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godessalthena

:: 2011 30 April :: 12.58am

Tonight was fun :)

And having rent is a good feeling.

I'm working OT this week. being extra responsible!

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godessalthena

:: 2011 25 April :: 1.40pm

Lab tests and weight gain.

I'm scared. And have no comfort.

I know what a partial reason for it is. But there could be so many other things wrong. Things that idk can be fixed.

What's for sure is I need to get serious about losing this weight. I need to do something. Why can't I just get motivated?

I hate living here. I hate feeling so out of control. I feel disempowered. I feel weak. I feel hopeless. I need help, but can't afford it.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 21 April :: 7.43pm

Home of an IUD. no babies, periods or hormones for me!

It hurts but I can deal.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 12 April :: 1.39am

Happy birthday to me!!

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godessalthena

:: 2011 10 April :: 8.56pm

April fools about the baby.
I actually am considering getting my tubes tied since the age to do it is 23 now from what I hear..

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godessalthena

:: 2011 9 April :: 7.13am

New metal DDR pad :) lotsa booze breasts and fine friends. Over all a very epic birthday :D

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godessalthena

:: 2011 8 April :: 3.02am

Birthday party tomorrow. Maybe the baby won't like the alcohol and leave. Maybe I can still have a good birthday. I hate people.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 7 April :: 11.55am

There's a hole in my heart.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 5 April :: 6.29pm

I hate my life.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 3 April :: 4.59am

This will be the death of us

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godessalthena

:: 2011 1 April :: 3.54pm

Well it's official.. I'm going to be having a little bun growing in my oven... I honestly don't know what to think. Or do. I feel so confused. :(

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godessalthena

:: 2011 31 March :: 5.45pm

I feel used. Taken advantage of. Pissed.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 26 March :: 12.50pm

Last night I dreamt I had a little crab and didn't die.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 23 March :: 9.52pm

I'm so tired of feeling.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 19 March :: 10.27pm

I miss the muppet show haha

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godessalthena

:: 2011 18 March :: 2.50pm

Last night was a blast!
I'm super sleepy but drunken debauchery is so worth it!
The kitchen is a mess. And the puppy.. Fucking cute as ever!

I think as long as I just stop thinking about where I am the next year won't be so bad. It's hard to think of leaving this job too.. It's just so good. In so many ways.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 17 March :: 4.29am

I wish I had a best friend.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 14 March :: 10.05pm

Got a bitching raise and bonus! Got a cute little puppy! Got a handsome boyfriend and I got a good job!

Things are looking good.

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godessalthena

:: 2011 12 March :: 12.28pm

This was a bitching weekend.

Honestly I forgot my pills two days and it still rocked :)

:D

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godessalthena

:: 2011 7 March :: 4.56pm

I'm so angry I could cry

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