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:: 2005 25 May :: 2.09pm

I'd love to blame all this crying on Fred but I think I just realized that my grandfather died.

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:: 2005 25 May :: 11.21am

I had a dream last night that I had two babies.

Actually, they were some other lady's babies but she sort of dumped them in my car and left.

It was awesome. They were cool people.

Except they started walking within five minutes and I knew something was up.

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:: 2005 24 May :: 12.09pm

My dad's father passed away.

I didn't know him that well. None of us did, really.

My dad was kicked out of the house when he was 16. His mom was having another child and couldn't afford to keep my dad fed and stuff too. He's the oldest. His other siblings are all girls.

George DeForrest Greggs, Jr. He has his father's name.

So my dad and his family have never been on good terms. When Dad came back from the army, he went home and the house wasn't there anymore. No one'd told him about it.

I woke up this morning to the phone ringing and my dad running to answer it. He answered all cheerful and happy, talking to his sister. Then he got really quiet and asked how everyone was and how is mom was. My dad isn't a quiet person.

So I don't know what's going on funeral wise. I don't know if we're all going out to Pennsylvania or if just my dad is going. I heard him say something about trying not to make the funeral on Thursday because I'm graduating but really, it'll be okay if my dad has to go and can't be there. I think that stuff is more important than sitting around forever to hear my name be called and watch me walk across some stage.

Anyway. Just thought I'd let everyone know that I might be gone later this week. I didn't know him very well. I don't know anyone on that side of the family well. I don't even know the names of all his sisters.

And that makes me feel horrible.

I love you all.

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:: 2005 24 May :: 1.14am

Because Jackie couldn't use a smurfing cut tag...

I make fun of her survey! YAY! Fun for everyone!

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I love you all.

P.S. I love you, Jackie!

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shinigami

:: 2005 24 May :: 12.24am

No cut tags, EVER!

Your boyfriend
Created by youarenothing and taken 212 times on bzoink!
Physical stuff
Eyes:	Brown and green. Yes, two different colors
Hair color:	Dark brown
Build:	Tall, lots of muscle, but not that well defined
Favorite physical feature:	Personally, I love his face in general. His eyes and lips especially
Friends
Are you his best friend? If not, who is?	Yes I am
Is he yours?	Yes he is
Do you know his friends?	Yes I do
Do they like you?	I believe so...
Relationship
You love him, don't you?	Of course
And he loves you?	Yes
When did you first start to see him in that light?	Um, probably since we met
When did he first start to see YOU in that light?	I don't know
Do you think about him often?	Of course
Is he romantic?	No...
Do you kiss often? If so, what kind of kisses?	Well, kinda I guess...
Are you affectionate in public?	Sometimes
Would you marry him?	Of course
Die for him?	In a heartbeat
Do anything he asked of you?	Almost
Does he pressure you to do things?	No, of course not
Do you pressure him to do things?	Only to quite smoking
Personality
What is your favorite thing about his personality?	That he can make me laugh, he's goofy ^_^
Is he creative?	Sometimes where no one else is around, and no it DOESN'T have anything to do with the bedroom
Are you a jealous person?	When it comes to him and other woman yes, and him and being able to see him yes
Is he?	In regards to me hanging out with guys, yes
Do you fight often?	Not really...
Is he forgiving?	Yes
Are you?	Yes
Is he smart?	Very
Does he play instruments?	He's learning
Does he understand you?	Most of the time
Is he funny?	Of course
Is he faithful?	Very
In common
Do you listen to the same music?	Um, sometimes...
Do you like the same movies?	Nope
Are you the same religion as he is?	Um, Christian, but not Catholic....
Does he respect your opinions, even if they differ?	Yes
Would you feel comfortable enough to cry in his arms?	Well yeah, duh
Would he cry in yours?	Probably not
Does he buy you things?	No
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sherriffsteve

:: 2005 23 May :: 5.23pm

Uh, yup. haven't said much for a while, but I guess I've not had much to say. It's kind of funny reading everyone else's journals. wondering what you guys were thinking when you wrote what you wrote. It's kind of weird to say that I know what your saying, and really understand what you were saying. I can't believe the seniors are graduating in 4 days that makes me happy for them. I remember when I graduated, which was last year. It was so exhilerating and exciting, I had no idea what to expect. But then a year passed and here I am, sitting at a computer trying to tell the rest of you to enjoy it while you can. It really is an adventure. Life I mean. Just to look back at all the things I been through, all the places I've been and all the people that has walked across my path is just amazing. I would not change this life for anything. And I'm not saying this because I've gotten everything I've wanted. Most of you know that I am on the way other side of the spectrum when it comes to that. I just chose to except life the way that it was. and I could not be more happy. You only get one life, so live it to the fullest. I love working at a daycare and for that very reason. I have a chance to impact kids life. Not just with sharing with them the love of Jesus. But being there for them when they get hurt or when the cry being able to comfort them. Being in highschool, I spent so much time trying to find that comfort for myself. Trying to crawl into someone's lap and feel loved. now that I think about it, everyone one else is looking for the same thing. But life really started to take it's drastic turn when I realized that there is nothing that God wants more than to hear us call Him daddy and to crawl up into His lap. If only more of us could realize this.

:: 2005 23 May :: 12.08am
:: Music: Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap

Say goodnight and go (for goodness sake)
This song is so awesome. The music video is awesome too. (Bonus points for being on her mailing list.)

Even though I hate the show (coughsoapoperacough), I'm glad she got her music out there again.

I love you all.

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Shinigami

:: 2005 21 May :: 2.10am
:: Music: Utada Hikaru- You make me want to be a man

I really wanna tell you something,
This is just the way I am.
I really wanna tell you something, but I can't
You make me want to be a man

Arguments that have no meaning;
This is just the way I am.
You really wanna tell me something, but you can't
You make me want to be a man

The thunder and the rain called you when you came.
We didn't need to say much to communicate.

Now it's different,
99% is misinterpreted...

I really wanna tell you something,
This is just the way I am.
I really wanna tell you something, but I can't
You make me what to be a man

Arguments that have no meaning;
This is just the way I am.
You really wanna tell me something, but you can't
You make me want to be a man

Every word you say finds a home in me.
Nothing anyone could ever say could hurt me like this.

Baby please don't light that cigarette, don't light that cigarette...

I really wanna tell you something,
This is just the way I am.
I really wanna tell you something, but I can't
You make me want to be a man

Arguments that have no meaning;
This is just the way I am.
You really wanna tell me something, but you can't
You make me want to be a man

I really wanna tell you something,
This is just the way I am.
I really wanna tell you something, but I can't
You make me want to be a man

Arguments that have no meaning;
This is just the way I am.
You really wanna tell me something, but you can't
You make me want to be a man

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:: 2005 18 May :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: confused

Congratulations cuz we've made it...
Today was my last day of high school.

It didn't really hit me until Katie and I were hanging out with Ben, Nick and Jackie.

And now I want to cry. I guess I'll go play WoW or something...

I have songs for occasions. Because I'm a dork.

This is my graduation song:

Lost at Sea by Eisley
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I love you all.

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shinigami

:: 2005 17 May :: 10.51am

Lots of open houses to go to this year. But am I even going to see them graduate? Maybe, I guess it depends on if I work or not. L_L

shinigami

:: 2005 16 May :: 12.24pm

Wow, work really knocked me out. I went to bed at 1 and didn't wake up until about 20 minutes ago. Damn doubles.

:: 2005 16 May :: 2.43am

So I stayed up all night. Kelly's going to pick me up in about two hours.

World of Warcraft is just finishing its stupid installation.

I didn't finish my government stuff so I'll be up late tonight/tomorrow night, whatever you want to call it.

My organs hurt.

I'll probably take a shower in an hour or so.

Have an awesome day.

I love you all.

P.S. Kyle, I hope you had fun yesterday.

:: 2005 15 May :: 1.27pm

A Midsummer Night's Dream pictures are up.

I'm the dorky looking one.

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:: 2005 15 May :: 1.08pm
:: Music: All You Need is Love

Tomorrow, Kelly and I go to Cedar Point with our Physics class. It's going to be awesome. Sort of. The bus leaves at 5:15 in the morning. It'll be really awesome because Kelly and I rode the bus together in 8th grade to Cedar Point so it's like we'll be little kids again. I think I'll pull an all-nighter tonight so I can get my government stuff done and it just feels lame to sleep for 2 or 3 hours.

Last night was the final night of the play. It wasn't that fantastic and it didn't really feel like anything. Maybe it's because I wasn't acting for anyone I knew or maybe it's because I wasn't going to the party afterwards. I don't know.

It was pretty final though. My friends in that play are juniors and freshmen. The junior I only see at lunch and Tuesday's the last day I'll ever have lunch.

Wednesday will be my last day of high school.

Finally.

My parents are in Las Vegas all this week so if you guys want to hang out or come over, feel free to do so because I'm not doing a thing.

I love you all.

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:: 2005 14 May :: 2.28pm

The play on Friday night was pretty awesome. Way better than Thursday night.

Nick, Ben, Kelly and Jackie came. Which was nice of them.

Something important...blah blah.

Final show is tonight. I don't really feel like doing it. Everyone wants me to go to the cast party tonight but I'm not a party person and there's going to be alcohol. People drinking makes me anxious.

I love you all.