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m&ms487

:: 2007 13 December :: 9.42am

The semester will be done as soon as I write an eight page paper for my Latin American Literature class and submit it online. I haven't even started yet, and it's due by midnight.

I ended up working a ten hour shift last night. It was absolutely horrible. I was suppose to work from one to nine-thirty, but the lady who was suppose to work from five to eleven called in. So, not only did I work from one to eleven, I was alone at the service desk from seven on...which, during the holiday season, is not a pleasant experience.

I got home and my legs were killing me! But, I took a soak, and all was well.

I also got my secret santa gift from, my Kappa Kappa Psi Brother, at work last night. We had a holiday party (that I missed because of work), but Sara brought my gift to Meijer for me. She gave me fuzzy socks, chocolate, homemade fudge and lotion. The chocolate and socks helped me to get through the rest of my night!

Anyway, off I go to start organizing and writing. Wish me luck!

Michelle

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m&ms487

:: 2007 9 December :: 4.08pm
:: Mood: busy

We're packing and I still feel like it's morning. Rueben went to go get my car from Don and Steve's apartment, and I'm taking a break from going through things.

After I got out of work last night I met Rueben at Don and Steve's and had a few. We ended up staying up the whole night talking and then went to Lil' Chef at 6:30. Then, Rueben and I came home and went to bed. Lil' Chef is six doors down from our apartment, so Steve drove to breakfast and we walked home. Rueben's gone to get my car, which has banana boxes in it from work so we can start packing. We also need to go do laundry.

I've realized that final exams week (starting tomorrow!) is actually going to be a relatively easy week, at least compared to what I'm use to. I have one big exam per day, and an eight page paper due on Thursday, but I think I'll be just fine. I could skip the exam in most of my classes and still pass with a C or higher, so I'm in good shape.

We're moving on Friday and I've started sorting through our food and planning what we need to eat until then. I still need to go start packing my room, and, of course, clean.

But I don't really understand why I should clean, they're just going to knock our building down anyway. But...I want my money back, so I'll do it.

I'm going to miss our little apartment...but our new one has a huge kitchen, a dishwasher, and Jessie.

"We'll get through somehow, this is only temporary/ Not now, but soon/ We'll be living in the future."

I love the radio.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 4 December :: 1.18pm
:: Mood: awake

Today is my 20th birthday. I feel quite old, but know that I'm still one of the youngest people I know. How does that happen?

I guess I'm finally caught up to myself. People have been guessing that my age was 20 since I was 16.

I'm not about to do a year in review, I don't have enough time or motivation for that, but I will take a moment to make a few general statements for posterity sake (or so I say).

I'm a sophomore in college now, and that has made me a stronger, better person. Being a Brother in Kappa Kappa Psi has made me part of something larger than myself, and that's always something I had felt I was missing.

In the past year, I have become more liberal than ever, even toying with the idea of Socialism in the form of Democracy.

Unfortunately, I only watched Mrs. Doubtfire about 12 times (that's only once a month!)

I have met some amazing people that recognize me for who I am, and can understand that I am different people sometimes.

I have grown more responsible, less fearful, but more worried.

But, above all, I am here, and I made it, and that's something that I didn't think would ever happen four years ago, today.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 23 November :: 9.12pm

I've been working so much lately. Yesterday was horrible at work. "Black Friday" makes me want to kill someone, or a lot of people.

But, I did get some humor out of it all. I was doing a Western Union Transfer for a lady, and one of the other people at the desk asked for my help and the lady was like, "No, you need to do this for me now, I'm in a hurry."

So I said, "Okay" and went as slow as I possibly could. I am normally very fast at typing and processing the transfer, but I made sure to look over everything a few times before I sent it. Then, when I gave her the receipt, she ripped it out of my hands and tromped away.

I hate my job.

And people at the desk are dropping like flies. One guy went to the pharmacy two weeks ago, and another girl found a new job. She said she'd come in for her last few shifts (Thursday through this Sunday), but she hasn't shown up yet. This is not the season where you don't show up to work.

Ah, well, the semester is almost over, only two more weeks and then exam week.

Rueben and I are moving into another apartment on the fifteen of December because the people we're with right now are giant assholes. But, Jessie is coming to Central and we'll all live together in our four bedroom town house happily ever after. Yes.

I have to write and give an after dinner speech on Wednesday. I have nothing. I guess I'll just wait for the last minute, like always.

Time to start packing...again.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 20 November :: 10.12am

I gave myself the morning off from classes. It felt so good to SLEEP. They gave me thirty hours this week, and next week. I don't know how I'm going to be handling that, but I guess I'll find out.

Papers to write, but I have four hours now, so that shouldn't be a problem. I need to take some time off more often.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 19 November :: 9.25am

It's Monday morning and I've had a very long weekend. I worked last night until eleven, went home, and wrote a paper for this morning. I didn't write the other paper that I needed to, but I'm sure she said something about we can wait until Wednesday to do it. I hope, at least.

I'm working thirty hours this week. Although I don't have school on Thursday or Friday, it's still going to be hell. I'm going home on Thursday so Rueben and I can go to his family's Thanksgiving. Then we're driving back up the same day so I can work on Black Friday. Ugh.

Now, off to Communication Theory, which strangely, I've come to enjoy.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 12 November :: 6.52pm

Smoking Prohibited Except in Designated Areas.

User Information Board.

Do NOT Change Settings on the LCD Screens! They are already correct and if YOU leave them along they will STAY correct!

No Food Or Drink Allowed on the Computer Desk.

DO NOT ATTEMPT TO FIX PAPER JAMS!!

Welcome to Pearce Labz!

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m&ms487

:: 2007 7 November :: 2.09pm

I can't stop popping my ears and it's driving me crazy.

I just finished baking brownies, and I will be enjoying them in a little while.

I have to work tonight from six to eleven. Pooh.

Wednesday nights are usually fairly slow.

UGH!

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m&ms487

:: 2007 26 October :: 6.31pm

Rueben and I just saw Across the Universe. It was a great movie.

I don't know what more to say.

It presented realities.

I've always had a problem with reality. Not reality in the sense of knowing what's going on in the 'real' world, but my alternate realities. The ones in my head. The reality of what could happen. What might happen, what seemed to happen, what didn't happen, but seemed like it did.

I've had this problem since I was a small child.

I feel like I have so much to say, but I can't possibly scratch the surface here. I want _____ . I need _____ .

I'm good at playing by the rules, but that doesn't mean I like it.

I think I'm Marxist leftist...whatever that means nowadays.

I'm writing a speech on Mike Gravel and one of the articles I found while researching was called: "Mike Gravel, more Leftist than Marx"

How can I rely on words to explain myself when they simply can't? That's one of the things I've learned these past few years. I envy those who can use words to their advantage. I just fumble with them. I don't get them.

I got music and I turned my back on that. What do I have left? Two years of college, and three more to go so I can teach kids of average ability how to read the sentence: The cat sat on the mat.

Let's face it, without some time of national initiative on the part of the people, this country will never be more than substandard in anything but blowing things up.

Oh the things I could have done, you could have done, we could have done, if only we were given the chance. The opportunity. Limited opportunity isn't enough to make humanity what it should be.

Everything should be unlimited. Free healthcare, free education.

I don't care if we need to be like China and weed people out at sixth grade. Look who's on top. China.

Why would you let children who will never get it hinder the children who could change the country? Why do you bring down the best to make everyone average ? What good does that do?

It kills everything. It killed me.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 26 October :: 6.26am

This day has possibility.

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