My name is....JayZulla, the micrula....

:: 2008 19 December :: 2.33am

I'm back in the mitten and very tired.

:: 2008 18 December :: 5.53am

i think i might need glasses, i'm in chicago and can't read the letters on the HTPC from like 8-10 feet away, they are decent size too. uh oh.

:: 2008 18 December :: 5.33am

I'm in Chicago right now assholes.

5 shots | Shoot the shit

rayray

:: 2008 17 December :: 5.52pm
:: Music: Sorry - Buckcherry

Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die

I have watched him suffer through the death of a friend..
And exactly a month later, for the course of about a month I watched him suffer the pain of watching his mother suffer until she passed away.
I have seen him at his weakest moments, and his strongest moments and the moments in between when he was lost in his own body.
I have helped him mend the pieces of a broken heart that I caused.
I have fought with him over serious things, and stupid things.
I've seen the fury in his eyes and the anger eat at him like a bacteria.
I've felt the distance grow and then be wiped away.
I've felt the butterflies day after day after day for over three years.
He's helped me through my roughest moments.
Wiped away a million undeserved tears.
Helped me mourn the loss of two friends.
Brought me chocolate shakes when I'm sick.
Let me get a cat even though he's allergic.
Let me keep the cat even though she's had an accident or two in the chair.
Let me fall asleep in his arms and wake up in his arms.
Our love is thicker than molasses.

I could go on and on describing our relationship, and its imperfections but it would take me days, and I would end up over analyzing everything to the point where I was stir-crazy, so I won't.

Christmas makes me cherish the ones I love. Makes me think about what I have, what I've lost, and what I could have.

This time of year makes me emotional.
November 21st this year was 7 years since my grandpa passed away.
December 23rd this year will be 4 years since my grandma passed away.

8 shots | Shoot the shit

:: 2008 17 December :: 3.59am

Bowled a 130 tonight, not good but a personal best.

On another note, Fuck haters yall suck.

5 shots | Shoot the shit

:: 2008 16 December :: 5.57pm

best weapon in COD5 is the flame thrower :D

11 shots | Shoot the shit

:: 2008 15 December :: 11.15pm

this is an update.

I'd like to actually write what I'm thinking here.
But I'm censoring it so that nobody judges anyone else.

Fair enough?

rayray

:: 2008 15 December :: 7.43pm

Things have been pretty crazy lately, and are finally starting to calm down.
We have the house to ourselves.
Haven't lived by ourselves since August.
Im signed up for spring classes.
Hopefully the funding goes through.
I started talking to Tara a lot more latley, and it makes me miss the past.
When I lived a more adventurous life.
When nothing mattered but having fun.
I don't do spontaneous things anymore.
And I should.
I need to, but I really don't have anyone to do them with because I have distanced myself so much from everyone.
Put miles between us.
I really miss hanging out with friends.
Not that I don't love hanging out with Mike, but ya know..

2 shots | Shoot the shit

:: 2008 12 December :: 3.53pm

Jimi sent me this today

4 shots | Shoot the shit

:: 2008 12 December :: 1.48pm

My dad bought a new TV, gonna watch Batman on it.

1 shot | Shoot the shit

:: 2008 12 December :: 3.13am

https://www.officialobamacoin.com/

this grinds my gears.

really, he's not president yet and the quotes from people in that little animation are amazing, they are praising how amazing of a president he is.

the guy wasn't even in the senate for a whole year before he started his campaign to run for president, how great of a guy does that make him?

5 shots | Shoot the shit

:: 2008 12 December :: 2.46am

As if life hasn't been good enough to me, tonight i bowled a 212, 160, and 190.

my average is 156
my new high game is 212

:: 2008 12 December :: 1.53am

I'm really getting a kick out of people on the internet.

Anyone familiar with my journal knows that I speak in generalities in my journal and it is often quite open ended in style, I do not speak of specific names or occurrences in my writing. Chances are if I am writing something and you read it, then it has nothing to do with you specifically.

With that said, someone read a 2 line entry of mine and it was somehow more inflammatory then a very long flame war, really that is flattering that my writing has that kind of impact but that is really giving me far too much literary credit. The said entry did was not in reference to said person that was upset, it was a recollection of the whole day and the childishness of the flame war that was previously mentioned. And to begin with, most of the things I write on here should really be taken with a grain of salt.

But hey, let's all get pissed off on the internet.

2 shots | Shoot the shit

chelthesmell

:: 2008 11 December :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: Fuck it...

I'm done!
I dont see how something can go from being about David and Mindy and turn into me showing my 'true colors' and apparently being the biggest bitch in the world and losing friends. I just have one thing to say to those of you that this concerns...
Fuck you.
If I'm such a bad fucking person for not putting my nose where it doesn't belong then you can go to hell. Dont talk to me anymore and dont act like your some sort of force to be wrecken with or something because you're not.
I dont need this kind of bullshit in my life.
I'm better than this, I'm better than you, and I'm happy with my life and dont need to worry about what other people or saying because in my case, shit isn't true and never will be true.
I'm happy with or without such idiots in my life...