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2005 15 March :: 12.22pm
:: Mood: envious
:: Music: johnny logic
why cant i just get someone that i am attracted to. to like me like i like them?
Nothing more : By Casey Volkers
THIS is just the beginning of a long un-traveled path
A path that I’m not sure my amateur mind can handle
A path that a match could begin, that then turns into a forest fire
A tornado that will feed off of others accomplishments and fade when its destruction has left many alone, and empty
THIS is not what I can begin
Loneliness for so long
Open heart, broken heart, open mind now closed
THIS is a path I know I’m not ready to emerge upon
How can what I want be so god damn hard to ask for?
How can I want something that I know is wrong to want?
THIS and this alone may ruin my inner ambition of love
Wrong time, right person? Right time…wrong person?
This might be too hard. Just friends…Stop! Just friends
Nothing more.
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blondie17
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2005 15 March :: 9.40am
i dont know what to do. ...i dont know if telling him would jepordize our relationship. pretty sure he already knows i like him.
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blondie17
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2005 15 March :: 9.23am
well im falling for someone...whom im supposed to be "just friends" with. how can you be just friends with someone you are attracted too so much? i can tell. hes almost an exact replica of weston, just so much better. god. He does all the music stuff. hes attractive. he is nice. we are friends. we dont do ANYTHING, accept hang out and cuddle. I FRICKEN JUST WISH THAT FOR ONCE WHEN I LIKE SOMEONE LIKE THIS IT WAS RECIPROCATED. i FEEL LIKE FUCKING SHIT! i FEEL LIKE A CRAVING LONELY GIRL WHO WILL NEVER GET WHAT I WANT. you know im starting to think i dont deserve anything that i want or work for. i am not good enough to get what i want EVER! whenever i think somehting is going good, it turns around full circle and becomes shitty.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 14 March :: 10.19pm
so the paper is finished, the end is half assed but eh.
i found a bunch of pictures of me as a kid and i look like a little boy in half of them, and i had vampire teeth. it was friggin funny, i am bringing them to school tomorrow. Lol. wow, yeah.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 14 March :: 3.05pm
You Are From Mercury |
You are talkative, clever, and knowledgeable - and it shows.
You probably never leave home without your cell phone!
You're witty, expressive, and aware of everything going on around you.
You love learning, playing, and taking in all of what life has to offer.
Be careful not to talk your friends' ears off, and temper your need to know everything.
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unbleachedblond
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2005 14 March :: 8.32am
:: Mood: chipper
i like petey!!!
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joslyn_julia
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2005 13 March :: 11.10pm
:: Music: Cake-- Love you madly
well, i am sleepin tonght and maybe not tomorrow. i have the paper half way done. i just don't know how to phrase my next starter sentence. my head really hurts. i hate brit lit right now. bah
and i feel jealous of liz. i don't know why but it just always seems like she has it all, and the sad thing is i know she is just the same as i am, but it always works out for her. idk, i love lizzy so much but i always envy her, because she has so much that i lack. gah. i am rambling.
anyways yeah, night.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 13 March :: 3.35pm
:: Mood: fucked
:: Music: Cake-- Love you madly
And so we are on the second page third paragraph and royally screwed. I am going to be up all night and will be really pissy and tired tomorrow, i appologise in advance.
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Fatman
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2005 13 March :: 11.08am
If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought? (Now post this in your journal and find out what mine would be)
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joslyn_julia
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2005 12 March :: 8.42pm
and so, i have a thesis, two quotes and all of my citations. however i still have to actually write this damn thing and i am becoming frustrated.
In other news... we are finished with the upstairs bathroom minus a wall that my parents will paper tomorrow. i am very excited and i looks really good and creates a much more comfortable atmosphere. i can't wait until the rest of the house is done and hopefully feels mor homey. umm yeah, anyways. off to do more typing for class (screams and pulls hair)--i feel better now.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 11 March :: 10.12pm
for some reason i got out of school and went to kellys and sat at his house talking to his mom and hanging out and watching tv for like 2 hours, then i went to get the psp cd from dennis and then i went to lizzies and watched Napolean Dynamite and we danced around in our prom dresses. It was fun. i would say a good day and Kal talked to me today and he doesn't seem quite as bad as he is made up to be. hmm, yeah. anyways, i really do have to start that research paper tomorrow.
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blondie17
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2005 11 March :: 11.56am
i wrote a great poem about love lol. i wish i would have brought it to school so i could write it. i think im finally getting in touch with the i hate the word love phase. lol. ill write it on monday.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 11 March :: 10.21am
this schooln is retarded. i want to show dufty my xanga banner. GAH
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joslyn_julia
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2005 10 March :: 10.17pm
:: Music: Pearl Jam- Last Kiss
So i was reading the like home page are for woohu, and i laughed because andy said we are elitist. i just find it funny b/c even those who have paid the money can totally not care about their journal but yeah. it's late and i am easily amused.
BTW...
i was looking up a bunch of songs and i found like a bunch of songs that i love but never knew who they were by and now i am downloading them and being really excited.
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