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2012 14 September :: 6.49pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Fun: Walking the Dog
I survived getting sick from my students/colleagues until the end of week three. I'll take it.
I'm getting back in the groove. Things seem more like a clusterfuck, but they seem easier.
I'm taking Old English this semester, for no other reason than it's a degree requirement for a linguistics credit. I'd rather take French. With that being said, apparently two hellish years of French have really beefed up my language skills, and it's going quite easily. Perhaps I'll be one of those people who knows like five (useful) languages eventually.
Thesis. Blech. I don't want to talk about it.
Teaching is going well. I get their first drafts of their first paper by Monday at midnight. We're having fun in class, and they're all really good kids. I expect at least a quarter of them will fail the first draft, but the good thing for them about English is that we offer revisions. Lots and lots of revisions.
Other things are going well, but clouding the periphery--union stuff, graduate literary journal, other groups, non-profit work, academic senate/the eboard for that, too, and now I'm enrolled in a teaching academy through the university (only about 15 people university-wide were selected in total).
PhD applications in a few months.
I guess I should go parse some Old English or grade some papers. What else is there to do while being sick on a Friday night?
I really honestly wish I would have been checking out my hair in the mirror or daydreaming or fiddling with the radio for the 1/10th of a second it would have taken to run that idiotic drunken fuck over.
Then I could just smile at this everyday drunk fuck fratboy bullshit and smile to myself. "I win drunk frat boys. I win".
As it is, it makes me want to strangle one of them at random.
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Jesus, their still drunk. Its been like five days?
6 months
Well were over the 6 month mark now and are officially living together :) I got the job at holland home and have been working as a nurse for 3 weeks now, loving it. Its a different feeling being in charge now, but def likeing the pay raise. Having two dogs is def been a struggle, hopefully they will adjust soon. Learning to share my house, has been harder for me then I thought since I have lived alone for so long. I just have to remember my sharing skills, I know I use to have them lol. House projects are coming alone, finally got my new floor in my dining room and painting the kitchen. Hopefully next month the new floor for the kitchen will be in. Already getting excited for halloween, thinking of having a halloween party this year. So happy with my life, looking forward to the future, maybe an engagement next year :)
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2012 17 August :: 8.48am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Fun: Carry On
School starts again in about a week. I'm able to get in my office on Monday (hopefully). I just had a student email me about the syllabus for class. I don't have it done. Prep week doesn't even start until next week, and I don't even officially get paid for my work until the week after that.
Lots of things going on. I'm the president of the Graduate Student Union this year. I'm on staff of our creative writing publication. I'm teaching, taking classes, writing my thesis, and on the board of a non-profit. I'm also probably doing a innovative teaching academy program, and applying to PhD programs. Of course, all of these things are unpaid, and when it's all said and done, I make less than minimum wage. Oh, the joys of higher education.
My kid won't nap. And some people might think that, that is no big deal. But you've probably Never met Reagan. She is a major crab without a nap. She is sleep deprived and has been since she was about 4 months old. Her dad is no help with that. He contradicts everything I say or do.. She hasn't napped since Tuesday. And that wasn't a very long nap. Maybe a 20 mile drive. Wednesday, she fought it for 4 hours, and screamed bloody murder for 2.5 hours. I am seriously going insane. She doesn't ever let me do anything. Other than watch cartoons with her. I'm to the point where I'm ready to send her to day care just so I don't have to deal with nap time... But I would feel super Shitty about dumping her off on someone else when she wont go to sleep on her own.
And complaining and being this frustrated with her makes me feel like a Shitty mom and a Shitty person. Which just makes me cry along with her.
I think the biggest lesson I've learned with dieting so far is to just give up on making healthy shit taste good. For the most part it either already tastes good (fruits, meats, nuts) or you can make it taste slightly better with way to much effort (vegtables). Inevitable making it taste good usually makes it unhealthy anyway.
Extra processing time just makes it a pain in the ass to be on a diet. At the same time you'll never compete with the bag of pre-packaged chocolate-coated deep-fried butter-balls you really want to eat.
It makes it pretty simple to stay on the wagon when you concede the taste issue and push the convenience issue instead.
I should pen a health cook-book. Call it the lazy diet.
5 months for me and jordan today :) Think I finally found a keeper. Passed my boards and officially a nurse. I had a really good interview at holland home can't wait to start my nursing career. On vacation this week, shadow is loving camping life. Feels so good to be on the water everyday and nice that its so close to jordans work so seeing him everyday :)
Let me start by saying that the live chat specialist I worked with today was able to help me with my problems. The conversation could have been much quicker, but overall I was satisfied.
But that was not the start of my day with Charter. I called 1888GETCHARTER for help fixing my bill. The representative was argumentative and unwilling to help. I repeatedly asked to speak to his supervisor and after five requests I was told that I would be put on hold. After one hour and 42 minutes of listening to Charter advertisements that contained an exorbitant amount of static/background noise, I was hung up on. Being hung up on is extremely infuriating, especially after nearly two hours on hold.
Why does Charter’s billing always seem to have a mistake? It’s a joke to everyone that I speak to about it. While going through my records for billing I noticed that never more than three months in a row did I pay the same charges, even while I’ve been locked in on promotional rates.
I hope that in the future I will live in an area where Charter will not be my only option for my internet and cable TV needs.
I just wanted to make some coffee.
I'm not sure why but I always end up cleaning after parties. I think its cause the alcohol makes me sleep very light, and I always wake up 3 hours before everybody.
In any case. Christ almighty will I be glad to be back at home, and not in the midst of the barely organized chaos of spent pizza boxs and drunken bachelors.
I miss my Camry. I miss the 2nd house. The wonderland house. So many happy memories of being left alone there, just wandering around, spending endless hours listening to AoF audiobooks while putting together puzzles on the kitchen table.
In my inner world, there is a copy of almost every place I have lived, or at least part of it. It's almost always totally empty except for me, and maybe some of the pets that lived there.
I suggest thematic oveture of Jurrasic park. The first one, not the crappy ones.
Step one. Have a drink.
Step two. Have a few more.
Step three. Put on some good headphones. Turn everything up.
Step four. Close eyes.
Step five. Open up the way back when folder of music and play something nostalgic and awesome from at least ten years ago.
In the past, like when I was playing a given video game in some marathon week long stretch I would have dreams in that format. 1st person, 3rd person, etc.
I started re-reading the entire Wheel of Time series so I have some idea of what is happening in it when the final book comes out. It ends up being around 1500 full sized single spaced 12pt font pdf pages.
I've been reading like 4 hours a day. 3 of which are usually right before I go to sleep. In any case - I keep on having dreams that are very very heavy in dialog. They are vivid, and I can even recall what is happening. I can just never really put a visual aspect to it.