My name is....JayZulla, the micrula....

:: 2009 12 May :: 6.14pm

Nostalgic of the GRCC days

:: 2009 11 May :: 7.45pm

I'm still depressed about this shit.

it seems that when i finally get my life back on track, i start getting my bills cought up i get kicked in the face.

what the fuck.. really?

i'm so sick of this shit.

to put the icing on the cake, today i got my insurence card... and it'll never get used because i don't have insurence.

why me?

3 shots | Shoot the shit

rayray

:: 2009 9 May :: 12.17am

Life was better on prozac..
I've been at this place before..
Where nothing makes sense, but at the same time, everything makes sense to me.
I have everything most girls dream of, yet I am lacking so many things that other people have and dream of.
Sometimes I think that I want to be single and live alone.
But the problem with that is, I haven't ever lived on my own. I hate being at home alone. I tried living on my own once, and Mike was over everyday, and then he moved completely in.
I need to balance independent and dependent.
I'm back to where I was when I was in high school..
Crying about every little thing.
Making everyone miserable because I'm sad all the time..
Even though I really have no reason to be unhappy..
And seriously, I have no idea how Mike deals with it.
He tries to cheer me up, but it only lasts for a little bit..
Until I start thinking about how much my life is lacking in different areas..

I have so many hopes and dreams that I don't put into action.
So many ties..

And sadly I think the only fix is prozac.
And the problem with that is, I don't have health insurance!

4 shots | Shoot the shit

:: 2009 8 May :: 11.24am

Can anyone reach the knife that's in my back?

I was just laid off, a week before insurance starts, i can't get unemployment either.

this is bullshit.

:: 2009 7 May :: 3.14am

I woke the same as every other day except a voice was in my head.
It said seize the day, pull the trigger, drop the blade, and watch the rolling heads.

:: 2009 6 May :: 6.16pm

OSI's Finest

rayray

:: 2009 3 May :: 1.10pm

Things are starting to look up.. Other than I have 6 exams due by thursday.. and being that I have to work monday-thursday, I have no idea when i am going to be able to make it up to the college before the lab closes so that I can get all my exams in..

Kind of worried about it.. but who knows.. maybe something will work out for me..

I still have work for 2 classes to do yet.. And there are a couple of assignments for one class that I can't figure out how to do certain things.. so yeah, im screwed!

:: 2009 2 May :: 11.13am

err i mean the H1N1 flu... yeah.

1 shot | Shoot the shit

:: 2009 2 May :: 11.13am

wait, errr ummm.. uhhh.

not SARS, that was the popular thing to have 2 years ago.

last year was west nile and the bird flu
oh yeah this year its the swin flu.

so i now have the swine flu

5 shots | Shoot the shit

:: 2009 2 May :: 11.12am

I now have SARS....

that is all.