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godessalthena

:: 2016 5 January :: 7.37pm

why I am quiet:

I speak my mind, and everyone systematically tears my idea down.

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godessalthena

:: 2016 5 January :: 1.54pm

still feeling like shit, but made it into work. trying not to escape into work requests and music, because everything else just feels like too much.

things don't go how you want them to. and people keep hounding for things they'll never get. and my patience is wearing thin.

I hate being a woman. I hate society. I hate how we raise our children and I hate how we all feel worthless and powerless and insignificant.

I've lost 20 pounds since I've moved home. I can see it all pretty much left my belly. I don't know if I want to be skinny, but being at 200 pounds would be pretty cool. I guess. I don't fucking know.

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godessalthena

:: 2016 4 January :: 6.08am

after sweating profusely all night and waking up to more sick, I called out of work today. first day of the new year and I can't make it in.. hopefully the rest of the year won't be this way.

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godessalthena

:: 2016 3 January :: 9.36am

fuck I'm really fuckin sick. I wish I had drank heavily to deserve this, but I didn't.

fuck

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mbenznut

:: 2016 1 January :: 6.21pm

Why can't you hear a pterodactyl go to the bathroom? Because the P is silent.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 31 December :: 6.51am

it's like trying to sleep on Christmas Eve when you still think Santa is real


maybe it's finally my turn

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godessalthena

:: 2015 30 December :: 7.30pm

today was really quite good. best day I've had in a stretch.






and I am shitting my pants.

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godessalthena

:: 2015 29 December :: 6.58pm

I probably don't say this enough, but my dogs are just the best. I see bjornes paw prints in the snow and I can just imagine him prancing through the snow with my dad, walking up to the garage with his little grin. his adorable butt wiggle for a tail wag. when he smooshes himself into the corner by the hate waiting for me to come home.

I love when I get home and come up the basement steps, and he is up there with his excited face and tail fluttering furiously, and then his twirling happy dance around me as I take off my coat. he really is the sweetest baby boy.

and rika.. well shit she's just adorable. she always snuggles extra close to my hip at bed time. the way her tail wags extra wide when I get home. and all those little sweet kisses. she always is trying to hump bjornes face, and sometimes she does it with a toy in her mouth over his side, and growls up a storm. it's like she's trying to jump over him.

and her little Charlie Chaplin legs. and making her dance. she loves me best, and that just melts my heart and fills it with more joy than words can express.

<3


side note:
I miss the sun. it's been overcast and snowing for a few weeks now, I've almost forgotten the color of the sky, or the warmth of the sun. I'm not sure how I survived in Seattle. I need the sun!

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godessalthena

:: 2015 23 December :: 4.38pm

fucksmoke the pain away

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godessalthena

:: 2015 19 December :: 6.49pm

going out with Zoe to boomers for the first time in forever. I'm excited but also anxious. I feel something ominous in the air. I hope I'm just being a weirdo.

I need to be more honest with myself. analyze less, think more.. if that makes sense.

I wonder if I'll ever feel free again.

1 Kelsey Grammer | Thank You


godessalthena

:: 2015 17 December :: 8.50pm

what's it feel like to be a ghost?

louder, now, louder now?

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godessalthena

:: 2015 16 December :: 7.58pm

if I could have my way.. oh what things may come.

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mbenznut

:: 2015 9 December :: 8.45pm

“You look—like you got a facial from a smurf.”

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mbenznut

:: 2015 9 December :: 8.34pm

“You know what I like after sex?”

“What?”

“Ice cream.”

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godessalthena

:: 2015 6 December :: 12.29am

a very dear friend's best friend committed herself to the great below today..

she's taking it in stride (I think?) but my heart hurts for what she must be feeling inside. that girls life is seriously a shit storm and yet still manages to stay positive and avoid cynicism. I admire her greatly. I wish she didn't live so far away.

it's so mysterious.. the land of tears.

1 Kelsey Grammer | Thank You

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