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2016 21 September :: 9.17pm
a lil drunk
feelin pretty grood
not worried about too much besides my internet being a fucking bastard
y u no netflix & chill, vizio?
going to portugal. the man in november. bought everyone tickets for their birthdays. i love me some scorpios man.
what da fuq for halloween doe.. dayman and nightman? harambe and a banana? the fox and the little princess?
i don't know man. i just don't know.
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2016 16 September :: 2.11pm
gotta take a picture.
but first gotta find the damn thing.
still haven't unpacked from my move a year ago.
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2016 14 September :: 8.07pm
I don't like the way I'm feeling right now
my stomach sinking
all the blood rushing to my trunk
I just feel so frustrated that you won't talk time about anything.
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2016 13 September :: 12.04pm
this dead heart of mine is a heavy burden to carry.
I used to think maybe I wasn't meant to carry it alone
but every day that passes it seems more and more like a fact
I am not made to be happy. I am not made to love.
I am not made for anything. I am a tamed animal that's been left alone to waste away.
this hollowness I feel grows more every day. temporarily am I filled, but only to have it slip out of my cracked base.
i watch the wind through the trees and feel the brisk autumn air against my exposed flesh.
I feel nothing but meaningless inside.
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2016 13 September :: 7.52am
disappointment
why can't you be a little more responsible?
or why am I such a responsible old windbag?
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2016 8 September :: 10.05pm
I can make it if I tired
I closed my eyes I kept on swimming
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2016 5 September :: 11.13pm
splurged on some new clothing today. torrid was having a buy one get one free clearance so I stocked up. a lil reward for paying off my car! I deserve it!
I just hope it all fits. the shitty thing is no returns... but let's be honest I'm too fucking lazy to go into a store.
I have some Blazers that never get worn.. I want to start wearing them more often just because. I'll dress up on Tuesdays, since men have tie Tuesday.
and maybe I'll get some new lipstick too...
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2016 31 August :: 9.07pm
maybe I really am just not ready
I fucking hate that motherfucker. I hate who I've become. who he trained me to be. I am so weak. still a slave to those putrid habits.
I am broken indefinitely. with broken strings it's hard to fix oneself.
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2016 30 August :: 8.05am
reasons I hate work:
- nothing ever works
- offshore processing
- NOTHING EVER WORKS
- OFFSHORE PROCESSING
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2016 28 August :: 10.27am
oh my god I am tired
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2016 25 August :: 10.08pm
off to the tri cities for another Mexican birthday celebration and the taco guy
he makes the most delicious tacos, and to watch him prepare them is a treat
camping out in the back yard in a tent
it's going to be how you say
el mejor
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2016 24 August :: 12.51pm
I never have been
And I never will be
good enough
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2016 22 August :: 9.52am
probably the best thing growing my hair out has going for me:
EPIC HEAD BANGING
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2016 20 August :: 3.28pm
he's sawing adorable logs on the couch next to me
I gently touch his butt
he wiggles and makes the cutest sleep chuckle
I could die so cute
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2016 19 August :: 9.30am
so some good news after the terrible horrible no good very bad day yesterday...
I PAID OFF MY CAR NOTE
now to just get the title and she's mine ALL MIIIIIIINE
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2016 18 August :: 11.42am
I live fat ugly and stupid
I'll die old alone and unloved
I try so hard to be seen
but I've never been more invisible
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2016 15 August :: 5.25pm
I fuck up too much to be a good relationship partner.
I can't feel enough to be a good relationship partner.
I will always be weird inside, I will always be lame.
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2016 14 August :: 9.20am
I feel so fucking guilty for being a home body.
but the older I get the less and less I want to spend time with new humans. they just aren't worth it.
especially now that I am the DD 99% of the the time. being the sober cat around a bunch of drunk dogs fickin blows. no amount of being checked on will make me have a better time.
I'm just a big old lame ass. I can't even get drunk anymore. my belly starts to hurt before I feel anything.
I suck.
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2016 12 August :: 6.40pm
I could be happy forever with my cinnamon girl
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2016 8 August :: 11.48am
got my in person interview tomorrow!!!
so excite much nerves!
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