Faith Isn't Faith Until It's All You're Holding On To.

:: 2005 6 November :: 4.15pm

Makes me laugh every time.
That's fucked uuup!

When in Rome.

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:: 2005 6 November :: 3.09pm

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I knew this would happen.

I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you.

And for you I'm pretty sure I'm starting to hate you.

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lynds4090

:: 2005 5 November :: 4.05pm

wow... last night was amazing.

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:: 2005 5 November :: 12.56pm

Rest in Peace, Tim.
This is for you and your family, Kelly.
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:: 2005 5 November :: 12.13pm

My phone has rang eight times in the last hour and i'm getting really annoyed. I think I should just turn it off. Haha kidding.

I'm so excited for today/tonight! It's going to be soo much fun.

Jess and I are going to buy each other balloons for our b-day and were also going to move to California together!! Lol.

9 days until my wonderful birthday!!!!

Anyways I g2g.

<3 ash

:: 2005 5 November :: 11.23am
:: Music: Against Me!

Blah, blah, blah.
This is what happens when you people let me get bored. Look what you've done!
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:: 2005 4 November :: 7.36pm

Aww Mishy you are so sweet. I can't believe some of the things you said. They are too sweet and you know me better then you think.

I'll post it just so everyone can read it:

1. Give me a new nickname and explain why you picked it.
Actually, I would just call you Ashley. I think that you've had enough of nicknames, and "Little One" makes you sound like a little kid, and you arent.
2. Am I loveable?
Very.
3. How long have you known me?
Let's see. Around two and a half years, but we've become much much closer this year.
4. When and how did we first meet?
October 03, drama class.
5. What was your first impression?
"She has a really pretty nose and her laugh is cute. She seems sweet."
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
Yes, only my opinion is better, because I know you now.
7. What do you think my weakness is?
Him.
8. Do you think I'll get married?
Definitely.
9. What makes me happy?
California, The O.C., Modeling, acting, music, Him.
10. What makes me sad?
Being confused about Him, living in Cedar.
11. What reminds you of me?
The O.C., california, Gold digger, "Why?", gossip girl, "Goodbye to You"...more
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
A redhot acting career and a huge mansion in LA, along with of course, happiness with Him.
13. How well do you know me?
Well, I do not know your favorite food, or color, or your birthday, things like that. However, I do think we're close, and you know why :) I will learn those other things in time.
14. When's the last time you saw me?
Today, during Anatomy.
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
Absolutely not, the exact opposite actually.
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
Never.
17. Describe me in one word.
Star.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or
staying the same?
Stronger.
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I
would listen?
Yes. yes. yes.
20. If there were a movie about my life, who would play me?
YOU would play you. :) No one else could do it better.
21. Who would play you in the movie about my life?
Hmm.. Christina Ricci.
22. Who is my hero?
Hmm.. I really don't know. Dad perhaps?

Your definately right about everything and nobody will know why were so close, ever.

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wierdo

:: 2005 4 November :: 5.05pm
:: Music: Soul Survivor

Don't you hate being stuck at work with nothing to do, when you're not even supposed to be here in the first place? Yeah, well thats whats up with me right now, and i hate it. I started today at 7:30 and i'm not getting out of work until 6 now. I was supposed to get out at 4:30 because my parents were golfing and they were gonna come back when they were done at 4:30. I just knew it was gonna happen. My mom or dad would call me and tell me to stay until 6. And thats exactly what happened. That will be 10 1/2 hours i have worked today. It sucks. So that deffinately sets back my plans for the night. But what ever. So yeah, sorry for rambling on and on about work. I"m sure you all are too.

Kevin

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:: 2005 3 November :: 6.31pm

I got this from Brie!

I just found this quiz so please take it!
1. Give me a new nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or
staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I
would listen?
20. If there were a movie about my life, who would play me?
21. Who would play you in the movie about my life?
22. Who is my hero?

<3 ash

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m&ms487

:: 2005 3 November :: 5.58pm

I've been accepted to CMU. They sent me a t-shirt today. It's a very bright white. I like its newness.

So much as been going on lately. I leave for school in the morning when it's dark out, and I get home when it's dark outside. It's almost as if there was never a day at all. But of course that would be false, because even if I don't see it, it's still there, right? I hope so.

All state band auditions are saturday. I'm not sure I'm as prepared as I should be. I've been practicing between three and five hours a day for a little over the past week. My tone is getting a lot better (recovering from the horridness of piccolo). I'm still nervous, though. I guess I've talked myself into believing that it doesn't matter if I get in or not, but it does. It's one of the only things that I'll be able to do. I can't go to CMU's workshop, I can't go to CMU's honors band, I can't go to EMU's honors band. This is about the last thing that I'll be able to do where I'll be challenged and not have to play horridly easy music with people who don't know how to play their fucking instrument.
But I rant.

My eighteenth birthday is a month from tomorrow. Work will be happy because then I can sell lottery and tobacco at the service desk. As much as I want to kill people who run that place, I still can't help but fantasize that someday I could get a degree in marketing or something and be a higher executive than all of them and fire them because they're stupid. I don't think that they realize that they expect too much out of people they only pay six dollars an hour to. I see so many people there that are intelligent and should be doing something, but no, they work for a measly six dollars an hour and will never do any better. The waste of potential disgusts me.

Whenever I am there I feel as though some goodness, some intelligent part of me is dying. Everytime someone yells at me because meijer screwed them over I feel like saying "You know what? They're screwing me over too. I get paid fucking six dollars and hour to stand here and take your shit for them, and guess what, they don't care, even if I do get a manager and they listen to you and assure you they'll 'look into it', nothing is going to happen. You standing here yelling at me is doing neither of us any good, and nothing is going to change because frankly all that corporate does care about are numbers, their profit, how many defective items they can pass off you to, how many times they can screw you over by not pricing things and you aren't a number, you're a real person, just like me, and therefore, they don't care. So fuck off."

End rant.

:: 2005 2 November :: 10.44pm

It's no big deal. Break her heart. Let her down. Make her cry. You "love" her right? Everything is fine. Hold her hand. Lead her on. It's no big deal, she's just a girl.

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:: 2005 2 November :: 9.21pm
:: Music: California-Phantom Planet

The O.C. DUHH!!!
I know Brie said this BUT--22 Hours, 32 Minutes, and 40 Seconds until The O.C. is on. I already have the scripts for tomorrow's episode but I'm not reading it beacause I don't want to ruin what I've waited weeks for. It's called The Perfect Storm!! Sorry Brie I decided not to read them and tell you what happens. We'll just have to watch and see!!

I've heard from alot of people that after this season they aren't going to continue making The O.C. but if that seriously happens my life will be over............and, i'll cry, alot.

I watch this show religiously...