A L I C I A

:: 2003 16 October :: 4.41pm
:: Mood: eh, whatever
:: Music: that linkin park song again, i like it.

no title today
Well i got the B in Chemistry! :-D!
grades:
Photo: A or B, dont know yet.
drama: B
history honors: B
integrated: B, but thats without Pre Calc in there, so c?
english: B
chemistry: B
marine science:B..its an 88.9 how mad am i?

I did ok this quarter, im happy.

Today was a weird day, but its ok. I spent like three periods in photo, but it was fun. Talked to Vanessa, Michelle, and Carly today. Their nice<3.
I wanna show ya'll a picture but I dont know how to do it on a journal, oh well, not important. Tomorrow, no school. I'm happy.

When I come around, I'll come around until then...see ya.
<3mandyy

:: 2003 16 October :: 10.28am

we're in economics right now.. ehh.
i cant wait till tomorrow. it shall be my salvation......
christine says hi! :)
im hating the drama but im not gonna be a pushover. of course a slew (alex spelled it) of comments will come out of this but whatever. im done with that.
time to go see my hottie <333 lol sam.
bye kiddos.

chach: we need to make plans

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:: 2003 15 October :: 10.12pm

ANYONE ELSE WANT TO FUCKING YELL AT ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

no im not perfect okay. im sorry.

god today sucked ass.

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:: 2003 15 October :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: alone

Today's on fire
The sky is bleeding above me, and I am blistered
I walk these lines of blasphemy, every day
And still:

Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn

I feel diseased
Is there no sympathy,
for the sun
The sky's still fire
But I am safe in here, from the world outside

So tell me
What's the price to pay for glory

Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn

Today is fire, and she burns
Today is fire, and she burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns
She burns

Like a burning star, I'm falling faster down to her
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn

:: 2003 15 October :: 7.18pm
:: Mood: observant
:: Music: finch stuffffffff

today sucked. yeah, and i even got to sleep until 8 this morning cause i had an orthodontist appt. but yeah.. after school i was supposed to meet my group at the library but then i got locked out, and my dad came home LATE today!!! grr... unluckiness!
tomorrow=thursday.. yessss. although i do have to stay after school for rehearsal and such. ehh.. but then im done.
friday: surfing. i NEED to go man.. its been too long. chach+me=watch out waves!! haha

random observations:

some people have a huge problem with comittment. (ie. making plans... *ahem.*)

every time i wear my hair down people think
i cut it.

people steal my catchphrases.

garnier fructisse fortifying conditioner fucking owns.

celine enjoys drawing on herself.

I MISS MY JESSIEFUL!

im one lazy mother.

i enjoy tostitos with melted cheese on them.

its time to go. im out :)

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:: 2003 14 October :: 11.47pm

stolen from charissa<3
My inner child is sixteen years old today

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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at first i didnt liek this answer, dont know why, but now i do. its truthful...change.

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theintervoice

:: 2003 14 October :: 9.26pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Maroon 5 "Harder to breathe

i'm feeling this

today...woke up, oto came, went to school, presented my project in first hour, it sucked, i worked out in 3rd hour, test in chem tomororw, thanks to alex i understand now, Geometry i am king. oto drove me and alex to ale'x and we fuked around till 5 where he taight me the orbital expononens 'n' shyt, then we planned on going to the ebach but i didnt end up happenening. so then my mom picked me up and now i'm here sitting here really curious...hehe wouldnt you like to know : )

whooo i a m f e e l i ng t h i s

i'm out later

-Peac-E

p.s. powerline 4 lyfe

:: 2003 14 October :: 5.35pm
:: Music: linkin park- numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I dont know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes

[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you

I've become so numb
I cant feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm beomcing this
all i want to do
is be more like me
and less like you

cant you see that your smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart in front of you

[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is
another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
and every second i waste
is more than i can take

but i know
I may end up falling too
but i know you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you

i need a change, i want a change, i need a life, something, i need to be my own person, and stop walking in others shadows.
<3mandyy

:: 2003 13 October :: 11.41pm
:: Mood: appreciated
:: Music: finch // post script

DEDICATED TO DANIELLE S<3
i was reading a friends journal..and was looking back at entries, and i came across this..
"mandy said la la and i could go over her house one day ths summer nad go fishing and catch puffer fish! how awesome would that be! i love mandy shes soo kool. l shes like a big giant explosion of fun and sweetness...all in one. :)"

I never actually thought she 'truly' liked me..now only i wish i got to know her better, and now that she doesnt go to our school, or the fact that i never see her, i'm never gonna get to talk to her. ugh! And I'm sorry we never got to go fishing, but hey, its not too late..is it?

I miss you Danielle<3<3<3

<3mandyy

theintervoice

:: 2003 13 October :: 11.03pm
:: Mood: can't describe
:: Music: POWERLINE- "Untitled"

in my hand is my discontent

the sounds of acoustic guitar helps me remeber of everything i used to know about everything i used value which used to bring me great joy...now brings me sorrow and hatred to myself...

i hope...i'll i can do is hope. thats it.

Today was my first day...the A-files are done, i burned them, in my head that is. like i feel finally free from her. see all i needed was a push in the oppisite direction, and when i did get that push, it saved my life from manic depression. whew. its like a burden has been lifted upon. i dont care anymore, about wat she does at night or who she hangs out with, all i can do is smile. it feels great. it feels great to start likeing someelse. it the start of a new era in which i wont make the same mistakes i did, i'm a better person now. and i'm aware of what my feeling represent. see with Miss. A i would have to pretend to be sumthing i'm not, i shud be who wanna be and not pretend its so useless and charleton. anyway, i just had to get that out cuz i rememeber all those damn journal entries i wrote about here, they only made me more depressed about who i was. ahhh :)

i'm out!
Peac-E

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:: 2003 13 October :: 11.06pm

another survey, stolen from miss danielle grundt.

People have you loved?: none
People have you kissed?: 3
Commandments have you broken?: umm, i dont know?
Places have you lived in (for over 3 months)?: one
Countries have you been to?: including the one i live in..three.
Languages can you speak fluently?: one, well two including gibberish :-D
People are you talking to right now?: two
Times have you been in a car today?: three times
Different kinds of meat have you eaten?: lots, i dont know how many
Different kinds of liquor have you tasted?: lots
Jobs you have held?: two
Years of school have you attended?: 12 or 11, lol.
Shows have you been to this month?: play wise? or concert wise? well together...like 3?
Friends would you call "close"?: umm, ill get back to you...i know atleast two..

How Many.... brought to you by BZOINK!

:: 2003 12 October :: 11.09pm
:: Mood: bored..once again.
:: Music: listening to the movie dreamcatcher

i need to find a life, one that will fulfil my requirements

Which type of beauty are you?
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To read this, if your on my site, just highlight it all, my links are weird so its not showing :-\

Name: mandyy
Nicknames: mandalanda, mandala, tcg
Age: 16
Birthday: april 6, 1987
Nationality: austrian, german, and irish...hehe im a german jew ;]
Current Height: 6'2''
Hair Color: brown or reddish brown?
Eye Color: brown
Family: yeah..i have one
Location: Boca Raton, FL
College: I wanna go to UCF, UCLA, or NYU.
Piercings: just two on one ear, three on the other
Red or Blue: depends what shade of blue
Spring or Fall: spring
Santa or Rudolph: santa
Math or English: math
What are you going to do after you finish this survey: bed time -)
What was the last food you ate: cheesburger
High School or College: high school but i cant wait for college
Last movie you saw: the ring
Last noise you heard: the tv..mom is watching dreamcatcher
Last time you went out of state: right before school started...new york
Things you like in a girl/guy: personality, they have to be funny, nice eyes..umm i dont know right now..
What book are you reading now: homecoming
Favorite board game: monopoly..and racko...and lots i love em all<3
Favorite magazine: cosmo girl..really.
Worst feeling in the world: lonliness and the feeling of being 'empty'
First thing you think of in the morning: 'him' and i can kinda feel what my day will be like, so i kinda think about
Future daughter's name: i dont know..come back to me
Future son's name: same answer as above
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: lots...but i like my blankey better [no joke]
Dream job: photographer or actress
Whats under your bed: everything that was on my floor..that needed to be put away :-D

Overview Survey brought to you by BZOINK!

theintervoice

:: 2003 12 October :: 10.52pm
:: Mood: geeky
:: Music: In this Diary- ATARIS

RE-Cap (doing all i can)
Fuck French, Fuck Manet, Fuck studying, Fuck memorizing, Fuck late night reading, Fuck staying in all day

RE-CAP of weekend

Friday, i went over alex's and we chilled and watched 8 mile until we left to FAU to see the ataris in concert w/ Vendetta Red. Yea. It was awsome, Me, Ricky and Alex pretty much moshed our way thru the crowds while Geori, Mozitis, and Spiggs watched. I started doing all this crazy shyt, break dancing and stuff lol. anyways after that we were suppose to sleep over georis but didnt, so instead alex ricky slept over here and we all went to the beach thus saturday comes

Saturday, of course we went to the ebach where i beat up Spiggs, and Geori and played sand fight with tha crew. the we walked arounds to seven and lazy daze. then me and mozitis tanned while the others stayed under the bridge like bums. we then left to drop off ricky then we dropped off "palmetto" at geori's and me and alex went to back to his hosue where he got his brotheres friend (who's a cop) to play a triack on me and say that i was speeding and that my moms car was stolen lol, then i went home cuz i had to work where i made $10 bucks but didnt get home 12, shiiit.

Sunday, i woke up at 9, then went to bed at 9:15, woke up at 9:45 and then went to bed at 10, then woke up at 10:30, then went to bed a 10:45, then finally i officially wake up at 11:00, I started my french project in which i should have started a weekd ago, i have to memorize a 4 min report on a dead man. i've been inside all frigging day, i havent not seen the yellow of the sun. :( anyway, i talked to alex, then ricky, then Pat, we mgiht have a long over-due practice this week and this week-end. so be prepared for that to come.

tonite some news got out. :)

anyways, i have to finish my thing for french b/c i need at least a f-king C for my mom.

so i'll c-ya later J

Peac-E

:: 2003 12 October :: 5.24pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: something coporate-if u see jordan

today was okay.. i went driving, then came to carlos' house for a last attempt at doing our economics stuff.. yeah. we got something done, but not much.
last night we went to fright nights 2... it was fun. freaky people tho.. almost pissed myself
i have a lot of homework and shiz to do.. story of my life.
sam thanks for the finch cd... theyre awesome <3
umm.. yeah thats it for now. byebye