:: 2004 4 October :: 9.22 pm

she is fed up with havin a boyfriend.

screw guys



they suck




balls~

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:: 2004 2 October :: 1.07 am

[{whispers a secret}] --- [{she is afaid of wangs}]
she eats all the cookies with the bitterness of regret on her tounge. she was such a bad girl tonight. was that even her she asks? the pictures dont lie. she is so torn. will guys ever care more about her than her body? is there more to life than sex? she was so happy for a lil. he imed her and ruined it. there is still hope. maybe.


she just wants someone to hold her in their arms.

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:: 2004 29 September :: 5.32 pm
:: Mood: mature

this is what i wrote last year this time
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Something is wrong with me. I cried a lot last night. All cuz of him. I feel so pathetic. Is it so wrong to still want him? Wat I need is for him to yell at me or something. If he called me a bitch to my face or made out infront of me, maybe I would be able to accept that he DOES NOT like me!!! Yesterday, I was walking past him and after I walked past he followed me, going to his third period class. Hes never done that before. He walked be hin dme. I thought he was behind me so I turned to see him and I gave him a confused look, like is he following me? And he said, heyhey. And I said hi and he smiled at me and said, you better say hi to me. I was confused and looked it and he jus laughed and smiled. I miss him~


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thoughts on it now

awww. i sound so cute. i do miss him still but not as bad as i did before. i wish i still did talk to my ex, but ya kno, you cant ask for everything. last year i kno he did care for me a lil afterwards. i mean why else would we like be friends with benifits for another year? wow, think abou it. we became friends with benifits until about a year after we broke up. so technically ive been with him for like two years. hmm. well its ok. im over and im glad i am over him.

another thing that has changed about me is the way i deal with things. last year, everything made me depressed. i was so depressed last year. this year i hang out with all these "townies". the nice ones that is. hmm well ya. later~

1 whisper | sweet words

:: 2004 28 September :: 8.59 pm
:: Mood: sad

wantign what you cant have is the worst thing ever
i jus want him.

is that so wrong?


i dont want to mess anythign up though...

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