WOW!!!! nothing happened today. really NOTHING. the highlight of my day was my lunch. i had french toast and eggs and sausage. yeah you know you live a sad life when lunch is the best part of your day. yeah my life isnt sad only my day. So since nothing happened today i will tell you what went through my mind. well i know i've been labeled in the past. and prejudices have been made against me and stuff and i'm not respected by some people and i have never really cared. well i still dont. but i dont know if i want to continue on the path that i'm down right now. i dont think i like it. i want to be respected more. well let me rephrase that, i want to be respected in other aspects of my life. i dont want to be like everyone else, i want to be a gentleman, an officer and a gentleman. i think thats my new goal. i want to stop everything that i'm doing now and start new and be better. i dont think i'll be dating anyone that goes to my school anymore, thats a bad mistake i've made in the past. i just kind of want to concentrate on my acting and being president of drama this year, i want to be the best i can be and i dont want to be distracted by useless crap. i think i'm growing up, i'm moving on from a lot of things and i'm ready for the new year. i cant wait. man its so lonely in cali. i dont have anyone my own age to hang out with, its just me and my parents. i really hope this audrey thing works out, i would really like someone to hang out with while i'm here, especially someone who has some of the same interests as me. well saturday is the day i make my move. if you are reading this and you believe in god then pray for me, cuz i dont believe in god so theres no point in me praying. ok so on another subject, my diet in california has been horrible. i've been eating nothing but crap lately. i took my blood pressure at the store the other day and it was 140 over 90. if you dont know what that means well let me put it out there for you. 120 is considered normal, 130 is a little high, and 140 is really high. i'm on the road to heart attack. well i need to go on a diet so i dont die before i'm 25. well i'm mad lonely out here so please leave a comment to tell me you miss me or something. ok goodnight everyone!

~Shout Outs~

My Blood Pressure

Good evening!! Well i'm not going to talk about the days events because they are too personal and i dont want other people to know about them. they are family issues. ok well tonight my life just got 10 times better. well you know how i was going to write a note and give it to audrey. well i asked ashley fisher for help and showed her the letter because i was kind of insecure with it because it seemed too long, well ashley agreed and we scrapped what i had and started over. we made it short and simple. we made it mysterious and confident, it's like 2 or 3 lines now. its PERFECT. I LOVE YOU ASHLEY!!! this is the second time she's saved my ass, she is the master at these things. no offense to the other people who helped me out on my former note, you guys had good ideas but it was just too much. so i'm feeling so much more confident and secure now, i'm ready to march up to her and just give it to her. wow i'm in the best mood possible! i wasnt in that great of a mood today but this just made me feel soooo much better. i cant wait until saturday. HURRAY!!!! I just want to run outside and jump around and scream!! thats how excited i am. wow i'm an idiot!! now i'll be able to deliver the flower and note with extreem confidence and calmness, and i'll look so cool! well thats all for tonight, i'm too excited to keep typing! HURRAY! ok goodnight everyone, I LOVE EVERYONE!! (except the people that i hate)

~Shout Outs~

ASHLEY FISHER, Larry

Good evening journal readers. Well today wasnt anything special. I got up and went out to breakfast with my dad, then we went to Santa Monica College for a look around. It's supposed to have a great theatre department there. the campus is ok, its no UCLA, which has a gorgeous campus. Well after that we had to go to the doctor for my dad to get an X-Ray, then we came back home and my dad's friend jim came over and we all went down to where i take tap and i went in for tap and they walked around. I had 2 tap classes tonight. advanced and intermediate. ouch. Advanced was way to much for me, i'm not going to do it again next week. intermediate was just about right for me. There was this really cute girl in the intermediate class, her name was Fabienne i think. She looked like one of the girls from Charmed, i dont know the name of her, not the one in the phone commercials, not shannon doherty and not shannon doherty's replacement, the other girl. but shes cuter then the charmed girl. well after the class i came home and know i'm writing about my day. tomorrow my mom comes in for a week, hurray!! i miss her. well i'm going to go now, i'm very bored.

~Shout Outs~

Richard (my tap teacher), Jim

good evening. well today wasnt that exciting, nothing like yesterday. today my dads friend jim came over in the morning and we ate lunch together and then he left and me and my dad went to see the movie Bend It Like Beckham. Its a british movie with Keira Knightley, the girl from Pirates of the Carribean. Really good movie. Keira is quite talented, i cant wait to see her in Pirates. The movie is about this indian girl that is a soccer prodigy but her family wont let her play and her friend (keira) also plays and it goes on from there. its really good, if you have a chance i highly recommend this movie. Ok well after that i came home ate pasta and plotted! I'm going to see You're A Good Man Charlie again on Saturday night with my mom, my last chance to talk to Audrey! So this is it i have to talk to her. So i've decided i'm going to get her a rose for her performance and put a note with it and in the note i enclose my email address and SN so if she is intrigued enough by me then she can IM or email me. I'm nervous as hell! I want to thank Minh Jatos, nicole primato, amanda bruno, steph co, larry, and dave pinson for helping me with this letter, it is much appretiated. So i think i have the perfect letter written up, it should do the trick, and maybe she will IM me. that'd be awesome. it be even awesomer if we got to hang out before i left california. it'd be awesomest if she liked me. but lets start with the rose and the letter. i just hope she doesnt think i'm a freak for doing that. oh well what do i have to lose, i dont live here. haha i win! ok well thats all for today i'm going to bed. Goodnight!

~Shout Outs~

Audrey, Minh, Nicole, Steph co, Dave, Amanda Bruno, Larry

I'm in love
Good evening all! Well today was an active day. Much to report! I will start from the beginning. I saw 28 Days Later today, it was gorey and sick but not a bad movie. The British cast did it justice. If it had been American actors then the movie would have been another Scream or I Know What You Did Last Summer. Well after that nothing happened until I saw You're A Good Man Charlie Brown at Santa Monica High School. It was actually the Civic Light Opera Company doing it but the director of the Opera Company is also the director of the high school so all the actors were alumni. The show was GREAT!! I never realized how great of a show that Charlie Brown is! And the actors were so good! ESPECIALLY SNOOPY!! The girl who played Snoopy was INCREDIBLE! She stole the whole show. I AM IN LOVE WITH HER!! She was also Sandy in Grease when I saw it two summers ago. She has a million leads there before. She is sooooo FUCKING talented. I want to marry her!!! and shes beautiful! She has such stage presence and flare, right when she walked on stage my eyes went to her and all through the show any time she was onstage i would watch her to see her reactions or to see what she would do. She was phenonmenal! She is only a year older than me too! Next year when i move out here I am going to audition for Hello Dolly which they are doing next August and maybe I will get to work with her. Her name is Audrey, no code names for her like "hot girl" or "cute girl". She is too amazing for that. I am going to try and go back with my mom next week and see the show again. I just want to see her again and talk with her after the show and try to get like her email address or something to stay in contact with her. After the show tonight we went and met the cast afterwards and me and my dad went up to her and were telling her how great she was and she was looking at me and just smiling, oh man. so maybe i can go again and maybe strike up conversation with her if shes not surrounded by too many people or if i'm not too scared. But the whole show was really good, all the actors were good, i really enjoyed it! ok well thats all for tonight. i think i will retire for the night.

~Shout Outs~

AUDREY!, JT

Ok, what a day its been. I spent the morning and some of the afternoon at UCLA. My dad had a few doctors appointments there for check ups and we also looked around the school since that is where i'd like to go. I doubt i'll get in, its impossibly hard. I bought a UCLA t-shirt while I was there so it will look like i'm a college guy. oh yeah last night i had a weird dream, i'm only going to give a brief summary of what is was about, dont ask for details. it involved getting someone pregnant without sex, and making out with mariah a few times. strange i know. Oh! Guess what shows are here that i think i'm going to see!! Songs For A New World! and Crazy For You!! Also a theatre down the street is doing Sweet Charity i believe. So tomorrow I'm seeing You're A Good Man Charlie Brown, then Sunday I might try for the matinee of Songs For A New World and then next weekend maybe Crazy For You. So thats going to be exciting. Tonight me and my dad went to an improv show (not at the groundlings). It was at this very very small theatre. The theatre fit only about 30 people at best, 3 rows of seats. a very intimate space. They did like 4 different shows in one night, you pay once, watch as many as you like, theres like a 10 min break in between each one. For the first show me and my dad were the only ones there except for the people who work there! haha it was awesome. then for the second show like 2 or 3 more people showed up. and we only stayed through 2 shows. they were ok. not the best improvers i've ever seen, some of there stuff wasnt funny or even good but i was laughing at times. overall i'd grade them as a 'C'. well that was all for tonight, i wasnt feeling well earlier, and i'm still a little iffy, my head hurts and i'm really tired. so i will be leaving now. goodnight everyone.

~Shout Outs~

No one today.

Hello! First off thank you for the comments last night :) I needed them! Second off, I am going to skip to the end of my day to tell you all about THE PRODUCERS starring Martin Short and Jason Alexander which I saw tonight! We got really great seats too, seats in the first 3/4 of the orchestra costed $280 and the very back of the orchestra and front of balcony cost $97. Well we got row P for $97 which was freaking great!! Ok The show itself WAS INCREDIBLE!! Martin Short blew me away. I was totally in awe by him. I'm sure he was a million times better than Matthew Broderick. Matthew Broderick just sucks, I havent seen him in anything good. Ok Jason Alexander was great as well. Both of them were EXTREMELY strong and the whole cast was strong. Everyone in the cast has Broadway credits to their name. OH AND GUESS WHO WAS AT THE THEATRE!!! KIRK DOUGLAS!!! (In case you are unfamiliar with Kirk Douglas he is a very famous actor - father of Michael Douglas.) Yup me and my dad saw him walk out. Ok well the rest of the day doesnt compare to that so i will briefly describe it. I went to the dentist today. I hate the dentist more than anything. It was the most horrible thing ever. They used this electric scraping device that made this highpitched sound and i thought my ear drums would burst. Also they kept hitting my gums with it and then told me that my gums bleed and thats from not flossing. NO ITS FROM POKING ME WITH A STEEL OBJECT MORON!!! i hate dentists, i hate them all. But you know how in dentists offices they play soft music in the background. Well guess what they were playing! Goodnight My Someone from The Music Man! it was the instrumental version but both my dad and I recognized it! haha! Ok so the rest of the day was uneventful until The Producers. wow i wish i could go and see that again. it was soooooo good! Ok well thats all for tonight. Have a nice night!

~Shout Outs~

Martin Short, Jason Alexander, Kirk Douglas

Hello loyal readers! Well let me cut straight to the best part of my day really fast. TERMINATOR 3!!! WOW, it was such an amazing movie. I went with my dad today, it was sooooooo good. I didnt expect it to be so good, i walked in there not expecting a lot and walked out in awe. The fight scenes were incredible, the special effects just as great. The story was complex yet easy to understand. The cast of lead characters were extremely strong and very well-cast. I say this was one of the best movies of the year. It was much better then The Matrix Reloaded. I recommend this movie highly! Ok now back to the day. Today I went out to visit Cal State Long Beach but then we realized it was too far away for me to go there, so we scrapped that idea. So now I'll either be attending UCLA, Cal State Northridge, or Santa Monica College. We also ran some errands today. We didnt go to hollywood today, thats for tomorrow. Tomorrow I have a dentist appointment! I'M DEATHLY AFRAID OF THE DENTIST!! i'm so scared. Oh! But I did find out that the high school here is doing You're A Good Man Charlie Brown for their summer musical, which i'm going to go see. It should be pretty good, i went and saw their show last year and they are a pretty good group. Man I'm so homesick i can't stand it. It gets old not being able to hang out with anyone my age, its just me and my dad all day. And its not like i can go meet people on my own, i have to be with my dad all day, he wouldnt let me go out on my own, so its very lonely here. I've been reading a trashy romance novel, you know the type that a middle aged woman reads. Well my mom gave me one to read and i have been reading it and its really good. its about forbidden love. have i said anything about it in a past journal? seems like i have, well if i have then i appoligize but if i havent then there ya go. but i miss love, i miss kissing, i miss every aspect that a girl can bring to life, because i have no girls to interact with over here. yes there are a million hot girls in california but i do not know any of them. well i've written about enough. pray for me that i dont have any cavities. PLEASE COMMENT! I'm lonely!! what ever happened to the anonymous commentors posting how much you love me!?!?! Do you not read any more? Are you not interested?! (Sorry for the ranting, can you tell i'm going crazy without people my age)

~Shout Outs~

The Cast of Terminator 3

Ok well i didnt update last night, because woohu was having problems. So I will update this morning. Apparently now if you want to view anyones journal you must enter a ~ before the name when you type the web address. for example www.woohu.com/~JB1863 OK??! Yeah its weird but oh well, I talked to the guy that owns woohu, his name is Andrew. Ok well yesterday i ran a lot of errands. I got a haircut!! It looks ok i suppose. We ate at this japanese restaurant and then we met up with my dad's friend and we ate dinner and then they went for a walk and i came in and went online. ok it wasnt that much of an exciting day. Well today we have more errands to run, we have to go to hollywood. We are getting tickets to see The Producers starring Martin Short and Jason Alexander!! YAY!! Well I cant really say much more, I have to go now!

~Shout Outs~(for yesterday)

Andrew(the woohu guy), Leslie Barnett, Jim(my dads friend)

WELCOME TO CALIFORNIA
Yes its true, i have reached california! but lets start from the beginning shall we? Ok i woke up this morning at like 10am, but i was up until like 3:30am last night so i was extremely tired. i could barely function during the day. well the flight was at 5pm so we ate and did a few things during the day. then we left and went to the airport. the flight was 3 hrs. & 45mins. I slept for 3 hours of that. I was soooo freaking tired. It made the flight go by really fast too. I woke up for like 10 mins to eat though. so we finally get to cali and then we go out and get our rented car. a chevy cavalier, not my idea of a good car but whatev. so we drive to our condo that we have here. I forgot how much I love this place! I love california! i've missed it soooo much. The weather is soo nice here, it isnt hot at all, there is a very nice ocean breeze. we are 20 blocks from the ocean. so today was all about just getting settled nothing else happened. but i'm glad to be out of tennessee. tomorrow is going to be a busy day, i cant even begin to list all the things that must be done tomorrow. so instead i think i'll go to bed now. i'm so tired still. goodnight!

~Shout Outs~

California

Heeeeelllo. well today was another typical tennessee day. nothing much happened. My little cousins, aunt, uncle came over today and they hung out for a little while. WOW kids annoy me! i cant be alone with kids for a while because they annoy the crap out of me. i dont want children for a long time. Well after that me and my aunt went out to this game arcade/restaurant/pool hall/bowling alley/bar and we played pool for a while, then ate some, watched karoake outside, then went home. uneventful day. sorry there isnt much to write about. tomorrow i leave for california. hurray! i'm really homesick. i wanna go home, i feel like i'm missing out on everything. and when i come home there arent many days left of summer and those days are spent getting ready for school and setting up the drama room and preparing for stuff and then officer retreat. ok its really late, i've been writing this journal over a span of like 2 hours because i've been on the phone with JT. alright well i'm going to bed, plane tomorrow. I miss everyone. Email me if you have a chance, scream1863@yahoo.com is the address. just email me and tell me about your lives or leave a comment. I'M LONELY! goodnight

~Shout Outs~

My Aunt, JT

Hello journal readers. Well today was interesting i suppose. I slept till about 11am, got up got ready. Then me and my parents went to this big flea market down the road. Yeah I LOVE FLEA MARKETS!! I always find the coolest stuff there. well guess what i found this time! A REAL NINJA SWORD! Ok well i was looking around and i see this one vendor with a bunch of swords and she had a couple of real ninja swords sitting there and i was like wow those are cool i want one so i asked her how much they were but i figured they were going to be like $30-40. But she said it was $7!!! HOW CAN YOU BEAT THAT!!! So i bought the ninja sword, its mad cool, its a black blade and it comes with a sheath for it. Ok well after the flea market we went to this cool antique store and there were some mad cool things in there, everything was massively overpriced though. well then we ate and the day progressed. ok well nothing else really happened during the day, ok now tonight was fun. my cousin JP, i think i mentioned how he wanted to take me out and like drink with me or something well tonight he called wanting me to come over, so i told him i would come over to his place. so he picks me up around 9pm and we go over and he lives in this house with this other guy but he had like 5 friends over. JP is a cop by the way, and he is like 21 or 22, he's really cool. so we get there and he introduces me to his friends, who are all cool and funny. they had made margaritas and they wanted me to have one. yes mad peer pressure but my will is way stronger so i didnt drink even though they were all like come on just drink, have one, just one, i was like nah. yeah so i win! but i had a sip of one of theirs because i was curious about how it tasted. BLECH!! it like burned my throat when i took the sip. and it didnt taste all that great anyway. ok well a couple of them were drinking (we were all sitting on his porch talking) and one guy was smoking weed through a pipe. and they were just talking about random crap, they were giving me girl advice at one point, telling me something about sleep with as many freshmen as i can. haha. well then we watched this weird ass movie called ghost life or something, it was dumb, had no point to it, nothing really happened. but that was all for the day. tomorrow is july 4th part 2 and me and my aunt are going out to play video games or something. then monday is CALIFORNIA! alright gooooooodnight!

~Shout Outs~

JP, JT, Holly

Firstly make sure to read the journal entry before this one which is from yesterday but i posted it today because woohu wasnt working last night. Secondly HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!! Ok well today was a pretty good day. i slept till almost 1pm, then got up ate something and did nothing till around 5pm when the family came over for 4th of july dinner, we grilled hot dogs and hamburgers and we all ate. well after we ate the power went out, apparently a transformer blew out or something down the road, it wasnt raining, it was just really hot. so it got extremely hot here since the power stayed off for a couple hours. so most of the family left but my uncle, aunt, and two little cousins stayed and finally the power came back on right when it got dark. we had over $175 worth of fireworks and we shot about half of them off, it was great. we are going to shoot the rest of them off on sunday. tomorrow is my parent's 18th anniversary so they are going out to dinner but during the day we are going to a flea market - i love flea markets! ok well thats about all - oh i had a WEIRD dream last night, i wont even go into what it was about. lol. dont ask. ok well i miss everyone, BYE BYE!

~Shout Outs~

My Aunt, my little cousins, the rest of my family, George Washington, the USA

booooo tennessee. i want to go home. i really cant stand it here any longer. today we did a bunch of crap. we got up, ate breakfast, went to wal-mart, got fireworks, ate at captain D's, went to this lake, came back. ok now i will go into greater detail of my day. ok well the only real thing to do in this town is go to wal-mart. I went to walmart twice today. ok well after that we went to this fireworks store and bought $48 worth of fireworks. hurray! well after that we went to lunch at captain D's. At captain D's i saw this woman who looked like natalie portman! ok not her body (she was pregnant), but she had some facial characteristics that resembled natalie. like her lips were just like hers and just some of her facial expressions, i dunno, it was just similar. and there was also this HOT girl there too! there arent really a lot of hot girls in this part of tennessee so when i see one its a sight for sore eyes. yeah she was a college student in her junior year and she was freaking hot, she looked like that girl from Never Been Kissing, dont know her name, not drew barrymore, one of her friends with dark hair, the tall one. she looked kind of like her. well after that we went over to this lake, and looked at it for like 10 mins, there was no point to that. i got a tick on me while i was there, it didnt latch onto me yet though so i got him off. well we came back to my grandma's house, did nothing, ate dinner, did more nothing, went to walmart, came home, and now i'm online telling you about this epic tale. i read all of Me And My Girl today. its a good show, i'm kind of excited to do it now, its really funny, i think its going to be a blast to do next year. well thats about all, i want to leave this place. my mom has been in a bad mood. ok thats enough. BYE!

~Shout Outs~

Natalie Portman look-a-like, Hot Girl at Captain D's