No one could see me. I fell into yesterday.

:: 2004 22 August :: 5.42am

Christina spent the last night night. We didn't sleep. School is tomorrow. Ugh.

I GET MY WARPED PICTURES TODAY <3

:: 2004 20 August :: 10.58am

THIS MAN MAKES MY PANTIES WET <3

DEAR ALL THAT IS HOLY.

5 worthless words | help me

:: 2004 19 August :: 12.50pm

Had a weird dream...about a brother and sister...and they were having dreams about dead things which would them matterialize and walk around...it was creepy...but then i was working on a math problem...and we were hiding it from these people...then i was on some stairs and couldent jump accross the thresh hold...bah...

Im extreamly frustrated with the world right now...my parents keep changing the god damned fucking time and im fucking spazzing over it...fuck...and its completly meaningless......god damnit...i dont want to go camping with my family...i want friends to come...fffffffuuuuuuuuuuccccccccck.

I CANT STAND THIS.

:: 2004 18 August :: 11.31pm

Damn....i was excited for school...but now....*SHOOTS PAST "RELATIONSHIP" IN THE HEAD*...arg...i dont want to go back to the uncertainty of days that bland together.I dont want to be all self concious again. I dont want to have to plan my everymove so i dont screw up.Im sooo tired of this shit i get everyyear.I swear im goignt to crack , especialy if maggie even TRIES to do anything or say anything toward me.ARG ...im have ...GOD.....I just want everything to stay like this, this simplicity.I really dont want to have to put up with PEOPLE. I dont think i have enough patience to go to school and do the same thing every day,for 9 mounths....i have a headach...and im spazzing and....shit now im starting to cry.....

and my mom just came up stairs and wants to know whats wrong....and im not going to tell her, because she'll just say it wont matter in ten years, cause that fixes everything.

this is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings i've shared
and these are my dreams
that i'd never lived before
somebody shake me
cuz i
i must be sleeping

[chorus]
now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
all in the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and i'm not ashambed to be the person that i am today

these are my words
that i've never said before
i think i'm doing okay
and this is the smile
that i've never shown before

somebody shake me cuz i
i must be sleeping

[chorus]

i'm so afraid of waking
please don't shake me
afraid of waking
please don't shake me

DAMNIT......bah...oh ronnie commited adultry against ashley..and linda*daras step mom* mother died.

Yeah...so here is the rest of the entry...im going to die of frustration.....because my parents are incoheriant...and i try to not tell my friends...because then i seem whiney.

My dad took away my katan because he thought i was acting like a baby...well i thought he was acting like a babybecause he took it away...and then there was this big arguement which basicaly said that after my dad had given me the sword he no longer had control over when and where i could have it....which brnached off into another conversation...ok...argument...

I had another weird dream....i was floating down the anaconda river with 2 other people and the river was like a hot spring...well neways we got out at this cave...and i guess this guy dressed as a samuri killed the other 2 peeps dad...and they bought me for him(?)...it was really weird...then we escaped...from him...i guess...and went to a restaurant...and got raw meat...and had a convo with a wrestling dude....then went back to the cave thing....and decided to kill the samuri dude(?) but it ended with those two being killed and me with a sword stuck between my ribs..but it didnt kill me...then i was shakeled to a wall...and just kinda stood their in a kamono..with a sword in my side...bleeding green and silver feathers.........then...i somehow got the sword out, stuck it in my pocket ,healed myself...and escaped....but when i got out i was in ...a place that looked like it poped out of aladin...and then i was wearing a skirt...and vest...and vale....it was weird...then i woke up.

....i wish i could just disappear.....

:: 2004 18 August :: 4.24pm

*joins the crowd*
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I would kill myself?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your live journal and see what I say about you?
21. Would you ever date me?

6 worthless words | help me

:: 2004 18 August :: 2.18am

Just got through shopping one last time for the ever joyful school.
I got some jeans, some Dr. Martens, socks, and this blazer:
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YAY.

5 worthless words | help me

:: 2004 17 August :: 12.02am

Im tired...

Almost finished my costume.

Went to the mall with kayleen jessika gwen, it was fun.

I just realized that in tomarrow and today i will make 48 dollars from babysitting and mowing a lawn..i have traveling money!

Im REALLY friggin tired...i got paid 16 dollars to watch 3 dogs for less then an hour....yayme.

:: 2004 16 August :: 11.12pm

Warped Tour was fucking awesome. ALOT better than I thought it was going to be. We got there and we waited around until we saw Lars Frederickson and the Bastards. Then we saw Tiger Army and Anti-Flag.
So we were walking around and I see Nick 13 from Tiger Army and wave at him manically. We follow him to his booth, where we get stuff signed, and I watch his non-existent glass eye move about. Then we went and stalked Meggers from the Casualties, and right when he was walking by us, Ashley screamed, "WHERE IS MY DADDY?" right into his ear. Oh my.
So we went to the Casualties booth and Jake signed my CD (and BROKE it =P) and then Meggers was there, so we got back in line, and got a picture with Meggers and Jake. Hopefully Ashley can scan them soon so I can show all you lovely people.
Then we went and stalked Lars. He signed my ticket and it looks like it says "Paul". Multiple personalities, anyone?
Then we went to see The Casualties and were then forced to go home. So that has been my day. And it was lovely.

:: 2004 15 August :: 9.23pm

MMMK...how todays goodbye with Damon should have gone:
ME: Bye Damon
Him: mmk seeya tomarrow.

How it went:

Him: I love you.
Me: *Freeze*
Him: *Stare*
Me: *trying to speak*
Him: *ANGRY/Confused/Sad Stare*
Me: Damon...i ...dont say that to my boyfreinds.
Him: *long pause* Oh i see how you play your game.
Me: Game...wha...
Him: Yeah your game,sam told me abnout it.
Me: *noting to self to demolish sam* What?What would sam know? HEs a snake in the grass.
Him: NO you are the snake in the grass.You toy with peoples emotions.
Me: I do not toy , especialy with emotions, i can be munitulative when i want to but ive never done that with you...
Him: Whatever.
Me: Fine be like that, i want nothing to do with you, especialy if you are going to be like sam.
Him:You are just a peice of trash anyways.
Me: *Gawking stare*A...peice...of trash.You of all people this i am a peice of trash.Someone who just said they love me thinks im a peice of trash.Well Damon, you and SAM CAN KISS MY NATURALY WHITE TRAHY ASS FOR ALL I CARE...because someone who really loved me, wouldnt act like this. This relationship is over.
Him: I just wanted a peice of ass, get over it.
Me: Well, grab your face and you will have a NICE big chunck. *me walk away to home 3/4 of a mile away. get home...and stare blankly at my wall trying to convinve myself that i never had a crush on him, and none of it had happened.*

Yeah...so it fell apart...and im kinda glad it didi when it did....earlier i had talked to his mom and she said she was sending him to central because they dont want him being exposed to public school kids, but she likes me.....it kinda sucks...that i had a crush on the shittiest person possible...damn me.

JustADreamer

:: 2004 15 August :: 12.33am
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: "My Will" -Inu Yasha// "Touched" -Vast [(Other)]

Nakitakunaruno..
So.. Being a sophomore royally sucks. It's completely and utterly boring, and I have almost no time for anything other than school anymore.

I've only attended school as a sophomore two days and I can already tell what kind of a school year it is going to be.. only worse. Even lunch is boring. English is the only class not so bad. That, and Geometry. Because the teacher is funny. Let me tell you [whoever is reading this] about my schedule.

[Block 1] BIOLOGY
We haven't done much of anything in this class. Yet. She's warned us that we work bell to bell. I have homework in that class. Two packets. And it's always freezing in that classroom. Which, I admit, is good. I like having an excuse to wear a jacket. Dull class.. Julie's in there, by the way. But we'll never be able to talk, or anything like that, so it's kind of pointless. Guess it's nice to have someone I'm friends with in there, but.. -Shrug.-

[Block 2] GEOMETRY Pre-AP
The teacher? Hyper. The students? All male. Except for myself. Which is not so bad actually. Not because the guys or attractive or I have a 'crush' on anyone; don't even suggest that. Gross. Because they're hilarious. And when you match up amusing male students with a hyper, excited-about-math teacher who's rather humorus herself, the class period becomes fun. The work isn't so bad, and she talks everything out, and explains it wonderfully. She'll help with class work, as a whole class on the overhead/board, and she'll help with homework. It's not so bad. And I'm not the only one who doesn't really talk in there. Alex, this person I don't really talk to, is kind of quiet, also. It's reassuring, not being the only one who's not making jokes and laughing.

[LUNCH]
Even this has proven to be dull somehow. Maybe it's because I'm used to Skye, Liv, and everyone, the whole big group, being there, being loud, laughing, joking, and talking. Now? It is only me, Laura, and Heather. Occasionally Cassi. Rarely Julie. We have our laughs, but it's just not as fun. It's just a break from the work.

[Block 3] SPANISH 1
Oh. God. I despise this class. The teacher isn't so bad. The notes aren't so bad. I dislike talking out in class, though. Or working with people in this class, because I have no friends in this class, which figures. I hope we get a seating chart, so I won't have to sit by that idiotic girl who continually talks and is just completely and utterly stupid. For lack of better words.

[Block 4] WORLD HISTORY
You know, it just figures that the classes that we're actually allowed to talk in, and allowed to work in groups in, I have no friends in. The first group activity that we did, writing definitions, I ended up one one person who wrote slow, and one who had a pretty face, but, I soon learned, was a rather cruel person. And he 'did drugs.' And he swears every single sentence. What would most people call him? A "poseur?" Laughing at a mistake a mentally slow person made. I know I said I like bad boys, but come on. We didn't even work as a group. We just wrote down the definitions individually, which I would have rather done anyway. Last year Brandy was in my History class, and working in pairs was fun, but this teacher decided that we're going to have to work with everyone in the class. Different people. -Sarcastically.- Grand. Other than all that, the class isn't so bad.

[BLOCK 5] ENGLISH Pre-AP
This class isn't so bad. Laura's in it. The teacher is the same as Spanish 1. We're reading "The Scarlet Pimpernel" in there. So far, it's really interesting. I think this may be my favorite class. English is normally my favorite class anyway. Nothing horribly bad about this class. I'm comfortable with most of the people in this class. The only other class I'm vaguely comfortable in is Geometry. -Shrug.-

~~End Complaints~~

You know, everytime I go into the Library, there's either nobody in there to check out the books, or they leave as soon as I enter. Therefore, there is no way I can check out the one book I've been wanting to read for a while. And that is... Wuthering Heights, by Emily Bronte. I've just been wanting to read it for some reason. Maybe because there was a quote in there that I've read before that draws me to it.. Hm.

Went shopping today for a few new clothes. Bought two pairs of dark jeans.. Three shirts which I am going to describe just because I can. One, which is my Mom and Dad's favorite is black, which pink and white striped cuff thingies on the end of each sleeve, which ends a bit past the elbow. Three-quarter sleeves, I believe they are called. And the pink and black pattern is also on the collar. I like it, too. Also, a black shirt with red hems. There's a heart on it, with the American flag inside of it. I bought it because I liked the black and red colors. Plus it was the only other thing I could find that wasn't white, orange, or bright pink. Then there was another one that was an orangish shade of red, I guess, and had some words on it. Can't remember. That's about it.

Oh yeah. This little orange beanie thing came with one of the pairs of jeans. It says "Born to be Free" on it in black lettering, with a motorcycle under it. Just thought that was amusing.

I have to use my locker this year. I have no choice. I cannot carry that backpack. I can hardly pick it up, much less carry it all day. I don't even have my Biology book in there, which is the largest book I have so far. Oh happiness.

I guess things may get better next semester. I only have two real classes next year, which are English and.. -Thinks.- Health.. probably.. Then I have three electives. Drivers Ed, Choir, and.. Newspaper? Don't know why -that's- on there, but it is. I might try and get some of those electives off of my schedule and take 11th grade classes. Trying to graduate early, you know? So I won't have to put up with the idiotic people in this school.

Last year, several of our dear, sweet, intelligent, innocent students got sent to AEP, which is an alternative school, for possessing and selling drugs on campus. Oh, my! What a surprise! Albeit a pleasant one for me. They've all come back this year.. Darn it.

-Sigh.- I'm not looking forward to this school year. Everyone keeps dressing up, putting on makeup and such, just so they can show it off during classes, and in between, and at lunch, but there's absolutely no reason. Why should you have to look good when people should be studying, and paying attention to the teacher instead? Because people are that shallow. And they don't pay attention to their school work anyway, so why not play dress up in their spare time!

I'm sick, literally disgusted, at this. At them. At life in general. It sucks. I'm turning 15 in a few weeks. Shouldn't I be happier? -Frowns.- I guess I should be happy. The older I get, the sooner I get to leave the foolish people that I call my 'classmates' behind, to fret over their ridiculous lives wondering why they can't get into college, and why they never paid attention in classes. Then they can be the ones who look back enviously at those of us who went on to have a successful life. For I know, I just know, that life has got to get better after this. After this, I'll be glad I worked so hard, and tried to maintain good grades. At least, I guess, this is how I hope things turn out.

I'm not really that confident about this.

Somehow, being busy working doesn't give me that release that I need from my thoughts. They still get in the way. Daydreaming, I guess you could call it. However..

I am proud to say that I have absolutely no attraction for anyone in my school, or anyone in particular right now. I am happy to say that I am not drooling over some guy, other than Draco, melting into a pitiful puddle everytime some guy glances past me. Nor am I crying right now because of a broken heart. I haven't broken down in a long while because of something like that.

-Semi-smile.- Summer is over. I guess I should be happy about that. It was a dreadful summer, at times. Summer being over means last year is over. Last year being over means "it" is over. I mean it! I'm honestly over it. Tragic, isn't it? How much I've cried in the past however many months. I don't even feel like reading through old e-mails and journal entries. Maybe I do a bit, but I'm not going to right now. Doubtful I'll let myself anytime soon. Not until I'm completely over it.

[Quotes Found Online From Wuthering Heights]

"I despise him for himself, and hate him for the memories he revives..."

"If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger: I should not seem a part of it... He's always, always in my mind: not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to myself, but as my own being."

And the last?

"It is not in him to be loved like me: how can she love in him what he has not?"

:: 2004 15 August :: 12.30am

Yeah..so im scanning things onto my computer..and realize how much i really want to have this amazing adventure...that few know about..and i possibly die from it...or forever go on adventures until my late 80's where i will be climbing a mountai...and fall to my death...yeah..thats the way to go.

Well anyways..i kinda went back to my dark 3/4 of me...and realized that almost everything we do is pointless unless it affects the world in some huge way...people wont remeber us, we prolly will forget about each other. And this all seems so real...but we could be living an illusion.Not much seems very real anymore.....like everythign is moving faster then me...yeah..its frustrating...i also think i dove into a relationship too soon ,especialy after sam.bah

Also another thing has been bothering me. Have you ever just taken a breath , steped back from life and evaluted it?DONT DO IT...yeah

OK and theory of time travel....ok..the general thought of time travel is jumping from one moment in time to another...right? Well..if someone slep for 100 years and didnt age a day...wouldnt that be time travel?They would wake thinking it where 100 years earlier, with the mentality of that generation..so why dont we find away to put people into so sort of suspension...in a moment...preferably while they sleep,but somehow this would also have to incorperate a way to preserve the persons muscles(100 years of not moving wont work) and food(starvation) and water (thirt) and hook them up...basicaly what juliet did in Romeo and Juliet...only for a prolonged time..wouldnt that be considered time travel?

Yes im rambling...so what?

I need to log this all in because i have a short attension span so i tend to forget things just after i think of them, like poetry lines.

I would aso like to desighn a colony. A self sufficiant space colony. But we need a moon colony before the independent colony... But neways..we would send the peices to the moon, then assemble the colony there. The trees and plants would have been pre grown on the moon, which would be moved to the colony,creating the proper atmosphere.....but before that artofficial gravity will be created....(quickly rotating the colony . Then after the ship were built,we would select 100+ families to board the ship. The families will have to breed, to make sure that colony keeps going...they would make their way out of the solar system and to the galaxy of Andromeda.....one they reach there they will find a habitable planet...or slightly habitable planet...and staythere....one ccatch to this...., they will never return...and they will only have contact with earth every 3000+ years...so the history, languages and knowladge may die with them. So its a suicide mission...in a way..but its also i great adventure...seeing this we can only see from afar...if i were to help desighn that...i would die before they even had it built or i would want to go with them...Yes the thought has many holes and unconsidered things, but the thought itself is amazing, seeing things and details no human has ever seen (w/o the aid of tele. binocs.)...the colors,the size...everyhting, everyday would be aw rising...

4 worthless words | help me

:: 2004 14 August :: 9.00pm

So...im waiting for something exciting to happen...because my taste for adventure has yet to be satisfied...bah......'

Alot of things i havent thought about in a long time have been creeping back up on me again..like my constant knowladge of the fact that the day we are born is the day we start to die......its like we age back ward....maybe merlin was the one aging forward....

I dunno there is so much stuff i just shoved in the back of my mind so i can sleep....i do it every summer...so im not stressed....but i ...damnit.

So we are leaving at 4 in the morning on friday..the 20th...and comming back the 25..so i WILL be at school the first day....damn...but neways...yeah i spazed at my mom due to her lack of decision making...damn her anyways...

So i fell asleep from 4-6 due to the fact of..i am sickish...i have a cold...and i had a weird dream..i was working at target inthe winter and we had to give these weird things out...but neways...i stole almost everything from the store...it was funny.....then i steped out of the store and look around...it looked like a picture perfect snowy night in new york..i had a black coat and little burai on...it was fun...then i started walking and ended up at this apartment...walked up the stairs and knocked on the door...someone who i didnt recognize was like "hey we thought you wernt gonna come!!!!" so we all say around and drank coffee, talked about the latest happenings and the like...and as we were all talking i realized it was the gang (gwen ,kayleen, nick and jessika and roxy) ...i guess we all grew up , went our separate ways..and then roxan esque...*cough cough* called us all up and invited us to newyork for xmas...It was sooo cool...like Jessika became a wealthy bussiness partner for this company who emphasises people being confident about there body image....and gwen was a Gerneral, she had flown al the way gwaum...Kayleen had become a piolet for an international airline, Nick had become a devorce attorney, and was curently working on britney spears 2 divorce, and roxan and raab live in new york and painted & wrote for a living...we each had one of the works..it was soo cool.....but the reason everyone thought i wasnt going to show was because i was deep in the amazon, looking for a plant we thought was extinct...BUT a missonary had found some...and used it on this person who he just thought had a cold..but they really had aids...and basicaly the plant had created a temprary cure....but ..well yeah...so there was this team of like18 people searching the jungle...we had to get provisions...and that was the only reason i could attend.....(adventure craving attacking my mind)..so yeah..it was fun

NICK IS MORMON!!!!!!Hes dating gwen AND jessika!!!

:: 2004 14 August :: 5.48pm

Well, picked up Christina today at the airport. She was SO surprised, haha. We're all going to the zoo tomorrow, I'll have to push her around in her wheelchair.
Warped Tour is MONDAY, not tomorrow like I thought. I'm about to call Ashley right now to find out the plans.

:: 2004 13 August :: 11.02pm
:: Music: "Pretty Girls Make Graves" - The Smiths

People Are Strange
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:: 2004 13 August :: 10.08pm

Well, I got back from the fair a little while ago. Twas pretty fun. Christina's mom called for me today to ask me if I would go with her and Marty to go pick up Christina from the airport tomorrow. Marty kinda freaks me out, but I haven't seen Christina for about a month, so I'm DESPERATE to see her. And then Sunday is the Warped Tour, which I'm going with Ashley. <3

:: 2004 13 August :: 6.20pm

My dad bought me the only thing that could make me any happier then i was yesterday.........he bought me....a ........................................

KATANA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My favorite of swords!!!!! It was half off at the pawn shop and he bought it for me....mainly cause i wouldnt stop bothering him but neways...OMG i am amazingly excited and happy and *boom* (ive just exploded from being to happy!!! ISNT THE GREAT!!?!?!?!!?)

AHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Also its friday the 13TH!!!!!!!!!lol..

So turns out damon is extreamly parinoid....wow...

Staying the night at christies...buh bye!

The Ultimate Death Survey

What do you think happens after you die? alot and nothing

Do you believe in heaven? sure

Do you believe in hell? sure

Do you think you will be judged after you die? yeah

How many people would attend your funeral? ...i dunno...who ever wants to come

Would you rather that people cry or laugh at your funeral? Laugh

What's better? A shot in the head or downing pills? Um......id rather not...

What should be written on your tombstone? To Taco boy

Would you rather die childless or divorced? neither

Do you want to die in the morning, afternoon, or night? night

If you had a million dollars to leave, who would you leave it to? my cat smudge...or friends...prolly family; )

What kind of flowers do you want at your funeral? White/ pink roses and dafodils...and lilies...

On your deathbed, which moment will you most remember? i dont know..i dont plan on laying on a death bed with people waiting for me to croak...

Have you ever watched someone die? yes

What's the most gruesome death you can imagine?

How often do you think about death? alot

Is fear of dying your number one fear? ...i dont fear it at all...i think of it as a new adventure.

Do you believe in reincarnation? depends

Have you ever wished someone you loved were dead? yes

Do you consider life short or long? depends on how you lead your life...its not about time but quality

Do you think you have a soul? yeah.........

Assisted suicide for a terminally ill person is: takeing them off of life support

If you were cremated, where would you like your ashes? in the ocean...or somewhere getisoned amoungst the stars...

Would you choose to be immortal, if you could be? sure...just because it would be fun...but it would have to be immortality plus youth like 28 years old...around there....yeah.

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:: 2004 12 August :: 6.08am

Well I'm going over to my aunt's tonight and we're all going to the state fair tomorrow morning. I don't think I've ever been to a STATE fair, just the county ones around here. Sadly, this is the highlight of my week.
So I guess I'll see you all Friday night or Saturday. Mehaw.

:: 2004 11 August :: 6.57pm

So today i woke up around 5ish and was out working till 11:30....came home and showered and got ready..then headed to the mall...and was REALLY hyper till like the middle of the time there. So it was gwen, kayleen, nick and i...and it was fun...gwen was being a putz...lol..so i bought some dripping candels which i beat people with today...mwahhahahahahaha.....but yeah...so nick walked with me till the end on the mall then walked back and through the mall. I walked home and got call a fucker for some reason..then when i got home i got on the tredmil for 45 min...and now i am extreamly tired...in that i have expended all of my energy...damn.

:: 2004 10 August :: 9.49pm

So last night i had a strange dream..........Nicko was a vampire and it was my fault but damon did it.It kidda sucked...cause nick was mad at me and damon was mad at nick for being mad at me and i was just angry at damon cause he was a moron....yeah.....so lots of anger in that dream...then it melted to this concert with this cute itallian guy singing and i started to cry for somereason and he took it offensivly( how he saw me i do not know)....so he left...then i told his mom i was sorry and hadent ment to do that...it was weird...cause then i went with them back to italy...and hung with him and his gf for a while then left and fought the goblin king with nicko...who was still a vampire...jessika, gwen...who was a pixi...and roxan who was a talking fox...it was fun......so when it was over we all sat down amdist the fire scorched ground. Then we all got up...and everything we touch or walked on grew flowers and grass....and all the machines or building we touched turned to crystals...like emerald ,diamound and amathist...it was really cool....then i woke up...and it was noon.

My mom and i went to applebees and shopko..i have flipflops and pants and chapstick andhead bands!!!!!!!!!!yay...!!!!!!!

I feeel like going to the mall tomarrow...who wants to come with?

:: 2004 10 August :: 8.25am
:: Music: The Killers <3

MAKE ME SKINNY WORKOUT MACHINE OF DEATH
I'm exercising almost every day but I don't feel like I'm doing enough.
I do the Gazelle thing for 30 minutes, then I do some of the Total Gym for about 5-10 minutes because it's PAINFUL. =P
I'm trying to eat right too, and drink loads of water. Does this sound right? Should I be doing more exercise?
I just want to make sure I'm getting enough, all this sore-ness isn't worth it if I'm going to look the same.

4 worthless words | help me

:: 2004 9 August :: 9.18pm

So today i woke up and watered HJ's lawn...then came home,slept,walked to gfh, mowed a lawn, then went to the library and walked back...and that was Roxan's and my day....yes...she is leaving tomarrow....

For the past couple days i have been happy and its nice....a little frustrated with my dad ...but other then that its been good....hes be pulling stuff like when i said thanks he gave me this whole speal about how i was ungreatful and didnt need what he gave me*eye roll*..i'll deal....

Someone needs to have a movie party....yeah it'll be the last of the summer prolly.......

My parents are thinking of actually getting me a car *gasp*

:: 2004 8 August :: 11.11pm

I have the songs from Grease stuck in my head.

:: 2004 8 August :: 7.20am
:: Music: <3333333333333

A Forest - The Cure
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Me lover that song.

:: 2004 7 August :: 7.51am
:: Music: Ursher

In da club wit mah homies.
I just put that Gazelle Exercise thing together and MAN DOES IT HURT. I just exercised for the first time in months. Well, REAL exercise. And that Total Gym thing hurts your arms too. Well, it hurts mine.
MAYBE I CAN GET SKINNY BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS. =P