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2006 9 October :: 9.17pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: "Let Go"- Frou Frou
Today
Journal,
Ehh.. my day was pretty good compared to the last few. I wasn't crying really bad. My eyes were very watery and tears ran down my face but there was none of that heaving crying. What a surprise!
1st per.:
Finished my work, like always. Mr. Rodriguez checked our notebooks and I got a B. =] Anjane was supposed to pull my out but for reasons unknown to me, she couldn't. Doesn't really matter though. I don't necessarily hate that class anymore. It's just boring.
3rd per.:
Fun as always. I love Ms. Perez's class. We took a really important test today on The Great Gatsby. I got an A!!! When about half of the class was still taking the test and there was a selected few who were done, she was like, "Gina, you really understood the book." lol I didn't know if she was serious so I was like, "Are you being sarcastic?" & she was like, "No, you did really good." I was like, "YES! :arm pump:"
5th per.:
Chorus was actually fun today. All of us sopranos were in the keyboard lab. We were supposed to be practicing this really stupid medley of Christmas songs. It has stuff like "Jingle Bells" and "God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen". It's so retarded. The only part I like in it is when we sing "Silent Night" and I sing a high A! Ah, I love it! So yeah, we didn't want to practice that. We started singing Hanerot Halalu and finished the entire song in like, 30 minutes! It was amazing. It's a really cool song!! It's in Hebrew and you know you gotta love those Jewish songs!! =] We got into somewhat trouble for doing that song though because Mr. Navarro didn't know we were doing that one. So we went out to show him and then he told us to go back into the room and practice the real song. So we practiced it and then we were making fun of it and singing "Jingle Bells" really bright like we were 5 year olds. It was a lot of fun! I was sitting on top of the filing cabinets and standing on chairs. lol
well, have to go. I'll write tomorrow.
[i love Alyssa]
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2006 8 October :: 7.06pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: "what's left of me" -Nick Lachey
Is today a subject?
Guess so. Today i just woke up took a shower and than went to Breakfast! man, believe it or not they have some GOOD mexican food! Before that got into an argument with my mom and brother as usual. My brother is becoming really badi odnt know how to control him...i just hope this angerness goes away. Well, than we went to the store bought some food and just tried to pass the time by so we can watch the Dolphin Game. DAmn do we freakin suck! we're now 0-5...thats some motha fuckin bullshit. I never thought i'd see the Dolphins like this. im ashamed to say im a DolFan...but oh well. i love them Winners or Losers. they just need to play freakin better. Harrington played, hes pretty good! oh well, now i can just hope they lose more and more games so we can get better drafts next season... After the game we went to the stores bought some food for our Fat asses and goit my eyebrows done. Damn that bitch did it hard! And the cool thing about today was that it was warm, lately its been cold as a motha fucker! sad thing about tomorrow is the high's are gonna be in the 50's ....AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!! i just hope i can cope with this shit soon. Man, everyday i think about my lilo Woobie, i miss her sooo much! i just wish the days can go by faster so we can live together already, and start our beautiful lives together. AAHHH! i cant wait! thani came home and just watched t.v and came online. than i talked to the love of my life and still am...Well, nothing really special happen only when i talked to my love....I guess ima go, nothing left to write. Ttyl Journal! till tomorrow
I love Gina...Forever and Ever
*6-20-06* - Forever
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2006 7 October :: 7.33pm
:: Mood: jealous
:: Music: "say goodbye" - Chris Brown
Mind Thoughts
There's been a day or 2 when i feel really happy and anxious for school to start and how much my life is gonna change in so many better ways. But then there's the days when im so Depressed and feel so lonely cause i dont wanna go to a different school, having to find new friends ALL OVER AGAIN! I dont even want to. My friends were PERFECT, my school..uhh...somewhat but bedsides the point i was happy there.
I guess to have something Great, Unbelieveable, Undescribable, Incredible, Amazing, Life Changing, Life threatening, thing happen to you is unfortunately give up something special, something you love or someone.
I had to leave my Beautiful, talented, amazing, Smart, and BEst Friend behind. Man, i cant believe it. Shes EVERYTHING i mean EVERYTHING to me. I love her so much. i dont wanna regret moving here cause im doing this for her, for me...to benefit us in the later future. Alot of people dont believe we can do it. BUt they dont understand how much we love each other. I never loved someone this much. I mean before, i always cheated in a relationship, regardless if i loved them or something, but for her, i mean..i could NEVER EVER think of doing that to her. Im so honest with her also, and ive never been truly honest in a realtionship...but we share some special bond that i cant explain where i wish i could so i can tell the whole world! and they can envy us :) Wodrs cant explain how much i love and adore her...i get butterflies when she calls me those cute names, look at me in a some kind way, touch me...GOSH! i love her. i get so happy when i think of her, say her name....
Me being here makes me sad that i cant see her...but i know if i close my eyes picture her by me i can almost feel her here...in an odd way..yes but i do! i guess thats why i dont cry as much as i should, i dont know...she knows i love her and so does everyone else...
We can make this work, i know we can! I love her and she loves me...We're gonna be together forever and live happily ever after! fuck people who say there is no happy ending or fairy tale ending w/e i know we're gonna have that! i really truly know. i have faith..
well, i have to go but ill probably write more or just type tomorrow...
See ya later journal..
I love you Gina..
Always and Forever Baby..
*6-20-06* - *Forever*
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2006 7 October :: 1.10am
:: Mood: Better than earlier..
:: Music: "Snap Ya Fingers"- Lil Jon
Icons..
I found some more icons that I really liked... so here they are..... they made me feel a little better.. maybe they'll work that way on you too!
Read more..
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2006 6 October :: 4.14pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: "Get Up"- Ciara
My feelings..
Journal,
Crying is the only thing that's constant nowadays... I feel like I'm going to be seen as either really pathetic or like I'm looking for attention or something by the way I'm always crying... But honestly, I don't mean to be. It's like I feel so empty. It literally feels like my insides have been cut out. The only thing I've noticed that's better is I'm talking to people less just to get my work done in school. I don't do anything when I get home from school. I don't hang out with anyone except for lunch and things like that.
I'm so stressed out. Like always, I'm freaking out about colleges. I want to leave Homestead already. I want to see frikkin Alyssa & it's only been 2 days. I haven't really been eating... maybe I should be. I don't know.. I've just been really upset lately. =[ I think tonight I might be going to the movies w/ my dad or to the bowling alley w/ a few friends. I need to get out or something. If I stay at home I'm going to cry myself to sleep again. Maybe I'll work on my Rubik's Cube a little more.
Well, I'm going to go.. I think I'm going to look for more icons.
I love you baby. More than anything. & I promise that I'm always going to love you. I can't wait till I can see you in December. I'm going to get you a good present! You'll see!! =] We can do it my love. Don't listen to anyone and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
[Until the day I d i e]
[I'll spill my ♥ for y o u]
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2006 6 October :: 2.55pm
:: Music: She will BE loved"- Maroone 5
Your a Journal..
Are you gonna judge me? Are you gonna resond to my thoughts in a message or some sort of action? If i tell you a secret will you promise to keep it? Can i just tell you why im sad, why i hate the world? Why i keep crying, why im so happy, why i feel like the luckiest person in the world? will you promise to be there whenever i need to write? Not only are you a journal, but where i can express my feelings, where i can feel clamer about however i feel. Please be here when i need you the most.....cause i know im gonna have the best times i can ever imagine and remember them by reading what i posted a few months ago, and unfortunately, have the worst times and not wanting to remember them but type it in you so i can get my emotions all out. i know this is weird talking to something that has no feelings whatsoever....well, on the other hand...it does have feelings.....MY feelings...thanks for being here...Also thank you Gina...for being able to have this..i love you...always and forever baby..
i guess ill write more later...
I love Gina
*6/20/06* - Forever :D
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2006 4 October :: 9.17pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: "What A Sight"- Matchbook Romance
Crying..
Hello journal...
I thought I'd handle it better.. but I mean, how good could I take it? My girlfriend.. who I love with all of my heart.. moved today. The past 2 days I helped her pack with her mom and her brother.. it was ok then.. but today when she left, damn, I don't think I've ever felt a feeling of emptiness so strong before.
This morning was fun though because Alyssa and I went to breakfast w/ Javie, Bryan, DJ, Danielle, and Alfonso. =] Those are some funny people! lol.. but anyway... back to what I was saying..
Alyssa left a little before noon. They dropped me off before they went on the road and when she was hugging me and saying goodbye, she was beginning to cry but I stopped her. When I walked into my house though.. the tears started to form. It's going to be so hard without her here. Especially because we're going to try to work out our relationship long distance. I know what everyone thinks when they here long distance, "Never going to work." I mean, I tried long distance with Mike.. but I didn't know what I was getting myself into then. I know better now and I know what not to do. I just really hope she can do it. She was starting to scare me about it because today she told me she was having a little doubtfulness.
I want to be with her so much. I really love her. More than I think she comprehends. I hope she can withstand it. =\ I told her if she loves me as much as she claims to, then she can do it. I know that I'm not going to do anything stupid.
I'm going to see her a few days before Christmas though. I've already talked to my dad and he said he'd send me up there and I'd stay for a few days. =] I'm so excited! It's going to be soo cold though! As a native Floridian, 30 degrees is like, freezing, hypothermia, weather. lol It might be as little as 10 degrees or lower there at that time! I might die... but atleast I'll see Alyssa! hehe
Well, had to get that off of my chest... I was crying too much.
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