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cowsgomoo!!!

:: 2005 22 July :: 12.01am

Live still sucks. Things are getting a little better. Something might happen with a cutie from work. Maybe, Maybe not. I'm not too hopeful.

-me

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anachronism

:: 2005 20 July :: 10.05pm

Please just be happy for me and don't think I am a dolt.
God.. I can finally breathe.

So, we're back together.. sort of.
We talked for a few hours and we decided that we need to work on everything. We both need to change and make our relationship better to keep it stronger.

We're going to take everything slow and slowly get to being normal again.
It's not like everything is solved and we're completely happy.
We need time.

All I know is that losing him would be the worst possible thing that could happen to me at this point.
All the rumors have been cleared. Every little question has been answered. [Edit:The rumors were true. And the answers were false.]
It's not perfect and I'm not all joyous, but I'm much, much better.
I can finally stop crying and just eat something.


Thank you for all the support. Especially from the people I didn't expect it from.

I'm still kind've a wreck and complete drained of all energy.. but it'll fade and hopefully I, no we can just be happy again.

I love you.


On a side note, thank you most of all to Matt. You've been here the most. And today was awesome. What a good fucking talk. I mean, you even got burned by a McDonalds employee.
Digi mon! Digital monsters!

Also, Erika.. thank you for calling me. :)

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anachronism

:: 2005 20 July :: 1.53pm

Save me.
I've called everyone I know or they know to try and find him.
I left three messages begging him to call me back, only to find the phone to be turned off when I tried again. I figured my annoyance would be enough of a bother for him to just fucking talk to me.
I'm sure he cheated on me.
I know he lied to me.
I have no idea where the fuck he stayed last night.
It's like he was waiting to be single so he could just go back to being a piece of shit low life.
I tried to save him, because his friends are too fucking selfish to support him being a better person. And realize that there is a time to grow up.
It's not that I dislike any of his friends personally. I do like them, I just wish they would help him be better.
I've found that I've never loved someone as much as this and that I didn't realize what I had until it was gone. And now it's gone forever and I'm going to spend months crying, trying to just not waste away to nothing.
I loved him.. so fucking much. And what do I get? I get cheated on, lied to, and betrayed.
After one stupid fight.

I want to die.

It's fucking insane how things change so much.
True love? Bullshit.
You're the one person I thought would never hurt me. Ever!

I can't do anything.
I tried to sleep, I just cried.
I tried to eat, I just got sick.
I try to occupy my time with this stupid fucking computer and t.v. but nothing helps. I wish my memory could just be erased and I could be ok again.
I had to leave work because I couldn't stop crying and I was too weak from not eating for two days.

I've never been so hurt in my life.
I can't believe you ruined me.

I'm a complete and total wreck.

Yours forever?
Forever must not be too long.

You ruiend everything. I didn't even get to expierence half of what a real relationship is. There was so much ahead of us that I was looking forward to.

Now what?!
What the fuck do I do!?!

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anachronism

:: 2005 20 July :: 6.42am

I've never felt so low and alone.

I can't eat.
I can't sleep.
I can't stop crying.
I can't even catch my breath to just breathe.
I feel like I'm constantly going to throw up.

Everywhere I look there's something that is his or reminds me of him.
Everything I do reminds me of him.
I can't escape and I feel so betrayed, angry, used, stupid, lied to!

The worst thing is, is that he doesn't care at all.
He's taking it fine.. while I'm here fucking dying.

He was like my God damn air and you can't have that just be with you one second and gone the next.
And I can't ever get him back. And that.. kills me more than anything ever could.

I just don't want to feel like this anymore.
I know it's only been one day, but I can't take it.
One day is way too much.

I don't know what to do.


wildthing

:: 2005 20 July :: 12.57am

Hey everyone, well as you know i'm moved to Tennessee now, and i'm likin it but i have no friends and so i'm kinda waitin for school to start, which is aug 8th, so yeah, and I miss everyone a lot, i've cried 4 times in the 3 weeks we've been there, its really friggen hard esp cuz i miss my sister so much, god this is hard, but i have my room all nice and settled how i want it, and a lot has happened but its to much, i will say we go to this pool and the lifegaurd there is friggen hott! he is a senior at my school, woot go me, haha, had a taco bell guy hit on me that was a lil weird but he was a pimp he was smackin other girls azz and kissin others it was funny, but yeah anyways i will ttyl later, i wont be able to update often we wont have the internet, and i know i'm up here now but i'm only here for a whole day, so sorry if i cant see you my main priority is my lil sister, i really wanna see all of you but i cant, I LOVE YOU, if yall wanna call me *haha there goes the accent already, jk!* my number is (423)-949-9443 call me!

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anachronism

:: 2005 19 July :: 4.25pm

Tears staining my face.
I knew it couldn't last.

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sugarjackj

:: 2005 17 July :: 8.26pm

GAAHHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
QUEENS OF THE STONE AGE!!!

They are going to be in detroit with Nine Inch Nails October 8th.
Tickets went on sale yesterday, But because they are going to be with NIN the only tickets that are left today are upper level seats.

And thats ok, i want to see them sssssssoooooooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!
But its almost sold out, and i will not have enough money for tickets for like 3 weeks!


*SIGHS*




Seriously if i miss out on this, i WILL cry.

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lilschaub

:: 2005 15 July :: 5.48pm

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates aten
your best quality isyoure responsible
your worst quality isyou feel lonely sometimes
this is becauseother people influenced you
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cowsgomoo!!!

:: 2005 12 July :: 11.44pm

ACT: final score 28

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sugarjackj

:: 2005 11 July :: 8.56pm

(X) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Saw
( ) White Noise
(X ) Anger Management
( X) 50 First Dates
( X) Jason X
( X) Scream
(X ) Scream 2
(X ) Scream 3
(X ) Scary Movie
(X) Scary Movie 2
(X) Scary Movie 3
(X) American Pie
(X) American Pie 2
(X ) American Wedding
(X) Harry Potter
(X) Harry Potter 2
(X) Harry Potter 3
(X) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(X) The Village
( ) Donnie Darko
() Lilo & Stitch
(X) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(x ) 13 Ghosts
(X) Signs
( x) The Grudge
( x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) White Chicks
(X) Butterfly Effect
( ) Thirteen
(X) I Robot
( ) Dodgeball
(X) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(X ) Along Came A Spider
( X) Kingpin
(X) Never Been Kissed
(X) Meet The Parents
(X) Meet The Fockers
( X) Eight Crazy Nights
(x ) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport To Paris
(X) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumb & Dumberer
(x ) Final Destination
(x ) Final Destination 2
(x ) Halloween
(x ) The Ring
(X) Practical Magic
(X) Chicago
(x ) Ghost Ship
(x ) From Hell
(x ) Hellboy
( x) Secret Window
(x ) I Am Sam
(x ) The Whole Nine Yards
(x ) The Day After Tomorrow
(x ) Child's Play
(x ) Bride Of Chucky
(X) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x ) Just Married
(X) Gothika
(x ) A Nightmare On Elm Street
( x) Sixteen Candles
( ) Joy Ride
(X) Seven
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(X) Little Mermaid
(x) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
(x ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x ) IT
(x ) Children Of The Corn
(x ) Maid In Manhattan
( x) Frailty
(x ) How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days
(X) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(X) Ever After
(X) Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble In Little China
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(X) Catch Me If You Can
(x ) The Others
(X) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign Of Fire
(x ) Cruel Intentions
(x ) The Hot Chick
(x ) Swimfan
(x ) Miracle
(X) Old School
( ) Ray
(x ) The Notebook
() K-Pax
(X) Lord Of The Rings
(X) Lord Of The Rings 2
(X) Lord Of The Rings 3
() A Walk To Remember
( ) Boogeyman
( ) Hitch
( ) Back Door Sluts 9
( ) Cursed
( ) Incredibles
( x) Boys Don't Cry
( ) Diary Of A Mad Black Woman
( ) Coach Carter
( x) Tales From The Hood
( x) Pulp Fiction
(X) Mean Girls
( ) Breakin' All The Rules
( ) Harold And Kumar
(x ) The Girl Next Door
( ) Dave Chapelle: Killing Them Softly
(x ) Bad Boys
(x ) Bad Boys 2
(x ) Eurotrip
( ) Not Without My Daughter
( ) Kill Bill Volume 1
( ) Kill Bill Volume 2
(x ) Joe Dirt
( ) Grind
(X) 28 Days
(X) Brother Bear
(x ) Run Away Jury
(x ) Phone Booth
(X) Moulin Rouge
() Constantine
() Saved
( xxxx) The Dead Poet Society
( x) Patch Adams
( x) Jack
( ) Open Water
( x) Boondock Saints
(x ) Shark Tale
(x ) Black Hawk Down
( ) Spongebob Square Pants
() Troy
(X) Pirates Of The Caribbean
(x) Elf
( ) The Cheetah Girls
(x) Van Helsing
( ) Here On Earth
( ) 40 Days And 40 Nights
( ) O
(X) Pearl Harbor
( ) Hidalgo
( ) The Rundown
( ) Walking Tall
( x) What's Eating Gilbert Grape
( x) Cry-Baby
( x) Edward Scissorhands
( ) Ready To Rumble
( ) You Got Served
(X) Lion King
(X) Lion King 2
() Lion King 1 ½
(X) The Pest
(x ) The Master Of Disguise
( ) Master And Commander
(x ) Blow
( ) Blow Dry
( ) Be Cool
( x) Now And Then
( ) Momento
( x) American Beauty
(x ) Virgin Suicides
(X) Remember The Titans
(x ) National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation
x ) Tommy Boy
( ) Garden State
(X) Interview With The Vampire
(X) My Big Fat Greek Wedding
(x) Queen Of The Damned
(x ) Breakfast At Tiffany's

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sugarjackj

:: 2005 11 July :: 1.19pm

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...mysterious
Your hugs are...to die for
Your eyes...burn into my heart
Your touch is...the only thing I desire
Your smell is...exotic
Your smile is...entrancing
Your love is...everlasting
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who do you love by iluvantonio
name
hobby
lover:
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Ohhh boy!!!!!!!!!! It’s when he’s the hottest too. Right before he gets too evil.

Song Lyrics Survey

Created by tickingclocks318 and taken 10 times on bzoink!

Pick a band:Oasis
Using only lyrics from songs by this band, respond to the following:
Describe yourself:She's Electric
Describe how you feel right now:Wonderwall
Describe your day:It's Gettin' Better (Man!!)
Describe your thoughts currently:I Hope, I Think, I Know
Describe how you feel about an ex:Don't Look Back In Anger
Describe this band:Magic Pie

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anachronism

:: 2005 10 July :: 3.49pm

Leave a comment if you're in any of my classes.

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sugarjackj

:: 2005 7 July :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: quixotic
:: Music: The Cranberries - Twenty One


I have been listening to a lot of The Cranberries, No need to argue Cd a lot lately. And also the Mix tape Christopher made me.

I have just been so happy. I know why. It seems like I should be unhappy with some of the situations that are going on, but I’m really unbelievably happy.

I probably won’t be able to see Chris this weekend. And that sucks a lot, but I’m still so happy with us. I feel like if I ask for anything more I could jinx it. So I will not.

This coming Monday it will be three months for us.

:O)



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Sugarjackj

:: 2005 6 July :: 3.37pm
:: Music: Jars Of Clay - Flood

I'm a bum



I NEED A CAPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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Sugarjackj

:: 2005 6 July :: 1.53pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: B.N.L - Alternative Girlfriend

I don' expect anyone to read this....
Long-ish survey.
001) What time did you start this?: 1:20
002) Name?: Jackie
003) Date of birth?: May 10 1987
004) Sex?: Female.
005) Height?: 5' 9 1/2
006) Eye color?: brown
007) Hair color?: Brown
008) Location? Michigan.
009) Do you currently love anyone? Yes.
010) Do you have crush on someone? no
011) Do you have a bf/gf?: Yes.
012) what are you wearing right now? Light blue jeans and a concert T-shirt
013) Would you have sex before marriage?: I’m not sure
014) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: no
015) Do you smoke? no.
016) Do you drink? On occasion
017) are you a player? No.
018) What are your favorite colors?: green, pink, red, basically everything
019) what is your favorite animal? Turtles and bunnies
020) Do you have any birthmarks? yes
021) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked? yes
022) have you ever beat someone up? yeah
023) Have you ever been slapped? yes
024) Do you get online a lot? Yes.
025) are you shy or outgoing? outgoing
026) Do you shower? yes
027) Do you hate school? no
028) Do you have a social life? Sometimes lol
029) how easily do you trust people? Way to easy
030) Have you ever lied to your best friends? Yes, nothing serious though. Yeah I know its still bad
031) Do you have a secret people don't know? Yes.
032) would you ever Sky Dive? yes
033) Do you like to dance? yes
034) Have you ever been out of state?: Yes.
035) do you like to travel? A lot
036) Do you want to get out of your hometown? I don’t really have a hometown…..
037) are you a brat? My parents think so
038) Have you ever been dumped? Yes.
039) what’s your favorite soda? Diet vanilla coke
040) do you like Snapple? I don’t think I have had it
041) Do you drink a lot of water? Yes but I should drink more
042) what toothpaste do you use? Crest whitening something
043) Do you have a cell phone or pager? yes
044) Do you have a curfew? no just whatever my parents say
045) Who do you look up to? There are certin traits in everyone I look up to
046) are you a role model? I don’t think so
047) what kind of jewelry do you wear? A ring, a bracelet, peace earrings and usually a necklace
048) what do you have pierced? Ears
049) do you like taking pictures? I do
050) do you like getting your picture taken? no
051) Do you have a tan? A little?
052) Do you get annoyed easily?: no
053) Have you ever started a rumor? No
054) Do you have any siblings? Yeah.
055) Do you prefer boxers or briefs? Boxers are cool, briefs are cool, and hey! So are boxer briefs!
056) Do you get along with your parents? Most of the time
057) how do you vent your anger? art, music, crying, stuff
058) have you ever run away? Once in sixth grade
059) Have you ever been fired from a job?: No.
060) Do you daydream a lot? Yeah.
061) Do you have a lot of ex’s? no?
062) what do you want a tattoo of? It depends
063) what do you have a tattoo of? nothing
064) what are your favorite flowers? Lilacs and daises, also black eyed Suzan’s
065) are you rude? I can be.
066) what was the last compliment you received? That I’m creative
067) is your bellybutton an innie or outie? Innie.
068) are you flexible? kinda.
069) what is your heritage? Irish, Native American, French, Dutch
070) what does your hair look like right now? messy ponytail
071) could you ever be a vegetarian? Yes.
072) if you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? Some sort or red
073) would you ever date someone younger than you? It has happened
074) would you ever date someone older than you? yes
075) when was the last time you were drunk? Awhile ago…..
076) when was the last time you went on a date? Lol not that long ago
077) Have you ever had an eating disorder? no
078) How many rings until you answer the phone? 2
079) Do you look more like your mother or father? I look like my dad?
080) Do you cry a lot? Enough. But Not a lot.
081) do you ever cry to get your way? no
082) if you had to amputate one limb, what would it be? A leg
083) what phrase do you use most on the phone? “yeah”
084) are you the romantic type? Oh hopelessly romantic
085) Have you ever been chased by cops? no
086) What do you like most about your body? nothing
087) what do you like least about your body? Most of it
088) when was the last time you threw up? When I had the flu this spring
089) in the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes? Brunettes.
090) what do the shoes you last wore look like? flip flops black with a green and purple design
091) do you ever wear shirts to show your belly? psh no.
092) what about cleavage? yes
093) is your best friend a virgin? yes
094) what color are your underwear right now? black
095) what size shoe do you wear? 8 or 8.5
096) would you pick a wedgie in public? Hahaha
097) how are you feeling right now? ,I feel good.
098) when was the last time you were at a party? About a week ago
099) have you ever given a lap dance? no.
100) what do you sleep in? pajamas?
101) has there ever been a rumor spread about you? Yes.
102) what is one of your bad qualities? When I get angry, the whole world knows it. I don’t finish everything I start
103) what is one of your good qualities? I’m creative and preseptive
104) would you marry for money? no.
106) what do you drive? 99’ white Toyota corolla.
107) for two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy? Im sure it would not happen
108) what time is it now? 1:44

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