lalala

lalala

:: 2016 24 May :: 10.01pm

Juan like my belches because they are deep and full

Ashley likes the sound of my voice because it is soothing

I reeeeeally hope Juan and I start a pod cast.

it would be how you say uh-maze

godessalthena

:: 2016 23 May :: 10.20am

why ARE there so many songs about rainbows and what's on the other side?

godessalthena

:: 2016 17 May :: 10.06pm

loyal dog met my parents today and spent time in my home on my couch watching my tv and enjoying my world and it was

simply

the most MAGICAL thing

he made me a mix cd every song was love and passion

we checked out guitars and he fell in love
everything just fell just right just where it belonged

am I an animal in a cage?

if I am, do I even care?

he feels like home, and all I want to do is come to him.

godessalthena

:: 2016 14 May :: 2.39pm

a muse is a beautiful thing

godessalthena

:: 2016 13 May :: 6.04am

got my eyebrows done for the first time in over a year....

and god damn do they feel strange.. but they are also on fleek.

1 love | <3

godessalthena

:: 2016 8 May :: 8.39am

I don't particularly believe in souls, spirits, ghosts, etc..

but I sure do see them often.

godessalthena

:: 2016 7 May :: 8.30am

the best thing about my man is its like dating John Mayer B B King Prince Mac Demarco and Snow Patrol all at the same time

I feel so vital

godessalthena

:: 2016 5 May :: 2.29pm

comparison will always beget misery.

godessalthena

:: 2016 1 May :: 2.05am

so drunk

punk/street kid life

not for fucking me

godessalthena

:: 2016 29 April :: 8.17pm

even though I fucking hate driving being in my car is the only place I feel completely at home

godessalthena

:: 2016 29 April :: 6.06pm

I know it's a little late, but happy birthday grandpa. I miss you so so much.

godessalthena

:: 2016 26 April :: 6.46am

I wake up every morning exhausted with ridiculous tummy cramps. I make at least 3 browns every morning. I think I'm dying.

godessalthena

:: 2016 23 April :: 8.51am

he is my Juan and only <3

godessalthena

:: 2016 23 April :: 7.49am

do men experience emotions differently from a woman because we are different or because society tells us we are..?

1 love | <3

godessalthena

:: 2016 21 April :: 9.42pm

Do not commit the error, common among the young, of assuming that if you cannot save the whole of mankind, you have failed.

- Jan de Hartog

godessalthena

:: 2016 21 April :: 7.07pm

sitting waiting to see my first comedy show..

saw someone at work who recognized me..

I feel the strong compulsion to get wasted. I took a Lyft down here.

Juan is more than despondent about Prince's passing.

we are about to go off the rails on a crazy train in these... last days of April... bahahaha

godessalthena

:: 2016 19 April :: 9.51pm

<3awad

I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies.

- Pietro Aretino

godessalthena

:: 2016 16 April :: 8.07pm

all I do

all I do baby

is keep lettin you down

godessalthena

:: 2016 15 April :: 7.45am

there's never any certainty
but in my avoidance of the fluffier of feelings
their memories are just out of reach

I want to pour my heart out
to put it in clear glass for you to see
but these fears keep holding me from losing myself

my heart tugs me towards you
a scrappy loyal dog from the opposite side of the tracks
two fiery hearts waiting to combine

but what if the fire dies out
what if the fuel starts to fail
what if these embers are meant to waiver
and the world is a pail brought to douse us

oh but sugar pie honey bunch.... you know that I love you?

godessalthena

:: 2016 11 April :: 8.53am

I don't normally get so anxious for my birthday
but this year is going to be different
I wonder if anything special will happen?

godessalthena

:: 2016 9 April :: 6.27pm

jammin with two cool dudes

breakin the law and grinnin my ass off

laughter fillin up the room and the sky

I guess dreams really do come true

godessalthena

:: 2016 8 April :: 9.57pm

VACATION'S ALL I EVER WANTED

godessalthena

:: 2016 8 April :: 7.50am

just gotta make it thru today and then helloooooooooo 9 days of freedom

I am so fuckin excited

godessalthena

:: 2016 2 April :: 5.16pm

all aboard the edible express.

next stop: fuck your couch.

1 love | <3

godessalthena

:: 2016 1 April :: 9.29am

I have been in constant agony for the past few days. my arm hurts so fucking bad. I can't focus on work, I can't sleep at night.

today is just fuckin wrong on so many levels

godessalthena

:: 2016 29 March :: 9.56pm

I miss rolling

godessalthena

:: 2016 28 March :: 10.39pm

falling in love again, never wanted to, what am I to do, I can't help it...

godessalthena

:: 2016 28 March :: 11.34am

dear grandpa
I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you

I miss you so much

godessalthena

:: 2016 28 March :: 6.46am

I'm still really mad.

and when this boy crashes and burns, don't expect me to be there to hold you.

godessalthena

:: 2016 27 March :: 12.50pm

there's a little part of me that hopes maybe..

but maybe I'm also just crazy.

I felt sad this whole weekend. It's hard missing people. my birthday is soon. and I'm really not looking forward to it. I am excited for 9 days away from work and a fuckin awesome road trip with the bestie.. but otherwise I'm just getting ready for a disappointment.

the last several years haven't been the best. I just hope maybe if I keep low expectations I might be cleverly surprised.