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2005 7 September :: 4.45 pm
fuck you . . fuck what you do . . fuck how you act
-- fuck how you just dropped me instantly
you and him just go be happy - and continue to forget i never existed
. . because im done with it, im done giving a shit and im done caring.
the end
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2005 30 August :: 3.05 am
. . one of those moods . .
ya, im in one of those moods, where you just wanna cry and cry and just have somebody hold you and tell you it'll all be okay, even if it wont.
im also in one of those moods where i want to thank my real friends from the bottom of my heart for all the shit theyve helped me through . . id be so fucked without you's . . so ya, this thing im doing is just outta boredom and my mood, have fun findin out who you are !!
-- you are my everything, my life, my best friend and you always will be. i miss you so much and i cant wait to see you again. you have helped me through the best and the worst, and we have countless memories . . you will always hold a special place in my heart, and you will never be forgotten. i wouldn't be who i am without you.
-- we surprisingly hit it off exceptionally well. we havent gotten the chance to hang out much, but we talk as much as we can, although ive only known you for a short amount of time, you too have helped me through a lot of drama. im so glad that i know you and have the privelage of being you're friend, you are an amazing person and you deserve only the best. thanks for always listening and giving great advice, im always here for you.
-- you are such an exceptional friend. i only wish we got to hang out more when i was in florida. i have many memories with you that i will never forget, not sure if we still own that lake though?? we've had some very good conversations, and i know that you're always there for me, just like i am for you. i miss you like craazy and really hope you come up this september. dont ever change for anybody, keep you're head up, i love ya.
--we met through my cousins, and i didnt like you at first, but now its all good. im so glad we've been hanging out and been able to help each other through the drama. there is no salt without pepper !
-- oh man, where would i be without you?! moving here was so hard, but you helped me adapt to everything, even if i wanted to, there is no way i could ever forget you.we may not always agree on everything, and we may not spend every moment together, but we're still such amazing friends. we were drifting apart, but we caught it early enough to stop it. i will be behind u through your whole life backing you up the fullest. theres so much we've been through, and i think we've both made such big transitions because of each other, dont forget me ever, and dont forget im here for you always.
--we didnt get to hang out while i was in florida, but we definitely will soon. boynton beach high school would have sucked without you there, this i know, because i was still there after you left. i was so happy that i talked to you in art class..you had helped me through so much in such little time. ill never forget the football game we went to and sleeping over ur house. i will always be here for you, even if its been months or years since we've talked, i will never love you any less. you are such a special person in my life, i hope u know that, and ill always be there to listen. always.
i love you all, id be in a shit hole without you guys. .
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2005 29 August :: 3.19 am
Post anything that you want here, and post it anonymously. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love... anything. Make sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post as many times as you'd like. Then, put this in your Journal to see what others have to say.
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2005 24 August :: 2.49 am
wow . .
fuck you and everything you stand for .
im done . . i cant do this to myself anymore, im done and overwith !!
you had to be a pussy . .
you couldnt tell me the truth
truth is . .
the truth hurts
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2005 23 August :: 1.25 am
. . in the words of ashh . .
asherzzz . . sorry i took this from you, but at the moment im feeling the exact same way and im doing everything in my power not to cry . . hope you dont mind i took this from you. it couldnt have been said better . . i LOVE you
i dont want to hurt && i dont want to cry
anymore
&& most of all i want to know what to do with myself
to let go isnt to forget, not think about, or ignore it. it doesnt leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. letting go isnt winning and it isnt losing. it's not about pride and it's not about how you appear. it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. letting go isnt blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and it doesnt leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. it's not giving up or giving in. to let go is to cherish memories but to overcome and move on. it is having an open mind and confidence in the future. letting go is accepting. it is learning and experiencing and growing up. to let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, cry and grow. it's about all that you have, all that you had and all that you will gain. letting go is having the courage to accept change and the strength to keep moving. letting go is growing up. to let go is to open a a door, clear a path and set yourself free
. . i hate doing this to myself. i hear one thing, see another, feel another . . i hate hate hate feeling like this. i hate what you do to me, i hate that i have no clue. but i dont want to give up on you, i cant. i wish i knew what was best for me . .
i just want to know what to do with myself
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2005 16 August :: 2.05 am
:: Music: tainted love
got it from ashh
you can complain because roses have thorns... or you can rejoice because thorns have roses.
If you stand in front of a mirror, with a dozen roses... there will be thirteen beautiful things.
A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back when you forget the words.
People always ask, "Why do you like him?" and "How can you love him?" But I dont want them to understand. Because if they did, theyd love him too.
If you never get your heart broken, you never learn to love.
Im going into this not knowing what Ill find. Ive decided to follow my heart and abandon my mind. And if theres pain, at least Ill know that I gave it my all. Because its better to have loved and lost. Than to have never loved at all.
The greatest thing youll learn is just to love and be loved in return. -Moulin Rouge
Dont take life so seriously. Its not like youre getting out alive!
Anyone can catch your eye. But it takes someone special to steal your heart.
Dont waste your life regretting all your wrongs. Know that in the end, youll get what your heart longs. Risk it all... you may stumble... but dont fall. Take the time to read the writings on the wall. Hold your head high, and dont be afraid to say goodbye. Stay true and be you; do everything you want to do. Live life to its fullest, and never look back... Theres a reason for the future and a reason for the past. Love until it hurts; laugh until you cry... And when your life flashes before you... before you die... be happy for what youve done and rejoice for what youve become.
A love that is denied only grows stronger.
In three words I can sum up everything Ive learned about life: it goes on.
Nothings perfect. Things just happen. -The OC
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2005 8 August :: 12.54 am
:: Music: everytime we touch
i thought u were just another guy. but baby these butterflies dont lie // sometimes i wish i never met you cuz then i could go to sleep at night not knowing that theres someone like you out there !!
ya know, i never understood the whole friends with benefits thing.. you're friends, but you hook up occasionally? i mean whats the point of that? if you're friends you obviously like their personality, and if you wanna hook up with them you like their looks.. so why not just date? it makes things so much easier, and makes you not feel like such a slut. but i guess theres always those reasons you cant date, like distance or other people, or the guy doesnt want a girlfriend or some stupid reason like that.
but if you like them a lot, is it worth being "friends with benefits" .. or does the girl feel dirty and the guy agree that shes just a random hookup and dirty and easy? i just dont know. but if i could change the situation i would. i do like him enough to hook up with him and not go out with him, but should i? should i risk what him and other people think of me for a hook up? and when i say hookup i dont mean brain, or face, or anything really intimate. i mean a hookup, kissing -- tops. but i dont need to be considered easy or a hoe, because im definitely definitely NOT.
maybe im just thinking about this too much, and over analyzing it. maybe i dont even kno what the fuck im talking about, maybe i completely took this whole thing outta line and maybe my so called situation has nothing to do with this, but i just dont understand friends with benefits. the more i wanna hook up, the more i dont cuz i feel easy, but if you like a person a lot lot.. is it worth it? i need opinions here. but yea i guess ill stop babbling..
and nobody ask me who this is about or where this came from because my mouth is shut on the whole situation until i figure out a few more things. xoxo thanks for all the help in advance to the ppl who comment!
you can fall in love with anyone.. but the problem is -- he can too
im just a girl with a huge crush on a cute boy <33
before i met you i didnt know what it was like to look at a person and smiile for no reason
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