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2010 9 October :: 10.54am
Ahh insomnia.. Again welcome to my life..
I'm so tired of working out and dieting and getting nowhere :(
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2010 8 October :: 8.42pm
Seeing the family made my week :)
but now I'm home and it's boring and not fun.
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2010 8 October :: 1.15pm
I don't hate you. I just don't feel like pretending today.
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2010 8 October :: 12.44am
:: Music: We're In This Together Now - NIN
I've become impossible
holding on to when
when everything seemed to matter more
the two of us
all used and beaten up
watching fate as it flows down the path we
have chose
you and me
we're in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow
you and me
if the world should break in two
until the very end of me
until the very end of you
awake to the sound as they peel apart the skin
they pick and they pull
trying to get their fingers in
well they've got to kill what we've found
well they've got to hate what they fear
well they've got to make it go away
well they've got to make it disappear
the farther I fall I'm beside you
as lost as I get I will find you
the deeper the wound I'm inside you
for ever and ever I'm a part of
you and me
we're in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow
you and me
if the world should break in two
until the very end of me
until the very end of you
all that we were is gone we have to hold on
when all our hope is gone we have to hold on
all that we were is gone but we can hold on
you and me
we're in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow
you and me
even after everything
you're the queen and I'm the king
nothing else means anything
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2010 8 October :: 12.38am
So drunk.. I kinda miss HS b/c of all the inside jokes..
I am disappointed in tonight but it's nice to reconnect :)
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2010 7 October :: 6.28pm
I haven't felt this used or repulisive in a long time.
Thank you.
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2010 7 October :: 1.48am
:(
I feel very blah.
My Friday so far has been very disappointing :/
3 tulips |
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2010 5 October :: 11.58am
My belly has been aching :(
and my dreams are full of blood, violence and tornadoes..
Kinda sucks haha
working out everyday is hard.. Hopefully it pays off eventually.
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2010 4 October :: 10.47pm
What I want for chirstmas:
world peace
smoked salmon
a trip to Seattle
assistance in moving to Seattle
to be debt free
a puppy
a ragdoll kitten
money
a necklace
anything hello kitty
clothes/giftcards to clothing stores
an iPhone 4
anything giraffe related
a family
cuddles
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2010 3 October :: 2.05pm
Working out is kicking my butt :/
and I drank spittle too much last night :)
I can wait to reach my goal and get my tattoo :)
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2010 3 October :: 3.08am
I miss you I miss you I miss you so much..
I feel like half of me is missing.. I don't want to go to bed cuz I know you aren't here..
There is no subsitute. No one loves me like you do.
I am SO glad you were born today.
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2010 2 October :: 4.48pm
Is it tomorrow yet?
We haven't spent more than 10 hours apart in 2 years.
This is fucking difficult :(
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2010 2 October :: 12.10am
The only problem with these pills:
I can feel anger.
And I am FUCK pissed right now.
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2010 30 September :: 7.32pm
I love this optimisim I've found. I love feeling up despite people around me. I feel good and productive :)
I'm ready to get drunk and be silly :3
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2010 30 September :: 2.41am
Mmm home made sushi :)
go friends and feeling at home with loved ones..
This family I've crafted may ve slightly disfunction, but i finally feel like in home..
Surronded by people who love me..
I'm making headway in my weight, moving forward with my job, being successful in my relationship and patching things up with my blood family.
I'm finally getting the life I deserve. I'm so happy I'm here living it.
I'm so fucking lucky :)
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2010 28 September :: 1.13pm
Yesterday: 1100 cal consumed, 335 cal burned, net 756. Basal rate 1700. Good day :)
Today: so far 110 cal consumed, 400 cal burned. Looking to be a good day ;)
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2010 27 September :: 12.43am
I love cooking :)
especially when it's amazing!
Cuz I'm bad ass!
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2010 25 September :: 4.47am
I feel ugly sometimes. and I know I'm not good enough :(
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2010 24 September :: 8.58pm
This is fantastic! Boobs everywhere and pussy galore!!
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2010 21 September :: 7.10pm
I hate my life here. I hate all the memories all the disappointments the cruel intentions and the malice. The spite the filth the poverty the selfishness. I hate how none of these motherfuckers can see past the end of their noses.
I want to run away. To get away to save myself before I fall deeper into this bottemless hole. I hate being a failure.
I hate being myself.
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