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2017 25 January :: 6.32am
im sad for the world and america.
like being around a train wreck and being forced to watch.
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2017 18 January :: 10.53pm
why does it feel like i give and people take and that's it
i feel like my cup is empty
but nothing i do to fill it seems to work
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2017 16 January :: 6.22pm
the KI project im doing at work has me feeling invigorated. it is extremely validating and i feel extremely excited at the prospect of the monetary rewards for saving the company some money in the long term. but most importantly i'm lookin forward to improving the quality of work life. if people were less frustrated with the process i believe they will start working with a higher quality.
or at least my life will be less painful because it will be harder to mess things up because there won't be 2,098,394 places in the transaction to mess it up.
unfortunately, i also have jury duty starting tomorrow. i do not want to get picked. 2 weeks ago i would have loved to have been selected and go thru the whole process, but now i find it much more valueable to be at work and working towards this 30 day deadline.
it helps that the klapper guy is so encouraging. i feel safe to try and be stupid and mess things up, because a boss figure said it was okay. and he's not one of us. which makes me feel like i can trust him.
i have never been happier at work than i am right now. i feel that my skills are finally being valued appropriately and this is my opportunity to finally shine. my year review was better than last years, and i am optimistic this year will be even better. while my life is virtually reduced to a set of numbers, with this new opportunity i almost feel like more than a number.
i fucking love being more than a number.
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godessalthena
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2017 12 January :: 11.00pm
why is coheed & cambria so fucking cool?
and god damn i would love a bite of claudio'a hair mmmm hmmmm
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2017 11 January :: 8.28pm
sooooooooo not looking forward to tomorrow.
meeting a new doctor who will hopefully help with fmla. i fucking hate doctors. they make me feel so many deep dark emotions
my year performance review happens too. that's going to be completely wretched.
adulting fucking sucks.
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2017 8 January :: 7.31am
sometimes i think i'd love to live in seattle again. i'd be able to go to the zoo or the science center whenever i want. i could maybe make some friends and explore the city.
and then i think about the earthquakes and the traffic and i talk myself out of it. spokane isn't so bad is it. or is it.
i just don't know how to decide what to do with my future. for how valueable i am, my current employer undervalues me. is it worth trying to find something better.
or are my job stoppers really going to stop me from getting a job.
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2017 4 January :: 11.14pm
and it really feels suffocating room filling with water barely hanging on
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2017 1 January :: 1.30am
happy 4th of july everyone
$87 cab ride home from idaho
danced, drank & smiled
kisses at midnight
NYE successful
2017... ready! set!
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2016 29 December :: 2.33pm
:: Mood: high
fuck it dog life's a risk
https://youtu.be/kF4KkXLxW0Q
sittin in my whip smoking by myself while it's 30 degrees out
can't let him see me cry
i am just so FUCKED and i need some help
but you can't ask you just can't fucking ask it's too scary
i can't be seen as vulnerable
i can't be weak
i can't stand still
oh my god it's like boo fucking hoo it's just all about you. and, man, you're so sensitive
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2016 29 December :: 9.46am
our year end performance review is drawing nigh and i know mine is going to be dismal. even though i work hard when im at work and am meeting my numbers, since i've had 14 unplanned absencense this year i know it's going to destroy any good that i've got going on.
and the stupidest part is if my doctor would have just filled out my fmla paperwork it wouldn't be an issue. but no, she's a shitty doctor and im being punished for it.
i just want the review to be done so i can get over it, rather than it hanging over my head like the specter of defeat.
im tired of working my ass off and still being told i'm no good.
i want winter to be over.
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