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2005 17 January :: 9.50 pm
yakyakyak
alrighty well.. lets c, this week at school was okay i suppose. i had a meeting with my guidance counselor, we talked about regents, grades, college yadda yadda.
Friday after school i met up with lovie* and we went to her house for a little bit. Then we went to my house, i did my chores and what not, then we checked movie times, went to pizza classica and had some chicken fingers which were damn good, and then we went to go see "white noise". i thought it was a good movie, but the ending kinda ruined it. but all the people in the theatre were screamin so loud, it was hysterical.. after the movies we met up with her brother matthew and his friends anthony and nick bc they picked us up from the theatre. we started just driving around looking for .. get this :: exotic fruits haha. we got kicked outta waldbaums - thanks lovie* then we went to taco bell, and they brought us home. we wanted popcorn so we asked matt to get some, so he dropped some off and then me and lovie watched poltergeist and went to bed!!
saturday we woke up hella early to go to the dentist. we got there, lauren and rose - her mom got their appts and we played cards a lil bit - ghetto texas holdem and some blackjack, plus an intense game of war hehe. then we went to mcdonalds, had some grubb and then went to my house, after that we went back to laurens for a bit n then went to johnnys.. after that we went out. thats all ill get into with detail about that night, but it was a fun night right laur haha. i swear, the balls went crooked!! got home at 11
sunday got to sleep in, just hung around for the most part, then i found out my cousin joey was here from college so some of my family mnet up at the clintonville for dinner. that was nice, then when i got back home lauren came over. we watched poltergeist and uninvited guests with my aunt, then me and my aunt had a put down contest like cursin each other out . was pretty funny. so lauren slept over. fun night
sunday we woke up and watched bourne supremacy, got bagels, went to her house and got online for a little bit then went to this eyeglass place so i could get a pair, but too expensive for my blood lmao. then went to johnnys n back to my house. we did some homework and just hung out, then she went home and i did my own thing.
just got done talkin to jimmy lol and his ex situation. he kills me but he keeps me going i swear. i dont wanna get into it, but i still duno wtfs going on .. wish i could get in his head, but i dont wanna get into it as i just said, but hes still got me all the way. gonna get some shut eye, im out.
ended this really short, but im getin some advice from jay andd talkin to ppl .. siegel siegel.
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2005 9 January :: 8.43 pm
:: Music: the killers - mr. brightside
blahh
well i dont really want to get into everything thats been going on, because it hasn't been that great, and some of it is just too whacky to talk about..
still havent my gift from jim, and at this rate ill never get it from him or my uncle aunt and cousins, cuz at the moment, im not allowed to see any of them. dont ask me why, because i dont even know the full reason, all i know is anything that makes me happy gets fuked up right away.
this weekend was pretty cool, for the most part, hung out w/ lauren everyday and we did some stupid shit haha. saturday was .. oo lets say -- uneventful.
my hearts breakin right in front of my eyes, and nobody sees it happening, and nobody tries to fix it. the first boy who i think is truly good for me, who will make such a wonderful addition to my life, who is truly genuine.. gets taken from me..
not to mention, im in total denial about my mom. i dont think shes dead, and im just now realizing it. i cant explain it, but its like i think im here on a vacation gone bad and shes still at home waiting for me.. then i really think back and realize shes not coming back, so i cry.. and cry .. and cry until there are no tears left, my life is a nightmare
anyways, i dont wanna talk about this anymore, and im trying to persuade my aunt to cut my hair, so ill get going. hope everybodys holidays were good, back to school tomorrow.
its hard to tell your mind to stop lovin someone when your heart still does..
i wish you'd realize im all for you, i wish you'd realize i wouldnt hurt you.. i wish you'd realize that i wanna be with you.. i wish you'd realize you wanna be with me too..
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2004 24 December :: 11.32 am
xmass
im not going to update about whats been going on, because.. well because i dont have time to do that today.
but.. first things first
Merry Christmas Eve everybody!!
I have a ton of stuff to do today!! woohoo lol. I hope everybodys day is nice, calm, and one to remember.
I'm going to Aunt Dee's for this vacation, which I am so excited for because I wanna see them, toni, the kids, n jimmy*.. plus ill get the hell outta here lol.
just a quick update -- hung out w/ beanie yesterday, then went out n saw phm and a bunch more ppl.. and things are coming about that i never thought would.. but i gotta go
time to start cookin! woot! lol. carly -- ur presents just a tad late lol sorry babe, i love you sooo much!
toodles!
Feliz Navidad ... eve =]
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2004 19 December :: 6.55 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: killers - killing me? [their new song]
my weekend!!
lol just fyi.. this song im listening to is jimmys fave song, he wants to download it for me haha..
well well haha.. my weekend... actually, lemme even back it up a little further to wednesday.
so wednesday im talking to jimmy about how im coming out there this weekend and yadda yadda.. so we keep talking n hes like "yea i have to go to a play with my family on saturday. we go every year around christmastime" so i was like "well that sucks" lol. and he goes "well tara was supposed to go with me this year, we had a ticket for her, but now that she's not going [cuz they broke up] do you want me to see if i can get you the extra ticket and u can join me" so of course i was like yeaaa lol. so i was all happy that day cuz he invited me to go.
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thursday im talking to him and he tells me that the ticket that was going to go to me was given to his neices friend, so theres no ticket so i cant go unless the friend backs out.. very saddening
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theeeenn friday i went out to eat with my aunt, and i was talking about how i really wanted to go to the play and meet his family cuz maybe if they liked me he'd change his mind about the age thing n stuff.. soo she was like, if its meant to happen it will no matter what, and im just in a foul mood cuz i really like him and really wanna go to this show with thim and his family. so i get home from lunch and im talkin to him about it again, and he tells me that somebody else backed out of the play and theres an extra ticket. soo of course my frown turns upside down and i told him im still up for it. 1 problem - i have to be in shirley, at uncle joes, by 8am.. whatta bitch!
saturday morning i wake up at 613am and john brings me to the isle. we go to uncle joes and jimmy is the only one up. we get inside and then me and jimmy leave for the train station and john goes back home. so we're in the car freezing our asses off tryin to find this train station. so we finally get there and get to the ticket place where u buy ur tickets to meet up with his family, jim goes to get the tickets but he forgot his wallet in the car lol. it was mad funny, he ran so fast to get it lol. poor kid. so we get the tickets, and yes he pays for me.. and we get to the train, whatta close call gettin on that train lol. a split second later we wouldnt have made it -- no lie. so we get on the train n me n him sit together n we're talkin to his neice megan and her friend amanda, they were cute, always wanted "uncle jimmy" it was so adorable lol. so we get to penn station and jim gets a bagel n then we start walkin.. a lot hah. we get to carmines to eat and we had to get split up into 2diff tables cuz our party was too big. so it was me, jimmy, jimmys dad, his mother, 2 sisters, and brother in law. WHOA lol. so his sister jen in the middle of dinner goes "danielle, can i take a picture of you and jimmy" lol i was nervous i dint know what to say.. so i let jimmy handle it, and he goes yea take a pic and leans into me and we take a pic. [ahh lol sigh aww. <33] we kept givin each other these looks, i cant xplain the looks/smiles or the feeling i get, but its something. theen after dinner we keep walking to toys r us and me n jimmy go sit down by a bunch of elmo dolls lol, we talked for a bit, tried to make a plan for the rest of the night and sunday. after toys r us, we walked to the show, we got in, and were tryin to get to our seats when suddenly i feel jimmys hands go on my hips and hes holding me by my hips so gently makin sure i know where im going n he dont lose me, omg i thought i was gonna die lol. so we get to our seats, n of course we're sittin together, n the show was AWESOME. omg billy joel songs are great, it was really a good show. after the show we were gonna go see the tree, but we were all maaadd tired.. so we didnt. so we start walkin back to penn and me n jimmy r ahead n he goes to me "you know, this would be nice, if they werent here" i kinda giggled cuz i didnt know how to respond to that rofl. soo then we get to the station n jimmy wants a shake so we go to haagen daaz n get shakes for us. we get on the train n its a longg ass ride n we get back to ronkonkamo station n say our goodbyes. his family was soo nice and i think they liked me. so i hugged all of em goodbye and me n jimmy left. we went to aunt patties and hung out for a while then i went to aunt dees so we could have a talk, n then we went back to aunt pats. when we got there rob n jim were sleepin, so i woke them both up, i started massaging jimmys back n he goes "ahh, yess.. this is the best way to wake up, good wake up call" lol i was like yea im the best haha. so we went to get mudslide mix n then we came back to the house. we played texas holdem .. 8 people,i got in 3rd suckersss lol! woot woot, it was between me uncle joe and jimmy.. uncle joe won..so then the boys opened up their gifts, they LOVED the shirts whicfh really made me happy.. and jimmy used his shot glass lol n my family got wasted haha. jimmys the new whiskey boy!! during the game me n jimmy did that smile/flirty/these looks/innocent touchin n flirtin thing.. n then i went back to aunt dees. rob n jimmy got mad i didnt sleep over there haha arent i loved.. im missin details from the day, but this is long enough ha.
then today i woke up at like 950 and txted jimmy cuz i told him last night id wake him up today. so i txtd him n he wrote back n told me to get ready nd he'd be over to pick me up in 15min. soo i got ready, sure nuff he picked me up in like 15min n we were off. we went to the bank first, but they were closed so we went to get breakfast, i got a bagel.. yumm, he got eggs on a bagel lol. yumm too. then we ate and went back to the bank, he did what he had to do, and then we looked for movie times. we went to the paintball place so we could drop a few things off to robbie n jared. after that we went to island16 [movie theatre] n saw oceans 12. he saw it already, but i didnt so we went. but doode, that movie constantine looks soo sick i gotta see it. soo yea, we went to the movies n then he dropped me off at aunt dees. it was retarded tho cuz i was supposed to leave the isle at 3, which is when jim dropped me off, but we ended up stayin til like 430 whcih sucked, cuz i coulda been w/ jimmy instead lol. at 430 we went to aunt pats to say bye and i saw him again so my heart fluttered, i got butterflies and a HUGE smile n we kissed on the cheek n said goodbye, n imma come back there on sat or sun and stay for a week which will be AWESOMMEE!! ill get to see jimmy everyday when hes not working!
but yea, the thing that gets me is jimmy always pays for EVERYTHING. hes paid for everything everytime we're together. its really nice but i feel terrible, so i always try to whip out some cash..
its so much fun hanging out with him, but it always sucks having to say goodbye, its not fair that we live so far. but my family keeps telling me not to worry about it uz they think jimmy likes me but he's just being respectful n yadda yadda. idk if he likes me, but i sure sure sure hope he does... ill wait, as long as i know im waitin for somethin solid. my fam tells me he likes me n things will happen a relationship will blossom, but damn man. lets get in blossoming season or something, this is killinggg meee lol. but i gotta go bc im gettin bitched at. ill update more later.
<33 - i only wanna be with youu - <33
Did the sun just come out or did you just smile* at me <33
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i cant stop smiling. im so happy when im with him, its undescribable
oo .. n he wore AF BOTH days
idk if u know what im talkin about
but it means something rite laur?
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2004 17 December :: 6.35 pm
well, i have just been up and down with updates these past few days but im back to this..
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plans are back on!! i only hope i can get out there in time, imma cry if i cant. this is sooo important to me.. i hope i can make it out there by 8 .. please dont let me down john
its funny how things work out . . .
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hope i can keep that face on til monday!
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2004 16 December :: 10.33 pm
should've figured.. just should've figured
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when is something going to go my way? things are not lookin up..
and fyi -- that was the most retarded thing you could've done whether you were kidding or not. it was dumb and started a problem over nothing.
sure, we made plans for when he gets back, o12 .. wallyball.. whatever, its still not the same. i just want to make plans and have them follow through.
had a good talk with mike today ~ that was fun..
i cant stand how good he makes me feel, i cant stand how much i liike him, and i cant stand that i have no idea what hes thinkin..
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2004 16 December :: 5.26 pm
it cant get fucked up, the plans cant get cancelled.. im too excited for that to happen. my grin last night was from ear to ear
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aaanywho, when ur not lookin for guys, they sure do pop up haha. i only hope he becomes one of them. ill update when i know the definite plans. x's n o's
ciao bellaz! `';``'`;Danielle';``'`;
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