Boom there it is!!!
Monday- small Group
Tuesday-Work
Wednesday-Youth Group
Thursday- Praise and Worship practice /Surround Sound
Friday-Work
saturday-Work
Sunday-Church / 2nd small group

too busy!!!
Yeah...

parsnickity

Yeah!!!!!! I'm back in the game, sorry for such a long time out. Life is frick'in awesome and boy is the world about to be hit with a curve ball! Here I come, no more feeling sorry for myself or getting angry or sad or anything, it's time to walk the walk and maybe do a waltz in there somewhere. Let's rock and roll. *10 second dance break!* okay I'm back! So yeah time to prove it with my life and that is that!!!

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Man, i had to work all night tonight, then Ben came and got me we just watched the movie "Holes" but yeah sorry to anyone who tried to message me during the movie. Anyway i have a fear I was at work and realized that my leg isn't getting any better if anything it's getting worse when i do walk on it it kills, and more and more so. But yes I was in denial and now I'm realizing the truth.

Hello
Well we had a half day today and it was great. I got a recording done so that I could do some brain picking for lyrics for a song, then we had to go up to great day, and while Milly, and her sister were inside I fell asleep and then Molly came out and snuck up to my window and startled me on purpose, then I got my pay check and bought everyone lunch. It was good too!
I made a decision today, i would love to be a teacher/pastor (hopefully youth)/soundman/just somebody that makes a difference. I started to think about hte question who am I? Not the name but the person. I hope that people see me as a good person, but you never really know for sure. I want to be a father, a Husband, a teacher, a mentor, a lover, a leader, a student, a outcast, be accepted, be an alien, understood, and loved. I also figured out this, we read so much in school for literature and drama and such, and i decided to truely understand what we read we need to understand it, so I decided if i ever became a teacher that I would make sure that I helped people feel, and live, so they could learn.

Oh by the way those lyrics i was talking about here is a sample:

When I wake up in the morning
i drop to my knees and pray,
and Lord I know you hear me when I say

Be the whisper in the wind
The starlight when i've sinned
the Peanutbutter on my jelly snadwhich
cause your in my heart again

like I said I can't write so yeah.....

But I feels so great you would almost think that I'm on something.

The eye of the storm

Here I sit in the eye of the storm, I see what's before me, and what is behind me, and though things are about to get rough, I have a uncanny peace that has fallen over me. i want to think that everything will be perfect alright with my leg, but I know better. For some reason I can't understand Why I feel so calm about it all. I know that I'm worried and that I will fell it but right now everything is silent. So very silent, no wind, no sound, no movement, just now.... So maybe the pain killers are getting to me I don't know

SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(does anyone read these anyway?)

Wow, life is different. I work Thursday, Friday, and Saturday this week. Meh!

Anyway I'm doing pretty good. I am really really happy being with Rachel, I love talking to here. Heck, even if I have things that normally I wouldn't say anything about because I'm apprehensive about and would bottle up, but I don't know with her I can just talk about it, and I can make her smile, thought I'm not sure if that's just to make me feel better. :) I find it funny though, everybody has their own opinion of me and Rachel being together, and while I don't feel like raising hell right now, I would just like to you try and be objective and remember a few things. We all obviously know that Ray is going to be upset, but I want you to be objective remember. One, Ray is the one that had Rachel come all the way out to my house the night that they broke up, and tell me that she was mine if I wanted her. I would like to say though before you get huffy that this was very comendable, but there are a few things wrong with that. If you really want to know call me and ask. Anyway, then after he did that Rachel and I sat and talked for a while and made an agreement to wait, because we both needed time apart before we could be together. So that was that, but Ray for some reasons seemed to push us being together. I won't go into the reasons I believe are behind this. I just wish that people could see something though. Sometimes your own actions become the punishment in of themselves. So to be honest I know that you are all Ray's friends, but I think you need to realize that things between me, Rachel, and Ray are being worked out, and there is no need for you to put your noses in and stir up more trouble, we are working on it, and do you really think that that will help? To be honest this is only directed to some people. I would like to say while I don't believe anyone is going to hell but I think that your outline with some of your comments, I mean number one I have had nobody not one single person come to me and ask me how I felt or what I knew was up before you started judging, but I geuss part of that is human nature. I really don't mean this to stir up more trouble but to hope that some people would be able to have a little more understanding, and maybe other would just know how I felt.

Peace
Nick