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2002 30 July :: 11.11 am
:: Mood: cheerful
Wow...I officially have NOTHING to do today. It's so strange. I might have to go into work and change some more stuff around so that I don't get FIRED like everyone else has been.... It's so weird, we're losing people left and right. Plus I think six people got married in one week. That was weird too.
I worked a morning shift yesterday, which was strange. I don't think I like the morning stockers...they were a little creepy. One of the guys insisted on hovering around my lane and telling em about how I smelled good...a little uncomfortable. So I get out of work at 4 and just spontaneously decide that it's about time for me to put a CD player in my car. So I did. Nothing too fancy (not work ripping off...hey-o) but it plays CD's without all the cords and junk. Which is nice. I might go today and get some new tires...it's about time for those. I'm not sure when Nick has to work so I don't know if I'll see him today. Which makes me a little sad. But I will survive. Yeah, Nick's my new boyfriend for those of you who still need to tie it together. A 21-yr old phtography student who also works at Menards. he's really sweet and awfully cute. Dani can vouch for that one. And we have millions of things in common. So for the last eleven days or so it's been working out pretty good.
I got a lot of college info the other day. I finally got my roommate assigned. I called her on the phone...she's a band geek but thats cool, it seems like we will probably get along ok. I'm dropping my "Comunication Disorders" class because it starts too early, so now I'l have the perfect schedule. I have Beginning Spanish II M, T, R, F. Econ M, W, F. HNRS Tragic Theater T,R. HNRS Human Behavior W.
So my schedule is nicely balanced, I dont get up before 10, and on mondays and fridays I am out by 1:00. Which will be GREAT.
I CANT WAIT TIL COLLEGE!!!
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2002 28 July :: 9.54 pm
Hello Streetteamers! Upcoming Ben Kweller in-store performances!
On Saturday, August 10th at 2:30 pm,
Ben will be performing at Borders
34300 Woodward Avenue, Birmingham, MI
aug 8th and 9th: chicago, IL @ schubas, 3159 North Southport.
doors @ 6:30pm, bk, @ 9pm. all ages, ($10). info: 773-525-2508
aug 10th: detroit, MI @ shelter, 431 East Congress.
doors @ 8pm, bk @ 10:30pm. all ages, ($8). general admission. Boxoffice & Info Line: 313-961-6923
SUMMARY
Driving distance: 696.2 miles
Total travel time: 2 days, 2 hours, 27 minutes
Driving time: 11 hours, 32 minutes
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2002 20 July :: 12.05 am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional- The Brilliant Dance
This is incredible... Starving, insatiable, yes, this is love for the first time...
I have new boyfriend. I like him very muchly.
1 feet on the ground |
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2002 16 July :: 12.50 am
but my life feels so surreal...
i cant do this anymore.
5 feet on the ground. |
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2002 14 July :: 9.38 am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: The Ataris- San Dimas H.S. Football Rules
These are the things that make me free...I feel like I'm stuck in "stand by me"....This night was too good to be true...
Today I am running on about 5 hours of sleep and 4 hours of the time of my life.
2 feet on the ground. |
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2002 12 July :: 1.40 am
:: Mood: jubilant
:: Music: still silence will do for tonight...
and when it's great, it's even better. GREAT. I have so much to say but the words to say it with have escaped me.
1 feet on the ground |
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2002 10 July :: 11.37 pm
:: Music: Modest Mouse- 3rd Planet
And your heart.....felt good. It was dripping pitch and made of wood....and your hands and knees....felt cold and wet on the grass to me...
Ahhhhh.....i want to scream and run and dance. When life is good, it is very very good....
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2002 9 July :: 12.03 am
survey
BASICS
Name: Stefanie
Nicknames: Stef, Steffy, DJ Snowball? no...
Age: a little shy of 18
Location: Cedar Springs, MI
Birthdate:8/17/84
Family:Mama (Stacey), Father(Michael), brother-Brandon (11) Sisters- Shannon (12), Jessa (14).
Pets: Kelsa and Mooch
PHYSICAL
Hair color: Blondish
Eye color: Blueish
Height:5\"4 on my license but a little shorter than that...
Weight:120 but why would you care? it\'s not like you\'ll be benching me or anything.
Piercings: lots of ears and a belly button \"incident\" that has since passed.
Tattoos: i dont see that happening
FRIENDS
Best boyfriend: hey, what are those?
Best guy friend: I have a lot. robby and andy are my friends on a regular basis though.
Weirdest: all of my friends are weird. it\'s a requirement.
Most athletic: robby and nate with their weightlifting mumbojumbo i suppose
Friendliest: Dani
Most musical: Kev+Dani
Sweetest:Dani
Tallest: Kal?
Shortest:again...dani
Loudest: Eliz
Quietest: Andy
Best secret keeper: HAHAHA....ELIZ AND KAL....HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
THIS OR THAT
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Stars or Moon: moon
Sun or Rain: rain
Purple or Pink: pink
Sports or No Sports: no sports
Sprite or Mountain Dew: sprite
Guys or Girls: hehehe... i dig em both...lol
Walk or Run: i would love to run but am forced to walk
Winter or Summer: SUMMER
FAVORITES
Color: Olive Green
Food: chocolate chip cookies
Place: bed.
State: Kentucky
Flower: peach colored roses :)
Sport: soccer
Drink: diet coke
Movie: ack...West Side Story!
Song: Today it\'s Paper Thin Walls by Modest Mouse.
Band/Singer: Green Day, Dashboard, Ben Kweller.
Country: Sweden!
RANDOM QUESTIONS
What do you dislike about your body? I can handle most of it. my shoulders are a little too broad for my liking. And it would be nice to not have to buy my bras out of the little girl\'s section.
What do you like about it?: My eyes are ok. I am not missing any limbs, and I don\'t have any freakish deformaties.
Do you smoke or drink?: nah
prefer guy friends or girl friends? I make no distiction based on gender. a friend is a friend.
Do you wish you were older than what you are? How much older?: ack.. the WRONG time to ask me this. I wish I were 20 or 21, because it would solve all of my problems.
Is your second toe longer or shorter than your first one?: umm...it\'s the same length.
What do you find yourself thinking about most often?: boys boys boys music and food.
If you could have dinner with 3 famous people, who would they be and where would you go?:
madonna, tre cool, and the president. we\'d go to subway because subway is the shit.
If you could marry a celeb, who would you marry?: Ben Kweller of course.
1 feet on the ground |
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2002 6 July :: 12.29 pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Grandaddy- Summer Here Kids
Take a trip, join me in the sun...but not really though, cause I ain't having fun....Cause summer here kids....summer here totally lies....
I thought summer was supposed to be relaxing?
At least...for the moment...I only have two jobs...
But I'm having trouble finding the time to do laundry...
And I'm sick of raising my mother's kids....
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2002 5 July :: 7.22 pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Blur- Clover Over Dover
I'm on the white cliffs of Dover, thinking it over....but if I jump, it's all over...a cautionary tale for you....
Isn't everyone suicidal?
If you wake up and every day, you live...
and in living, you only lead yourself closer to death...
in essence, you live only to die...
you kill yourself by living
because every day you live, you've brought yourself one step closer.
just a thought.
1 feet on the ground |
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2002 3 July :: 11.21 am
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Modest Mouse- Paper Thin Walls
It's been agreed the whole world stinks, so no one's taking showers anymore....
seven things you can't do:
1. I can't: sleep as long as I would wish to.
2. I cannot wait till: college starts up.
3. I can't stand my dad's: pushiness
4. I can't stand my mom's: temper
5. I can't eat without: consuming food.
6. I can't stand that: everyone is always so negative.
7. I can't wait much longer: until I have to start getting ready for work.
top seven songs people should listen to
1. Green Day- The Ballad of Wilhelm Fink
2. Artificial Joy Club- Sick and Beautiful
3. Cake- Rock and Roll Lifestyle
4. Fiona Apple- Angel
5. Dashboard Confessional- Hands Down
6. Counting Crows- Kid Things
7. Ben Kweller- It's Not Fair
top seven things you say the most:
1. Yep
2. heh
3. eh
4. Mad Crazy
5. mackin'
6. ugh
7. hello
i find: that the summer is moving quickly.
i want: to go shopping.
i have: to go to work.
i wish: I didn't have to go to work.
i hate: all three of my jobs.
i miss: having free time.
i fear: nothing.
i feel: sleepy.
i hear: my wonderful beautiful mix tape.
i crave: some juice.
i search: for all the stuff that dissappeared when my room was moved without my consent.
i wonder: if he'll be there.
i regret: wasting so much time on insignificance.
i love: life.
i ache: in my feet and back.
i long: for freedom and for answers.
i care: more than I ought to, and less than I should.
i am always: working.
i am not: lazy.
i foolishly believe: that i CAN MAKE THINGS HAPPEN.
five favorite trips you have taken:
1. CANADA! Windsor trip.
2. Cedar Point when I was super little.
3. Stratford trip, freshman year.
4. Stratford trip, this year (it had its memories)
5. North Carolina with Kat.
stuck in your head frequently:
1. songs from the mix tape.
2. human beatbox chants...hmm...
3. thinking about boys all day long..
4. any of the dumb britney spears pepsi commercials...
four things you'd like to learn:
1. To play the guitar...
2. to speak spanish
3. to ski
4. to steal hearts
four beverages you drink regularly:
1. diet coke
2. lemonade
3. carrot juice
4. tangerine mango juice
four tv shows that were on when you were a kid:
1. Fraggle Rock
2. Muppet Babies
3. Are you Afraid of the Dark?
4. RoundHouse
four places to go in your area:
1. My house (there's a pool!)
2. Menards (woohoo!)
3. Elizabeths (I end up wandering in there at odd hours anyhow)
4. Great Day (c'mon, there's always someone you know. mad parties in the parking lot.)
four things to do when you're bored:
1. Get on the internet
2. Look for food
3. Go to work
4. sleeeeeeep
four things that never fail to cheer you up:
1. boys. nice ones.
2. college
3. chocolate chip cookies
4. swimming
about 20 years ago...
1. my parents were married
2. I wasn't born
3. my parents were young and ignorant
4. Pigs could fly
about ten years ago...
1. I was antisocial and studious and overall everyone thought I was a freak because I was "advanced"
2. I had siblings..
3. My dad told me I had to get a full ride scholarship to college because I had too many siblings.
4. I was almost 8 years old.
about 5 years ago...
1. I was a horrible child.
2. We'd get drunk at Pam's house and smoke and steal cars and stuff..
3. I did a lot of other bad stuff that I do not care to divulge...
4. I was 12.
about 2 years ago...
1. I was crazy bouncy hyper all the time...
2. Started dating charlie.
3. I didnt watch any TV
4. I had good roles in both the plays.
about one year ago:
1. I was an angsty teenager
2. I had a crazy summer
3. I felt like I had reponsibilities
4. I worried too much
Today...
1. I have no worries
2. It's really hot out
3. I have a great time doing whatever
4. I am going to college and I don't have to pay for it.
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2002 1 July :: 11.37 am
:: Mood: invincible
:: Music: John Mayer- My Stupid Mouth
I'm never speaking up again, it only hurts me....I'd rather be a mystery....Oh, I'm never speaking up again...starting now....
So everythings been going on all crazy lately...my whole new infatuation, plus a few more dates...I'm been working 40+ hours a week, almost every night plus the weekend, and just got offered another job with my dad where I'd fill my mornings 40+ and skip straight from job one to job two. Not to mention Lazer Skate, I should be posting the calendar right now rather than journalizing, but eh, thats life. I don't have any stress, really, because I'm doing what I want. But the trouble being that there are a WHOLE lot of things that I want to be doing, and there's not that much time.
I haven't really been too specific with my updates lately...
I had orientation and it was awesome. I'm glad to be a Bronco. The Honors college doesn't seem that bad either, I met a couple guys there that were really awesome, and chatted it up with almost everyone. The dorms.... eh ...what I expected. I have a nice looking schedule....my earliest class is 9, but the next after that is 11. Monday and Friday I am out before 1. And my latest class runs til 5:15. So I can party every night! lol. Doubtful. But I did find out that Western is fourth in the country for handing out MIP's. I've already met all of my first year requirements. I tested out of the basic math program, and also Spanish 100. So that was pretty exciting. I might double major in Spanish now too, just because it looks so good with a business degree.
Had that open house business too... My cash turnout wasn't the best, but considering my parents don't have any friends, I did alright, it'll get me tires on my car and books for a year. No FUN for me. Oh well. And the party....You really learn who your friends are at this point, because now is when you can blow people off and it doesn't matter because you might never see them again. I have the feeling that's the reason for such a small turnout at my "party". But thank you to those who came. Even if it was a little crazy. And for those who didn't come...yeah, I get it. I probably didn't like you all that much anyway. So poop on all of you. :(
Its so hot out...I dont want to go to work because I don't want to put on real clothes...ugh...
1 feet on the ground |
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2002 30 June :: 10.24 pm
:: Mood: refreshed
:: Music: The Jazz June- The Medicine
And couldn't this just be the theme song selected for me...he picked it out for me....
Well, I'm speaking the world's worth of insignificance...
I guess I should have left left-alone unsaid.
Cause it's been cold,
Cold as forever
On this forever afternoon
When a pin drop is already too loud.
Charcoal has erased the ceiling.
I guess the burn has settled somewhere past the city.
Lights, they burn in fever yellows...
I guess I should have left the questions left unsaid.
The medicine's a simple answer to rely on.
So I fucked up, but I'm getting on with my life.
Getting on with my life, it all seems a simple answer to rely on, answer to rely on.
So I fucked up, but I'm getting on with my life.
Getting on with my life.
It feels like there's a point to everything.
It feels like there's a point to everything.
The summer holds the nails to kill the questions
When I'm beating paper with ink.
So I fucked up, but I'm getting on with my life.
Getting on with my life, it all seems a simple answer to rely on, answer to rely on.
So I fucked up, but I'm getting on with my life.
Getting on with my life.
It feels like there's a point to everything.
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2002 28 June :: 11.24 pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: Green Day- Going to Pasalacqua
Here we go again, infatuation touches me just when I thought that it would end...oh but then again it seems much more than that....but I'm not sure exactly what you're thinking....
and BEAUTIFUL THINGS find beautiful ways of falling into place...
Life plays cruel jokes...but sometimes they are just all in fun...
and now it all seems to make sense... and you think as I do... you act like I need you to. And still you are yourself. You are everything I need.
I hear my voice in you, and so I am open.
1 feet on the ground |
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2002 27 June :: 11.00 pm
:: Mood: rejuvenated
:: Music: Everclear- You Make Me Feel Like A Whore
There is this place inside....where all the good things die...sometimes I feel like a whore...
And I realize...
You know what you're doing. But between us I see major differences, stylistic differences.
I stopped because I felt like I was being shaken. The physical sense, but more than that. I got a mental shake, like someone saying "Wake UP! What are you doing here? Isn't there more than this?". I had to agree. I'm going to wise up. I mean it this time.
I've had a taste of something amazing, I can't settle. Never settle. Comfotable is nice, suitable is good, but perfect is best.
I see far too much trouble arising from continuing to act the way I traditoinally do. I will always be a tease. But I can say what I mean.
My life, my world is open. Once again. Something's coming. I can sense it in the air.
3 feet on the ground. |
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2002 26 June :: 11.10 pm
Answer questions using lyrics from only one band.
Band: Green Day
1. Are you male or female?:
She...she screams in silence.
2. Describe yourself?:
I'm hexed with regrets and bad luck
Keep your distance 'cause it's rubbing off
Or you will be damned to spend your life in hell
Or earth with me tangled at your feet
You finally met you nemesis disguised as your fatal long lost love
3. How do they feel about you?:
You're mommy's little nightmare
Driving daddy's car around
4. How do you feel about yourself?:
Do as I say not as I do because
The shit so deep you can't run away
I beg to differ on the contrary
I agree with every word that you say
Talk is cheap and lies are expensive
My wallet's fat and so is my head
Hit and run and then I'll hit you again
I'm a smart-ass but I'm playing dumb
I have no belief
But I believe
I'm a walking contradiction
And I ain't got no rights
5. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend?:
Said that i'd meet you
At the Berkley Marina
3am when no one will be found
All i got in mind
Is a Boone's Farm jug of wine
Smash the bottle in the parking lot
But considering our luck
We'll get busted by the cops
Instead of sex we'll go to jail
Another lesson learned and failed
6. What would you rather be doing?:
Gotta make a plan
Gotta do what's right
Can't run around in circles if you wanna build a life
But I don't wanna make a plan for a day far away
While I'm young and while I'm able all I wanna do is...
7. Describe where you live?:
Pay attention to the cracked streets
And broken homes
Some call it the slums
Some call it nice
I want to take you through a wasteland I like to call my home
Welcome to paradise
8. Describe how you live?:
No time and no copping out
She's burning daylight and petrol
Blacked out the rearview mirror
Heading westward on
Strung out
On confusion road
And ten minute nervous breakdowns
Xanex a beer for thought
And she determined...
She's taking off
Taking off...
Taking off...
Taking off...
Is it salvation?
Or an escape from discontent?
9. Describe how you love?:
Here we go again, infatuation
Touches me just when I
Thought that it would end
Oh but then again it seems
Much more than that but
I'm not sure exactly what you're thinking
Well,I toss and turn all night
Thinking of your ways of affection
But to find that it's not different at all
I throw away my past mistakes
And contemplate my future
That's when I say...
What the hey!
10. Share a few words of wisdom?:
Why does my life have to be so small?
Yet death is forever
And does forever have a life to call its own?
Don't give me an answer cause you
Only know as much as I know
Unless you're been there once
Well I hardly think so
Do you think you're indestructable
And no one can touch you
Well I think you're disposeable
And it's time you knew the truth...
Cause it's just one of my lies!
Well, its just its just one of my lies
And all I wanted to was get real high
Well, its just its just one of my lies.
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2002 23 June :: 12.54 am
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: Air- High School Lover
just drifting around on a mad crazy trip/ something happens that changes your life around/ you sit still and watch it spin/ dizziness abounds/ a change in my life comes a change of heart. i feel it coming/ i know you mean something. i know that there is something more/ deep/ deep/ deep/ i can feel in you. there's so much here for you and I, you and me/ please just let it flow let it go/ added to the whirlwind of my thoughts and the hurricane created by this turn of life/ turn to me. I know you feel it too/ don't let this slip away.
4 feet on the ground. |
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2002 17 June :: 10.53 pm
:: Mood: working
:: Music: West Side Story - Tonight (Quintet)
We're gonna rock it tonight....we're gonna jazz it up and have us a ball....
I seriously think if I don't get a day off of work I'm going to go crazy. Ignoring all the annoying people and the dirtiness of all the stuff...
I'm having nightmares every night involving work... and in about half of them I end up kissing one of my coworkers and that makes going into work the next day rather difficult. And just overall weird. I pulled some muscle in my back and it hurts so darn bad...my job requires a LOT of lifting and thats not good right now...
The forty plus hours should look nice on a paycheck though...I want to have my car paid off...plus new tires, and maybe a CD player installed by the time I leave for school.
I shouldn't complain too much...as jobs go, mine is good. I really like a lot of my coworkers, I love all of my managers now that the mean one stepped down and the cool guy took her place :)
But it is dreadfully boring. Nine hours of smiling, scanning, and "have a nice day"s.
I've got another morning shift tommorrow. Which means the only customers are so old and senile that its pointless to talk to them or try to explain ANYTHING... or businessmen in suits on their lunchbreak who are in major hurries... or yucky contractors...
I'm just in a major mood because my back really hurts, overall today was a pretty good day. It had big ups and big downs.
I had this headache today that was so bad, that when I stood up, I couldn't see straight. I wobbled around my house like I was drunk for about 40 minutes.
2 feet on the ground. |
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2002 15 June :: 11.48 pm
Name: Stefanie Anne
Sex: female
Birth date: August 17, 1984
Location: the sunroom...which is rather chilly taking into account the lack of sun in the room.
Height: five four or so
Eye color: greyish- blue
Hair color: blondish
What does your name mean: it means "crown"
High school graduation year: 2002
Favorite relatives: i have the most darlin cousins
Summer memory: swimmin'.
Favorite TV shows: wha??
What's on your mousepad: a canadian beaver waving a canada flag
In the car- ac or windows: i dig the ac.
Do you believe in yourself: wha?
Favorite game: Life
Favorite drink: Diet Coke
Favorite food: peanut butter and jelly bagels
Favorite colors: olive green and pink.
Favorite cigarettes: ewww
Favorite sounds: roar of thunder, roar of an engine, purr of a kitty.
Favorite smell: peppermint
Worst feeling in the World: loneliness
Best feeling in the World: i'll get back to you
Favorite thing to do on a weekend: umm...i work.
Favorite soundtrack: right now I'm on a kick from Charlie's Angels and Gone In 60 Seconds
Where do you see yourself in 10 years: sleeping
First thought in the morning: NO MORE BEEPING! (I had a dream that I was at work and a customer attacked me with the scanner gun).
Do you get motion sickness: rarely.
Rollercoasters- deadly or exciting: love them.
How many rings before you answer the phone: dont really keep track
Future son names: Beckrin, Donavin.
Future daughter names: Sera
Are you a good friend: that would depend on who you ask.
Chocolate or Vanilla cake: i prefer yellow.
What do you drive: 1996 Dodge Intrepid
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: they're around, usually on the floor
Thunderstorms cool or scary: i like them muchly
If you could meet one person in the World, who would it be: "the guy from Aerosmith!" lol
What is your zodiac sign: LEO
What do you wear to bed: all kinds of things or all kinds of nothings, depends on the season
Do you eat stems of broccoli: yes i do
If a girl ever asked you for the shirt on your back, would you give it to her? well it would be very strange, but i suppose if she was good enough of a friend...hmm...
If you could have any occupation when you get older, what would it be: doodododoo....i wanna be a supermodel....lol
no, i'd want to act in professional theatre.
If you could dye your hair one color, what would it be: GREEN! and i WILL!
If you could have a tattoo, what and where would it be: i don't think i'd want one
Favorite brand of gum: i dont chew gum...i prefer icebreaker mints
What is your favorite quote: "You laugh because I'm different, I laugh because you're all the same."
Have you ever been in love: *shrug*
What's on your walls in your room: its all pretty and girly. i have stars, clouds, flowers, and angel babies...
Is the glass half-empty or half-full: full
Pick a song that describes yourself or that you can relate to: Anna Begins- Counting Crows
Favorite flavor Snapple: i dont think i've ever had snapple
Which one, Coke or Pepsi: diet coke or pepsi one!
Which kind of milk is your favorite: 1/2%
Are you a righty, lefty, or ambidextrous: righty
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: occasionally
When you meet a person of the opposite sex, you notice their: i think it's hair. sometimes eyes.
If you could be one gardening tool, which one would it be? the GARDEN CLAW! It's SO COOL!
What kind of shoe would you be if you had an option: bedroom slippers
What's under your bed: heavens if i know.
What's the best number in the World: 26.
What is your dream car: mmmhmmm....I think right now it would be an Audi of any sort...
Who is your biggest crush right now: heavens if i know.
Nickname: hmm...Stefster? I don't have nicknames.
School: Between schools. Western Michigan University.
Bacon Bits Or croutons: thats a salad thing. I DONT eat salad. A personal issue.
Favorite Salad Dressing: see above
Do you Drink: rarely
What type of Shampoo/Conditioner: i change every day, i have 40 bottles in my shower.
Have you ever been skinny dipping: not lately
Do you make fun of people: sometimes.
Have you ever been convicted of a crime: convicted? no...
Best friends online/offline: i think eliz is the only friend i have who consistently sticks by me...and robby-o...he's my bro....other people too, but those are the two who i just NEVER fight with.
One pillow or two: usually none. i reject comfort.
Pets: Kelsa and Moochie.
Favorite Movies: West Side Story!
Favorite type of music: girly punk.
Hobbies: i dont have much time for them
Word or Phrase you overuse: changes weekly. this week its "i dig that."
Toothpaste: colgate total?
Piercing or tattoos: ears and two in the cartilage.
Do you get along with your parents: i never see them so i dont have to.
Favorite beer: i'm too high class for beer.
Favorite song at the moment: "Girl In Between" Ben Kweller
Favorite subject in school: English
Least favorite subject in school: Math..or physics...ugh
Most humiliating moment: hmm i have too many.
Craziest or Silliest Person You Know: all of my friends
Least Favorite Holiday: presidents day. they're dead for god's sake and it slows down my mail.
2 feet on the ground. |
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2002 15 June :: 12.48 pm
I'm only happy when it rains
I'm only happy when it's complicated
And though I know you can't appreciate it
I'm only happy when it rains
You know I love it when the news is bad
Why it feels so good to feel so sad
I'm only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
I'm only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I'm only happy when it rains
I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn't accidentally tell you that
I'm only happy when it rains
You'll get the message by the time I'm through
When I complain about me and you
I'm only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
You can keep me company
As long as you don't care
I'm only happy when it rains
You wanna hear about my new obsession?
I'm riding high upon a deep depression
I'm only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I'm only happy when it rains...
Go ahead, you can laugh all you want. |
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2002 12 June :: 2.50 pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional- Age Six Racer
So long, sweet slumber...I fell into you, now you're gracefully falling away...
I seriously would not question it if you told me the world had suddenly gone insane.
So I'm totally boy crazy my entire life, everyone knows that about me. And never, never never are they interested in me in a way I would like them to be. I'm a dorky nerd, I admit it and everyone knows it. But ALL OF A SUDDEN, dorky nerds go on Kmart Blue Lite special or something. There's a high demand. I seriously think if one more person pulls out the "I've had a crush on you all year but somehow in all of your desperate searching and my own aimless wandering I forgot to mention it to you..." I WILL KILL THEM.
Ok, that's probably a lie. But seriously, how ridiculous. I become a hot ticket item two months before I am totally out of here. I live here for the good portion of 18 years and it doesn't kick in until NOW.
I mean, I don't mean to sound like this is a problem for me. Although in a way it is, I'm sure things could be a lot worse. It's just too darn weird. And I don't really know what to do about it.
On a somewhat similar note, to those of you who declare your love for me over AIM, you may notice a new addition to my profile. The new clause is in order to cut down on crappy plans and being stood up. All date plans will now require confirmation phone calls to assure their validity. My phone number is in the book, the only Cedar Springs numbers belong to me....the one that starts with a 2 is the main line. It's not that difficult. Really.
Good god, I won't settle. I never settle. And no one is perfect yet. There's qualities still missing. So I don't know what to do. Running isn't my strategy either. Because if I came back, everything I ran from would still be around. Maybe I'm not approaching things the right way, but honestly I don't know my way. This doesn't happen to me.
1 feet on the ground |
Go ahead, you can laugh all you want. |
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2002 11 June :: 12.27 am
:: Mood: crappy
god, it fucking happens again.
the pile piles up and tumbles back down.
everyone hates me again.
5 feet on the ground. |
Go ahead, you can laugh all you want. |
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2002 11 June :: 12.03 am
:: Mood: cold
people...
lie but claim the truth
say they'll call and leave you waiting at home
bring you up to smash you down
say they love but have no proof
ask the questions but know the answers
turn away when you approach
leave you hopeless when you need them the most
you're all guilty.
you know that you are.
i am too.
2 feet on the ground. |
Go ahead, you can laugh all you want. |
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