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:: 2004 9 April :: 10.43 pm
:: Mood: cant describe it

7 more days
So today had its downs. But I did my best to keep it up. Im feeling quite open so I'll keep it short and too the point so I dont say too much...

Lauren and I went rollerblading this morning. Dirty construction men. Lisa then came over. We met her at Blockbuster. We got Mona Lisa's Smile and a sub. We hung out at my house, found some crazy bands online...that was funny. Then Lauren left and James drove Lisa and I to the baseball game at the P&C stadium. Now, you might be asking..."Why the hell did they go see a baseball game?" I dont have that answer. It was random, fun and cold. We came back to my house and watched Mona Lisa's Smile which was an awEsome movie. Theeenn she left.

I have work tomorrow night.

I hate feeling like Im going to just explode and like there isnt anyway to release that feeling.

I HAD A GOOD DAY...repeat 3 times

sleep

BYE

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:: 2004 8 April :: 9.49 pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Cold

Thank God for no SCHOOL
So I am beyond tired right now. I have not been in my house for more than an hour besides the time I am asleep in like a week. Im so happy that I can just sleep in tomorrow morning, stay home and do nothing until I want to and enjoy some silence.

School was pretty good today. I got in a fight with my music teacher. This kid had a fit and went screaming down the hall way which is amusing. Then I was told Im thought to have mono. Which I dont but the teacher said I've been "lathargic". In math we had a test that I might have passed. James and Tom gave me food in lunch. All we did was cut out DNA strands in chem. And studyhall was boring but I made it through.

So Lauren came home with me and we ate food like usual. I went to work at 4 and stayed til 9:40. It was a freakin busy night. I was standing the whole time and Im tired as hell. It was good though. I have a blister on my hand from scooping icecream and cutting boxes. Thats also ok.

Work Schedule (a reminder to myself)
Sat- 4/CL
Tues- 4/CL
Thurs- 4/CL
Fri- 430/CL
Sat- 4/CL

Ok so come and visit me on those days.

I will have to miss a little bit of P-DAY which will suck but it will be ok.

I might have to get a new journal because they are making you pay now and Im too lazy to send in the wopping 2 dollars they want. We'll see what happens.

Well I dont want to type anymore.

BYE

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:: 2004 7 April :: 9.37 pm

Whooooop Whoooooop WhooooOOOop
work was hillarious.

BYE

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:: 2004 7 April :: 3.52 pm
:: Mood: worried
:: Music: nfg- all downhill from here (new)

I had a good one but I forgot it throughout the day...sorry
I have to go to work in 20 minutes and I have a lot to say and no time to say it.

Yesturday sucked...my mom wants me to commit suicide. I swear it. I went to work which was good and busy.

Today...
History- Swing Dancing
Gym- Choice day choice = ice scating
Gillette- uno
English- Poe...I love Poe

After school Lisa and I stayed after for gym. 20 points for kicking a ball...it works.

Sean left today...he wont be back til next Sunday.

Well Im going now

BYE

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:: 2004 5 April :: 8.44 pm
:: Mood: well im here
:: Music: Starting Line

"Look! That baby is hanging from a meathook!"
Haha Tasha...that was a good one.

So today...what about it? I had a HORRIBLE morning. I couldnt wake up. Then everything that could go wrong managed to go wrong. My hair decided to be insane. I dropped everything. On the way out the door, after being late, my batteries died on my cd player. So I was nice and pissy.

History was fun. We watched a movie called Swing Boys. Im going to rent it so I can finish it. We also found out that we were taking a swing class on wednesday and Willy is my partner. It will be hillarious. I fell asleep in studyhall and woke up to the anouncments. They were loud and freaked me out. Then Child Psych which was boring as usual besides Tash and I...people seriously have to think we are challenged in there. Its great. Thennn english which was easy. So I did the regular after school routine which includes pizza with sean. Then my mom brought him home and we went to the Liverpool Library for an opera for school. Then home. Annnd then....Lisa and I went to our Cake Decorating class. That was fun. We bought all this stuff and get to go back next monday. So now Im home.

Tomorrow...school > pizza > work.

Wednesday...School > Sean leaves me > gym make-up > work

Thursday...School > work

Friday > NO school > MOST?


Thats the game plan.

BYE

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:: 2004 4 April :: 9.26 am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday- Your so last summer

Not as early as I thought it was
So yesturday was good. I woke up, made mac and cheese then Seans dad picked me up. We went to blockbuster and then to hang out with Sean. We watched The Party. It was funny. Then we ate and went to my house where we watched...what did we watch? Oh. Will and Grace and new spongebob episodes. We went to Freznos. Why the hell am I going so much into detail with this? Wow. Then back to my house then he left.

Today I woke up by phoney woney. I have to work tonight and it is supposed to snow. How not fun. Oh well. Oh no! I have to go to AC Moore today. Lisa and I are going to take a cake decorating class. I have to sign up today. Sean is coming over for a little bit.

I want french toast.

I need a shower.

Im done typing.

BYE

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:: 2004 2 April :: 10.28 pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Starting Line- The best of me

Lets start with a good note and play like we care
I went to work and we opened tonight. Thats my good note.

So...today. The morning at home was sad. Then school was good. I went to music and watched School of Rock. Then had 20 minutes of math. Hamlet play. Then walking around with Lisa until the end of the day. Sean and I stayed after for pizza...well he got pizza. SO I wasnt in the best of moods after that. I can never tell when Im wrong. Then I think that whenever I think Im not wrong that I am anyways because maybe Im oblivious to being wrong. Does that make sense? I know where I got it from...someone who thinks they are never wrong so Im over caustious. Man, I look too deep into things. It ended fine ofcourse...just like usual. I went home and got sad again. Its been at its worst around here lately. I was home for like 10 minutes then I went to work. Sean visited and I made him a GIANT banana shake. I ate a lot also. So I got home and Arlen called me. That was cool. I havent talked to him in awhile.

So here I am. I have a million songs that would fit my feelings but I dont think that they'd pin point it well enough.

Im so not okay and I cant even fake it.

I have something to keep me busy now and spring break is coming so I can be semi alone or with people I want to be with.

Tomorrow will be good...I wont be home.

Same with Sunday mostly.

Good.

BYE

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:: 2004 1 April :: 9.48 pm
:: Mood: horrible

There's something I could use but I'd never ask
dont you either.

So. Today. I slept til the bell sent me to history where I took notes. Gym...frusterating yet a laugh. Lunch Pancake. Child Psych CHEW GIRL...she has issues. English...bad movie along with my bad mood.

Lisa came home with me. We talked and ate mac and cheese. So much for SAT studying. Garbage can fight. Target. A.C. Moore. Home. Crazyness.

I feel like Im being fed BS from everyone in every direction. Starighten this out. Make it normal....or at least better. I feel betrayed.

If I knew I would be born into this I would have aborted myself.

I dont care what you think about that.

BYE

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:: 2004 31 March :: 4.52 pm
:: Mood: bad

Its all up in my head....and Im not letting it out. I cant tell if its on purpose or not. I feel like crap...period...thats it.

Nothing seems to be right.

Quite your whining.

Im going to work...thats a bonus ...

BYE

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:: 2004 30 March :: 4.00 pm
:: Mood: refreshed
:: Music: Billy Talent

I still love this weather
Im sooo not a winter person. Im in such a better mood when its nice out.

So today was good. It started off rocky but it was good. History...test. Studyhall...graded papers for the teacher. Then I went to Gillette and played football with the 5th grade boys that dont pass the ball and listened to 5th grade girls embarrass each other with who likes who. Oh! And I did my good deed of the day and moved the cones so the bus could get by. She said I should think about doing that for a living! Then it was English which was pretty boring but easy. I went home instead of staying after. I made myself some alfredo and then went rollerblading alone since Lauren wasnt around. It was still good though. Its so nice out.

So now Im here...getting ready to do the three chemistry reports I dont have done.

Yay

Yuck

BYE

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:: 2004 29 March :: 7.08 pm
:: Mood: worried

Mmm...smells like spring
So today was good. I got to school and Sean got me a fruit coolata which worked nicely with the weather. Thank you.
Then it was music where we learned our beautiful G scales. The teacher was nice to me today. Math sucked...whats new. Lunch OUTSIDE! Chem was quick. Studyhall was really quick. Actually...the whole day was quick. It was a good one. After school was Pizza and Seans for potato project help. He draws beautiful potatos.

Now I am here...and I dont really have anything of intrest to say. Why do I write in this thing?

Things to look forward to coming up
Tomorrow Gillette Collaboration > Friday Hamlet Play > spring break > p-day (man i need one) > tons of lisa > spring

yeah...that stuff.

BYE

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:: 2004 28 March :: 8.55 pm
:: Mood: thirsty
:: Music: Feeder- Forget about tomorrow

"Im infected graaah"
Im not in the mood to update but I wouldnt want to leave my lovely journal hanging.

-Woke up
-Mac and Cheese Breakfast
-Sean rode over
-Walked to Subway and Blockbuster
-TV
-Movie
-Dinner
-Sean left
-Shower
-Here

Everyone went to bed...kind of cool.


I need some icecream or something. I love the smell of spring. It makes me feel so much better. Definetly not a winter person.

BYE

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:: 2004 27 March :: 11.10 pm
:: Music: The Beautiful Mistake - disclosure

Rollercoaster favorite ride
So today was good. I was awoken around 7:30...yuck. It was okay though because I had to go to the school anyways. So I picked up Sean and we went to the MST "festival". It was....okay? Then we went to DD and back to his house.

I BEAT HIM AT MARIO PARTY!!!! >>finally! Then he had band practice and such. Thennn I dont remember what we did next. Uhh dinner? Then back to my house. We brought his little brother, Connor. My mom puts rollitos in cans now. We watched What Women Want. Then my mom drove them home. Of course its illegal to talk with her without getting in a fight so we had our little fit. Now she's playing the "I love you" game. I hate that game. I also hate my compulsive eating...its a tad annoying.

I had a good day...what did I do with that paper? I need it right now.

God damn hic-ups. Why are they called that?

I want to go to bed.

Goodnight world

BYE

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:: 2004 27 March :: 12.35 am
:: Mood: numb with a slight but noticable sting
:: Music: not sure yet

I had a clever one....but then I lost it
Ya know what bothers me? The lack of God damn comments in this thing. I miss back in the day when I had a very steady flow of comments. I guess those people dont read anymore. Oh well...what can you do?

Today seemed busy. In History we played bingo with "chit" peices and it was really funny. Gym was cool. We had a sub in child psych and a slanted table that made my stuff slide and my writing skills worse. It was all fun though. Tasha and I rule together. English was cool too. We got in a big circle and red a Stephen King story. I got to sit next to my beloved Lisa. "Opals, Dimonds, Rubies, Jade...I smell Gary's Lemonade" Yeah...that was nice. So then Sean and I stayed after for Mr. Chap Man for the MST thing. Theeennn we went to the doctors. Sean had to get down to his boxers with me and his dad in the room. It was hillarious. Taco Bell came next. Mario party after that. I came so close to beating him. Oops on missing Karate. Then my house. Uhh...Red Hot Chili Peppers. 40 minutes. Rain. Applebees...weird crowd...weird conversations. It was fun stuff. I got home and took a shower. Ouch. And now Im here.

I really should think about resigning my computer chair. It really has done me no good.

Tomorrow is looking pretty full.
MTS > HYbp (nice abrieviation) > hang out with the poopsy face > go somewhere with Jay?

Well...I have to be awake and ready to go by 8:30 so I should probably get to bed.

Im so ooo oo tired

BYE

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:: 2004 25 March :: 4.22 pm
:: Mood: out of it
:: Music: Starting Line

So out of it
Im an updating machine today...

I hate cold medicine...it effects me too much too easily. Oh well, life goes on.

Today I went to the fucking park with Lawson. We worked on our whitey basketball skills. Well...not really. I just kept trying to throw it backwards...I got close. We went to KFC and I got a drink.

I never mentioned that I lost $15 at school the other day...gay.

My mom isnt going to home all night. Hell yes. Shes being wicked nice to me. My dad wont be home for awhile because he's got things he has to do. So score...home alone all day and most of the night. I couldnt ask for much more. Wait, yeah I could.

Im so numb right now. Like one of those " God, I dont give a shit" feelings.

Lately I havent been able to motivate myself to do anything. Like anything at all. Its kind of getting bad. I dont know whats wrong with me really but I wish it'd stop.

Tomorrow is friday. 3 day week at school...yeah. I need to go for a walk. Yes...yes I do. But will I? I need to do homework too. I feel overwelmed again.

I have no one to talk to right now and Im in a big talking mood. Too bad you're all missing out on this.

Gym tomorrow...badmitten with Tasha...yay

Well, Im gone

BYE

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