A L I C I A

:: 2003 13 December :: 11.23am
:: Mood: allergic

its been a while.
so.. what have i been up to?
christini's party (i went to sleep at 12) :)
coldness. fun for a couple of days, but as of now, im white and longing for the beach. soon hopefully....
today i shall spend the entire day studying for exams. lovely.
tomorrow: work. even lovlier.
this week: exams.

christine is shaking her butt to "i love the way you move" heh.

au revoir

:: 2003 12 December :: 3.40pm
:: Mood: a good one
:: Music: an old sugar ray song..its on the radio

Tell me that it's not just me
I'm in such a cheery mood today, but I know once I talk to my mom, it's all going downhill from there. I have to clean my room, if it isnt clean by the time I have to go to bowling, I'm not allowed! pssh. I can't get ahold of my dad to invite him tonight, I dont wanna be the only one w/o a parent, but I dont want my mama to go either. I guses I dont care. After bowling I'm going to target, to see Jenna and Matt, and then I'm off to go see Lauren, but that's all you need to know about that. ;]! Aww, on my way home, I saw Sarah, and she had like 5 books, it was cute. This weekend is going to blow, I work Saturday and Sunday night, and I have to clean, and my mom is being a bitch, and said no social plans for the weekend, god sometime I wish she would go away to New York forever, you have no idea how much I enjoyed myself that week she was gone, it was simply amazing. Oh yeah, my dogs shit in my room yesterday, and my step dad laughed. Next time, I'm gonna clean it up, and put it under his pillow 8-). I'll update later, or tomorrow.

And yes, I do like the hairy ones, hahaha jk;]

<3mandyy
x to the o.

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:: 2003 8 December :: 9.29pm
:: Mood: so fucking pissed and annoyed
:: Music: linkin park // nobody's listening

I can't feel the way I did before, Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored.
Today was an ok day, and then this afternoon was delightful, paige came over, picked me up, we picked up Lauren, and went to my work, than to the reptile store, and than to subway! yummy! I went back to Lauren's for a little bit, and we chatted, and then I kind of hit her with this rubberband thing, in the face. I'm sorry LA! <3.

I got home, and my mom still wasnt home, eddie was laying on the couch, he's sick. It's weird, he's back? what? when did this happen? I dont get them, my mom told him to leave cause she didn't like him coming and going, and now he's what, oh that's right, coming and going. And as much as I love him, the past month or so without him, has been wonderful for me and my mom, she didnt care what I did, and she let me have freedom, and we were civil to each other. Now she's a bitch, I'm a bitch, and all she cares about is Eddie. Did I tell you one night, she forgot to bring me home my dinner? I had a headache, and didnt go out to eat with them, I asked her to bring me back soemthing from the restaurant, and she said, sure not a problem. So I didnt eat anything, waiting for my food, adn yeah, she forgot it. and saturday night, she told me I couldnt come home, I had to go to my dads, yeah, um..whatever. I'm sick of her. I listen to everyone else talk about hwo they get to get away and go to college, not me, I'm stuck in Florida, I would do anything to get out of my house. I wish I was Heather at this point, and didn't have to deal with my parents, and I could live with my best friend, god dammit. I envy so many people around me, and look so down upon my life, but it can't be that bad, I mean I know there is worse, but I feel things are only giong down that road, worse. We'll wait and see, but if things dont change, Im not going to stay here, any takers for a Mandy moving in?

Try to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don't want to hear me
[told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody's listening

I got a
Heart full of pan
Head full of stress
handful of anger
held in my chest

<3mandyy

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:: 2003 4 December :: 11.42pm
:: Mood: overwhelmed
:: Music: linkin park // # 6

Talking is the key to everything you say, but how come when we talk, its nothing but arguements, we should stop this.
I am so fucking tired. Today was a long day, afterschool I dragged Sarah to get my schedule with me, got it. I work Friday night, and Sunday 12-8 :shoots herself in head:. Saturday is buzz bake sale, that's a whole other story and mayhem in itsself. Things got fucked up and now things are screwed. But I'm going with evetrone else, and my thoughts, and sticking to this. =\. Oh yeah, Par, today during lunch I went to mr cohen's room to make up a test, me and him alone, in his room...heaven ;]! I got home from decorating the xmas tree at my dads at 10:15 tonight, and talked with my mom, we fought, lol, it was fun. Then I started my homework, It's 11:32, and I still have a good hour of it, I'm so screwed. i would say that I would do it in frist hour, but I am even more screwed in that class. AHHHHH. I'm going afterschool to the photo place to get lauren's stuff done, cause she's leaving me to go to CHICAGO :-(. But when she gets back i'll have film for her! <3. My stomach kinda hurts, but it's ok. I'll sleep it off. I'm gonna get mystuff together for school, i need to find an empty folder, and I'm going to bed, fuck this homework..pointless.

If your going Saturday to Buzz Bake Sale, comment just curious at who's beautiful face i'll see<3.

<3mandyy
x to the o.

p.s. La, have a good flight, you wont die. I love youu. dont worry me with an entry like that ;x. xo

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:: 2003 3 December :: 9.12pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: alien ant farm // death day

I dont mean anything by it, but now that i dont care, I feel I don't have to watch everystep I take.
Tonight was crazyy! I went to publiz with Maria, and got candy canes, I miss her so damn buch, but then...Lauren picked me up at like 4:00, and we went to subway, the lady at subway doesnt know how to take an order, so we got more food, and cost more money, dumb. than we get to school at like 4:30ish, and we camp out, I mean hard core, camp out, and hold down the fort. We were having a nice chat, and then Paris and Nicole stopped by, and chatted, than lauren threw soda at me. Eventually paige came, mr n showed at 5:30, we got the enlargers we came, sooner and sooner more people came.

So got started in the darkroom, and everyone around me realized they didnt have paper, so me and jackie being the nice human beings we were went out to precision to buy paper, cause mr n is the damn PAPER NAZI! They were closed, so we came back with a failed mission. But Alex, had some paper in her car the whole time, bastard! haha. So all in all that worked out, I got a lot done, and even though I'm not happy with my stuff that I printed, I think that it will be ok, because Mr N picked some of it out, it'll just be a challenge. i still have a lot of work to do though, I can do it, I can do it. Stephen and Ryan showed up, they tried to fight me, but I won ;]! Well I think tonight was a little more crazy, Im just getting a little sleepy, and Istill have to finsih my drama story, the little girls name is Piper Brown, adorable? NO.

<3mandyy
x to the o.

:: 2003 3 December :: 12.10am

you used to make me smile, you used to make me laugh, but now your attitude makes me want to yak.

8-)

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theintervoice

:: 2003 2 December :: 12.27am
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: TJT-If i told you this was killing me, would you stop

watch your mouth
ok no more keeping you in suspence if you were

tonight everything comes out...althought some things are better left unsaid,

this is my start of my brand new journal method...so just bare with me

first i wanna say i came back because i got tired of just moping around and waiting, i took charge, whether things change in the next couple of days or not doesnt matter anymore, i realized that life is based on properties that exist only beccuase you make them exist, whether you want it to happen or not. just to deal with it. anyway...

i had an awesome thanksgiving

me and nicole are no longer uhhh how shud i say this, a couple anymore....but its ok, it wasnt meant to stay

i recently started dating a new girl name jessica, she's been in some bad past relationships and wants to prove to me that she can be a great and honest girlfriend...which is cool i guess.

i still work at the ice cream store but i'm looking for a new job

me and pat are discussing plans for powerline and figuring out wat were gunna go, member wise.

cars great, exams are coming up soon and i have to study and pass this stuff. it important my mom says

alex is getting involved with this new girl named emily, hopefully she wont turn him into a sell-out i dont believe she will...same goes for ricky and gina

christmas is coming up sooon and i recently today lost $50 cuz i'm an idiot.

so now i have to work my ass off for christmas $$$.

my birthday was pretty kickass with hamonfest2003. i'm sorry to all those who missed it.

i dont have much left to talk about, but i hope i can keep on wirting in here and just you know, try and make it like any other teenager. i think i'm slowly starting to get better at this thing they call life, but who knows maybe tomoirrow i'll have a real bad day and think the opposite, we'll just have to see. till then

Peac-E 0ut
-Hamon

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:: 2003 30 November :: 6.25pm

i bought a highlighter shirt today.

:D

:: 2003 29 November :: 11.30pm
:: Mood: ugh!
:: Music: listening to the cheetah girls

Everytime I try and fly, I fall without my wings.
Today was the longest day ever for me, I worked 11:15-8:00, but when it became 8:00, I didnt really wanna leave, weird. Tonight I got home, saw my mom, missed her, and then went to subway and blockbuster. I spent like a half hour in blockbuster, hoping someone would return Bruce Almighty, than trying to remember who I saw that movie with, but I can't remember if my life depended on it. So finally, I rented Finding Nemo, not like I havent seen it before, but I was in a cutesy mood. Got home, ate my subway, and now, I'm still waiting for the dvd player, so I can watch my movie, but my mom isnt sharing. grrr.

Tomorrow, I might hang out with Stephanie Gamm, if mama will let me out, that would be so awesome!! I miss her like whoa. La is still sick, otherwise I was gonna call her, but she's dying.

FEEL BETTER LAUREN

Im so excited about my Livejournal/Deadjournal icon's, wee lol. check them out, you should know the site.

i'm off to fight my mom for the dvd player, it's nemo time!

<3mandyy

p.s. eh, nvm the ps..it'll only lead to certain people assuming. muahah

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:: 2003 29 November :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: exhausted

hmm.. theorange juice sounds interesting..
heylo,
im beat right now. yesterday i worked all by my lonesome and then after the lovely 5 hours of standing up, i got to walk around sawgrass mills. can't complain, though, mommy got me some stuff for christmas. including perfume (lilu<3), sunglasses, and a weird ass purse, but i like it. today i worked again, which was reallly fun. joe kept making fun of the old people. awesome.
tonight: girls night out i do believe.
tomorrow: beach?? perhaps, hopefully it wont be too cold out lol

bye

:: 2003 28 November :: 3.25am
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: listening to the sprinklers outside

Step down from your throne, you've been pushed out and there's a new King
Wow, this week has been fun, a lot. I just like freedom. Today was Turkey Day, and I got up at 8ish, adn went to my dads, but I didnt feel good all day, so I slept from 9-12 and 1-5. It was well deserved sleep. Tonight I worked, but I did door, and some of box, I like box, its peaceful, and hey, i get to wear the headset, booya. I came home and talked to Dan, Lauren was sick, so she was sleeping. Me and Dan played mad libs, but I couldnt think of adjectives, lol. Tomorrow is suppose to be the biggest shopping day of the year, and I'm not going shopping. A. I dont have money B. i dont want to deal with the crowds and C. Im just not in that mood. Oh yeah, I got a call on my cell phone from Paris tonight, and someone claimed it was another calling me, well guess what someone, I believe the other person. Ya know, I use to think you were something special, btu now I'm starting to see that real you, the you that I dont like, the you that no one see's. heh, sucks. I'm gonna go do this survey thing, it kind of looks like fun. I stole it from geori's journal, thanks gurll.

Goodnight.
<3mandyy

p.s. yeah, so what if I'm looking at you again, I dont think you mind this time though. ;]!

theintervoice

:: 2003 27 November :: 1.34am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Numb-Linkin Park/Juliana Theory-If i told you this was killing me would you stop?

My Triumphant or pathetic attempt for forgiveness
here we go

i'm back yes i'm back

there is soo much top talk about

but first lemme explain why i'm writeing in here

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:: 2003 26 November :: 6.37pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: rufio- science fiction

lalalala

<3 him!

comment children :)

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:: 2003 26 November :: 2.09pm
:: Mood: B-O-R-E-D bored.
:: Music: no doubt // its my life

All it took was a simple no, but you took far into another category.

I was woken up today by Paige calling to see if I wanted to go to the Sawgrass mall with her, but I was sleepy, so I said no. Than my grandma called and said she was conviently in Boca, so lets do lunch. We went to Denny's in east boca, it was a nice lunch<3. I got home, and talked to miss jackie, and she said that stephen said, or ryan said, that stephen wasnt going. So I called mr. hudon up and stephen said he didnt feel good, so yeah, elf plans got delayed til Friday, if stephen feels better, otherwise its me and jackie. I'm working again tonight until 10:30. And tomorrow I have to be at my dads early in the morning, but that's ok, cause I'll just take a nap. Oh yeah, Patrick called me last night, but just bad timing, so we didnt get to talk, but I hope he'll call back another time, I wanna chit chat. Ok, I'm off, I'm trying to suck some poor soul into going to the mall with me. Holla.

<3mandyy
x to the o.