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2006 4 August :: 8.57am
I'm home from camping. It was full of experiences, some of which I had never partaken in before.
It was extremely hot. I went swimming. I slept. I ate. I made friends. I fried criss cross potatoes in a wok.
milk....milk was a bad idea.
michelle
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2006 3 August :: 1.37pm
i miss you and i love you...
*sigh* another day goes by. i wish i could make things all better between us. i really wish i could just sit here and listen to you and make you proud of me but i cant. the last time i did i ended up being hurt way more. i'm glad we had a conversation without yelling at eachother even if it was only for 10 min. i miss you and no matter what, i do love you. i wish we could see eye to eye but i doubt that will happen. but i still love you and i just wanted to let you know since we dont get to talk very much anymore. some things are beyond us. just try to be happy for me and i'll try to do the same for you.
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2006 31 July :: 7.17pm
Camping with matt and rueben and katie and joe tomorrow.
ah the bliss.
eating mother's stir fry. tastes odd. first home cooked meal in days.
callouses forming on my finger tips. beautiful music to my ears.
Plan B may be available without a prescription.
michelle
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2006 28 July :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: depressed
I can't help but feel that I'm wasting my life.
I'm wasting my talent.
I'm wasting.
I'm wasted.
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2006 26 July :: 6.27pm
:: Mood: worried
I had a picnic with Kae and Aaron today.
Lovely rain.
I would be a toaster, so I could take two slices at once.
Sometimes I catch a glimpse,
Of the world which I see,
A beautiful scene, magical,
You could never know what I mean.
"Sometimes I think this cycle never ends, we slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again..."
I listened to Transatlanticism for the first time today. It was beautiful.
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2006 24 July :: 6.04pm
I'm in Washington D.C. right now at our hotel. This place is definitely beautiful. Our flight was at 6:30 am this morning and we were an hour away from the airport so my cousins and I have been up since 3:00am. I barely slept on the plane either. Tomorrow we are going to Virginia Beach for the rest of the week. *Smiles*.
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2006 22 July :: 6.46am
:: Mood: listless
I haven't slept in 28 hours, and if I go to bed soon I'm looking at about four hours of sleep before the park picnic and then work until 10 tonight.
I had my CMU orientation yesterday morning. Very informative. I got some of the classes I wanted, the others I dropped and added the correct ones. Twelve credit hours, not bad.
BIO 101 (and lab)
CSP 10something (computers and society, i know...but i had to fill a gen ed requirement)
ENG 235 American Literature
COM10something, intro to speech and communications.
All fun things. No ensembles, no music classes right now. Because I had to change schools so quickly, I can't be in their music program until next year. However, I may still pick up my entry level music classes and an ensemble next semester, until then, studying by myself is the only option I have.
We went to IHOP and played mau. I drank real coffee for the first time in my life, with a lot of cream and sugar mind you. The waiter made us triple strength coffee (three bags of coffee grounds in the pot). That shit really gets you. I believe that is the reason why I am not tired at this time.
Driving home from IHOP I witness the most beautiful sunrise, so, I took out my writing journal and compiled a few thoughts I will share with you here.
July 22 2006 6:30a
The dew soaks thorugh my clothing as I sit here, witness to this event. So few times have I been so aware of this constant change of my home. Something so beautiful would be more cherished if it were rare. We prize the true diamond because it is rare, but would we not just as easily be careless with it if it were common to us? Would we not use it as an adornment fabricated to eventually break to keep the economy going. The slogan would not be "Diamonds are Forever," rather they would be quite common place and often disposed of, losing all significance of importance. Beauty is only acclaimed in the rarest of forms. A perfect sunflower is often only left for the birds to admire.
This magnificent event before me may be prized by another people, another culture, because of its rarity, such as in the north. The sun sets for half the year, and is risen for half the year. Do you think they are not joyous after six months of darkness when the sun rises, illuminating their world? It seems beauty and admiration are only warrented for the rare, but never the equally admirable but common.
-michelle
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2006 19 July :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: Happy
Off the coast of somewhere beautiful.
Hey. I guess it's about time I updated.
Last weekend on Friday I hung out with Elyse. We stayed the night at my dad's new house. I really like my new room. We went to Olive Garden and then my cousins Brooklyn, Kyla, Kaylie, and the new baby Briley came over. I love her, she is so cute.
Saturday I went out on the boat. It was definitely interesting to say the least. Haieligh and I went tubing with Casey and Chad. We had some pretty fun times.
Sunday I went to Holland to watch Luke's basketball games.
I can't remember when, but I went and saw Pirates of The Caribbean 2 with Luke and The Devil Wears Prada with Elyse.
This week I've just been hanging out with Luke and my friends. Our power went out on Monday. We just got it back yesterday. That definitely sucked.
Friday I'm going to Champion with Elyse in the morning and then later on my family is going to Grand Haven for the weekend and we are staying at a hotel on the beach.
I just found out a few days ago that on Monday I'm going to Washington D.C. and then we are going to Virginia Beach. I'm going with my dad, my uncle Mike, and my cousins Rachel and Sarah. I'm pretty stoaked for that. Our plane leaves from Detroit on Monday morning. I think I'll be gone for a week. I honestly don't really know the details since my mom just informed me of all this. It will be fun though, except I'll be missing Luke, a lot.
I guess that is about it. Much love.
Ashley
When you whisper you want this, your eyes tell the same. Picking up speed, I can barely breathe, 'cause I'm caught in suspension.
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2006 18 July :: 10.27pm
why do i keep on missing everything?
why do i ruin everything?
why?
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2006 16 July :: 1.24am
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2006 7 July :: 2.48pm
| Odd Facts about ME | | DO YOU SNORE?: | Nope | | LOVER OR A FIGHTER?: | both | | WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?: | divorce | | AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?: | heck yes... still am | | WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY TV"?: | sucks | | DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?: | yeah | | WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?: | of course | | HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?: | not all that bad | | WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?: | black | | DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?: | yes | | HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?: | i wish | | ANY SECRET TALENTS?: | haha. any talents at all? not really | | WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?: | europe | | HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?: | not yet | | HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?: | sure have | | DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?: | not really | | HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?: | a lot | | CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?: | no | | HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?: | yeah | | ARE SPEEDO'S HOT?: | not on old men at the beach | | WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?: | gotta do whatcha gotta do | | IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?: | i hope so | | DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?: | not really | | WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?: | dust | | WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU": | last night to Ben | | IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?: | no comment | | DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?: | I did at me sisters | | HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?: | depends on my mood | | ARE BLONDES DUMB?: | NO. i resent that | | WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?: | the cat has it | | WHAT TIME IS IT?: | 2:43 | | DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?: | yeah my friends call me Re | | IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?: | yup | | WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?: | about a half hour ago | | DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?: | showers | | IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?: | no | | ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?: | sometimes | | WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?: | caffine | | CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?: | crunchy | | HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?: | yes | | HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?: | one | | IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?: | heck yes | | ARE YOU WEARING SOCKS?: | yup | | HAVE YOU EVER HITCH HIKED?: | no | | WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?: | greenish | | WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: | a few days ago | | DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?: | sure | | WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER?: | mine | | ARE YOU PSYCHIC?: | no | | HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?: | yes | | DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?: | not yet | | CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?: | i can try | | DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?: | depends on who i'm with | | DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?: | no | | DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?: | no | | IS A DOG A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?: | yes | | YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?: | I believe it happens but shouldn't unless certin cases | | CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?: | no | | DOES YOUR MOM KNOW YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?: | i don't have one | | WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?: | french fries | | DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?: | no | | DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?: | kind of | | WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?: | all of them | | DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?: | no | | FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?: | Mae and The Postal Service | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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What can i say? i was bored.
~Re~
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2006 7 July :: 1.07am
:: Mood: sad
My world almost just fell apart.
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2006 6 July :: 12.25pm
Well hello.
I had fun. The fourth of July was fun. I indeed loved spending time with everyone who was there. It was nice to be able to do something besides work. I got home and my mom was pretty ticked though. And the funny thing was I really didn't care. I woke up and was sore from football. My arm hurts a lot from when Katie tackled me but I'm good. Even though I am horrible at football I still liked playing.
Last night I talked to Emma on the phone until forever and that was awesome too. She knows how to listen and I found myself telling her things that I can hardly admit to myself. It was sort of refreshing to get some things off my chest. Yeah.
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2006 30 June :: 6.01am
Day off today...yay!
Thinking about going to the Sand Lake Fair thingy. If anyone else wanted to give me a call. 915-8445.
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2006 29 June :: 7.21pm
:: Mood: embarrassed
Going over to my grandparent's house always makes me feel guilty. I feel guilty because I never go and see them, and when I do I realize I should have instead of doing everything else I have been doing lately. I still encounter that 'perfection' thing, but I'm trying not to let that get to me. You know, the whole 'I have to be just like they want me to be, or else they won't want me anymore'.
My biggest fear in life is of confrontation that ends in abandonment.
I know they are all going to die pretty soon, and I'm going away, away to college. I'm going to miss the little they have left. At least, I always feel that way.
To all those who don't know, the admissions office at GVSU doesn't like me and wouldn't take me (even though i was accepted into their music program, their school, and I graduated sixth in my class with a fucking 3.96 gpa), so now I am going to CMU. My orientation day is July 21.
I'm not a little child anymore, but I still feel like I need to behave like one sometimes...ask permission, don't talk to strangers, eat my vegetables, and the like.
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