm going to bed.

I do hope I won't learn to make the same mistakes that you would make-me aware my only fear
my only hope is letting you go.
~

If you could know everything, would you want to?


~

You're a few years overdue, I spent them waiting here for you.

Smashed finger. Ow.


FOOD! yummy.
Wow. I think I'm crazy. Massively. I remember a couple years ago Jessi and I would say massively all the time. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA!!! I really feel like talking to a certain someone. I miss them a lot and I want them to come over this weekend. I can't wait till this weekend it'll be a blast.
Time to go...eat some food.

Let's call it off I've had enough of the games
If you could see into me all my veins are tangled up, tied in knots.
~


Today was fun!
Yippee! *jump jump jump*

Happy early birthday Jessica!
I <3 you!

G'night.

If I could move just one fingernail to scratch your name on the back of my hand, so i would never forget you again
Worst birthday ever.


Today was awful. How shall I start...Sometimes I just don't want to talk because anything I say will come out sounding selfish and I hate that. But 16th birthdays are supposed to be special, right?

-My cousin blew out my candles on purpose, right as they finished lighting them.
-My other cousin started throwing fits and crying.
-My step-uncle complained about taking pictures. He said I could do it.
-My other uncle didn't even look like he wanted to be here.
-When I walked outside I saw my lawn getting torn up by my other cousin's huge remote-control monster trucks.
-Scraped car with coat-zippers.
-They got cake all over mom's sweater.
-Babysat my cousins while everyone else did whatever they wanted.

No birthday would have been much better if you ask me. I need to go play guitar and watch my stress fade away

Who knows the tale in every sordid detail about the kid born on nobody's list?
To a dad named Bob and a mom named Claude and a dog that was constantly pissed.
~


Today shall be good. Even if I feel like mom and dad should be doing something else. They act like they are so busy. So yeah. Little kids, lots of little kids parading around my house pretty soon...ahhhh!!!!

~
End of the year so we got a career and tried our best not to think of the past
Yeah it pisses me off but I guess it's enough to know that sometimes nothing's a blast.

:-P ~pffft~