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:: 2004 21 January :: 12.15 am

How can you tell if someone's talking bullshit or not?????????????????????

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:: 2004 20 January :: 10.49 pm

"Usually when people have problems with other people it's because they have issues with themselves." Mrs. McConnel told us that yesterday during character analysis (from which I learned a lot about who "Moonie" really is). How true is that!?! Anyways, second semester started yesterday. My schedule's basically the same:
01 comp. wrld religions
02 world studies
03 ap english
04 yearbook
05 french 2
06 aid for dornbos
07 ap calc
I had some scheduling conflicts with my 5th and 6th hours...well, really it was the counceling office who gave me two different schedules. I like this one better (even though I don't get the chill with debbie 5th hour in dornbos) because I don't like 6th hour french as much and I'd rather have a free period before calc. Well, I see someone online that I gotta talk to...

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:: 2004 18 January :: 11.08 pm

Okay, I feel like an idiot after last night. It's not hard to make assumptions when you don't know the full story. Anyways, today was boring. I was contemplating whether or not to add music to my powerpoint but decided against it. I think I need to explain most of the pictures. I didn't go to church today. Well, I went to church but I didn't go to mass. It's a curse or something. My mom is always bitchy before we go to mass. I told her that if she was going to act like that that I wouldn't go to mass...and I didn't. Later tonight I went to meijer's to buy some stuff and I got a lotto ticket. Of course I didn't win anything, but the ticket was only a buck. I'm glad we have a half day tomorrow but it'd be even better if we had no school. I haven't even written the essay for my honors application.

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:: 2004 18 January :: 12.27 am

I just spent the last 3 hours working on my power point presentation for Sanocki's. He asked me to spend some time talking about my trip...well, it has over 100 slides! I still gotta run through all the china footage and determine which are most educational/entertaining. In order to do that, I gotta buy a VCR, lol. At play practice today we blocked me and bonnie's entrance. Mrs. Wilson and McConnel said that we have good chemistry on stage, but she also asked that we go home and work on our character development. I guess she has it in mind that me and bonnie grew on together in the Bronx. hahaha. Right now I'm watching SNL, and jessica simpson is realllly hott when she acts like a stripper! Oh yeah...at dinner today I mentioned that I needed the money for my registration at Loyola...and my dad said..."You should have told me earlier in the week before I went to the bank"..aka he's accepted the fact that I'M GOING TO LOYOLA!

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:: 2004 16 January :: 2.36 am

Let's see...I found out today that I got an 89% on my calc exam. That was the minimum grade I needed to keep an A- in the class. I in no means like A minuses, but I guess that's better than a lower grade. I'm happy with the 89%, but I'm cursed or something. I ALWAYS get a B+ on my math exams. What's up with that? Play was kinda boring tonight, but I got to run through my song twice. I could've gone home after that, but I lingered a while and evetually went to Christina's house with Andre. I think I want to go to Loyola, but I gotta work on talking to my dad about it.

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:: 2004 15 January :: 10.17 am

No More Exams EVER...at least until college
So I finished my exams today (hopefully). I could've sworn that my World Studies exam was SECOND PERIOD, but I came to school and found out it was first. When I pulled in the school parking lot around 8:10 I saw Nick, so I asked him what exam he had first period, to which he replied"World Studies." Yeah, I felt like a retarded dumbass. I wasn't even going to come first period except for the fact that I had a french exam to make up. After that I was planning to study for World Studies. Oh well, I don't think I did that bad on the test. I studied for about an hour last night. If I hadn't have studied I probably would have done worse, though. I studied a little bit for the french exam. I didn't think I'd be able to pull of the writing parts, but I did. Under strict corrections, I probably didn't pass one or two of the objectives, but when I handed the exam in Mrs. Heybloom loooked at me and said "don't worry, you passED." Hmmm...lol.

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:: 2004 14 January :: 9.41 pm

I can feel my brain turning to mush. I've just spent the majority of my day watching television. Damn you, cable! At least I got some laughs in at Austin Powers 2. Right now I'm making every attempt possible to keep from studying. Tomorrow I have world studies officially, and french II unofficially. Mrs. Heybloom said it shouldn't take me long, so I'll just come in for first exam period to get it done. Loyola called me tonight. Finally a college I actually wanted to hear from! This guy congratulated me and asked me how my college search was going. I asked him some questions and he was very helpful at putting my mind to ease. He said that the honors program isn't hard at all. He was in the honors classes at his college prep school and he said they're basically the same as the college honors program (in terms of difficulty). He advised that I get in now because it's more difficult to apply later. The honor classes you take are in your major. Also, I got to send in my registration deposit soon (I'm trying to be extra nice to my dad).

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:: 2004 14 January :: 1.19 am

Okay, a little post-exam follow-up. At 1:00pm I went back to school to work on my music for play with Mrs. Gillette. I think my "Blue Bird" song isn't too hard, but I gotta do some work on "Friendship." Today I also bumped into Mr. Eliot in the hallway on my way to see Mrs. Alexander. He asked me if I would do a relfection at a prayer service. Yikes! I told him exactly what I told Mrs. Whelan back in 8th grade when she asked me to read one of the readings at mass: "I'm not good with public speaking." Well, it's true. I was surprised last year that I could act in front of an audience; I think the answer lies in the fact that I'm being told what to do in play versus using my own mind to coordinate brain and mouth. I don't want to preach to my classmates. No one would listen even if I did have something good to say. Mr. Eliot resolved to ask me in a few weeks. I don't know what I'll tell him when he asks again.

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:: 2004 13 January :: 11.18 am
:: Mood: high
:: Music: andrew wk "I get wet"

Alleluia! I do believe I passed my religion and calculus exams with flying colors!...even though I got almost no sleep last night. Religion could not have been easier. It was exactly like the review guide, which I actualy studied a little bit from. Ap Calc? You know when you get to a point where you are so worried/stressed that you don't care anymore? That's how I was. I didn't study everything I should have, but with the two hours I put in anyways, I answered every single question on the test. Unless I made stupid mistakes, I believe I got a rather good grade on that. It gives me hope that I can actually score a 3 on the AP test at the end of the year. Updated college news: I think I briefly mentioned yesterday that Loyola sent me an application for the honors program. I doubt that I will get one of the three full rides they're giving away, but I do believe i have a rather convincing essay. The essay question is: "How has a book or film changed your ideas about the future?" Brave. New. World. I can talk about how i used to think the world would get better in the future (in terms of disease and drug abuse, and that everyone's standard of living would improve) but how Aldous Huxley shows the improvement of technology yet decline of morality. I talked to "Peg" about it, and she thought it was a good idea. Can you imagine how awesome it'd be to get a full ride to the college you want to go to!?! Okay, it's not going to happen for me, but I still like to dream about it anyways.

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:: 2004 12 January :: 9.28 pm
:: Music: andrew wk "I love nyc"

One down, three to go. AP English was a lot easier than I thought it'd be. Mostly, I was worried about the essay portion, but the question was really easy. It was something like: "each of the four novels we read had a narrator that went through a life-changing event. Pick one of the novels to talk about and identitfy that event and its significance." Naturally, I wrote about Great Expectations since that was the last book we "read" (well, I read it...I don't know about the rest of my class). After that exam, Katie and I went to McDonald's and came back at 10:45 for the much-needed calculus review. Speaking of which, I should be doing right now. Tomorrow is Justice & Peace and AP Calc. The first one I'm not too worried about. The second one I should probably study for if I want to get a good grade and go to college. If I get a C on the calc exam, I can get a B+ in the class. Loyola said I can't get below any C's or else my admission can be revoked. Loyola also sent me an application for the honors program today. I don't think I want to be in a college honors curriculum, but it's worth applying for since they are giving out 3 full rides. I'm sure the honors program at our school is a joke when compared to the honors program at a fully accredited college. And, I have my college GPA to think of. Well, good luck to all on your exams. I gotta study.

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:: 2004 11 January :: 11.20 pm
:: Mood: nauseated

You know that feeling you get in your stomach when your balls have been hit. I feel that right now. lol. Tomorrow starts exam week. I have AP English and then nothing. Alexander is letting us have an additional 30 mins, but that's not until AFTER the second exam. I also got a calculus review the same time. Hopefully I won't need the extra 30 mins and can just go down for the review, but still that means I get to come to exams, come home, and come back to school. At least we don't have play until thursday.

Oh yeah, anyone want to go to Chicago with me sometime??

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:: 2004 11 January :: 1.37 pm

Sunday Morning Dream Ramblings
So it's 1:30pm on Sunday and I just got up. I had a wierd dream where I was at school. I think it was during 4th hour, and I saw Melissa outside of Holt's room showing pictures to some people of the trip she went on. I went to check that out, then I went away for something, and when I got back I saw a perfect picture: Melissa was showing her pictures to someone and I think it was katie standing next to them helping someone with homework. By the time I got a camera they had all moved out of place, so I asked them if they could go back to how they were and let me take one. Then all these students from holt's or sanocki's room came filtering out, lining up for the picture!?! So my "perfect picture" was ruined. Just then the bell rings. I go to my locker to get my books, but I have trouble putting them in my backpack, and when I get my backpack on it feels weird. Someone who never says anything to me makes a comment on something. I don't know what he says, but I smile and nod my head anyways. I remember that I forgot to log out of the computer and go back to do that. Overall the dream was just really distressing. I hope it's not forshadowing exam week. I also had another dream where I went to London for something. It was strange because I slept the entire plane ride over (I never do that), and then in the car I was being taken to the hotel in, I was nodding off. The hotel room was kind of strange (but I didn't think anything of it at the time). It was one big room with about 10 beds lined up one after the other. I was kind of fidgity in the hotel room. Eventually some guy knocked on the door. We let him in for some reason, and he asked for all our money. Everyone was pretty compliant. I think I went around collecting it for him. Most didn't put in all their money, though. When it came to me I was going to put in my bank card but decided against it. I was questioning whether to put in anything when someone began to accuse me of not contributing.

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:: 2004 9 January :: 12.51 am

I got my DVD player that I bought off ebay today. It looks nice, but I'm not sure about the sound quality. I put in a DVD and it sounded fine, but I also put in a CD and it sounded terrible. I'll probably do some more investigation tomorrow. As for that calculus test? Well, I got a 58%. I am generally unfamiliar with such low numbers, but I believe that is an "F." Netcott said she might curve it, but even if she does, it won't help me much. I just have to do really, really well on the exam, but that's not going to happen. I'm screwed. I've been doing more thinking on college. Once every so often I get a sentiment that New York is still the place I want to go. I'm still waiting on my Fordham decision. I also have to decide asap if I want to apply to NYU. The application deadline is Jan. 15th...in 5 days. Honestly, I don't know if I could get in, but if I did, I don't think I'd ever be able to get enough scholarships to pay for any of it. What if I went to a less prestigious school in New York such as CUNY (city university of new york)? The only problem there is that I'd have to get my own apartment. 1) I wouldn't know of anyone to room with. 2) Even if I did know someone to room with, I probably still couldn't afford the rent. I sent my Northwestern app in the other day. I really like the school but I'm not sure that I want a degree in english or psychology or math or any of the other liberal ed courses. I found out two days ago that I got accepted at Marquette University in Wisconsin, even though I haven't recieved the acceptance letter yet. Don't think I want to go there, but I'm not ruling it out just yet. You know, I haven't even applied to any michigan schools. I guess I'll apply to U of M and MSU for the heck of it. As I was doing my personal finance homework tonight and saw that "Jane and Tim" have $6,000 in college loan debt, I started to wonder if I want all that debt after I graduate ($80,000). Hmm. On top of ALL of that, I'm still debating Loyola. I think I have to plan a trip to Chicago over spring break. Maybe that will help me make up my mind.

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:: 2004 7 January :: 11.16 pm
:: Mood: tired

Well, we had a calculus test today. WORST TEST EVER! THE EXAM IS GOING TO KILL ME! I am not kidding when I say that I might have failed that or gotten a D. You know it's bad when katie, the genius, is hoping for a C minus! Too bad Netcott won't curve the test or drop it altogether. I'm sure someone like Brian got an A+ anyways. At least it's over! I wasn't worrying about that tonight when I went to play practice at 7:30. We sang all the chorus numbers, and it actually sounds pretty good.

My eye hurts.

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:: 2004 5 January :: 10.18 pm

Looong Day
Let me start off by saying I got ONE HOUR of sleep this morning. After I finished my report I stayed up reading Great Expectations (just 25 pages out of the 490 to go). Surprisingly I was more alert in school today than I usually am when I get more sleep. Mrs. Brooks put me on the spot by making me get up at the podium and talk about my china trip. Mrs. Alexander did a similar thing, and either my classmates had some ounce of interest or they just wanted to stall class as long as possible. I also went around distributing my gifts today. At 5:30 the play was officially commenced. We went through all the formalities (rules and whatnot) and had a read-through, which we couldn't even finish. That play is actually very funny. Billy's part is hilarious how he's constantly in disquise and has to use different accents. Lena does her Bonnie accent pretty well. I'm not too sure about my accent, but some of my lines are kinda funny. I'm excited for play this year.

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